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dark, not shining at all; understand my soul as the lamp, and virtues as the oil, and my mind as the wick, and in it the divine fire (240) shining and illuminating the soul together and the whole house of my whole body and all the thoughts and reflections in the house. While this is thus shining, if envy should fall upon it or the passion of resentment or the love of vainglory or some other desire for some pleasure or passion and should overturn the lamp, that is, the intention of my soul, or should lick up the oil, I mean that of the virtues, or otherwise, my mind being the wick, as I said, and having within itself the divine light shining brightly, should devour this with wicked thoughts or even should cast it out entirely from within into the oil, that is, by reflecting on the deeds of its virtues and from this, falling into conceit, should be blinded, and my lamp from these things, or by chance from some other, if it should happen to be extinguished, where then is the fire, or what happens to it, tell me, does it remain in the lamp (241) or is it separated from the lamp? O ignorance, O madness! How is it possible to light the lamp without the fire, or the fire without the matter

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σκοτεινός, ὅλως μή φαίνων˙ λύχνον νόει τήν ψυχήν μου, ἔλαιον τάς ἀρετάς δέ, τόν δέ νοῦν μου θρυαλλίδα, ἐν αὐτῷ δέ πῦρ τό θεῖον (240) φαῖνον καί καταφωτίζον τήν ψυχήν ὁμοῦ καί οἶκον ὅλον ὅλου σώματός μου καί τούς ἐν τῷ οἴκῳ πάντας λογισμούς καί ἐνθυμήσεις. Οὕτω φαίνοντος δέ τούτου ἐάν φθόνος παρεμπέσῃ ἤ μνησικακίας πάθος ἤ φιλοδοξίας ἔρως ἤ ἄλλη τις ἐπιθυμία ἡδονῆς τινος ἤ πάθους καί τόν λύχνον καταστρέψῃ ἤγουν πρόθεσιν ψυχῆς μου, ἤ τό ἔλαιον ἐκλείξῃ, τό τῶν ἀρετῶν σοι λέγω, ἤ ἄλλως θρυαλλίδα ὄντα μου τόν νοῦν, ὡς εἶπον, καί ἐν ἑαυτῷ τό θεῖον ἔχοντα φῶς λάμπον μέγα, καταφάγῃ πονηραῖς ἐννοίαις τοῦτο ἤ καί ὅλον ἀπορρίψῃ ἔνδοθεν ἐν τῷ ἐλαίῳ ἤγουν ἐν τῷ ἐνθυμεῖσθαι ἀρετῶν αὐτοῦ τάς πράξεις καί εἰς οἴησιν ἐντεῦθεν ἐμπεσών ἐκτυφλωθείη, καί τόν λύχνον μου ἐκ τούτων ἤ τυχόν τινος ἐξ ἄλλου, εἰ συμβῇ ἀποσβεσθῆναι, ποῦ τό πῦρ ὑπάρχειν τότε ἤ τί γίνεσθαι εἴπῃς μοι, παραμένειν ἐν τῷ λύχνῳ (241) ἤ χωρίζεσθαι τοῦ λύχνου; Ὤ ἀγνοίας, ὤ μανίας! Πῶς ἐνδέχεται τόν λύχνον δίχα τοῦ πυρός ἐξάπτειν, ἤ τό πῦρ τῆς ὕλης ἄνευ