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my eyes, my ears, and my mouth blocked up with the mud, (451) and not even so seeing who you are, except only knowing what kind of a good and man-loving person you are, you led me out of that deepest pit and mire. Therefore, saying to me: "Take hold and, clinging to this man, follow; for this man will lead you away and wash you," and having granted me a firm faith in him, you withdrew. Where then you had gone, I do not know.

Therefore, to the one pointed out to me by you, all-holy Master, according to your command, I followed without turning back, and as he led me with much labor to the fountains and the springs, being blind and dragged along behind him by the hand of faith given to me by you and compelled to follow, where he, seeing well, lifted his feet and passed through all the stones and pits and stumbling blocks, leaping over them, it happened that I would strike against and fall into these things, and I endured many pains and many hardships and afflictions. But he for his part washed and bathed himself on his own at every spring and fountain at the proper time, but I, not seeing, passed most of them by. For if he had not taken my hand and stood me by the spring and guided the hands of my mind, I could not even have found where the fountain of water was. But when he showed me and often permitted me to wash, along with the clean water, I would also take up in my palms some mud lying near the spring and perhaps mire, and I would defile my face, but also, often groping to find the fountain of water, I would drag down the dirt with it and stir up the mire, and, not seeing at all, defiling my face with the mire as if with water, I thought I was being washed clean.

(452) And how shall I relate again the necessity and violence from this? Not only this, but also of those often protesting and suggesting and saying to me daily: "Why do you labor in vain, acting foolishly, and follow this mocker and deceiver, expecting to see again vainly and uselessly? For it is not possible now. Why do you follow, striking and bloodying your feet? And why do you not rather go to merciful people, who invite you to rest and be fed and well cared for? For it is not possible for you to be rid of the leprosy of the soul, nor ever to see again now. For from where has this mocker himself just appeared as a miracle-worker, promising you things that are impossible for all men of the present generation? Woe to you, because you will both lose the healing given to you by Christ-loving and brother-loving and sympathetic men and you will endure the hardships and afflictions, which you suffer for vain hopes and you will in truth fall short of the things promised to you by that deceiver and impostor. For what power does he have at all? And apart from us, do you not reason in yourself, nor do you understand? What then? Do we not all see? Or are we blind, as that deluded one himself tells you? Truly we all see, and there is no other recovery of sight greater than this, make no mistake." But from all these, you the merciful and compassionate, from these true deceivers and impostors, who give their neighbor a murky potion of subversion to drink, you rescued me through the faith and hope granted to me by you, through which you strengthened me to endure both the things that were said and many more.

(453) But indeed, as I persevered in all these things and did not turn away, washing daily with eyes thus clouded and by feel, and seemingly being cleansed, as your apostle and disciple was teaching me, once while I was walking and running to the spring, you yourself again, who also before had dragged me from the mire, met me on the way. And then for the first time, with the immaculate splendor of your face, you shone around my weak eyes, and what light I thought I had, even that I lost, not being able to recognize you. And how could I have, of whom not even the

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τοῦ βορβόρου τούς ὀφθαλμούς, τά ὦτα καί τό στόμα ἐμπεφραγμένον, (451) καί μηδέ οὕτω βλέποντα ὅστις εἶ, εἰ μή μόνον γνόντα ὁποῖός τίς ποτε ἀγαθός καί φιλάνθρωπος ὑπάρχεις, τοῦ βαθυτάτου με λάκκου ἐκείνου καί βορβόρου ἐξήγαγες. Εἰπών οὖν μοι· "Κράτησον καί τῷ ἀνθρώπῳ τούτῳ κολληθείς ἀκολούθησον· οὖτος γάρ σε ἀπαγαγών ἀπολούσειε", πίστιν τε βεβαίαν εἰς τοῦτόν μοι χαρισάμενος, ὑπεχώρησας. Ποῦ οὖν γεγονώς ᾖς, ἀγνοῶ.

Τῷ γοῦν ὑποδειχθέντι μοι παρά σοῦ, πανάγιε ∆έσποτα, κατά τό πρόσταγμά σου ἀμεταστρεπτί ἠκολούθησα, κἀκείνου πρός τάς βρύσεις καί τάς πηγάς κόπῳ πολλῷ ἀγαγόντος με, τυφλόν ὄντα καί ὄπισθεν ἐφελκόμενον ἐκείνου τῇ παρά σοῦ μοι δοθείσῃ χειρί τῆς πίστεως καί ἀκολουθεῖν ἀναγκαζόμενον, ἔνθα βλέπων ἐκεῖνος καλῶς τούς πόδας ἀνελάμβανε καί διά τῶν λίθων καί βοθύνων καί σκανδάλων διήρχετο ἁπάντων ὑπεραλλόμενος, ἐμέ εἰς ταῦτα προσκρούειν καί ἐμπίπτειν συνέβαινε, καί πολλούς πόνους καί πολλάς κακώσεις καί θλίψεις ὑπέμεινα. Ἀλλά γάρ ἐκεῖνος μέν ἐν πάσῃ πηγῇ καί βρύσει ἀφ᾿ ἑαυτοῦ καθ᾿ ὥραν ἐνίπτετο καί ἐλούετο, ἐγώ δέ μή βλέπων παρηρχόμην τάς πλείω. Εἰ μή γάρ ἐκεῖνος τῆς χειρός ἐκράτησέ μου καί πρός τῇ πηγῇ ἔστησε καί τάς χεῖρας ὡδήγησέ μου τοῦ νοός, οὐδ᾿ ὅπου ποτέ οὖσαν ἠδυνάμην εὑρεῖν τήν βρύσιν τοῦ ὕδατος. Ὑποδείξαντος δέ καί πολλάκις ἐάσαντός με τοῦ νίψασθαι, σύν τῷ καθαρῷ ὕδατι καί πηλόν που προσπαρακείμενον τῇ πηγῇ καί βόρβορον ἴσως ἐν ταῖς παλάμαις συνανελάμβανον καί τό πρόσωπόν μου ἐμόλυνον, ἀλλά καί τήν βρύσιν πολλάκις ψηλαφῶν τοῦ ὕδατος εὑρεῖν συγκατέσπων τόν χοῦν καί τόν βόρβορον ἀνετάρασσον καί μή βλέπων ὅλως, μολύνων τῷ βορβόρῳ τό πρόσωπον ὥσπερ ἐν ὕδατι, καθαρῶς ἐνόμιζον ἀποπλύνεσθαι.

