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dragged by the fear of some executioner and seems to be traveling the road that leads to death, considering nothing else except only the pain and the anguish which he is about to undergo from the eternal punishment; and carrying this indelibly in his heart, the fear produced from it does not permit him to be anxious about any human things at all; for just as if already nailed to the wood and violently held fast by pains unto death, so he always continues, not being permitted even to fix his eyes on anyone's face, nor taking any account of the honor or dishonor of men; for holding himself from the heart as worthy of all dishonor and contempt, he does not care for the insults brought upon him.

17. He who is pregnant with the fear of death will loathe all food and drink and adornment of clothes and will not eat bread with pleasure, nor drink water; but he will provide only what is needful for the body, as much as is just sufficient for living, he will deny his every will and will become a slave to all, with discernment of the things commanded.

18. He who has given himself as a slave to his fathers according to God because of the fear of punishment, would not choose the things commanded that lighten the pain of his heart, nor those that loosen the bond of fear, nor will he obey those who lead him to such things in a friendly, or flattering, or commanding way, but rather he will prefer the things that increase it, and will desire the things that tighten the bond, and will love the things that strengthen the executioner, and will abide in these, as if not expecting at all ever to receive freedom from them. (426) For the hope of release makes the pain lighter, which is unprofitable for one who is fervently repenting.

19. For everyone beginning to live according to God, the fear of punishment and the pain born from it is beneficial. But he who imagines to make a beginning without such pain and bond and executioner, has not only laid the foundation of his actions upon sand, but also thinks he can build a house in the air without foundations, which is altogether impossible. For this pain will presently give birth to all joy, and this bond will break the bonds of all sins and passions, and this executioner procures not death but eternal life.

20. Whoever does not wish to leap away and flee from the pain born of the fear of eternal punishment, but with purpose of heart follows it and tightens its bonds more upon himself, will correspondingly travel more swiftly and it will present him before the face of the King of kings. And when this has happened, as soon as he beholds, however dimly, His glory, the bonds will immediately be loosed, and the executioner, fear, will flee far from him, and the pain in his heart will be turned into joy and will become a spring gushing forth, on the one hand, tears like a river unceasingly to the senses, but on the other hand, tranquility, meekness, and ineffable sweetness to the mind, and moreover, courage and the ability to run freely and without hindrance towards every obedience of the commandments of God; which is impossible for beginners, but characteristic for those who have ascended to the middle state according to progress, and for those who are being perfected this spring becomes light, as the heart is suddenly altered and changed.

21. He who has within him the light of the all-holy Spirit, not bearing to see it, falls prostrate on the ground, and cries out (427) and shouts in amazement and great fear, as one who has seen and experienced a thing beyond nature, beyond reason, beyond thought; and he becomes like a man whose entrails have been set on fire by some source, being burned by it and unable to bear the conflagration of the flame, he is as if beside himself; and being altogether unable to come to himself, but being drenched unceasingly by his tears and cooled by them, he ignites the fire of longing more intensely. From this then...

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δημίου τινός τοῦ φόβου συρόμενος καί τήν ἐπί θάνατον ἄγουσαν πορευόμενος φαίνεται, μηδέν λογιζόμενος ἕτερον εἰ μή τόν πόνον μόνον καί τήν ὀδύνην ἥν ὑποστῆναι μέλλει ἐκ τῆς τιμωρίας τῆς αἰωνίου˙ τοῦτον δέ ἀνεξάλειπτον φέρων ἐν τῇ καρδίᾳ, ὁ ἐξ αὐτοῦ ἐγγινόμενος φόβος οὐδέν ὅλως τῶν ἀνθρωπίνων ἐᾷ μεριμνᾶν αὐτόν˙ ὡς γάρ ἤδη τῷ ξύλῳ προσηλωθείς καί ταῖς ὀδύναις σφοδρῶς πρός θάνατον συνεχόμενος, οὕτως ἀεί διατελεῖ, μηδέ ἀτενίσαι τούς ὀφθαλμούς εἰς πρόσωπόν τινος συγχωρούμενος, μηδέ τιμῆς ἤ ἀτιμίας ἀνθρώπων λόγον ποιούμενος˙ πάσης γάρ ἀτιμίας καί ἐξουδενώσεως ἄξιον ἑαυτόν ἀπό καρδίας ἔχων, τῶν ἐπιφερομένων ὕβρεων αὐτῷ οὐ φροντίζει.

ιζ'. Πᾶσαν βρῶσιν καί πόσιν καί καλλωπισμόν ἐνδυμάτων ὁ τόν φόβον ἐγκυμονῶν τοῦ θανάτου βδελύξεται καί ἐνηδόνως οὐ φάγεται ἄρτον, οὐ πίεται ὕδωρ˙ παρέξει δέ μόνην τήν χρείαν τῷ σώματι, ὅσον μόνον αὔταρκες πρός τό ζῆν, πᾶν θέλημα ἑαυτοῦ ἀπαρνήσεται καί δοῦλον πάντων ἐν διακρίσει τῶν ἐπιταττομένων γενήσεται.

