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our entrance imitates the exit; would that one departed naked and free of punishment; would that he were poor in nature, and uncondemned in soul; would that he were a beggar and blameless, would that he were without means and without pain. But what is truly terrible, is that one departs leaving behind here what he has gathered, but carrying the sin from those things; and he is deprived of the profit, but he is not estranged from the condemnation because of them; but another succeeds to the enjoyment of his things, while he alone endures the punishment; and the one who did not acquire them, possesses and luxuriates, while the one who did acquire them, possessing nothing, is tormented, having gained only one thing: to pay the penalty for having been rich. Become sober from the sea 62.746 of life, O man, and willingly divide your wealth among the poor; do not leave it to enemies; forestall the mouths of those who gape for you; do not become prey for those who hunt for the substance of others.

Are you a father of children? Count your soul as their sister, set apart a portion of your substance for it also. Do you love your children? Become also a lover of God, through whom you acquired your love for children. But have you been afflicted with childlessness? do not fall for sons whom nature has not given you; by doing good to yourself, become your own heir; do not appear naked of alms before the Judge; flee the threatened pyre; prepare yourself for the common exit of our race; consider that last day of your life. When the passing angels suddenly appear to take your soul, what will you do, being dragged away by the thief, death? when you are about to lose heart from the danger that grips you, when you speak faintly, when you utter indistinctly, when you breathe feebly and rapidly, when a flame burns within, struggling against the soul, when no ally stands by as the terror presses, when a brother does not ransom, will a man ransom? when money flows away, when the soul is driven to that dreadful tribunal, when you will no longer be master of your own things, when you repent for what you have done, but repentance has no place left, when the door of repentance is closed, and the entrance of paradise is walled up, when you groan from the depth of your heart, but find no one to deliver you, will you not meet such difficulties in your own reasoning? By no means; but you will groan bitterly in your soul and say without a voice, "Woe, woe to me, wretched one that I am; I, miserable one, am pushed toward the exit, I am dragged by force to end my life, I am led captive from where there is no return." Then servants do not help, friends do not appear, flatterers have withdrawn, bodyguards do not stand by; a belt does not help me, gold contributes nothing to me, an army does not deliver me, money does not ransom me, the illustrious do not save me; in vain I built houses, I spent so much money at the wrong time, I amassed talents. For me, the things of glory fall away; no longer do I command, and servants stand by; I do not order, and an army surrounds me; I do not command, and all the cities carry out what was ordered. What shall I do, miserable one that I am? What shall I do with these unyielding things pressing upon me?

I will entreat, I will beseech again the death that drags me, even if it has no mind for mercy. I beg you, O death, generously grant me a little time of life. Do you not fear royal dignity? Have you not seen my chariot prepared before the gates? Respect nobility that beseeches you, be ashamed before grey hair that entreats you, spare weeping youth. I do not need a complete release, O death, but a small postponement. I have still left my house unfinished, I have not yet managed to divide the inheritance among the heirs as I ought. Forgetfulness has made me, until now, not be sober, being occupied with the cares of life; I have left my mind unconcerned with what is most vital. Suddenly you drag me to judgment; what words shall I use when I am brought in? What good deed shall I call as my helper? What right action will plead for me when I am judged? Having done what, shall I make my defense to the Judge? What shall I say, or what shall I utter, being compelled to bow my head down by the weight of my stumblings? Be patient with me a little, I beg. Where me unprepared

