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of his life unprofitably, but one who, upon hearing the Lord say, "Repent!", immediately begins the work. For such a one, as an obedient and grateful servant, will have mercy shown to him and will not be condemned with the disobedient, and now indeed he will be set free from all the passions, and will become a proven worker of all the virtues, and in the age to come he will delight in the ineffable good things of God with all those who from of old have been well-pleasing to Him, may it be that we all attain these things by the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, to whom be the glory unto the ages of ages. Amen.

On repentance and the beginning of a praiseworthy life, how one who is repenting ought to act each day. In which also concerning tears and compunction.

Discourse 30. (385) My beloved brethren, listen to the power of my words and as unto

good counsel being for you, receive it gladly and be eager to do it for our common benefit, both mine and yours. For thus, proceeding little by little through things that seem small, we advance, rising to more perfect things and we become perfect men in Christ.

The purpose of this discourse is as follows: when you leave the church, do not begin to be distracted by vain and unprofitable things, so that the devil does not come and find you occupied with these things, just as a crow immediately snatches a grain of wheat from the field before it is covered by the earth and flies away, so also he might snatch the memory of these words of the catechism from your hearts and you remain again frivolous and empty of the saving teaching; but if one of you has been entrusted to do manual labor or a service, let him depart, bowing his head (386) and paying attention to himself, and while working and serving, let him say within himself:

"Oh, how many days and years of my life I, wretched one, have passed being distracted and laughing! Oh, how I have been made vain, hearing until now the divine Scriptures and not at all knowing the benefit from them! What has this present life profited me? Behold, so many years of my life have passed. Who then knows if I will live until tomorrow? For many years I have eaten, I have filled my belly with meats, wine, and much gluttony. I have adorned myself with clothes, I have both played and laughed at my own expense, I have abounded in so and so many coins and spending them I have wasted them on vanities, after these things I again acquired others. I have used baths to satiety, and perfumes, I have ridden horses and mules, I have enjoyed many and luxurious tables, I have envied my neighbor, I have reviled, I have fornicated, I have stolen, I have lied. I have associated with famous acquaintances and friends, and I have dwelt with the rich and rulers. I have acquired a renowned name in life, I have reclined on soft couches, I have rested this earthy body, I have slept to satiety.

"What profit, then, have all these things been to me until now, or will they profit me at the departure of my wretched soul, if tomorrow He who has authority over every breath commands me to be taken from this world? Truly, nothing! Therefore, then, let me not spend even the remaining days of my life here in vain, but I will make a beginning from the present moment and leaving all those things behind, I too will practice the things contrary to these, as the holy fathers did. And I will fast for so long in place of my former gluttony,

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αὐτοῦ τῆς ζωῆς ἀνωφελῶς, ἀλλ᾿ ὁ ἅμα τῷ ἀκοῦσαι τοῦ Κυρίου λέγοντος, "Μετανοεῖτε! ", εὐθύς τοῦ ἔργου ἀρχόμενος. Ὁ τοιοῦτος γάρ ὡς ὑπήκοος καί εὐγνώμων δοῦλος ἐλεηθήσεται καί οὐχί μετά τῶν ἀνηκόων κατακριθήσεται, καί νῦν μέν ἐκ πάντων ἀπαλλαγήσεται τῶν παθῶν, πασῶν δέ τῶν ἀρετῶν ἐργάτης γενήσεται δόκιμος, ἐν δέ τῷ αἰῶνι τῷ μέλλοντι κατατρυφήσει τῶν ἀπορρήτων ἀγαθῶν τοῦ Θεοῦ μετά πάντων τῶν ἀπ᾿ αἰῶνος εὐαρεστησάντων αὐτῷ, ὧν γένοιτο πάντας ἡμᾶς ἐπιτυχεῖν χάριτι τοῦ Κυρίου ἡμῶν Ἰησοῦ Χριστοῦ, ᾧ ἡ δόξα εἰς τούς αἰῶνας τῶν αἰώνων. Ἀμήν.

Περί μετανοίας καί ἀρχῆς ἐπαινετοῦ βίου, ὅπως δεῖ τόν μετανοῦντα καθ᾿ ἑκάστην ποιεῖν. Ἐν ᾧ καί περί δακρύων ἅμα καί κατανύξεως.

Λόγος Λ΄. (385) Ἀδελφοί μου ἀγαπητοί, ἀκούσατέ μου τῶν λόγων τήν δύναμιν καί ὡς εἰς

ἀγαθήν οὖσαν ὑμῖν συμβουλήν προσδέξασθε ἀσμένως αὐτήν καί ποιῆσαι προθυμήθητε εἰς κοινήν ἐμοῦ τε καί ὑμῶν ὠφέλειαν. Οὕτω γάρ κατά βραχύ διά τῶν δοκούντων μικρῶν βαδίζοντες, ἐπί τά τελεώτερα προκόπτοντες ἀνερχόμεθα καί ἄνδρες γινόμεθα τέλειοι ἐν Χριστῷ.

