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you would have borne the burdens of all, the shortcomings of all. And thus not only would you have benefited the many, but you yourself would have been benefited even more spiritually and would have found great repose physically".

These things, then, he suggests to those supposedly striving in the monastery. Therefore each of them begins to reveal his own thought to whatever brother he trusts and, supposedly as if joking and being modest, so that he may not be condemned as ambitious, he says: "Just now, master so-and-so, if the brothers were wise, would they not have made me abbot? ". And he perhaps answers and says: "Believe me, father, you, I know that you are being modest, since for a long time I have been thinking this, but I was afraid to speak to you about it, lest you should blame me for speaking things contrary to your opinion". Then he says again: "You have spoken well, brother. Believe me, I do not wish to become [abbot], but lest someone indifferent should become so and destroy the monastery and grieve the brothers, if the brothers wished that I should become so, I would certainly have made you steward, so-and-so and so-and-so cellarer and storekeeper, while I would certainly have devoted myself only to spiritual matters and would have been free from practical affairs". The brother hears these things and that he intends to make him steward, and going away he confidently tells these things to the brothers whom he said he would make deacons.

These things, then, even three of the more pious perhaps do, being ignorant of the methods of the evil one; but to those who are more carnal and careless (246) about their own salvation the enemy suggests and proposes these things: luxury, glory, and honor from all. "And lest one of these hypocrites, he says, and falsely pious men become so, strive to become so yourself. For if you do not do this, you will certainly have to stand before the one who becomes so with your hands tied and be dishonored by him. But indeed he will be riding on expensive mules, while you will be on foot and toiling; for him a special table will be prepared and bread likewise and wine, but for you the one of vegetables and grains and common to all. He will sit on a throne and first, while you will be in the midst of the others or even last of the rest; for he especially loves so-and-so, and if he becomes abbot, having honored him above you, he will set him to preside over you, and how will you bear the shame from the brothers? Not only that, but so-and-so is more pious than you, and perhaps he will be preferred by him? And perhaps he even has some to tonsure from among the prominent and glorious, and they will honor him as abbot, and he in turn will honor them as officials and as those tonsured by him and will place them above you, but you he will dismiss to the remote cell or even urge you to stand and serve completely. And in response to these things what then will you do? You do not dare to speak; for there are those who love him and they will immediately shut your mouth. And perhaps they might even strike you for contradicting, and the dishonor will be worse. To withdraw from the monastery is your condemnation, and every man will laugh at you and find fault with you, and you will not find rest elsewhere; for wherever you go, as a newly-tonsured monk you must be last of all. You are not able to endure these things and remain in your monastery. Therefore, then, with all your power strive that none of the more pious ones may prevail". (247) Then he reflects and says to himself: "All know brother so-and-so and so-and-so to be more pious and they will seek them and overlook me. But I will go and win over brother so-and-so and so-and-so; for they love to live luxuriously, to play and rejoice and to go out of the monastery continually and to live as they wish. So I will align myself with them. Besides, whatever they might say to me, they themselves will also strive earnestly that I may become abbot". Therefore, going away, he acts thus according to his vain deliberation. And he says this also to himself: "Brother so-and-so is pious and does not want this thing, but he has relatives and friends and wants

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βαστάζειν εἶχες πάντων τά βάρη, πάντων τά ἐλαττώματα. Καί οὕτως οὐ μόνον ὠφελήσας τούς πολλούς, ἀλλά καί αὐτός σύ ὠφελήθης μᾶλλον ψυχικῶς καί σωματικῶς εὗρες μεγάλην ἀνάπαυσιν".

Ταῦτα τοίνυν ὑποβάλλει τοῖς δῆθεν ἀγωνιζομένοις ἐν τῷ σεμνείῳ. Ἄρχεται οὖν ἕκαστος αὐτῶν ἀποκαλύπτειν τόν ἴδιον λογισμόν πρός ὅν ἄν θαρρεῖ ἀδελφόν καί δῆθεν ὡς ἀστειαζόμενος καί μετριάζων, ἵνα μή καταγνωσθῇ ὡς φιλόδοξος, φησί· "Ἄρτι, κῦρι ὁ δεῖνα, ἐάν ἐφρονοῦσαν οἱ ἀδελφοί, οὐ μή εἶχον ποιῆσαί με ἡγούμενον; ". Ὁ δέ ἴσως ἀποκρίνεται καί λέγει· "Πίστευσόν μοι, πάτερ, σύ μέν, οἶδα ὅτι μετριάζεις, ἐπεί πρό πολλοῦ τοῦτο χρόνου ἐνεθυμούμην ἐγώ, ἀλλ᾿ εὐλαβούμην εἰπεῖν σοι περί τούτου, ἵνα μήπως ὡς τά παρά γνώμην σου λαλοῦντά μοι μέμψῃ". Εἶτα πάλιν ἐκεῖνός φησι· "Καλῶς εἶπας, ἀδελφέ. Πίστευσον, οὐ χρήζω γενέσθαι, ἀλλ᾿ ἵνα μή ἀδιάφορός τις γένηται καί τό μοναστήριον καταστρέψῃ καί τούς ἀδελφούς λυπήσῃ, ἐάν ἤθελον οἱ ἀδελφοί ἵνα ἐγενόμην, καί πάντως ποιῆσαι εἶχον σέ οἰκονόμον, τόν δεῖνα καί δεῖνα κελλαρίτην καί ἀποθηκάριον, ἐγώ δέ ἐσχόλαζον πάντως εἰς μόνα τά ψυχικά καί ἵνα ἤμην ἀπό τῶν πραγμάτων ἐλεύθερος". Ἀκούει ταῦτα ὁ ἀδελφός καί ὅτι οἰκονόμον μέλλει τοῦτον ποιεῖν, καί ἀπελθών θαρρεῖ ταῦτα τοῖς ἀδελφοῖς οὕς εἶπε ποιήσειν διακονητάς.