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ἡμῶν ἡ εἴσοδος μιμεῖται τὴν ἔξοδον· εἴθε γυμνός τις ἀπῄει καὶ τιμωρίας ἐλεύθερος· εἴθε πένης τὴν φύσιν, καὶ τὴν ψυχὴν ἀκατάκριτος· εἴθε πτωχὸς καὶ ἀνέγκλητος, εἴθε ἄπορος καὶ ἀνώδυνος. Ἀλλὰ καὶ τὸ πάνυ δεινὸν, ἐνταῦθα καταλιμπάνων τις ἃ συνήγαγε, τὴν ἐξ ἐκείνων ἁμαρτίαν βαστάζων ἀπέρχεται· καὶ τοῦ μὲν κέρδους ἐστέρηται, τῆς δὲ δι' αὐτὰ καταδίκης οὐκ ἠλλοτρίωται· ἀλλ' ἕτερος μὲν τῶν ἐκείνου διαδέχεται τὴν ἀπόλαυσιν, ἐκεῖνος δὲ μόνος τὴν κόλασιν ὑπομένει· καὶ ὁ μὴ κτησάμενος, ἔχων τρυφᾷ, ὁ κτησάμενος δὲ οὐδὲν ἔχων βασανίζεται, ἓν μόνον, τὸ δοῦναι δίκην ἀπὸ τοῦ πλουτῆσαι κερδάνας. Ἀνάνηψον τῆς βιω 62.746 τικῆς θαλάσσης, ὦ ἄνθρωπε, καὶ μέρισον τὸν πλοῦτον ἑκὼν πτωχοῖς· μὴ τοῦτον καταλείψῃς ἐχθροῖς· πρόλαβε τῶν εἰς σὲ κεχηνότων τὰ στόματα· μὴ γένῃ θήρα τῶν τὰς ἀλλοτρίας ἀνιχνευόντων οὐσίας.

Τέκνων ὑπάρχεις πατήρ; τούτων τὴν ψυχὴν ἀδελφὴν καταρίθμησον, μέρος καὶ αὐτῇ τῆς οὐσίας ἀφόρισον. Φιλόπαις εἶ; γενοῦ καὶ φιλόθεος, δι' οὗ τὸ φιλόπαις ἐκτήσω. Ἀλλ' ἀπαιδίαν ἐνόσησας; μὴ ἐμπέσῃς εἰς υἱοὺς οὓς ἡ φύσις οὐ δέδωκέ σοι· σαυτὸν εὖ ποιῶν κληρονόμησον· μὴ γυμνὸς ἐλεημοσύνης ὀφθῇς τῷ Κριτῇ· φεῦγε τὴν ἀπειλουμένην πυράν· πρὸς τὴν κοινὴν τοῦ γένους ἔξοδον εὐτρεπίσθητι· ἐκείνην σου τὴν τελευταίαν ἡμέραν τῆς ζωῆς περισκόπησον. Ὅταν σου τὴν ψυχὴν οἱ παριόντες ἄγγελοι ἀθρόον ἐφιστῶνται λαβεῖν, τί δράσεις ὑπὸ τοῦ κλέπτου θανάτου ἑλκόμενος; ὅταν μέλλῃς ἀθυμεῖν ἐκ τοῦ συνέχοντός σε κινδύνου, ὅταν ἀμυδρὸν, ὅταν ἄσημα φθέγγῃ ὅταν ἀδρανὲς καὶ πυκνὸν πνῇς, ὅταν ἔνδοθεν ἐπικέηται φλὸξ καταγωνιζομένη τῆς ψυχῆς, ὅτε σύμμαχος οὐδεὶς παρίσταται τοῦ δεινοῦ κατεπείγοντος, ὅτε ἀδελφὸς οὐ λυτροῦται, λυτρώσεται ἄνθρωπος; ὅτε χρήματα ἀποῤῥέει, ὅτε εἰς τὸ φρικτὸν ἐκεῖνο ἡ ψυχὴ συνελαύνεται δικαστήριον, ὅτε τῶν σαυτοῦ κύριος οὐκέτι γενήσῃ, ὅταν μεταμεληθῇς ἐφ' οἷς ἔπραξας, τῆς μεταμελείας χώραν οὐκ ἐχούσης λοιπὸν, ὅτε κλείεται τῆς μετανοίας ἡ θύρα, καὶ τοῦ παραδείσου ἡ εἴσοδος ἀποτειχίζεται, ὅταν στενάξῃς μὲν ἐκ καρδίας βάθους, τὸν δὲ ἐξαιρούμενον οὐχ εὑρήσῃς, ἆρα οὐ πρὸς τοιαύτας κατὰ σαυτὸν ἀπαντήσῃς τῷ λογισμῷ ἀπορίας; Οὐδαμῶς· ἀλλὰ πικρὸν στενάξεις κατὰ ψυχὴν καὶ ἐρεῖς ἄφωνος, Οἴμοι, οἴμοι ὁ τάλας ἐγώ· ὠθοῦμαι πρὸς ἔξοδον ὁ ταλαίπωρος, ἕλκομαι πρὸς βίαν καταλῦσαι τὸν βίον, ἄγομαι δέσμιος ὅθεν ὑποστρέφειν οὐκ ἔστι. Λοιπὸν οὐ βοηθοῦσιν οἰκέται, οὐ παραφαίνονται φίλοι, οἱ κόλακες ἀνεχώρησαν, οἱ δορυφόροι οὐ παρίστανται· οὐ συμπράττει μοι ζώνη, οὐ συμβάλλεταί μοι χρυσὸς, οὐκ ἐξαιρεῖταί με στρατὸς, οὐ λυτροῦταί με χρήματα, περιφανεῖς οὐ διασώζουσιν· οἴκους μάτην ᾠκοδόμουν, ἐδαπάνησα ἀκαίρως τοσαῦτα χρήματα, ἐσώρευσα τάλαντα. Ἐμοὶ τὰ τῆς δόξης ἐκπίπτει· οὐκέτι κελεύω, καὶ παρίστανται παῖδες· οὐ προστάττω, καὶ κυκλοῖ με στρατός· οὐκ ἐπιτάττω, καὶ πόλεις πᾶσαι τὸ κελευσθὲν ἐκπληροῦσι. Τί δράσω ὁ δείλαιος ἐγώ; τί πράξω τῶν ἀνενδότων ἐπικειμένων;

