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to care at all for the life of his flesh. This alone, know well, must the one who repents with labor guard against, that he not kill himself by some device and become a suicide, such as by throwing himself from a cliff or by using a noose or by doing some other contrary thing. But of the rest, by which the body is known to be nourished and to live, let him have no care, according to the saying: "Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness (394) and all these things, that is, the necessities for your body, will be added to you." For he who lives an ascetic life and lives according to the Gospel is able to be nourished each day with only bread and water and to live, and he is in better condition than those who enjoy more delicate tables. For this reason Paul, knowing this, said and always says: "Having food and clothing, with these we shall be content," and again: "that we should have the sentence of death in ourselves, that we should not trust in ourselves but in God who raises the dead."

Behold, therefore, we have told you, beloved brother, how you must approach God and what sort of repentance to show Him. Do not, then, desist until your last breath, nor forget the good counsel of me, the sinner; for I have not done these things and spoken to you from my own action, but the grace of God has given me these things to say for your sake and for your salvation. If, therefore, with God working with you, you should do these things, as you continue in this work of repentance, little by little you yourself would understand even greater mysteries, being taught them by grace from above, and there will be granted to you not only a fountain of tears, but also alienation from all the passions through such actions. For to always seek repentance and compunction, and to investigate what things are helpful and conducive to mourning and weeping and being contrite and to practice them with zeal, and not to prefer yourself in anything or to do the will of the flesh at all, quickly brings a man to progress (395) and to purification and dispassion, and makes him a partaker of the Holy Spirit, and not only this but also makes him equal to Antony, Sabas and Euthymius, the great fathers.

And these things, if you listen to me and love repentance and compunction; but if you are not willing to listen to me and to acquire the aforesaid as an unceasing work, let neither you nor another blaspheme and say this is impossible, nor that: "I have confessed, I have so many years or so many," nor let him recount to me the distribution and scattering of wealth and gold, nor let him say: "So many or so many of my existing gold pieces I have used to clothe the naked, I have fed the hungry, I have given drink to the thirsty, I have scattered all my possessions, I came to this mountain, I entered this cave, I have visited the Lord's tomb, I ascended to the Mount of Olives, and now I have entered this monastery and been tonsured or even, having been previously purified, I sit in a single cell, saying so many or so many prayers; and with these things I will be saved and it is enough for me!". Therefore, do not deceive yourself, brother, whoever you are, nor console yourself with empty notions, doing this foolishly. For all these things are good and very good, but they are a seed, know well, beloved. See then, as I say in an example, you have broken up the ground and harrowed it, and weeded it, you have sown. Have you then known the seed sprouting from the bowels of the earth? Have you known it growing? Have you known the ears of grain reaching maturity? Have you known the fields of your soul's earth to be white and ready for harvest? Have you plucked ears of grain from them, have you rubbed (396) them with your hands, so that you might see the naked fruit of your labors? And having seen this, have you been nourished to satiety and received strength? If, therefore, you know these things, I venerate your feet and embrace them and kiss their footprints; for I am not worthy

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μεριμνᾶν ὅλως τι εἰς ζωήν τῆς σαρκός αὐτοῦ. Τοῦτο μόνον, εὖ ἴσθι, ὀφείλει φυλάξασθαι ὁ ἐμπόνως μετανοῶν, ἵνα μή ἑαυτόν διά τινος μηχανῆς ἀποκτείνῃ καί αὐτοφονευτής γένηται, οἷον ἤ κρημνῷ ῥίψας ἑαυτόν ἤ ἀγχόνῃ χρησάμενος ἤ ἕτερόν τι ἐναντίον διαπραξάμενος. Τῶν δέ λοιπῶν, δι᾿ ὧν οἶδε τρέφεσθαι τό σῶμα καί ζῆν, μηδεμίαν φροντίδα προείτω κατά τό λόγιον· "Ζητεῖτε πρῶτον τήν βασιλείαν τοῦ Θεοῦ καί τήν δικαιοσύνην αὐτοῦ (394) καί ταῦτα πάντα, τά εἰς χρείαν δηλονότι τοῦ σώματος ὑμῶν ἐπιτήδεια, προστεθήσεται ὑμῖν". ∆ύναται γάρ ὁ ἐναγώνιον ἔχων τόν βίον καί ζῶν κατά τό Εὐαγγέλιον, μετά μόνου ἄρτου καί ὕδατος ἀποτρέφεσθαι καθ᾿ ἑκάστην καί ζῆν, καί μᾶλλον ἐκεῖνος εὐεκτεῖ ἤ οἱ τῶν ἁβροτέρων τραπεζῶν ἀπολαύοντες. ∆ιό τοῦτο καί ὁ Παῦλος εἰδώς ἔλεγε καί ἀεί λέγει· "Ἔχοντες διατροφάς καί σκεπάσματα, τούτοις ἀρκεσθησόμεθα", καί πάλιν· "Ἵνα ἐν ἑαυτοῖς τό ἀπόκριμα τοῦ θανάτου ἔχοντες, μή ὦμεν πεποιθότες ἐφ᾿ ἑαυτοῖς, ἀλλ᾿ ἐπί τῷ Θεῷ τῷ ἐγείροντι τούς νεκρούς".

