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may he preserve and keep you safe for every good work and for all self-sufficiency of life, I mean both your company and the most devout sisters, with everyone praying for our unworthiness. 554 {1To Plato my own father}1 Why, holy father, do you enjoin upon me, a wretched man, things that are beyond me? I have need to be enlightened by you, and yet you seek to be instructed by me, who am in darkness? But this too you do, shaping me toward humility. I do not know what to say that is suitable to the occasion, other than that God has ordered our affairs well. For if some, out of love for God, having left the leadership positions they held, fleeing far away, were blessed in the quiet life, how shall we, the humble, who have been guarded in exile by the law of God, not rejoice in the Lord, reckoning it a grace to him and a very great gift that we have been deemed worthy to arrive at such a measure, which many, though desiring it, did not attain? Sit, then, my holy father, in the place where God, and not man, has guarded you within for a time (since we do not even know what the morrow will bring forth, whether thus or otherwise as Providence commands) and glorify the Lord who has glorified you through your confessor's resistance, eating your bread with thanksgiving and joy, which men thought to offer you as bitter. You do not now have strength in your old age, since ascetic labors were your prelude in your youth, by the grace of Christ in all things. For this reason, I beg and beseech you, do not refuse to support your worn-out body with food and drink; sufficient for you is the solitude, the imprisonment, the desolation, the deprivation, the weakness of old age along with sickness, the care for us sinners and for the others. Be content, enduring in these things, hunting for purity of thoughts through the soaring on high of your precious soul. For when the solitary element is present, the mind, like water squeezed through a pipe, can easily run up from the things low on the ground to the heavenly things. This is what is sought, to be with God in dispassion forever. Nevertheless, wars are determined by our fathers to be the cause of crowns; so that, even if we resist while being warred against, we carry away the glory of victory against the defeated devil. But I am ashamed, being held fast by the passions, to utter such things to you my father, but I have been compelled through my obedience to you. It is good to be loosed from many-fettered attachment and to be bound by the insatiable love of the Lord. It is profitable, my father, to abstain from the foul odor of the passions and to smell the sweet fragrance