∆υσωπήσω, ἱκετεύσω πάλιν τὸν ἕλκοντα θάνατον, εἰ καὶ γνώμην ἐλέου οὐκ ἔχει. Ἐξαιτῶ σε, ὦ θάνατε, ὀλίγον μοι καιρὸν ζωῆς φιλοτίμησαι. Οὐ φοβῇ βασιλικὸν ἀξίωμα; οὐκ εἶδές μου πρὸ τῶν θυρῶν ηὐτρεπισμένον ὄχημα; αἰδέσθητι παρακαλοῦσαν εὐγένειαν, ἐντράπηθι πολιὰν δυσωποῦσαν, φεῖσαι δακρυούσης νεότητος. Οὐκ ἀφέσεως, ὦ θάνατε, ὁλοτελοῦς, ἀλλ' ὑπερθέσεως χρῄζω μικρᾶς. Ἔτι μου περιλέλοιπα τὸν οἶκον ἀτέλεστον, ἔτι μερίσαι κληρονόμοις ὡς ὤφειλον, τὸν κλῆρον οὐκ ἔφθασα. Λήθη με μέχρι τοῦ παρόντος μὴ νῆψαι πεποίηκε, βιωτικαῖς φροντίσιν ἀπασχολούμενον· τὸν νοῦν εἴασά μου τὸ καιριώτερον ἀπρονόητον. Ἄφνω πρὸς δίκην ἕλκεις με· ποίοις εἰσαγόμενος χρήσομαι ῥήμασι; ποίαν καλέσω συνεργὸν εὐπραξίαν; ποῖόν μοι συνηγορήσει κρινομένῳ κατόρθωμα; τί πράξας ἀπολογήσομαι τῷ Κριτῇ; τί εἴπω, ἢ τί φθέγξωμαι, κάτω νεύειν ὑπὸ τοῦ βάρους τῶν πταισμάτων ἀναγκαζόμενος; Μακροθύμησον ἐπ' ἐμοὶ μικρὸν, παρακαλῶ. Ποῦ με ἀνέτοιμον