ιη'. Ὁ δοῦλον ἑαυτόν δούς τοῖς κατά Θεόν πατράσιν αὐτοῦ διά τόν φόβον τῆς κολάσεως, οὐ τά κουφίζοντα τόν τῆς καρδίας αὐτοῦ πόνον ἐπιτασσόμενος ἕλοιτο, οὐ τά λύοντα τόν τοῦ φόβου δεσμόν, οὐδέ τοῖς ἐπί τά τοιαῦτα φιλικῶς ἤ κολακευτικῶς ἤ προστακτικῶς ἐνάγουσιν ὑπακούσεται, ἀλλά μᾶλλον τά αὐξάνοντα αὐτόν προτιμήσει καί τά τόν δεσμόν ἐπισφίγγοντα θελήσει καί τά τόν δήμιον ἐνισχύοντα ἀγαπήσει καί ἐν τούτοις ἐμμενεῖ, ὡς μή προσδοκῶν ὅλως ἐλευθερίαν λήψεσθαί ποτε ἐξ αὐτῶν. (426) Ἡ γάρ ἐλπίς τῆς ἀπαλλαγῆς κουφότερον τόν πόνον ἐργάζεται, ὅπερ ἐστίν ἀλυσιτελές τῷ μετανοοῦντι θερμῶς.

ιθ'. Παντί τῷ κατά Θεόν βιοῦν ἀρχομένῳ ἐπωφελές ὁ τῆς κολάσεως φόβος καί ὁ πόνος ὁ τικτόμενος ἐξ αὐτοῦ. Ὀ δέ τοῦ τοιούτου πόνου καί δεσμοῦ καί δημίου χωρίς ἀρχήν βαλεῖν φανταζόμενος, οὐκ ἐπί ψάμμου μόνον τῶν ἑαυτοῦ πράξεων τόν θεμέλιον κατεβάλετο, ἀλλά καί εἰς ἀέρα οἴεται δίχα θεμελιων συνιστάνειν οἰκίαν, ὅπερ πάντῃ ἀδύνατον. Ὁ γάρ πόνος οὗτος ὅσον οὔπω πᾶσαν χαράν ἀποτίκτει καί ὁ δεσμός οὗτος πάντων ἁμαρτημάτων καί παθῶν δεσμά διαρρήσει καί ὁ δήμιος οὖτος οὐχί θάνατον ἀλλά ζωήν αἰώνιον προξενεῖ.

κ'. Ὅς ἄν μή θελήσῃ ἀποσκιρτῆσαι καί δεικφυγεῖν τόν τικτόμενον πόνον ἀπό τοῦ φόβου τῆς αἰωνίου κολάσεως, ἀλλά προθέσει καρδίας ἀκολουθήσῃ αὐτῷ καί ἐπισφίγξῃ πλέον τά τούτου δεσμά ἑαυτῷ, ἀναλόγως συντομώτερον ὁδεύσει καί πρό προσώπου τοῦ βασιλέως τῶν βασιλευόντων παραστήσει αὐτόν. Τούτου δέ γεγονότος, ἅμα τῷ θεάσασθαι αὐτόν ἀμυδρῶς πως τήν δόξαν αὐτοῦ, εὐθέως λυθήσονται μέν τά δεσμά, ὁ δέ δήμιος φόβος φεύξεται μακράν ἀπ᾿ αὐτοῦ καί ὁ ἐν τῇ καρδίᾳ αὐτοῦ πόνος τραπήσεται εἰς χαράν καί πηγή γενήσεται βρύουσα αἰσθητῶς μέν δάκρυα ποταμηδόν ἀενάως, νοητῶς δέ γαλήνην, πρᾳότητα καί ἄφραστον γλυκασμόν, ἔτι δέ ἀνδρείαν καί τό πρός πᾶσαν ὑπακοήν ἐλευθερίως καί ἀνεμποδίστως τρέχειν τῶν ἐντολῶν τοῦ Θεοῦ˙ ὁ τέως τοῖς εἰσαγωγικοῖς ἀδύνατον, τῶν δέ πρός τό μέσον κατά προκοπήν ἀνελθόντων καί ἴδιον, τοῖς δέ γε τελειουμένοις φῶς ἡ πηγή αὕτη, τῆς καρδίας αἴφνης ἀλλοιουμένης καί μεταβαλλομένης, γίνεται.

κα'. Ὁ ἔνδον αὐτοῦ τό φῶς τοῦ παναγίου Πνεύματος ἔχων, μή φέρων τοῦτο ὁρᾶν, εἰς γῆν πρηνής πίπτει, κράζει τε (427) καί βοᾷ ἐν ἐκπλήξει καί φόβῳ πολλῷ ὡς ὑπέρ φύσιν, ὑπέρ λόγον, ὑπέρ ἔννοιαν πρᾶγμα ἰδών καί παθών˙καί γίνεται ὅμοιος ἀνθρώπῳ ποθέν ἀναφθέντι τά σπλάγχνα ὑπό πυρός, ὑφ᾿ οὗ φλεγόμενος καί τῆς φλογός τόν ἐμπρησμόν μή δυνάμενος φέρειν, ὑπάρχει ὥσπερ ἐξεστηκώς˙ καί μηδέ ἑαυτοῦ γενέσθαι ὅλως ἰσχύων, τοῖς δάκρυσι δέ καταντλούμενος ἀενάως καί ὑπό τούτων καταψυχόμενος, τό πῦρ ἐξάπτει τοῦ πόθου σφοδρότερον. Ἐντεῦθεν δέ ΄τα