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wrath against themselves. For even if they seem to soothe the fever with incantations, they do not in fact soothe it, but bring another, more grievous fever into the conscience, with your reason pricking you each day, with your conscience scourging you and saying: You have committed impiety, you have acted lawlessly, you have transgressed your covenants with Christ, for a small sickness you have betrayed your piety. For have you alone suffered these things? Have not others suffered things much more grievous than you? But yet none of them dared any such thing; but you, being lax and dissolute, have sacrificed your soul. How will you defend yourself before Christ? how will you call upon him in your prayers? with what conscience, then, will you set foot in the church? with what eyes, then, will you look upon the priest? with what hand will you touch the holy table? with what ears will you hear the Scriptures read there? These things, each day, your reason pricking, and your conscience scourging, will say. What sort of health is this, then, when we have such accusers within? If, however, you endure for a little while, and you dishonor those wishing either 48.938 to chant some incantation, or to attach some amulet to the body, and you drive them out of the house with great insult, immediately you have received dew from your conscience. And even if the fever burns ten thousand times, your soul brings you a better and more beneficial consolation than any dew and any moisture. For just as after accepting the incantation, even if you are healthy, you are in a more wretched state than those with a fever, considering the sin; so also now, even if you have a fever, even if you suffer ten thousand terrible things, having rejected those abominable people, you will be in a better state than any healthy person, with your reason exulting, your soul rejoicing and being gladdened, your conscience praising you, and approving, and saying: Well done, well done, O man, servant of Christ, faithful man, athlete of piety, who chooses rather to die in terrible sufferings than to betray the piety entrusted to you, you will stand with the martyrs on that day. For just as they chose to be scourged and tortured, that they might be honored, so you also today have chosen to be scourged and tortured by the fever and the wounds, so as not to accept impious incantations or amulets, and being nourished by these hopes, you will not even feel the opposing terrors. For even if this fever does not carry you off, another certainly will, and even if we do not die now, we will die hereafter. We have been allotted a perishable body, not that we might draw impiety upon ourselves through its sufferings, but that we might use its sufferings for piety. For this perishability, and the very mortality of the body, if we are sober, will become for us a basis of good repute, and will give us much boldness on that day, and not on that day only, but also in the present life. For when you cast the chanters out of the house with great insult, all who hear will praise and marvel, and will say to one another: So-and-so, being sick and weary, though countless people urged and advised and counseled him to use certain magical incantations, did not accept, but said: It is better to die this way than to betray my piety. At these words much applause will follow from those who hear, all being astonished, glorifying God. Of how many statues, then, will this be more precious to you, of how many images more brilliant, of how much honor more distinguished? All will praise and bless and crown you, and they themselves will become better, and will emulate again and imitate your manliness, and if another does some such thing, you will have the reward, you who provided the beginning for their zeal. And there will not only be praises for your right actions, but also a most swift release from the sickness, as your noble purpose itself draws God to greater goodwill, and as all the saints rejoice with your eagerness, and from the depth of their heart make prayers on your behalf. But if here such are the prizes for this manliness, consider how great you will receive there

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