(452) Πῶς δέ τήν ἐκ τούτου πάλιν ἀνάγκην καί βίαν ἐκδιηγήσομαι; Οὐ μόνον δέ ἀλλά καί τῶν πολλάκις διαμαρτυρουμένων καί ὑποτιθεμένων καί καθ᾿ ἑκάστην λεγόντων μοι· "Τί ματαιοπονεῖς, ἀφρόνως ποιῶν, καί τῷ ἐμπαίκτῃ τούτῳ καί πλάνῳ ἀκολουθεῖς, ἀναβλέψαι ματαίως καί ἀνωφελῶς προσδοκῶν; Οὐδέ γάρ νῦν δυνατόν. Τί καί τούς πόδας προσκρούων καί αἱμάσσων ἀκολουθεῖς; Τί δέ μή μᾶλλον ἐλεήμοσι προσέρχῃ, παρακαλοῦσι τοῦ ἀναπαύειν καί διατρέφειν καί καλῶς θεραπεύειν σε; Οὐ γάρ ἐνδέχεταί σε τῆς λέπρας ἀπαλλαγῆναι τῆς ψυχικῆς, οὐδέ νῦν ἀναβλέψαι ποτέ. Πόθεν γάρ ὁ ἐμπαίκτης αὐτός ἀνεφάνη ἄρτι θαυματουργός, ὑπισχνούμενός σοι τά παρά πᾶσιν ἀνθρώποις τῆς νῦν γενεᾶς ὄντα ἀδύνατα; Οὐαί σοι, ὅτι καί τήν διδομένην σοι θεραπείαν παρά τῶν φιλοχρίστων καί φιλαδέλφων καί συμπαθῶν ἀνδρῶν ἀπολέσεις καί τάς κακώσεις καί θλίψεις, ἅς ὑφίστασαι ἐπί ματαίαις ἐλπίσιν, ὑπομενεῖς καί τῶν ἐπαγγελλομένων σοι ὑπό τοῦ ἀπατεῶνος καί πλάνου αὐτοῦ ἐπ᾿ ἀληθείας ἐκπέσῃς. Τί γάρ καί ἰσχύει ὅλως; Καί ἡμῶν δίχα σύ οὐ συλλογίζῃ ἐν σεαυτῷ, οὐδέ φρονεῖς; Τί δαί; Οὐχί καί ἡμεῖς πάντες βλέπομεν; Ἤ τυφλοί, ὡς ὁ πεπλανημένος αὐτός σοι λέγει, ὑπάρχομεν; Ὄντως βλέπομεν ἅπαντες, καί οὐκ ἔστιν ἄλλη μείζων ταύτης, μή ἀπατῶ, ἀνάβλεψις". Ἀλλά τούτων με πάντων, σύ ὁ ἐλεήμων καί εὔσπλαχνος, τῶν ὄντως ἀπατεώνων καί πλάνων, τῶν ἀνατροπήν θολεράν τόν πλησίον ποτιζόντων, ἐρρύσω με διά τῆς χαρισθείσης μοι παρά σοῦ πίστεως καί ἐλπίδος, δι᾿ ἧς καί τά ῥηθέντα καί ἄλλα πλείονα ἐνίσχυσας, ὑπομεῖναί με.

(453) Ἀλλά γάρ ἐν ἅπασι τούτοις καρτερήσαντι καί μή ἀφισταμένῳ μοι, οὕτω πως τεθολωμένους καί ψηλαφητῶς καθ᾿ ἑκάστην ἀπονιπτομένῳ καί τῷ δοκεῖν ἀπολουομένῳ, ὡς ὁ ἀπόστολός σου καί μαθητής με ἐδίδασκε, ποτέ περιπατοῦντι καί πρός τήν πηγήν τρέχοντι, αὐτός σύ πάλιν, ὁ καί πρῴην ἐκ τοῦ βορβόρου ἐκσπάσας με, ἐν τῇ ὁδῷ προσυπήντησας. Καί τότε πρῶτον τῇ τοῦ προσώπου σου ἀχράντῳ αἴγλῃ τά ἀσθενῆ μου περιήστραψας ὄμματα, καί ὅ ἔχειν ἐδόκουν φῶς κἀκεῖνο ἀπώλεσα, γνωρίσαι σε μή δυνηθείς. Καί πῶς ἀν ἠδυνήθην, οὗτινος οὐδέ τήν τοῦ