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I mean also holy Symeon, you pointed him out to me and were pleased that I should be loved by him, but you also granted me countless other good things which I did not expect.

For whence could I, wretched one, have known that you are such, our good Master, that I might conceive a desire for you? Whence could I have known that you reveal yourself to those who come to you while still living in the world, that I might have sought to behold you? Whence could I have known that such joy and repose are vouchsafed to those who receive the light of your grace within themselves? And whence or how could I, wretched one, have known that those who have believed in you receive your Holy Spirit? For I thought I believed in you perfectly and I seemed to have all that you grant to those who fear you, while having nothing at all, as I later learned this by experience. Whence could I have known, Master, that you, being invisible and uncontainable, are seen and contained within us? Whence could I ever have reckoned that the Master who created all things unites himself with humans, whom he himself has fashioned, and makes them God-bearers and makes them your sons, that I might have come to desire these things and sought to receive them from you? And whence did I know, Lord, that I have such a God, such a Master, such a protector, father and brother and king, you who became poor for my sake and took the form of a servant?

(439) Truly, my philanthropic Master, I knew nothing at all of all these things. For even if I bent down and read of these things at some time in the divine Scriptures, which your saints set forth, yet I heard them as if spoken about certain others or to certain others, and was insensitive toward all that was written, not being able to ever form a concept about them. For hearing your herald Paul crying out and saying: "What eye has not seen, and ear has not heard, and has not entered into the heart of man, what God has prepared for those who love him," I was persuaded that it was impossible for anyone in the flesh to come into the vision of those things. But I thought that out of generosity you showed these things to him alone, and I, wretched one, did not know that this is done by you for all who love you. And whence or how could I have known that everyone who believes in you becomes your member, flashing forth with the grace of Divinity—and who will believe this?—and may he become blessed, having become a blessed member of the blessed God? Whence could I have known that you, instead of perceptible food, become insatiable bread, immortal and incorruptible, for those who hunger for your sake, and an immortal spring for those who thirst, and a shining tunic for those who for your sake are clothed in mean garments? For hearing these things spoken by your heralds, I supposed that they happen only in the age to come and after the resurrection, and I did not know that they are accomplished even more now, when we stand in greater need of them.

I neither knew these things, all-holy King, nor did I ever desire them, nor did I ask to receive any of them from you, (440) but rather, remembering my sins, I only sought their forgiveness; I desired to find a mediator and intercessor, as I said above, Master, so that through his intercession and my servitude to him I might find, at least in the future, the remission of my many sins. And as I heard everyone saying in unison that there is no such holy man now, I fell into greater grief. Yet nevertheless I never believed this, but I answered such people, Master Christ, as you know, and said: "My Lord, have mercy. And has the devil become so much more powerful than the Master God, that he has drawn all to himself and made them his portion, so that not one is left on God's side?".

For this reason, I think, philanthropic king, as I sat in the darkness of life and in the midst of evils, you shone your holy light and in it showed me your saint. And in the way you did for your servant Paul, calling him while he was persecuting you through your divine appearance—for when he beheld you and

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λέγω καί ἅγιον Συμεών, καθυπέδειξας καί παρ᾿ ἐκείνου με ἀγαπηθῆναι ηὐδόκησας, ἀλλά καί μυρία ἄλλα, ἅ οὐκ ἤλπιζον, ἐδωρήσω μοι ἀγαθά.

Πόθεν γάρ που ἐγίνωσκον ὁ τάλας ἐγώ ὅτι τοιοῦτος ὑπάρχεις ὁ καλός ∆εσπότης ἡμῶν, ἵνα ἐπιθυμίαν λάβω τήν περί σοῦ; Πόθεν που ᾔδειν ὅτι φανεροῖς σεαυτόν τοῖς ἐρχομένοις πρός σέ ἐν τῷ κόσμῳ ἔτι διάγουσιν, ἵνα καί θεάσασθαί σε ἐξεζήτησα; Πόθεν που ἐγίνωσκον ὅτι χαρᾶς τοιαύτης καί ἀνέσεως καταξιοῦνται οἱ τῆς χάριτός σου τό φῶς ἐν ἑαυτοῖς εἰσδεχόμενοι; Πόθεν δέ ἤ πῶς ὁ τάλας ἐγίνωσκον ὅτι τό Πνεῦμά σου τό Ἅγιον οἱ σέ πεπιστευκότες λαμβάνουσι; Πιστεύειν γάρ τελείως εἰς σέ ἐνόμιζον καί πάντα ἔχειν ἐδόκουν ὅσα χαρίζῃ τοῖς φοβουμένοις σε, μηδέν ὅλως ἔχων, ὡς ὕστερον ἔργῳ τοῦτο μεμάθηκα. Πόθεν που ἐγίνωσκον, ∆έσποτα, ὅτι σύ ἀόρατος ὤν καί ἀχώρητος, ὁρᾶσαι καί χωρῆσαι ἐντός ἡμῶν; Πόθεν που εἶχόν ποτε λογίσασθαι ὅτι ὁ κτίσας ∆εσπότης τά σύμπαντα ἀνθρώποις ἑνοῦσαι, οὕς αὐτός ἔπλασας, καί θεοφόρους τούτους ἐργάζῃ καί υἱούς σου ποιεῖς, ἵνα καί εἰς πόθον τούτων ἦλθον καί ταῦτα λαβεῖν ἐζήτησα παρά σοί; Πόθεν δέ ᾔδειν, Κύριε, ὅτι τοιοῦτον ἔχω Θεόν, τοιοῦτον ∆εσπότην, τοιοῦτον προστάτην, πατέρα καί ἀδελφόν καί βασιλέα, σέ τόν πτωχεύσαντα δι᾿ ἐμέ καί μορφήν δούλου λαβόντα;

