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exactly, (397) and should I fall away from the kingdom of heaven, would it not have been better for me not to have been born nor to have fallen upon the earth, than to have breathed this very air and seen the sun with my eyes? Yes truly, it would have been far better for me!

What then shall I do, that I may not fall away from it? If, having done all the things said before, I receive the Holy Spirit; for this is the seed of Christ, through which we, poor and mortal, become His kin, which, if it falls on good ground, bears fruit thirty and sixty and a hundredfold, and this itself is the kingdom of heaven, but all other things without it are of no benefit. For if we do not find our souls purified and full of light, the work of all other things will not benefit us at all, as our Lord and God says: "What will it profit a man if he gains the whole world, but forfeits his soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul?" and again: "He who loses his soul for my sake will find it, but he who finds it will lose it." If, therefore, I do not lose my soul in the former way, as I have said, having given myself over to death for Christ's sake, and find it again living the eternal life, what is the benefit to me of all the rest, O friends and brothers? Truly nothing, nothing will benefit us, beloved servants of Christ, nor will it deliver us from the eternal fire, unless leaving all things and all people, we examine ourselves alone.

(398) But what does it mean to examine ourselves? This, O brothers, we will reserve for another catechesis, managing the proportion of the discourse. But God Himself, the true Wisdom, who deigned to become the teacher of us sinners, teach me to speak to myself and to my fellow servants and brothers the things that lead to the salvation of the soul. For you are the guide and illumination of our souls, who gives us a word in the opening of our mouth and a message to those who preach the gospel with great power, and to you we send up glory, now and always and unto the ages of ages. Amen.

Concerning how each person must examine and diligently inquire into his own affairs. And how one should compare his own things with the commandments of Christ.

Discourse 31. (399) Brothers and fathers, in the preceding catechesis, in order that the discourse might not

be prolonged too much, we left what was then taught incomplete, being eager to say what it is to examine oneself; but now through the present catechesis we have come to pay the debt of the word to you, as we were appointed for this and are always indebted to give to your love the measured portion of the word.

What then is it, as we said at that time, to pay attention and to examine oneself? For each person to pay attention to himself is this, to say to oneself: "Does any passion at all possess me? For indeed, as I hear in the divine Scriptures, that he who has only one passion does not enter into the kingdom of heaven, for it is written: 'For whoever keeps the whole law but fails in one point has become guilty of all of it.' Likewise, to examine oneself is to say to oneself: (400) "Have I ever neglected this or that commandment, or am I neglecting it and holding it in contempt and not practicing it? for Christ and God says: 'One iota or one tittle will by no means pass from the law of my commandments until all is accomplished,' and again:

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ἀκριβῶς, (397) τῆς δέ βασιλείας ἀποπέσω τῶν οὐρανῶν, οὐκ ἦν μοι κρεῖσσον μή γεννηθῆναι μηδέ πεσεῖν ἐπί γῆς, ἤ ἀναπνεῦσαι τοῦτον δή τόν ἀέρα καί τόν ἥλιον ὀφθαλμοῖς κατιδεῖν; Ναί ὄντως, κρεῖσσόν μοι κατά πολύ ἦν!

Τί οὖν ποιήσω, ἵνα μή ταύτης ἐκπέσω; Ἄν τά προειρημένα ἅπαντα διαπραξάμενος, Πνεῦμα Ἅγιον λήψωμαι· τοῦτο γάρ ἐστιν ὁ σπόρος Χριστοῦ, δι᾿ οὗ συγγενεῖς αὐτοῦ γινόμεθα οἱ πένητες ἡμεῖς καί βροτοί, ὅς ἐάν πέσῃ εἰς τήν γῆν τήν καλήν καρποφορεῖ ἐν τριάκοντα καί ἐν ἑξήκοντα καί ἐν ἑκατόν, καί τοῦτο αὐτό ἐστιν ἡ βασιλεία τῶν οὐρανῶν, τά δ᾿ ἄλλα ἅπαντα τούτου χωρίς οὐδέν ὠφελοῦσιν. Ἐάν γάρ μή ἑαυτούς εὑρήσωμεν τάς ψυχάς ἡμῶν κεκαθαρμένας καί πλήρεις φωτός, οὐδέν ἡμᾶς ὠφελήσει τῶν ἄλλων ἁπάντων ἡ ἐργασία, καθώς φησιν ὁ Κύριος ἡμῶν καί Θεός· "Τί ὠφελήσει ἄνθρωπος, ἐάν τόν κόσμον ὅλον κερδήσῃ, τήν δέ ψυχήν αὐτοῦ ζημιωθῇ; Ἤ τί δώσει ἄνθρωπος ἀντάλλαγμα τῆς ψυχῆς αὐτοῦ;" καί πάλιν· "Ὁ ἀπολέσας τήν ψυχήν αὐτοῦ ἕνεκεν ἐμοῦ εὑρήσει αὐτήν, ὁ δέ εὑρών αὐτήν ἀπολέσει αὐτήν ". Εἰ οὖν ἐγώ μή ἀπολέσω τήν ψυχήν μου τῷ προτέρῳ τρόπῳ, ὡς εἴρηκα, εἰς θάνατον ἐμαυτόν ἐκδεδωκώς διά τόν Χριστόν, καί πάλιν εὕρω αὐτήν ζήσασαν τήν ζωήν τήν αἰώνιον, τί μοι τό ὄφελος τῶν λοιπῶν ἁπάντων, ὦ φίλοι καί ἀδελφοί; Οὐδέν ὄντως, οὐδέν ἡμᾶς οὐ μή ὠφελήσει, ἠγαπημένοι δοῦλοι Χριστοῦ, οὐδέ τοῦ αἰωνίου πυρός ἐξελεῖται, ἐάν μή πάντα καί πάντας ἀφέντες ἑαυτούς ἡμᾶς μόνους ἐπισκεψώμεθα.

