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having driven away whatever was misty in my soul and every earthly thought, that which drove away from me all dense matter and weight of body that produced despondency and torpor in my limbs. For so it strengthened, O dreadful wonder, and invigorated the looseness of my joints and nerves, which had come upon me then from much labor, that it seemed and appeared to me that I had put off the garment of corruption. And not only this, but it also straightway instilled inexpressibly into my soul great joy and intelligible perception and sweetness beyond any taste of visible things, and further, freedom and forgetfulness of all the thoughts of this life, and it paradoxically granted and made known to me the very manner of the departure from this present life. For all the senses of my mind and soul were joined to the ineffable gladness of that light (235) alone.

But when that measureless light that appeared to me—he says—for I do not have any other proper and suitable name to call it, had somehow gently subsided and, as it were, drawn back, I came to my senses and, having understood what its power had suddenly wrought in me, and having realized its separation and considering how it had left me alone again in this life, I was possessed by such grief and heavy pain, that I am at a loss to express worthily the magnitude of the varied and most vehement pain that was kindled like a fire in my heart. Therefore, then—he said—represent, if you can, father, the pain of the separation and the immeasurable love and the fullness of the longing and the height of the greatest benefaction. For I can neither speak with my mouth nor comprehend with my mind the infinity of the vision".

"But tell me," I said, "O most venerable father and brother, the energies of what was seen by you more plainly and more clearly." And that sweet man, full of the divine Spirit and deemed worthy of contemplation, quickly answered with a most gentle and honey-flowing voice: "It gladdens when it appears, father, and it wounds when it is hidden. And it comes near me and it carries me up to the heavens. It is a pearl. And the light clothes me and appears to me as a star and is uncontainable for all. It shines like the sun and I perceive creation held together in it; it shows me all things in it and commands me to keep its proper measures. I am contained by a roof and walls, and it opens the heavens to me. I lift my eyes (236) sensibly to behold the things there and I see all things as they were before. I marvel at what has happened and I hear a voice mystically saying to me from above: ‘These are riddles and preludes, for you will not see the perfect thing as long as you are clothed in the flesh. But return to yourself and see that you do not do anything of those things which deprive you of what is here. And if you should even slip, for a reminder of humility, do not turn away from being mindful of repentance. For this, being united to my love for mankind, makes disappear both the stumblings that have happened and those that are happening.’"

Having heard these things from him, therefore, fathers and brothers, I was almost beside myself and became all trembling, having understood at once to what height of contemplation and knowledge he had straightway ascended from only his love and faith toward his spiritual father, and of what good things he was deemed worthy to see and enjoy from the very beginning, as if he were already casting off human weakness and had become an angel from among men.

For this reason, therefore, I beseech you, brothers in Christ, let us cast far from ourselves every attachment and every care of this present life, let us hate the pleasures of the flesh, the well-being of the body, relaxation and idleness, through which the worse prevails over the better; come, let us take up sincere faith toward God and our fathers and teachers according to God, let us acquire a contrite heart, a humbled spirit of the soul, and a heart pure from every stain and filth of sin through tears and repentance, (237) so that also

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ἀποδιῶξαν ὅσον ἀχλυῶδες ὑπῆρχεν ἐν τῇ ψυχῇ μου καί ἅπαν γήϊνον φρόνημα, τό ἀπελάσαν ἀπ᾿ ἐμοῦ ὕλην ὅση παχεῖα καί βάρος σώματος τό ἀκηδίαν καί νάρκωσιν ἐμποιῆσαν τοῖς ἐμοῖς μέλεσιν. Οὕτω γάρ ἐτόνωσεν, ὤ θαύματος φρικτοῦ, καί ἐνίσχυσε τήν ἔκλυσιν τῶν ἄρθρων καί νεύρων, τήν ἐκ τοῦ πολλοῦ κόπου μοι τηνικαῦτα προσγενομένην, ὡς δόξαι καί φανῆναί μοι φθορᾶς ἱμάτιον ἀποδύσασθαι. Οὐ μόνον δέ, ἀλλά καί χαράν εὐθέως πολλήν νοεράν τε αἴσθησιν καί γλυκύτητα ὑπέρ πᾶσαν γεῦσιν τῶν ὁρωμένων ἐν τῇ ψυχῇ μου ἀφράστως ἐνέσταξεν, ἔτι δέ, ἐλευθερίαν καί λήθην πάντων λογισμῶν τῶν ἐν τῷ βίῳ, καί αὐτόν τόν τῆς ἐκδημίας τρόπον τῆς παρούσης ζωῆς παραδόξως ἐχαρίσατό μοι καί ἐγνώρισε. Πρός γάρ μόνην τήν ἐκείνου τοῦ φωτός (235) ἄρρητον εὐφροσύνην πᾶσαι καί τοῦ νοός καί τῆς ψυχῆς αἱ αἰσθήσεις μου ἐκολλήθησαν.