Ὁ δέ σκοπός τοῦ λόγου ἐστί τοιοῦτος· ἐξερχόμενοι τῆς ἐκκλησίας μή ἄρξησθε μετεωρίζεσθαι εἰς μάταια καί ἀνωφελῆ, ἵνα μή ἐλθών ὁ διάβολος καί ἐν τούτοις ἐνασχολουμένους εὑρίσκων ὑμᾶς, ὥσπερ τις εὐθύς κορώνη τόν κόκκον τοῦ σίτου ἐκ τοῦ πεδίου πρίν ἤ ὑπό τήν γῆν καλυφθῆναι αἴρουσα πέταται, οὕτω καί αὐτός ἄρῃ τήν μνήμην τῶν λόγων τούτων τῆς κατηχήσεως ἐκ τῆς καρδίας ὑμῶν καί πάλιν διαμείνητε κοῦφοι καί κενοί τῆς σωτηρίου διδασκαλίας· ἀλλά εἰ μέν τις ἐξ ὑμῶν ἐργόχειρον ἤ διακονίαν ἐπετράπη ποιεῖν καί ἐργάζεσθαι, ἀπελθέτω κάτω νεύων (386) καί προσέχων ἑαυτῷ, ἐργαζόμενος δέ καί διακονῶν λεγέτω ἐν ἑαυτῷ·

"Ὤ πόσας ἡμέρας παρῆλθον καί χρόνους τῆς ζωῆς μου μετεωριζόμενος ὁ ἄθλιος καί γελῶν! Ὤ πῶς ἐματαιώθην ἀκούων μέχρι τοῦ νῦν τάς θείας Γραφάς καί μή καθόλου γνούς τό ἐκ τούτων ὠφέλιμον! Τί με ὠφέλησεν ἡ παροῦσα ζωή; Ἰδού παρῆλθον ἔτη τῆς ζωῆς μου τόσα καί τόσα. Τίς οὖν οἶδεν, εἰ ζήσομαι ἕως τῆς αὔριον; Ἔφαγον ἐπί ἔτη πολλά, ἐνέπλησά μου τήν γαστέρα κρεῶν, οἴνου καί ἀδηφαγίας πολλῆς. Ἐκαλλωπίσθην ἱματίοις, ἔπαιξά τε ὁμοῦ καί ἐγέλασα κατ᾿ ἐμοῦ, ἐπερισσεύθην ἐν νομίσμασι τόσοις ἤ τόσοις καί ἐξοδιάσας αὐτά ἐπί ματαίοις ἀνάλωσα, μετά ταῦτα πάλιν ἐκτησάμην ἕτερα. Λοετροῖς ἐχρησάμην εἰς κόρον καί μύροις, ἵππους καί ἡμιόνους ἐπιβέβηκα, τραπεζῶν πολλῶν καί πολυτελῶν ἀπήλαυσα, τῷ πλησίον ἐφθόνησα, ἐλοιδόρησα, πεπόρνευκα, ἔκλεψα, ἐψευσάμην. Συνήθεσι καί φίλοις συνανεστράφην περιδόξοις καί πλουσίοις καί ἄρχουσι συνηυλίσθην. Ὄνομα ἐν τῷ βίῳ περιφανές ἐκτησάμην, ἐπί ἁπαλῶν στρωμνῶν ἀνεκλίθην, ἀνέπαυσα τό σῶμα τοῦτο τό γήϊνον, ὕπνον εἰς κόρον ὕπνωσα.

"Τί οὖν με τούτων ἁπάντων ὠφέλησε μέχρι τοῦ νῦν ἤ ἐν τῇ ἐξόδῳ τῆς ταλαιπώρου ψυχῆς μου ὠφελήσει με, εἰ αὔριον ὁ ἔχων ἐξουσίαν πάσης πνοῆς ἀπό τοῦ κόσμου τούτου κελεύσει ἀρθῆναί με; Ὄντως οὐδέν! Λοιπόν οὖν μή μάτην κἄν τάς ὑπολοίπους διάξω ἡμέρας τῆς ἐνταῦθα ζωῆς μου, ἀλλά βάλλω ἀπό τοῦ παρόντος ἀρχήν και πάντα καταλιπών ἐκεῖνα, τά ἐναντία τούτοις ὡς οἱ ἅγιοι πατέρες κἀγώ διαπράξομαι. Καί νηστεύσω μέν ἐπί τοσοῦτον ἀντί τῆς προλαβούσης ἀδηφαγίας μου,