(398) Τί δέ ἐστι τό ἑαυτούς ἐπισκέψασθαι; Ἐν ἑτέρᾳ τοῦτο, ὦ ἀδελφοί, κατηχήσει ταμιευσόμεθα, τήν συμμετρίαν τοῦ λόγου πραγματευόμενοι. Αὐτός δέ ὁ Θεός, ἡ ἀληθινή Σοφία, ὁ καταξιώσας γενέσθαι διδάσκαλος ἡμῶν τῶν ἁμαρτωλῶν, αὐτόν δίδαξόν με εἰπεῖν ἐμαυτῷ τε καί τοῖς συνδούλοις καί ἀδελφοῖς μου τά πρός σωτηρίαν ψυχῆς. Σύ γάρ εἶ ὁ ὁδηγός καί φωτισμός τῶν ψυχῶν ἡμῶν, ὁ διδούς λόγον ἡμῖν ἐν ἀνοίξει τοῦ στόματος καί ῥῆμα τοῖς εὐαγγελιζομένοις δυνάμει πολλῇ, καί σοί τήν δόξαν ἀναπέμπομεν νῦν καί ἀεί καί εἰς τούς αἰῶνας τῶν αἰώνων. Ἀμήν.

Περί τοῦ πῶς δεῖ ἕκαστον ἐπισκέπτεσθαι καί τά καθ᾿ ἑαυτόν ἐπιμελῶς ἐρευνᾷν. Καί πῶς τά ἑαυτοῦ ἀντιπαρατιθέναι χρή ταῖς ἐντολαῖς τοῦ Χριστοῦ.

Λόγος ΛΑ΄. (399) Ἀδελφοί καί πατέρες, ἐν τῇ προλαβούσῃ κατηχήσει, διά τό μή τόν λόγον

μηκύνειν ἐπί πολύ, τά κατηχηθέντα τότε ἐλλιπῆ κατελίπομεν, εἰπεῖν ἐπειγόμενοι τί ἐστι τό ἑαυτόν ἐπισκέψασθαι· νυνί δέ διά τῆς παρούσης κατηχήσεως ἀποδοῦναι ἥκομεν τό χρέος ὑμῖν τοῦ λόγου, ὡς ἐπί τοῦτο τεθέντες καί ἀεί χρεωστοῦντες διδόναι τῇ ἀγάπῃ ὑμῶν τοῦ λόγου τό σιτομέτριον.

Τί οὖν ἐστιν, ὡς τηνικαῦτα προείπομεν, τό προσχεῖν καί ἑαυτόν ἐπισκέψασθαι; Τό προσχεῖν ἕκαστον ἑαυτῷ τοῦτό ἐστι, τό καθ᾿ ἑαυτόν εἰπεῖν· "Μή τί γε ἄρα τό οἱονοῦν πάθος κατέχῃ με; Καί γάρ ὡς ἐν ταῖς θείαις ἀκούω Γραφαῖς, ὅτι ὁ ἔχων ἕν μόνον πάθος εἰς τήν βασιλείαν τῶν οὐρανῶν οὐκ εἰσέρχεται, γέγραπται γάρ· "Ἐάν τις τόν νόμον ὅλον τηρήσῃ, πταίσῃ δέ ἐν ἑνί, γέγονεν πάντων ἔνοχος". Ὁμοίως δέ καί τό ἑαυτόν ἐπισκέπτεσθαι τοιοῦτόν ἐστιν, ἐν τῷ λέγειν καθ᾿ ἑαυτόν· (400) "Μήποτε τήνδε ἤ τήνδε τήν ἐντολήν παρημέλησα, ἤ ἀμελῶ καί καταφρονῶ αὐτῆς καί ταύτην οὐ διαπράττομαι; λέγει γάρ ὁ Χριστός καί Θεός· "Ἰῶτα ἕν ἤ μία κεραία ἀπό τοῦ νόμου τῶν ἐντολῶν μου οὐ μή παρέλθῃ, ἕως ἄν πάντα γένηται, καί πάλιν·