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(128) I enjoy the joy ineffable and divine, I luxuriate in her beauty, often I embrace her, I kiss and I adore, I have great gratitude to those who procured for me to see her whom I longed for, and to partake of the unutterable light and become light and to share in His gift from henceforth and to possess the giver of all good things and to become unfailing in spiritual gifts. Who, having drawn me, has led me to these good things, who has brought me up from the depth of worldly deceit? Who separated me from father and brothers and friends, and relatives and pleasures and the joy of the world? Who showed me the way of repentance and mourning, from where I have found the day that has no end? He was an angel, not a man; yet a man he is, by whom the world is mocked and the dragon is trodden upon, and the demons tremble at his presence. How can I tell you, brother, the wonders and prodigies I saw in Egypt done by him? For now I shall tell you this one thing, for I cannot tell all. For he came down and found me a slave and a sojourner and said: Come, my child, I will lead you to God! But I said to him out of much disbelief: And what sign will you show me, that you may assure me, that you yourself are able to deliver me from Egypt and snatch me from the hands of the deceitful Pharaoh, lest by following you I should be in greater danger? Light a great fire, he said, and that I may enter its midst, and if I do not remain unburnt, do not follow me! The word astounded me; I did what was commanded. (129) and the flame blazed up, and he stood in the midst, unharmed and uninjured and was calling to me. I am afraid, I said, Master, for I am a sinner! He came out, came to me and embraced me: Why were you afraid, he said to me, why do you cower and tremble? Great and awesome is the wonder, you will see greater things than this. I was astounded, I said, Lord, I do not dare to approach you nor do I wish to appear bolder than the fire; for I see you are a man beyond man and I do not dare to look at you, whom the fire revered. He brought me nearer, he embraced me and again he kissed me with a holy kiss

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(128) ἐπαπολαύω τῆς χαρᾶς τῆς ἀρρήτου καί θείας, κάλλους αὐτῆς κατατρυφῶ, συχνῶς ἀσπάζομαι ταύτην, καταφιλῶ καί προσκυνῶ, χάριν ἔχω μεγάλην τοῖς ἐμέ προξενήσασιν ἰδεῖν, ἥνπερ ἐπόθουν, καί τοῦ ἀφράστου μετασχεῖν φωτός καί φῶς γενέσθαι καί κοινωνῆσαι τῆς αὐτοῦ δωρεᾶς ἀπ᾿ ἐντεῦθεν καί κτήσασθαι τόν χορηγόν τῶν ἀγαθῶν ἁπάντων καί γενέσθαι ἀνελλιπής ψυχικῶν χαρισμάτων. Τίς με πρός ταῦτα τά καλά ὡδήγησεν ἑλκύσας, τίς ἐκ βυθοῦ ἀνήγαγε κοσμικῆς με ἀπάτης; Τίς ἀπεχώρισε πατρός καί ἀδελφῶν καί φίλων, συγγενῶν τε καί ἡδονῶν καί τῆς χαρᾶς τοῦ κόσμου; Τίς μοι ὑπέδειξεν ὁδόν μετανοίας καί πένθους, ὅθεν ἡμέραν εὕρηκα, τήν μή ἔχουσαν τέλος; Ἄγγελος ἦν, οὐκ ἄνθρωπος˙ ἄνθρωπος δ᾿ ὅμως πέλει παρ᾿ οὗ κόσμος ἐμπαίζεται καί ὁ δράκων πατεῖται, καί τρέμουσιν οἱ δαίμονες τούτου τήν παρουσίαν. Πῶς σοι ἐξείπω, ἀδελφέ, ἅ εἶδον ἐν Αἰγύπτῳ θαυμάσια καί τέρατα παρ᾿ αὐτοῦ γεγονότα; Ἕν τέως τοῦτο λέξω σοι, οὐ γάρ δύναμαι πάντα. Κατῆλθε γάρ καί εὗρέ με δοῦλον καί παροικοῦντα καί εἶπε˙ ∆εῦρο, τέκνον μου, πρός Θεόν σε ἀπάξω! Ἐγώ δέ εἶπον πρός αὐτόν ἐκ πολλῆς ἀπιστίας˙ Καί τί σημεῖον δείξεις μοι, ἵνα με βεβαιώσῃς, ὅτι αὐτός με δύνασαι ῥύσασθαι ἐξ Αἰγύπτου καί ἀφαρπάσαι τῶν χειρῶν Φαραώ τοῦ δολίου, μήπως ἀκολουθήσας σοι μειζόνως κινδυνεύσω; Πῦρ, ἔφη, μέγα ἄναψον καί ἵν᾿ εἰσέλθω μέσον, καί ἄν μή μείνω ἄφλεκτος, μή μοι ἀκολουθήσῃς! Ὁ λόγος με ἐξέπληξε, τό κελευσθέν ἐποίουν. (129) καί ἡ φλόξ διανήπτετο, καί αὐτός ἔστη μέσος, ἀσινής καί ἀλώβητος κἀμέ προσεκαλεῖτο. Φοβοῦμαι, ἔφην, ∆έσποτα, ἁμαρτωλός τυγχάνω! Ἐξῆλθεν, ἦλθε πρός ἐμέ καί κατησπάσατό με˙ Τί ἐφοβήθης, εἶπέ μοι, τί δειλιᾷς καί τρέμεις; Μέγα τό θαῦμα καί φρικτόν, μείζονα τούτου ὄψει. Ἐξέστην, εἶπον, Κύριε, ἐγγίζειν οὐ τολμῶ σοι οὐδέ φανῆναι τοῦ πυρός τολμηρότερος θέλω˙ καί γάρ ὁρῶ σε ἄνθρωπον ὑπέρ ἄνθρωπον ὄντα καί οὐδέ βλέπειν σε τολμῶ, ὅν τό πῦρ ἐσεβάσθη. Ἐγγύτερόν με ἤγαγεν, ἐνηγκαλίσατό με καί πάλιν κατεφίλησε φιλήματι ἁγίῳ