Ἰδού τοιγαροῦν εἴπομέν σοι, ἀγαπητέ ἀδελφέ, ὅπως προσελθεῖν σε δεῖ τῷ Θεῷ καί ὁποίαν αὐτῷ ἐπιδείξασθαι τήν μετάνοιαν. Μή οὖν ἀποστῇς ἕως τῆς ἐσχάτης σου ἀναπνοῆς, μηδέ ἐπιλάθῃ τῆς καλῆς συμβουλῆς ἐμοῦ τοῦ ἁμαρτωλοῦ· οὐ γάρ ἔπραξα ταῦτα καί ἀπό πράξεως ἐμῆς εἶπόν σοι, ἀλλά ἡ χάρις τοῦ Θεοῦ διά σέ καί τήν σήν σωτηρίαν δέδωκέ μοι ταῦτα εἰπεῖν. Εἰ οὖν ταῦτα Θεοῦ συνεργοῦντός σοι ποιήσειας, ἐγχρονίζοντός σου εἰς τό ἔργον τοῦτο τῆς μετανοίας, κατ᾿ ὀλίγον αὐτός σύ νοήσειας ἔτι μείζοντα ἄλλα μυστήρια, ὑπό τῆς ἄνωθεν χάριτος αὐτά διδασκόμενος, καί χαρισθήσεταί σοι οὐ μόνον δακρύων πηγή, ἀλλά καί πάντων παθῶν διά τῶν τοιούτων πράξεων ἀλλοτρίωσις. Τό γάρ ζητεῖν ἀεί μετάνοιαν καί κατάνυξιν, ἐρευνᾶν τε τίνα τά βοηθοῦντα καί συνεργοῦντα εἰς τό πενθεῖν καί κλαίειν καί κατανύσσεσθαι καί μετά σπουδῆς αὐτά διαπράττεσθαι, ἀλλά μηδέ προτιμᾶς ἐν μηδενί ἑαυτόν ἤ τό τῆς σαρκός ὅλως ποιεῖν θέλημα, συντόμως εἰς προκοπήν φέρει (395) τόν ἄνθρωπον καί εἰς κάθαρσιν καί ἀπάθειαν, καί Πνεύματος Ἁγίου κοινωνόν αὐτόν ἀπεργάζεται, οὐ μόνον δέ ἀλλά καί Ἀντωνίου, Σάβα καί Εὐθυμίου, τῶν μεγάλων πατέρων, ἴσον ἀποκαθίστησι.

Καί ταῦτα μέν, ἐάν ἀκούσῃς μου καί ἀγαπήσῃς τήν μετάνοιαν καί κατάνυξιν· εἰ δέ μή θελήσῃς ἀκοῦσαί μου καί τά εἰρημένα ἔργον ἀδιάλειπτον κτήσασθαι, μήτε σύ μήτε ἕτερος βλασφημείτω καί λεγέτω τοῦτο ἀδύνατον, μηδέ ὅτι· "Ἐξηγόρευσα, ἔχω τόσους χρόνους ἤ τόσους", μηδέ ἀπαριθμείτω μοι διάδοσιν καί διασκόρπισιν πλούτου καί χρυσίου, μηδέ λεγέτω· "Τόσους ἤ τόσους ἀπό τῶν ἐμοί ὑπαρχόντων χρυσίων ἐνέδυσα γυμνούς, πεινῶντας ἔθρεψα, διψῶντας ἐπότισα, πάντα μου διεσκόρπισα, ἀφικόμην εἰς τόδε τό ὄρος, εἰσῆλθον εἰς τόδε τό σπήλαιον, τόν τοῦ Κυρίου τάφον κατέλαβον, εἰς τό ὄρος ἀνῆλθον τῶν Ἐλαιῶν, καί νῦν εἰσῆλθον εἰς τόδε τό μοναστήριον καί ἀπεκάρην ἤ καί προαποκαθαρθείς κάθημαι ἐν ἑνί κελλίῳ, ποιῶν τόσας ἤ τόσας εὐχάς· καί μετά τούτων σωθήσομαι καί ἀρκετόν μοί ἐστι! ". Μή τοίνυν ἀπάτα σεαυτόν, ἀδελφέ, ὅστις εἶ, μηδέ παραμυθοῦ σεαυτόν διακένοις ἐννοίαις, ἀφρόνως τοῦτο ποιῶν. Ταῦτα γάρ πάντα καλά καί λίαν καλά, ἀλλά σπόρος εἰσίν, εὖ ἴσθι, ἀγαπητέ. Ἴδε οὖν, ὡς ἐν ὑποδείγματι λέγω, τήν χώραν ἐνέωσας καί ἐδιβόλησας, ἐτριβόλησας, ἔσπειρας. Ἔγνως ἆρα τόν σπόρον προκύψαντα ἐκ τῶν λαγόνων τῆς γῆς; Ἔγνως αὐξήσαντα; Ἔγνως στάχυας φθάσαντας; Ἔγνως λευκά σου τῆς ψυχικῆς γῆς τά λήϊα καί πρός θερισμόν ἕτοιμα; Ἔτιλλας στάχυας ἐξ αὐτῶν, ἔψωχες (396) ταῖς χερσίν, ἵνα γυμνόν ἴδῃς τόν καρπόν τῶν πόνων σου; Ἰδών δέ τοῦτον, ἐτράφης ἆρα εἰς κόρον καί δύναμιν ἔλαβες; Εἰ οὖν ταῦτα οἶδας, προσκυνῶ σου τούς πόδας καί κατασπάζομαι καί τά ἴχνη τούτων καταφιλῶ· οὐ γάρ εἰμι ἄξιος