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to obtain this promise? But now, not for such things, but for those things which cannot even be explained of the theatre prepared for us in heaven (for of the King it is not even possible to speak), shall we, that we might not labor for a short time, deprive ourselves of so many good things? For if we had to endure ten thousand deaths each day; if even Gehenna itself, for the sake of seeing Christ coming in His glory, and to be numbered in the choir of the saints, ought we not to have endured all those things? But many of the more irrational sort consider it desirable only to be delivered from Gehenna; but I say that a punishment far more grievous than Gehenna is not to be in the glory of Christ, and I think that he who has fallen from thence ought not to mourn so much for the evils in Gehenna as for the fall from the Master; for this alone is more grievous than all by way of punishment. If we loved Christ as we ought to love, we would know something more grievous than Gehenna: to offend the one who is loved; but since we do not love, we do not know the greatness of this punishment; and this is what I most lament 63.753 and bewail. For if it were a man so loving, and a king so loved, would he not have respected the greatness of the love? Very much so indeed; but when it is the contrary, and unspeakable is the beauty and the glory and the wealth of Him who loves us, and great is our own lowliness, how are we not worthy of ten thousand punishments, we who are so lowly and cast off, being loved by one so great and wonderful with all excess, and despising His love, He who prefers nothing to us? For He had one only-begotten and true Son, and not even Him did He spare for our sakes; but we prefer the commands of Satan to His. Is not Gehenna and punishment therefore fitting, even if it were double and triple and ten thousand times as great? Do not, then, condemn my lamentation; for it is not lamenting, beloved, that is hard, but doing things worthy of laments, nor is grieving dreadful, but doing things that cause grief. Be not punished, and I do not mourn; be not cast into Gehenna, and I do not lament. For it is better for us to be stung by these things now, than to be punished at that time. But you, if your body is weak, you call upon all to grieve with you, and you consider those who do not grieve with you unsympathetic; but when your soul is perishing, do you tell me not to mourn? But I cannot; for I am a father, and a loving father. If only you could see the fire of my mind, you would know that I burn more than any woman who has suffered untimely widowhood. A wife does not so mourn for her own husband, nor a father for a son, as I mourn for this multitude that is with us, when I see no progress in you. But all are for slanders and accusations, and all our time is spent in accusing. Have you ever seen those who are led away to death? What sort of soul do you think they have, as they walk the road to the gate? Is it not worse than many deaths? What would they not choose both to do and to suffer, so as to 63.754 be delivered from that darkness and that cloud? I have heard many say, who by the king's philanthropy were called back after being led away, that we did not even see men as men, the soul being troubled and astounded and beside itself. If, therefore, bodily death so frightens you, when eternal death comes, what shall we do? When we see the earth being rent apart, when the heaven is rolled up, when the king of all has come Himself, what then will be our soul? If, when others are being done away with by this death which differs in nothing from sleep, those who have no part in it are so affected as to have their soul cast down and paralyzed from fear and despondency; when we ourselves fall into greater things, being punished immortally, what then will be our state? It is not possible, believe me, to set forth in speech the suffering, it is not possible. Yes, he says, but God is philanthropic, and none of these things will be. Therefore, has it been written in vain? No, he says, but only as a threat, that we might be sober. If, then, we are not sober,

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