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But I, lying down, was laughing and was arming myself with prayer and with the sign of the cross I was repelling them all, and not daring to touch or come near me, standing somewhere far off, they seemed to frighten me, holding fire in their hands they threatened to burn me; and they were shouting loudly and making noises and, so that they might not boast as if doing something great, (131) they saw me become a light through the intercessions of my father and suddenly they withdrew together, put to shame. Moses came forth from God, he found me courageous, overjoyed and trembling from the wonder-working. He asked what had happened, I told him everything, and that: Pharaoh was here, the king of Egypt, having just now arrived with an innumerable people and he was not strong enough to bind me, but he wanted to burn me and all who came with him became a flame, and they were sending forth fire against me from their mouths. And that: Seeing me become a light by your prayers, they all became darkness and now I am alone. "Look," Moses answered me, "and do not be confident, nor look at the things that are manifest, but rather fear the hidden things! Come, let us take to flight! Thus God commands, and Christ will fight for us against the Egyptians." "Let us go," I said, "Lord, I will not be separated from you, I will not transgress your commandment, but I will keep them all; amen."

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Instruction with theology, in which also concerning the priesthood together with passionless contemplation. (132)

How can I declare Your wonders and marvels, O Master, how can I narrate in word the depths of Your judgments, which You accomplish each day in us, Your servants? How do You overlook the infinite multitudes of my failings and do not reckon, O Master, my evil deeds, but You have mercy and protect me and enlighten me and nourish me as if I were fulfilling all Your commandments, my Savior? And not only do You have mercy on me, but You also deem me worthy of more than this: to stand before You

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ἐγώ δ᾿ ἐγέλων κείμενος καί εὐχῇ ὡπλιζόμην καί τῷ σημείῳ τοῦ σταυροῦ πάντας ἀπεκρουόμην, καί μή τολμῶντες ἅψασθαι ἤ ἐγγύς μου γενέσθαι πόρρωθέν που ἱστάμενοι ἐδόκουν ἐκφοβεῖν με, πῦρ ταῖς χερσί κατέχοντες καῦσαί με προσηπείλουν˙ μεγάλα τε ἐκραύγαζον καί κτύπους ἀπετέλουν καί, ἵνα μή καυχήσωνται ὡς μέγα τι ποιοῦντες, (131) εἶδόν με φῶς γενόμενον πρεσβείαις τοῦ πατρός μου καί ἄφνω ὑπεχώρησαν ὁμοῦ κατῃσχυμμένοι. Ἐξῆλθεν ἐκ Θεοῦ Μωσῆς, εὗρέ με θαρσαλέον, περιχαρῆ καί σύντρομον ἐκ τῆς θαυματουργίας. Ἠρώτησε τί τό συμβάν, τό πᾶν αὐτῷ ἐξεῖπον, καί ὅτι˙ Φαραώ ἦν, βασιλεύς τῆς Αἰγύπτου, παραγενόμενον νυνί μετά λαοῦ ἀπείρου καί δῆσαί με οὐκ ἴσχυσεν, ἤθελε δέ με καῦσαι καί πάντες φλόξ ἐγένοντο, οἱ μετ᾿ αὐτοῦ ἐλθόντες, καί κατ᾿ ἐμοῦ ἐξέπεμπον πῦρ ἐκ τοῦ στόματος αὐτῶν. Καί ὅτι˙Φῶς ἰδόντες με γεγονότα εὐχαῖς σου σκότος πάντες γεγόνασι καί μόνος εἰμί ἄρτι. Βλέπε, ἀντεπεκρίθη μοι Μωσῆς, καί μή θαρρήσῃς, μηδέ τά φανερά βλέπῃς, τά κρυφῇ φοβοῦ μᾶλλον! ∆εῦρο, φυγῇ χρησώμεθα! Οὕτω Θεός κελεύει, καί πολεμήσει ὁ Χριστός ἀνθ᾿ ἡμῶν Αἰγυπτίοις. Ἄγωμεν, ἔφην, Κύριε, οὐ χωρισθήσομαί σου, οὐ παραβῶ σου ἐντολήν, ἀλλά πάσας φυλαξω˙ ἀμήν.

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∆ιδασκαλία σύν θεολογίᾳ, ἐν ᾗ καί περί ἱερωσύνης ἅμα καί ἀπαθοῦς θεωρίας. (132)

Πῶς σου ἐξείπω, ∆έσποτα, τά θαυμαστά καί ξένα, πῶς λόγῳ διηγήσομαι σῶν κριμάτων τά βάθη, ἅ καθ᾿ ἑκάστην ἐκτελεῖς ἐν ἡμῖν, τοῖς σοῖς δούλοις; Πῶς παραβλέπεις ἄπειρα τῶν σφαλμάτων μου πλήθη καί οὐ λογίζῃ, ∆έσποτα, τάς τῶν κακῶν μου πράξεις, ἀλλ᾿ ἐλεεῖς καί σκέπεις με καί φωτίζεις καί τρέφεις ὡς ἐκπληροῦντα πάσας σου τάς ἐντολάς, Σωτήρ μου; Οὐ μόνον δέ με ἐλεεῖς, ἀλλά καί πλέον τούτου καταξιοῖς ἐνώπιον τῆς σῆς παράστασθαί με