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and were you not afraid to hold and eat what is undefiled? Did you not shudder at all, did you not tremble? Why did you spend the things of the poor on your pleasures and on your own family and relatives? Why did you sell me for gold and silver, like Judas? Why, having purchased me as a useless slave, did you abuse me to serve the desires of the flesh? Therefore, as you did not care for me, neither will I spare you. Depart from me, you workers of iniquity, depart! ".

Thus, therefore, fathers by fathers, friends and relatives by friends and relatives, brothers by brothers, slaves and free by slaves and free, rich and poor by the rich and poor, the married by those who excelled in marriage, those in freedom by those who lived in freedom, and simply every sinful man on the fearful day of judgment will see his like opposite him (111) in eternal life and in that ineffable light, and will be judged by him. What am I saying? When each of the sinners looks upon his like, a king upon a king, a ruler upon a ruler, and an unrepentant fornicator upon a repentant fornicator, a poor man upon a poor man, and a slave upon a slave, and recalls that he too was a man, having the same soul, the same hands, the same eyes and simply all other things equally, and was with him in life and had a similar rank, skill, and occupation, but did not wish to imitate him, immediately his mouth is stopped and he remains without defense, having nothing at all to say.When, therefore, the worldly see the worldly, and sinful kings see holy kings on the right hand, and the rich and those under the yoke of life see the saints, and all who are in torments see their equals in the kingdom of heaven, and at that time are ashamed and found without defense, just as that rich man saw Lazarus in the bosom of Abraham, while he was being fried in the fire.

What then shall we do, we monks, those like me, I say, slothful and sinful, what shame and torment will seize us, when we see those in the world, who have wives and female and male servants, dancing together with one accord with wives and children in the kingdom of heaven? when we see those who pleased God in high positions and wealth, when we simply see from all those in the world people who have achieved every virtue and lived in repentance and tears for the fear of the Lord, and standing in the joy and brightness of the righteous? (112) For when we consider that we left fathers and mothers and brothers and sisters and the whole world in order to save our souls, and some of us also wives and children, and others along with these also wealth and dignities and whatever other pleasant things life holds, and having withdrawn we became poor and having been tonsured we became monks for the sake of the kingdom of heaven, but because of a little sloth and wickedness and because of our evil desires we have ranked ourselves with the worldly and fornicators and adulterers and those who lived wantonly according to the world, what fear and trembling and shame will cover us then! Believe me when I say, brothers, that our embarrassment will be a worse torment than the eternal punishment of the worldly. For when I, who have renounced with all my soul, am about to stand with the worldly—for instance, those who now have children, and are involved in public affairs or serving in the army—and am about to receive the same punishment as they, and they, turning and seeing me, say to me: "You too, monk, who left the world, are standing here with us, the worldly? And you, why?" what then shall I say in my defense, what shall I say to them? For who, brothers, will be able to relate fittingly in words the magnitude of the affliction that is then to come upon me? Surely no one! For what shall we say or what defense shall we be able to make at all? that we left the world and the things in the world? but these things not

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καί ἀμόλυντον κρατεῖν καί ἐσθίειν οὐκ ἐφοβήθητε; Οὐκ ἐφρίξατε ὅλως, οὐκ ἐτρομάξατε; ∆ιά τί τά τῶν πενήτων εἰς τάς ὑμετέρας ἡδονάς καί εἰς τούς ἰδίους καί συγγενεῖς ὑμῶν ἀναλώσατε; ∆ιά τί με χρυσίῳ καί ἀργυρίῳ, ὡς ὁ Ἰούδας, ἀπεμπολήσατε; ∆ιά τί με καί ὡς δοῦλον ἀχρεῖον ἐξαγοράσαντες, εἰς τά τῆς σαρκός με θελήματα διακονεῖν ἀπεχρήσασθε; Ὡς οὖν ὑμεῖς με οὐκ ἐπιμήσατε, οὐδέ ἐγώ φείσομαι ὑμῶν. Ἀπέλθατε ἀπ᾿ ἐμοῦ οἱ ἐργάται τῆς ἀνομίας, ἀπέλθατε! ".

