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(362) I died to all relatives and friends, yes, I truly died by my will, and I sought only the hand of God; and it, seeing me do this, touched me secretly, grasped my hand and led me while I was in the midst of darkness. So I perceived it and, rejoicing, I followed, I ran intensely by night and day, I walked vigorously with eagerness, but while walking I was motionless and then I advanced forward all the more, O mysteries, O contests, O prizes! As I was thus running in the middle of the stadium that ineffable hand has descended, through the intercession of my holy father, and touched my wretched head and has given me the crown of victory, but it rather has become a crown for me, and seeing it I had unspeakable gladness, unspeakable joy, unspeakable delight - for how could it be otherwise? having conquered the whole world and put to shame the ruler of the world and from the hand of God a divine crown, or rather, having received the very hand of the Master of all - a wonder! a hand instead of a crown, which, shining, was seen immaterially, unceasingly by me and without evening. This was offered to me like a breast and, as to a son of God, it richly supplied for me to suck the milk of incorruption, O sweetness, O unspeakable pleasure! This also became for me a cup of a divine drink (363) and of an immortal stream. Partaking of which I was also filled with the heavenly nourishment, on which angels alone are fed and are kept incorruptible, secondary lights of the First by participation. Thus we too have all become partakers of the divine and ineffable nature, children of the Father, and brothers of Christ, baptized in the All-Holy Spirit; yet surely not all of us have recognized the grace,

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(362) πᾶσιν ἔθανον συγγενέσι καί φίλοις, ναί, ὡς ἀληθῶς ἔθανον τῇ θελήσει, καί μόνην ἐζήτησα Θεοῦ τήν χεῖρα˙ ἰδοῦσα δ᾿ αὕτη οὕτως ποιοήσαντά με, ἥψατο λάθρα, χειρός ἐκράτησέ μου καί ὡδήγει με μέσον τοῦ σκότους ὄντα. Ἠσθανόμην οὖν καί χαίρων ἠκολούθουν, ἔτρεχον σφοδρῶς ἐν νυκτί καί ἡμέρᾳ, εὐτόνως ἐβάδιζον σύν προθυμίᾳ, βαδίζων δ᾿ αὖθις ἀκίνητος ὑπῆρχον καί τότε μᾶλλον προέκοπτον τοῖς πρόσω, ὤ μυστηρίων, ὤ ἄθλων, ὤ βραβείων! Οὕτω τρέχοντα τοῦ σταδίου ἐν μέσῳ πέφθακεν ἡ χείρ ἀπορρήτως ἐκείνη, τοῦ ἐμοῦ πρεσβεύσαντος πατρός ἁγίου, καί τῆς ταλαίνης ἥψατο κεφαλῆς μου καί δέδωκέ μοι τόν στέφανον τῆς νίκης, αὕτη δέ μᾶλλον στέφανος γέγονέ μοι, καί ταύτην βλέπων ἄφραστον εὐφροσύνην, ἄφραστον χαράν, ἄφραστον θυμηδίαν εἶχον - πῶς γάρ οὖ; κόσμον ὅλον νικήσας καί τόν τοῦ κόσμου ἄρχοντα καταισχύνας ἀπό χειρός τε τοῦ Θεοῦ στέφος θεῖον, μᾶλλον δέ αὐτήν τοῦ τῶν ὅλων ∆εσπότου λαβών - θαῦμα! ἀντί στεφάνου χεῖρα, ἤ ἐκλάμπουσα ἑωρᾶτο ἀΰλως, ἀδιαλείπτως ἐμοί καί ἀνεσπέρως. Αὔτη μοι μαζός προετείνετο ὥσπερ καί θηλάζειν μοι γάλακτος ἀφθαρσίας ὡς υἱῷ Θεοῦ πλουσίως ἐχορήγει, ὤ γλυκύτητος, ὤ ἡδονῆς ἀφράστου! Αὔτη καί ποτήριον πόματος θείου (363) καί ἀθανάτου ῥείθρου ἐγένετό μοι. Ἐξ οὗ μετασχών καί τροφῆς ἐνεπλήσθην τῆς οὐρανίου, ἥνπερ ἄγγελοι μόνοι τρέφονται καί ἄφθαρτοι διατηροῦνται, φῶτα τοῦ πρώτου δεύτερα τῇ μεθέξει. Οὕτω καί ἡμεῖς θείας καί ἀπορρήτου φύσεως γεγόναμεν κοινωνοί πάντες, τέκνα τοῦ Πατρός, ἀδελφοί τοῦ Χριστοῦ δέ, Πνεύματι βαπτισθέντες τῷ Παναγίῳ˙ πάντως δ᾿ οὐ πάντες ἐπέγνωμεν τήν χάριν,