(439) Ὄντως, ∆έσποτά μου φιλάνθρωπε, οὐδέν οὐδαμῶς τούτων ἁπάντων ἐγίνωσκον. Εἰ γάρ καί ἐν ταῖς θείαις Γραφαῖς, ἅς οἱ ἅγιοί σου ἐξέθεντο, ἐγκύψας ἀνέγνων περί τούτων ποτέ, ἀλλ᾿ ὡς περί ἄλλων τινῶν ἤ πρός τινας ἄλλους λεγομένων ἤκουον καί ἀναισθήτως πρός πάντα διεκείμην τά γεγραμμένα, μηδέ ἔννοιάν ποτε περί τούτων δυνηθείς λαβεῖν. Ἀκούων γάρ τοῦ κήρυκός σου Παύλου βοῶντος καί λέγοντος· "Ἅ ὀφθαλμός οὐκ εἶδε καί οὖς οὐκ ἤκουσε καί ἐπί καρδίαν ἀνθρώπου οὐκ ἀνέβη, ἅ ἡτοίμασεν ὁ Θεός τοῖς ἀγαπῶσιν αὐτον", ἀδύνατον εἶναι ἐπειθόμην τοῦ ἐν σαρκί ὄντα τινά ἐκείνων ἐν θεωρίᾳ γενέσθαι. Ἐνόμιζον δέ ὅτι ἐκείνῳ μόνῳ κατά φιλοτιμίαν ταῦτα ὑπέδειξας καί οὐκ ᾔδειν ὁ ἄθλιος ὅτι καί ἐπί πάντας τούς ἀγαπῶντάς σε τοῦτο γίνεται παρά σοῦ. Πόθεν δέ ἤ πῶς ἠδυνάμην εἰδέναι ὅτι πᾶς ὁ πιστεύων εἰς σέ μέλος σόν γίνεται, χάριτι ἀπαστράπτων Θεότητα - τίς δέ τοῦτο πιστεύσει; καί μακάριος γένηται, μακαρίου Θεοῦ μακάριον μέλος γενόμενος; Πόθεν που ἐγίνωσκον ὅτι σύ ἀντί τροφῆς αἰσθητῆς ἀθάνατος καί ἄφθαρτος ἄρτος τοῖς διά σέ πεινῶσιν ἀκόρεστος γίνῃ καί πηγή τοῖς διψῶσιν ἀθάνατος καί χιτών ἀπαστράπτων τοῖς εὐτελῆ διά σέ περιβεβλημένοις ἱμάτια; Ταῦτα γάρ ἀκούων διά τῶν σῶν κηρύκων λεγόμενα, ἐν τῷ μέλλοντι αἰῶνι καί μετά τήν ἀνάστασιν μόνον ὑπελάμβανον γίνεσθαι καί οὐκ ᾔδειν ὅτι καί νῦν μᾶλλον ἐπιτελοῦνται, ὅτε καί τούτων ἐν χρείᾳ πλείονι καθεστήκαμεν.

Ταῦτα οὔτε ᾔδειν, πανάγιε Βασιλεῦ, οὔτε ἐν ἐπιθυμίᾳ τούτων ποτέ γέγονα, οὔτε ᾐτησάμην τι ἐκ τούτων λαβεῖν παρά σοῦ, (440) ἀλλ᾿ ἤ τῶν ἁμαρτιῶν μου μιμνησκόμενος, τήν ἐκείνων συγχώρησιν μόνον ἐζήτουν μεσίτην καί πρεσβευτήν εὑρεῖν, ὡς ἄνωθεν εἶπον, ∆έσποτα, ἐπεθύμησα, ἵνα διά τῆς ἐκείνου ἐντεύξεως καί τῆς πρός ἐκεῖνόν μου δουλώσεως κἄν ἐν τῷ μέλλοντι εὕροιμι τῶν πολλῶν μου ἁμαρτημάτων τήν ἄφεσιν. Ὡς δέ ἤκουον ὁμοθυμαδόν ἅπαντας λέγοντας μή εἶναι τοιοῦτον ἐπί τῆς ἄρτι ἅγιον, εἰς πλείονα λύπην ἔπιπτον. Πλήν ὅμως οὐδέποτε τοῦτο ἐπίστευσα, ἀλλά πρός τούς τοιούτους ἀπεκρινάμην, ∆έσποτα Χριστέ, καθώς οἶδας, καί ἔλεγον· "Κύριέ μου, ἐλέησον. Καί τοσοῦτον ὁ διάβολος τοῦ ∆εσπότου Θεοῦ ἐγένετο δυνατώτερος, ἵνα πάντας ἐφελκύσῃ πρός ἑαυτόν καί εἰς τήν αὐτοῦ μερίδα ποιήσηται, ὥστε μή καταληφθῆναί τινα εἰς τό μέρος τοῦ Θεοῦ;".

∆ιά τοῦτο, ὡς οἶμαι, φιλάνθρωπε βασιλεῦ, ἐν τῷ τοῦ βίου σκότει καί ἐν μέσῳ τῶν κακῶν καθημένῳ μοι τό φῶς σου τό ἅγιον ἔλαμψας καί ἐν αὐτῷ τόν σόν μοι καθυπέδειξας ἅγιον. Καί ὅν τρόπον ἐπί τοῦ δούλου σου Παύλου ἐποίησας, διώκοντά σε καλέσας αὐτόν διά τῆς θεϊκῆς ἐμφανείας σου - καί γάρ ἐκείνου θεασαμένου σε καί