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and, as you yourself, I both honor and fear and am at a loss, being altogether ashamed, as to where I should sit and whom I should approach and where I should rest your members, for what works, for what actions at all I should use these awesome and divine things. Grant me both to speak and to do the things that I say, O my creator and fashioner and God! For if what I speak I do not fulfill in deed, I have become a bronze clanging great things in vain and insensible to the sound of the blows; but do not leave me nor forsake me, nor allow me to wander, my Savior, both wretched, poor and a stranger, who owes you ten thousand talents, but just as before, so now from all my fatherland, from father, brothers, mother, my own people, strangers and all other relatives and friends you separated me, a sinner and more worthless than all of these, O Savior, and you received into your immaculate arms me who proved ungrateful for your good things. So now have mercy on me, O merciful One, so, or rather more greatly, O my God, and have compassion and protect me and calm the movements of my anger and make me able to bear with longsuffering (47) every trial and sorrow of life, as many as I cause myself with evil mind, as many as the envious nature of demons tempts, and as the weak ones among these my brothers cause me in deed and in word; alas, woe is me, for my own members consume me, and I am pained by these very things again. I am led by the feet, having been assigned to be the head, and I go barefoot and am pierced by thorns and I suffer greatly, unable to bear the pain; one of my feet goes forward and another turns backward again; from here and there they drag me, they pull me and I am tripped up and I fall down. Therefore I am not strong enough to follow them all; to lie down is bad and to journey thus is worse than lying down, as it is truly terrible, as it surpasses all other misfortunes. Lord, give me compunction and mourning, deem me worthy in the darkness of life, in this world, in the place of sorrow, to serve you and worship you well

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καί, ὡς σέ αὐτόν, καί τιμῶ καί φοβοῦμαι καί ἐξαπορῶ, ἐντρεπόμενος ὅλως, τό ποῦ καθίσω καί τίνι προσεγγίσω καί ποῦ τά μέλη τά σά προσανακλίνω, εἰς ποῖα ἔργα, εἰς ποίας ταῦτα πράξεις ὅλως χρήσωμαι τά φρικτά τε καί θεῖα. ∆ός μοι καί λαλεῖν καί πράττειν, ἅπερ λέγω, ὦ δημιουργέ καί πλαστά καί Θεέ μου! Εἰ γάρ, ἅ λαλῶ, οὐκ ἐκπληρῶ ἐξ ἔργου, γέγονα χαλκός ἠχῶν μάτην μεγάλα καί ἀναισθητῶν πρός τήν ἠχήν τῶν κτύπων˙ ἀλλά μή ἀφῇς μηδέ ἐγκαταλίπῃς, μηδέ πλανᾶσθαι ἐάσῃς με, Σωτήρ μου, καί ταλαίπωρον, τόν πτωχόν τε καί ξένον, τόν μυρία σοι τάλαντα χρεωστοῦντα, ἀλλ᾿ ὥσπερ πάλαι, καί νῦν πατρῴας πάσης, πατρός, ἀδελφῶν, μητρός, ἰδίων, ξένων καί ἄλλων πάντων συγγενῶν τε καί φίλων ἀπεχώρισας ἁμαρτωλόν με ὄντα καί πάντων τούτων εὐτελέστερον, Σῶτερ, καί προσελάβου σαῖς ἀχράντοις ἀγκάλαις τόν ἀγνώμονα φανέντα τοῖς καλοῖς σου. Οὕτω καί νῦν με ἐλέησον, οἰκτίρμον, οὕτω μᾶλλον δέ μειζόνως, ὦ Θεέ μου, καί σπλαχνίσθητι καί περιφύλαξόν με καί τοῦ θυμοῦ μου πράϋνον τάς κινήσεις καί ἱκάνωσον τοῦ μακροθύμως φέρειν (47) πάντα πειρασμόν καί λύπην τήν τοῦ βίου, ὅσα ἐμαυτῷ προξενῶ κακοφρόνως, ὅσα δαιμόνων πειράζει φθονερά φύσις καί οἱ ἀσθενεῖς τούτων τῶν ἀδελφῶν μου ἔργῳ μοι, λόγῳ προξενοῦσι˙ φεὐ, οἴμοι, ὅτι τά ἐμά μέλη με δαπανῶσι, καί ὀδυνῶμαι δι᾿ αὐτά ταῦτα πάλιν. Ἄγομαι ποσί κεφαλή λαχών εἶναι, καί γυμνοποδῶ καί ἀκάνθαις κεντοῦμαι καί σφόδρα ἀλγῶ τήν ὀδύνην μή φέρων˙ τοῖς ἔμπροσθεν εἷς τῶν ἐμῶν ποδῶν βαίνει καί εἰς τοὐπίσω στρέφεται πάλιν ἄλλος˙ ἔνθεν κἀκεῖθεν σύρουσιν, ἕλκουσί με καί περισκελίζομαι καί πίπτω κάτω. Ἀκολουθεῖν οὖν οὐκ ἰσχύω τοῖς πᾶσι˙ τό κεῖσθαι κακόν καί τό ὁδεύειν οὕτως χεῖρον πέλει τοῦ κεῖσθαι, ὡς δεινόν ὄντως, ὡς πάσας ἄλλας συμφοράς ὑπερβαῖνον. Κύριε, δός μοι κατάνυξιν καί πένθος ἀξίωσον ἐν τῷ σκότει τοῦ βίου, ἐν τῷ κόσμῳ τούτῳ τε, τῷ τῆς λύπης χωρίῳ ἐκδουλεῦσαί σοι καί καλῶς θεραπεῦσαι