of the Spirit. Blessed is it to be filled with compunction here and to weep for ................. ...............; and there is rejoicing for such a one, with the fear of God leading the way in all things; which, like a fire when it arises in the soul, is by nature wont to burn up the incursions of sin. And how should we not fear him before whom angels shudder, at whose glance creation trembles, before whom we all shall stand naked and exposed, a little later to receive the recompense for the things we have done in life? But I, wretched man, finding myself in none of the things I have mentioned, am downcast, asking the help of your holy prayers for the opening of the eyes of my soul, for a taste of true love. But my body is also weak, along with my soul, as you know, and I do not know what I should do; for if I should seem to force it even a little, I lose even the little that I possess. I have found this one consolation (and it is necessary to report it to you, my father), having learned from reading and questioning the Easterners that it is necessary for those in stillness, if possible, to partake of the divine communion every day. I have acted thus and have found help, wretched as I am, my thought being restrained from passionate movement on account of the fearful reception of the gift. For what could be greater for the rejoicing and enlightenment of the soul than the divine communion? And in a designated glass chalice, having set forth wine and said the customary prayers, I, the unworthy one, partake of the gift. And declare to me whether I do well or not; a ripe fruit of your fruits to be eaten. Blessed are you, my father, and

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πρὸς πᾶν ἔργον ἀγαθὸν καὶ πρὸς πᾶσαν αὐτάρκειαν βίου συντηρῶν διαφυλάξειε, τήν τε ὑμῶν συζυγίαν φημὶ καὶ τὰς εὐλαβεστάτας ἀδελφάς, ὑπερευχομένων πάντων τῆς ἡμετέρας ἀναξιότητος. 554 {1Πλάτωνι οἰκείῳ πατρί}1 Ἱνατί μοι, πάτερ ἅγιε, τῷ ἀθλίῳ ἐπιτάσσῃς τὰ ὑπὲρ ἐμέ; ἐγὼ χρείαν ἔχω ὑπὸ σοῦ φωτίζεσθαι, καὶ αὐτὸς ζητεῖς παρ' ἐμοῦ τοῦ ἐσκοτισμένου κατηχεῖσθαι; ἀλλὰ καὶ τοῦτο τυπῶν με πρὸς ταπείνωσιν. οὐκ οἶδα δὲ τί εἴπω τῷ καιρῷ πρόσφορον ἢ ὅτι καλῶς ᾠκονόμησεν ὁ θεὸς τὰ καθ' ἡμᾶς· εἰ γὰρ ἐκ φιλοθεΐας τινὲς καταλιπόντες τὰς ὑπαρχούσας αὐτοῖς ἡγεμονίας μακράν που ἀποδραμόντες τῷ ἡσυ χαστικῷ βίῳ ἐμακαρίσθησαν, πῶς ἡμεῖς οἱ ταπεινοί, διὰ νόμον θεοῦ πεφρουρισμένοι ἐν ἐξορίᾳ, οὐκ ἀγαλλιασόμεθα ἐν Κυρίῳ, χάριν αὐτῷ λογιζόμενοι καὶ δωρεὰν μεγίστην ὅτι ἠξιώμεθα ἐν μέτρῳ τοιούτῳ καταντῆσαι, οὗ πολλοὶ ἐφιέμενοι οὐκ ἐπέτυχον; Κάθου δή, πάτερ μου ἅγιε, ἐν ᾧ τόπῳ ὁ θεὸς ἀλλ' οὐκ ἄνθρωπος εἴσω ἐφρούρησέ σε ἕως καιροῦ (ἐπεὶ μηδὲ ἴσμεν τί τέξεται ἡ ἐπιοῦσα, εἴτε οὕτως εἴτε ἄλλως τῆς προνοίας