Οὕτω τοίνυν πατέρες παρά πατέρων, φίλοι καί συγγενεῖς παρά φίλων καί συγγενῶν, ἀδελφοί παρά ἀδελφῶν, δοῦλοι καί ἐλεύθεροι παρά δούλων καί ἐλευθέρων, πλούσιοι καί πένητες ὑπό πλουσίων καί πενήτων, οἱ ἐν γάμῳ παρά τῶν ἐν γάμῳ διαπρεψάντων, οἱ ἐν ἐλευθερίᾳ παρά τῶν ἐν ἐλευθερίᾳ βιωσάντων, καί ἁπλῶς πᾶς ἄνθρωπος ἁμαρτωλός ἐν τῇ φοβερᾷ ἡμέρᾳ τῆς κρίσεως ἀπεναντίας αὐτοῦ εἰς τήν (111) εἰς τήν αἰωνίαν ζωήν καί εἰς τό ἀνεκλάλητον ἐκεῖνο φῶς ὄψεται τόν ὅμοιον αὐτοῦ καί κριθήσεται παρ᾿ αὐτοῦ. Οἷόν τι λέγω; Ἀπιδών ἕκαστος τῶν ἁμαρτωλῶν πρός τόν ὅμοιον αὐτοῦ, βασιλεύς πρός βασιλέα, ἄρχων πρός ἄρχοντα καί πόρνος μή μετανοήσας πρός πόρνον μετανοήσαντα, φτωχός πρός φτωχόν καί δοῦλος πρός δοῦλον, καί μνησθείς ὅτι καί αὐτός ἐκεῖνος ἄνθρωπος ἦν, τήν αὐτήν ψυχήν ἔχων, τάς αὐτάς χεῖρας, τούς αὐτούς ὀφθαλμούς καί ἁπλῶς τἆλλα πάντα ἐξ ἴσης καί συνῆν αὐτῷ ἐν τῷ βίῳ καί ὅμοιον εἶχε τό ἀξίωμα, τήν τέχνην, τό ἐπιτήδευμα, μιμήσασθαι δέ αὐτόν οὐκ ἠθέλησεν, εὐθύς ἐμφράσσεται τό στόμα αὐτοῦ καί μένει ἀναπολόγητος, μή ἔχων ὅλως τι φθέγξασθαι.Ὅταν οὖν οἱ κοσμικοί κοσμικούς ἴδωσι καί οἱ ἁμαρτωλοί βασιλεῖς βασιλεῖς ἁγίους ἐκ δεξιῶν, πλουσίους τε καί ὑπό ζυγόν ἁγίους οἱ ὑπό ζυγόν βίου, καί οἱ ἐν βασάνοις πάντες ὁμοίους αὐτῶν ἐν τῇ βασιλείᾳ τῶν οὐρανῶν, καί τηνικαῦτα αἰσχυνθῶσι καί ἀναπολόγητοι εὑρεθῶσιν, ὥσπερ ὁ πλούσιος ἐκεῖνος ἐν τοῖς κόλποις τοῦ Ἀβραάμ τόν Λάζαρον, ἐκεῖνος ἀποτηγανιζόμενος ἐν τῷ πυρί.

Τί ποιήσωμεν ἡμεῖς ἄρα οἱ μοναχοί, οἱ κατ᾿ ἐμέ, λέγω, ῥάθυμοι καί ἁμαρτωλοί, ποία ἄρα αἰσχύνη ἡμᾶς καί βάσανος λήψεται, ὅταν τούς ἐν βίῳ καί γυναῖκας καί οἰκέτιδας ἔχοντας καί οἰκέτας, μετά γυναικῶν ὁμοῦ καί τέκνων θεασώμεθα ἐν τῇ βασιλείᾳ τῶν οὐρανῶν ὁμοθυμαδόν συγχορεύοντας; ὅταν τούς ἐν ἀξιώμασι καί πλούτῳ εὐαρεστήσαντας, ὅταν ἁπλῶς ἐκ πάντων ἴδωμεν τῶν ἐν τῷ βίῳ πᾶσαν κατορθωκότων ἀρετήν καί ἐν μετανοίᾳ καί δάκρυσι πολιτευσαμένων διά τόν φόβον τοῦ Κυρίου καί ἱσταμένους ἐν τῇ χαρᾷ καί φαιδρότητι τῶν δικαίων; (112) ὅταν γάρ ἐννοήσωμεν ὅτι πατέρας καί μητέρας καί ἀδελφούς καί ἀδελφάς καί κόσμον ὅλον διά τό σῶσαι ἡμῶν τάς ψυχάς κατελείψαμεν, οἱ δέ καί γυναῖκας καί τέκνα, ἄλλοι σύν τούτοις καί πλοῦτον καί ἀξιώματα καί ἄλλα ὅσα ὁ βίος ἔχει τερπνά, καί ἀναχωρήσαντες ἐπτωχεύσαμεν καί ἀποκειράμενοι γεγόναμεν μοναχοί διά τήν βασιλείαν τῶν οὐρανῶν, διά δέ μικράν ῥᾳθυμίαν καί πονηρίαν καί διά τάς πονηράς ἡμῶν ἐπιθυμίας κατετάξαμεν ἡμᾶς ἑαυτούς μετά κοσμικῶν καί πόρνων καί μοιχῶν καί βιωσάντων ἀσώτως κατά τόν κόσμον, ὁποῖος τότε φόβος καί τρόμος καί αἰσχύνη καλύψει ἡμᾶς! Πιστεύσατέ μοι λέγοντι, ἀδελφοί, ὅτι χείρων βάσανος ἡ ἐντροπή ἡμῶν ἔσται ὑπέρ τήν τῶν κοσμικῶν αἰωνίαν κόλασιν. Ὅταν γάρ ἐμέ τόν ἀποταξάμενον πάσῃ ψυχῇ, μετά κοσμικῶν, φέρε εἰπεῖν, νῦν τέκνα ἐχόντων, καί δημοσίοις πράγμασιν ἐμπεπλεγμένων ἤ καί στρατιᾷ ἐκδουλευόντων, ἵστασθαι καί τήν ἴσην ἐκείνοις κόλασιν λήψεσθαι μέλλοντα, στραφέντες οὗτοι καί ἰδόντες με, εἴπωσι πρός με· "Καί σύ, μοναχέ, ὁ τόν κόσμον ἀφείς, ὧδε μεθ᾿ ἡμῶν τῶν κοσμικῶν ἵστασαι; Κἄν σύ διά τί;"τί ἄρα ἀπολογήσομαι, τί ἐρῶ πρός αὐτούς; Τίς γάρ, ἀδελφοί, τό μέγεθος τῆς τότε μελλούσης μοι γενέσθαι θλίψεως δυνήσεται ἀξίως, διά λόγου ἐκδιηγήσασθαι; Πάντως οὐδείς! Τί γάρ καί ἐροῦμεν ἤ τί ὅλως δυνηθῶμεν ἀπολογήσασθαι; ὅτι τόν κόσμον καί τά ἐν κόσμῳ κατελίπομεν; ἀλλά ταῦτα οὐκ