Ἀλλά γάρ τοῦ φανέντος μοι - φησίνἐκείνου ἀπλέτου φωτόςοὐδέ γάρ ἔχω τι ἕτερον τοῦτο καλέσαι οἰκεῖον καί κατάλληλον ὄνομα , ἠρέμα πως ὑπολωφήσαντος καί οἱονεί συσταλέντος, ἐν συναισθήσει ἐγενόμην καί γνούς οἷα ἡ τούτου δύναμις ἀθρόον εἰργάσατο ἐν ἐμοί καί ἐννοήσας τόν αὐτοῦ χωρισμόν καί ὡς πάλιν ἐν τῷ βίῳ μόνον με κατέλιπεν ἀναλογισάμενος, λύπῃ κάτοχος γέγονα καί ὀδύνῃ βαρείᾳ τοσαύτῃ, ὡς ἐκφράσαι ἀξίως ἀπορῶ τό μέγεθος τῆς δίκην πυρός ἀναφθείσης ἐν τῇ καρδίᾳ μου ποικίλης καί σφοδροτάτης ὀδύνης. Λοιπόν οὖν παράστησον ἔλεγεν - εἰ δύνασαι σύ, πάτερ, τόν τε πόνον τοῦ χωρισμοῦ καί τῆς ἀγάπης τό ἄμετρον καί τό πλῆθος τοῦ ἔρωτος καί τῆς μεγίστης εὐεργεσίας τό ὕψος. Ἐγώ γάρ οὔτε λέγειν διά στόματος δύναμαι οὔτε νῷ καταλαβεῖν τό ἀπέραντον τῆς ὁράσεως".

"Ἀλλ᾿ εἰπέ μοι σύ, ὦ σεβασμιώτατε πάτερ καί ἀδελφέ, ἔφην ἐγώ, τάς τοῦ ὁραθέντος σοι ἐνεργείας τρανότερον καί σαφέστερον". Ὁ δέ γλυκύς ἐκεῖνος καί πλήρης Πνεύματος θείου καί θεωρίας ἠξιωμένος προσηνεστάτῃ καί μελιρρύτῳ φωνῇ τάχιστα ἀπεκρίνατο· "Εὐφραίνει, πάτερ, φαινόμενον καί τιτρώσκει κρυπτόμενον. Καί πλησίον μου γίνεται καί εἰς οὐρανούς ἀναφέρει με. Μαργαρίτης ἐστί. Καί τό φῶς ἐπενδύει με καί ὡς ἄστρον μοι φαίνεται καί ὑπάρχει τοῖς πᾶσιν ἀχώρητον. Ἀπαστράπτει ὡς ἥλιος καί τήν κτίσιν συνεχομένην κατανοῶ ἐν αὐτῷ, τά ἐν αὐτῇ πάντα δεικνύει μοι καί φυλάσσειν προστάττει μοι τά μέτρα τά ἴδια. Συνέχομαι ὑπό στέγης καί τοίχων καί τούς οὐρανούς διανοίγει μοι. Τούς ὀφθαλμούς μου αἴρω (236) αἰσθητῶς τά ἐκεῖσε θεάσασθαι καί πάντα βλέπω καθώς ὑπῆρχον τό πρότερον. Θαυμάζω τό γεγονός καί ἀκούω φωνῆς μυστικῶς λεγούσης μοι ἄνωθεν· ῾Ταῦτα αἰνίγματά εἰσι καί προοίμια, τό γάρ τέλειον οὐ θεάσῃ ἕως τήν σάρκα ἐνδέδυσαι. Ἀλλά πρός ἑαυτόν ἐπίστρεφε καί βέπε μή τι πράξῃς τῶν τά ἐνταῦθα ἀποστερούντων σε. Εἰ δέ καί παρασφαλεῖς, εἰς ὑπόμνημα ταπεινώσεως, ἀλλά μή ἀποστῇς τῆς μετανοίας ἐπιμελούμενος. Αὕτη γάρ καί τά προγεγονότα καί τά γινόμενα πταίσματα, τῇ ἐμῇ φιλανθρωπίᾳ ἑνουμένη, ἐξαφανίζει᾿."

Ταῦτα τοίνυν ἀκηκοώς ἐγώ ἐξ αὐτοῦ, πατέρες καί ἀδελφοί, μικροῦ δεῖν ἐξέστην καί ὅλος σύντρομος ἐγενόμην, ἐννοήσας ἐξαυτῆς εἰς ὅσον εὐθύς ὕψος θεωρίας ἀνῆλθε καί γνώσεως ἐκ μόνης τῆς πρός τόν πνευματικόν πατέρα αὐτοῦ ἀγάπης καί πίστεως καί οἵων ἠξιώθη ἐκ προοιμίων τῶν ἀγαθῶν ἰδεῖν καί ἀπολαῦσαι, ὡς ἤδη τήν ἀνθρωπίνην ἀσθένειαν ἀποβαλλόμενος καί ἄγγελος γεγονώς ἐξ ἀνθρώπων.

∆ιά τοῦτο οὖν παρακαλῶ ὑμᾶς, ἐν Χριστῷ ἀδελφοί, ἀπορρίψωμεν μακράν ἀφ᾿ ἑαυτῶν πᾶσαν σχέσιν καί πᾶσαν μέριμναν τῆς παρούσης ζωῆς, μισήσωμεν τάς ἡδονάς τῆς σαρκός, τήν εὐπάθειαν τοῦ σώματος, τήν ἄνεσιν καί ἀργίαν, δι᾿ ὧν ἰσχύει τό χεῖρον κατά τοῦ κρείττονος· δεῦτε, ἀναλαβώμεθα πίστιν εἰλικρινῆ πρός τόν Θεόν καί τούς κατά Θεόν πατέρας καί διδασκάλους ἡμῶν, κτησώμεθα συντετριμμένην καρδίαν, τεταπεινωμένον τό φρόνημα τῆς ψυχῆς καί καθαράν τήν καρδίαν διά δακρύων καί μετανοίας ἀπό παντός σπίλου καί ῥύπου τῆς ἁμαρτίας, (237) ἵνα καί