κελευούσης) καὶ δόξαζε τὸν δοξάσαντά σε Κύριον διὰ τῆς μαρτυρικῆς σου ἐνστάσεως, ἐσθίων τὸν ἄρτον σου μετ' εὐχαριστίας καὶ χαρᾶς, ὃν ἔδοξαν οἱ ἄνθρωποι πικρόν σοι προσφέρειν. οὔπω σοι δύναμις ἐν τῷ γήρει, κόπων ἀσκητικῶν προηγωνισμένων σοι ἐν τῇ νεότητι χάριτι Χριστοῦ κατὰ πάντα. διὰ τοῦτο, παρακαλῶ καὶ ἀντιβολῶ, καὶ βρώμασι καὶ πόμασι τοῦ κατατρυχωμένου σου σώματος ἀντιλαμβάνεσθαι μὴ παραιτοῦ· ἀρκεῖ σοι ἡ μόνωσις, ἡ κάθειρξις, ἡ ἐρημία, ἡ ὑποστέρησις, ἡ ἀδυναμία τοῦ γήρους μετὰ καὶ ἀσθενείας, ἡ περὶ ἡμᾶς τε τοὺς ἁμαρτωλοὺς καὶ τοὺς ἄλλους φροντίς. ἐν τούτοις ὑπομένων αὐταρκοῦ, καθαρότητα θηρεύων τῶν λογισμῶν διὰ τῆς μετεωροπορήσεως τῆς τιμίας σου ψυχῆς. ἡνίκα γὰρ ἄρτι τὸ ἐρημικὸν πρόσεστιν, εὐχερῶς ὁ νοῦς ὥσπερ ὑπὸ σωλῆνος σφιγγόμενον ὕδωρ δύναιτ' ἂν ἀνατρέχειν ἐκ τῶν χαμαιζήλων πρὸς τὰ ἐπουράνια. τοῦτό ἐστι τὸ ζητούμενον, τὸ μετὰ θεοῦ τῇ ἀπροσπαθείᾳ εἰς ἀεὶ ἔσεσθαι. πλὴν οἱ πόλεμοι στεφάνων αἴτιοι παρὰ τῶν πατέρων ἡμῶν ὁρίζονται· ὥστε, εἰ καὶ πολεμούμενοι ἐνιστάμεθα, νίκης ἀποφερόμεθα κλέος κατὰ τοῦ ἡττημένου διαβόλου. Ἐγὼ δὲ αἰσχύνομαι, ἰσχημένος ὢν τοῖς πάθεσι, τοιαῦτα πρὸς σὲ τὸν πατέρα μου φθεγγόμενος, ἀλλ' ἠνάγκασμαι δι' ὑπακοήν σου. καλὸν τὸ λυθῆναι τῆς πολυδέσμου προσπαθείας καὶ δεθῆναι τῷ ἀκορέστῳ ἔρωτι Κυρίου. συμφέρον, πάτερ μου, τὸ ἀποσχέσθαι τῆς τῶν παθῶν δυσωδίας καὶ ὀσφραίνεσθαι τῆς τοῦ πνεύματος εὐωδίας. μακάριον τὸ κατανυχθῆναι ἐνταῦθα καὶ κλαῦσαι ὑπὲρ ................. ...............· καὶ ἀγαλλίασις τῷ τοιούτῳ, ἐν πᾶσι προηγουμένου τοῦ φόβου θεοῦ· ὅς, καθάπερ πῦρ ὅτε ἐν τῇ ψυχῇ γένηται, ἐγκαταφλέγειν πέφυκε τὰς εἰσβολὰς τῆς ἁμαρτίας. πῶς δὲ οὐ φοβητέον ὃν φρίττουσι ἄγγελοι, οὗ τῷ βλέμματι δονεῖται ἡ κτίσις, ᾧ παραστησόμεθα πάντες γυμνοὶ καὶ τετραχηλισμένοι, μικρὸν ὕστερον ἀποληψόμενοι τῶν βεβιωμένων τὰς ἀμείψεις; ἐγὼ δὲ ὁ τάλας, ἐν οὐδενὶ ὧν εἶπον ἑαυτὸν καταλαμβανόμενος, σκυθρωπάζω, τὴν τῶν ἁγίων εὐχῶν σου ἐπικουρίαν αἰτῶν εἰς διάνοιξιν τῶν τῆς ψυχῆς ὀφθαλμῶν, εἰς γεῦσιν τοῦ ὄντως ἔρωτος. ἀλλ' ἔστι μοι σὺν τῇ ψυχῇ καὶ τὸ σῶμα ἀσθενές, ὡς οἶσθα, καὶ οὐκ οἶδ' ὅ τι χρήσωμαι· μικρὸν γὰρ εἰ δόξω βιάζεσθαι, ἀπόλλω καὶ ὅπερ μικρὸν κατέχω. μίαν ταύτην παρηγορίαν εὕρηκα (καὶ δέον ἀναθέσθαι σοι, πάτερ μου), ἐξ ἀναγνώσεως καὶ ἐρωτήσεως τῶν Ἀνατολικῶν μαθὼν τὸ χρῆναι τοὺς ἡσυχάζοντας εἰ δυνατὸν καθ' ἑκάστην μεταλαμβάνειν τῆς θείας κοινωνίας. ἐχρησάμην οὕτως καὶ εὗρον βοήθειαν ὁ ἄθλιος, ὑποστελλομένης τῆς διανοίας ἐκ τῆς ἐμπαθοῦς κινήσεως διὰ τὴν τοῦ δώρου ἔμφοβον ὑποδοχήν. καὶ τί γὰρ μεῖζον εἰς ἀγαλλίασιν καὶ φωτισμὸν εἴη ἂν τῇ ψυχῇ πλέον τῆς θείας κοινωνίας; ἐν ποτηρίῳ δὲ ὑαλίνῳ ἀφωρισμένῳ προβαλὼν οἶνον καὶ εὐξάμενος τὰ συνήθη μετέχω ὁ ἀνάξιος τοῦ δώρου. καὶ δήλωσόν μοι εἰ καλῶς ποιῶ ἢ οὔ· πέρανον τῶν καρπῶν σου φαγέσθαι. Μακάριος εἶ, πάτερ μου, καὶ