Ταῦτα τοίνυν καί τρεῖς ἐκ τῶν εὐλαβεστέρων ἴσως ποιοῦσιν, ἀγνοοῦντες τάς μεθόδους τοῦ πονηροῦ· τοῖς δέ γε σαρκικωτέροις καί ἀμελῶς ἔχουσι (246) περί τήν ἑαυτῶν σωτηρίαν ταῦτα ὑποβάλλει καί ὑποτίθησιν ὁ ἐχθρός, τήν τρυφήν, τήν δόξαν καί τήν παρά πάντων τιμήν. "Καί ἵνα μή ἐκ τῶν ὑποκριτῶν, φησί, γένηταί τις καί ψευδοευλαβῶν τούτων, σπούδασον γενέσθαι σύ. Εἰ γάρ μή τοῦτο ποιήσεις, μέλλεις πάντως δεδεμέναις χερσί τῷ γενομένῳ παρίστασθαι καί ἀτιμάζεσθαι παρ᾿ αὐτοῦ. Ἀλλά γάρ καί ἐποχούμενος ἔσται ἐκεῖνος ἐν ἡμιόνοις πολυτίμοις, σύ δέ πεζοπορῶν ἔσῃ καί κοπιῶν· ἐκείνῳ διάφορος ἑτοιμασθήσεται τράπεζα καί ἄρτος ὡσαύτως καί οἶνος, σοί δέ ἡ λαχανώδης καί σπερματώδης καί τοῖς πᾶσι κοινή. Ἐκεῖνος καθεσθήσεται ἐπί θρόνου καί πρῶτος, σύ δέ μέσον τῶν ἄλλων ἤ καί τῶν λοιπῶν ἔσχατος· ἀγαπᾷ γάρ διαφερόντως τόν δεῖνα, καί εἰ γένηται ἡγούμενος, ὑπέρ σέ τιμήσας ἐπάνω σου προκαθίσει αὐτόν, καί πῶς βαστάσεις τήν αἰσχύνην τῶν ἀδεφλῶν; Οὐ μόνον δέ ἀλλά καί ὁ δεῖνα εὐλαβέστερός σού ἐστι, καί ἴσως παρ᾿ ἐκείνου προτιμηθῇ; Ἔτι δέ ἴσως καί ἀπό τῶν ἐμφανῶν καί ἐνδόξων ἀποκεῖραι ἔχει, καί μέλλουσιν ἐκεῖνον μέν τιμᾶν ὡς ἡγούμενον, ἐκεῖνος δέ πάλιν ἐκείνους ὡς ἀξιωματικούς καί ὡς ἀποκαρέντας παρ᾿ αὐτοῦ τιμῆσει καί σοῦ ὑπερκαθίσει αὐτούς, σέ δέ εἰς τό διαζύγιον ἀπολύσει ἤ καί παντελῶς ἵστασθαί σε καί διακονεῖν προτρέψεται. Καί πρός ταῦτα τί ἄρα μέλλεις ποιεῖν; Λαλῆσαι οὐ τολμᾷς· εἰσί γάρ οἱ ἀγαπῶντες αὐτόν καί εὐθύς ἐπιστομίσουσί σε. Τάχα δέ ἴσως καί τύψουσί σε ἀντιλέγοντα, καί χείρων ἔσται ἡ ἀτιμία. Ὑποχωρῆσαι τῆς μονῆς κατάγνωσίς σού ἐστι, καί πᾶς ἄνθρωπος καταγελάσεται καί καταμέμψεταί σε, καί οὐδέ εὑρήσεις ἀλλαχοῦ ἀνάπαυσιν· ἔνθα γάρ ἀπέλθῃς, ὡς ξενοκουρίτης πάντων ἔσχατος εἶναι ὀφείλεις. Ὑπομένειν ταῦτα καί εἶναι ἐν τῇ μονῇ σου οὐ δύνασαι. Λοιπόν οὖν πάσῃ δυνάμει ἀγώνισαι μή νικήσῃ τις τῶν εὐλαβεστέρων". (247) Εἶτα σκέπτεται καί λέγει ἐν ἑαυτῷ· "Πάντες γινώσκωσι τόν δεῖνα ἀδελφόν καί τόν δεῖνα εὐλαβεστέρους καί μέλλουσιν ἐκείνους ζητεῖν κἀμέ παραβλέψασθαι. Ἀλλ᾿ ἀπελθών ἐγώ τόν δεῖνα κρατήσω ἀδελφόν καί τόν δεῖνα· αὐτοί γάρ τρυφᾶν ἀγαπῶσι, παίζειν τε καί χαίρεσθαι καί τῆς μονῆς ἐξέρχεσθαι συνεχῶς καί διάγειν ἐν οἷς θέλουσιν. Αὐτοῖς οὖν καί συντάξομαι. Ἄλλως τε καί ὅσα ἄν μοι εἴπωσι, καί αὐτοί ἀγωνίσονται σπουδαίως ἵνα ἡγούμενος γένωμαι". Τοιγαροῦν καί ἀπελθών, οὕτω κατά τήν ματαίαν αὐτοῦ μελέτην καί ποιεῖ. Φησί δέ καί τοῦτο πρός ἑαυτόν· "Ὁ δεῖνα ἀδελφός εὐλαβής ἐστι καί τοῦ πράγματος τούτου οὐ χρήζει, ἔχει δέ συγγενεῖς καί φίλους καί βούλεται