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With the arrows being sent, do not spare to strike back at those who strike you and contrive these things against you, but while they wound you with despair, let them be wounded by the hope sent forth from you, and while they pummel you with anger and shove you with wrath, let their faces be slapped by your gentleness, let them be cast outside, far from your house. (303) For are you, as I said, an infant or a child, for does weakness of soul exist in you even now, for is your mind presently weak for resistance? You know both how to flee the enemies and how to conquer them again, for in warring you have me as a co-worker and protector, and in fleeing you have acquired me as a mighty, strong shelter. And what of the things on earth grieves you, which of these, tell me? Gold or silver or precious stones? And who is more brilliant than I, or who shines more, or what stone, like me, is priceless in every way? Does the loss of lands, or the lack of grain, or the failure of wine disturb you at all? And what other paradise is there like me, or land of things below and fleeting like the land of the meek? And what prepared bread or wine in the world is like my grace, like the Divine Spirit, like the bread of life, which I provide, my body and my blood, to those who with a pure heart and unwavering faith eat and drink me with fear and trembling, both spiritually and sensibly? What delight, what joy, what glory, tell me, is greater on earth, than to see me alone, to behold only me as in a mirror darkly, to see the radiance of my glory and it alone and through it to be taught these things and more than these with precision, that I am God, the creator of all things, to know and to understand that a man is reconciled to me while sitting in the lowest pit, and he converses directly as a friend to a friend (304) having surpassed the rank of a hireling and the fear of slavery, serving me without wearying, ministering with love, making himself intimate with me through obedience to the commandments. I do not speak of those who serve me as hirelings, nor again of those who approach me as slaves, but the deeds of my friends and intimates and sons. Which are these by nature, write briefly. To consider oneself the most worthless of all in the world, not only of fellow ascetics and worldly people, but truly worse even than the gentiles. to reckon as a fall from eternal life one small transgression of the least commandment. the small children as perfect men

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τοῖς πεμπομένοις βέλεσι βάλλειν αὖθις μή φείσῃ τούς βάλλοντας καί κατά σοῦ ταῦτα μηχανωμένους, ἀλλά ἀνελπιστίᾳ σε τιτρώσκοντες ἐκεῖνοι ἐλπίδι τιτρωσκέσθωσαν ἐκ σοῦ ἐκπεμπομένῃ, ὀργῇ δέ σε πυγμίζοντες καί θυμῷ συνωθοῦντες ὑπό πρᾳότητος τῆς σῆς ῥαπιζέσθωσαν ὄψεις, ἔξωθεν ἐκβαλλέσθωσαν, πόρρω τῆς σῆς οἰκίας. (303) Μή γάρ, ὡς εἶπον, νήπιον ἤ παιδίον τυγχάνεις, μή γάρ ἀδυναμίᾳ σοι ψυχῆς καί νῦν ὑπάρχει, μή γάρ ἐξασθενῇ σου νοῦς ἄρτι πρός ἀντιστάσεις; Οἶδας καί φεύγειν τούς ἐχθρούς καί νικᾶν αὐτούς πάλιν καί πολεμῶν γάρ ἔχεις με συνεργόν καί προστάτην καί φεύγων σκέπην κραταιάν, ὀχυράν κέκτησαί με˙ καί λυπεῖ σε τῶν ἐν γῇ, ποῖον τούτων, εἰπέ μοι; Χρυσίον ἤ ἀργύριον ἤ λίθοι τῶν τιμίων; Καί τίς ἐμοῦ λαμπρότερος ἤ τίς ἐκλάμπων πλέον ἤ ποῖος λίθος, ὡς ἐγώ, ἀτίμητος εἰς ἅπαν; Χωρίων δέ σε στέρησις ἤ ἔνδεια τοῦ σίτου εἴτε τοῦ οἴνου ἔκλειψις ἐκταράσσουσιν ὅλως; Καί τίς ἄλλος παράδεισος οἷος ἐγώ τυγχάνει ἤ γῆ τῶν κάτω καί ῥευστῶν ὡς ἡ γῆ τῶν πραέων; Ποῖος δέ ἄρτος ἕτοιμος ἤ οἶνος ἐν τῷ κόσμῳ οἷα ἡ χάρις ἡ ἐμή, οἷον Πνεῦμα τό Θεῖον, οἷος ὁ ἄρτος τῆς ζωῆς, ὅνπερ ἐγώ παρέχω, τό σῶμα καί τό αἷμά μου, τοῖς καθαρᾷ καρδίᾳ καί πίστει ἀδιστάκτῳ με μετά φόβου καί τρόμου ἐσθίουσι καί πίνουσι νοερῶς αἰσθητῶς τε; Ποία τρυφή, ποία χαρά, ποία δόξα, εἰπέ μοι, μείζων ὑπάρχει ἐπί γῆς, ὡς ἐμέ μόνον βλέπειν, ἐμέ ὡς ἐν αἰνίγματι ἐνοπτρίζεσθαι μόνον, ἐμοῦ τῆς δόξης καθορᾶν τήν ἀπαυγήν καί μόνην καί δι᾿ αὐτῆς διδάσκεσθαι ταῦτα καί πλείω τούτων ἀκριβῶς, ὅτι Θεός κτίστης ἐγώ τῶν πάντων, εἰδέναι καί κατανοεῖν, ὅτι μοι κατηλλάγη ἄνθρωπος καθεζόμενος ἐν λάκκῳ κατωτάτῳ, ἀμέσως τε προσομιλεῖ φίλος ὥσπερ πρός φίλον (304) μισθίου τάξιν ὑπερβάς καί δουλείας τόν φόβον, ἀκαματί δουλεύων μοι, ἀγάπῃ θεραπεύων, ὑπακοῇ τῶν ἐντολῶν προσοικειούμενός μοι. Οὐ λέγω τῶν μισθωτικῶς ἐμοί ἐκδουλευόντων οὐδέ τῶν πάλιν δουλικῶς ἐμοί προσερχομένων, ἀλλά τῶν φίλων καί γνωστῶν καί υἱῶν μου τάς πράξεις˙ αἵτινες καί πεφύκασιν αὗται, γράφε συντόμως. Τό πάντων εὐτελέστερον ἡγεῖσθαι τῶν ἐν κόσμῳ οὐ μόνον τῶν συνασκητῶν καί κοσμικῶν ἀνθρώπων, ἀλλά γε καί τῶν ἐθνικῶν ἑαυτόν ὄντως χείρω˙ τό ἔκπτωσιν λογίζεσθαι ζωῆς τῆς αἰωνίου μιᾶς παράβασιν μικράν ἐντολῆς ἐλαχίστης˙ τό τά παιδία τά μικρά ὥσπερ τελείους ἄνδρας