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not to hear some saying that things have become a stage play; He promised to some, and gave to others; He was born of some, and saved others; He was promised to the forefathers of the Jews, and leaving their descendants, He brought into their good things those who had never known Him; they labored studying the law, and reading the prophecies, and those who yesterday returned from the altars and the idols have become superior to them; where in these things is providence? So that these things may not be said about my Master, he says, even if they are said unjustly, I would gladly have fallen from the kingdom, and from that ineffable glory, and I would have endured all terrible things, considering it the greatest consolation of all for the pain to no longer hear the one so longed for being blasphemed. But if you do not yet accept what has been said, consider that many fathers have often accepted these things on behalf of their children, and chose to be separated from them, only to see them prospering, considering their prosperity to be sweeter than their own company. But since we are far from this love, we are not even able to understand what is being said. For so some are not even worthy to hear the name of Paul, and they stand far and distant from his intensity, as to think that he says these things about temporal death; of whom I would say that they are as ignorant of Paul as the blind are of the sun's ray; or rather, even much more so. For the one who dies daily, and sets forth a flurry of dangers, and said, Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or famine, or persecution? and not being content with what was said, but having surpassed the heaven, and the heaven of heavens, and angels and archangels, and having run through all things above, and having gathered together things present, things to come, things seen, things unseen, things grievous, things good, the things in both, and leaving out absolutely nothing, and not even so being satisfied, but also hypothesizing another such creation that does not exist; how, as if saying something great after all that, would he have mentioned temporal death? 3. This is not so, it is not so; but such a suspicion is of worms burrowing in dung. For if he meant this, how did he wish himself to be anathema from Christ? For such a death would have rather joined him to the choir of Christ, and made him enjoy that glory. But there are some who dare to say other things more ridiculous than these. For not death, he says, but he wished to be a treasure and a dedicated offering of Christ. And who, even of the very base and dissolute, would not pray for this? And how was this going to be for the sake of his kinsmen? Leaving, therefore, the myths and the trifles (for it is not even worth arguing against these, just as it is not with lisping children), let us return again to the saying itself, reveling in his 60.552 sea of love, and swimming everywhere with abandon, and contemplating the ineffable flame; or rather, whatever one might say, one will say nothing worthy. For this was broader than any sea, and more intense than any flame, and no word will be able to proclaim it according to its worth; but he alone knows it who possessed it with exactness. Come, then, let us bring the very words forward again: For I could wish that I myself were accursed. What is, 'I myself'? The one who became the teacher of all, who gathered countless achievements, who awaits countless crowns, who longed for Him so, as to prefer His love above all things, who burned for His sake each day, and considered all things secondary to the affection for Him. For he was concerned not only with being loved by Christ, but also with loving Him intensely; and this was especially the case. For on account of this he looked to this alone, and bore all things easily; for he aimed at one thing through it all, to satisfy this beautiful love. And he prays for these things; but since it was not going to be so, nor was he going to be anathema, he then tries also to

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