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wealth, this is the payment for my sins, to continually travel through such temptations, and for these to be brought upon me by those from whom I by no means expected it. For when we were about to enter the land of the Cappadocians, having gotten away from the Galatian, and he having almost threatened us with death, many met us on the road, saying that, "The lord Pharetrius is waiting for you and is pursuing you everywhere, lest he should fail to meet you, and he is doing and contriving everything so as to see you and embrace you and show you all love; and he has stirred up the monasteries of men and women." But I, hearing these things, expected none of them, but imagined the contrary to myself; however, I said none of these things to any of those who reported this. 9.2 But when at last I entered Caesarea, worn out, emaciated, lying in the very height of the fever's flame, in distress, suffering the worst, I came upon a lodging situated at the very edge of the city and I made haste to meet with doctors and to quench that furnace; for it was the height of the tertian fever. And there was also the hardship of the journey, the weariness, the exhaustion, the lack of those to care for me, the want of necessities, the fact that no doctor was with us, being worn down by toil and heat and sleeplessness, and being almost a corpse I entered the city. Then indeed came all the clergy, the people, monks, nuns, doctors, I enjoyed much care, with everyone ministering and serving us in everything. But even so, being overcome by the heavy stupor of the flame, I was in the worst straits. Finally, little by little the sickness began to cease and abate. But Pharetrius was nowhere; but he was awaiting our departure, I know not what seemed good to him. Since, then, I saw the illness gently subsiding, I was henceforth considering my departure, so as to reach Cucusus and rest a little from the misfortunes of the journey. And while we were occupied with these things, it was suddenly reported that an infinite multitude of Isaurians were overrunning the country of the Caesareans and had burned a large village and committed the worst atrocities. Hearing this, the tribune took the soldiers he had and went out. For they feared that they might also attack the city and everyone was in fear, everyone in anguish, fearing for the very soil of their homeland, so that even the elders took to guarding the walls. While matters were in this state, suddenly at dawn a band of monks—for so I must speak and by this word indicate their madness—stood at the house where we were, threatening to burn it, to set it on fire, to inflict the worst on us, if I did not come out. And neither the fear of the Isaurians, nor the illness so severely pressing, nor anything else made them more reasonable, but they pressed on, breathing such fury that even the provincial officials were frightened. For they also threatened them with blows and boasted that they had already shamefully beaten many provincial officials. Hearing these things, the provincial officials fled to us, and they exhorted and begged, saying, "Even if we are to fall among the Isaurians, deliver us from these wild beasts." The governor, hearing this, ran down to the house, wishing to help us. The monks did not yield even when he exhorted them, but he too was powerless. Seeing, therefore, that matters were in great difficulty and neither daring to advise us to go out to certain death, nor again to remain inside because of their great madness, he sent to Pharetrius, begging him to grant a few days, both because of the illness and because of the impending danger. And even so, nothing more was accomplished, but on the next day they came more violently and none of the presbyters dared to stand by and help, but being ashamed and blushing —for they said it was according to the will of Pharetrius

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πλοῦτος, αὕτη τῶν ἁμαρτημάτων μου ἡ δαπάνη, τὸ συνεχῶς διὰ τοιούτων ὁδεύειν πειρασμῶν, καὶ ἐπάγεσθαί μοι τούτους παρ' ὧν οὐδαμῶς προσεδόκησα. Ἐπειδὴ γὰρ ἐμέλλομεν ἐπιβαίνειν τῆς Καππαδοκῶν χώρας, ἀπαλλαγέντες τοῦ Γαλάτου, κἀκείνου δὲ σχεδὸν θάνατον ἡμῖν ἀπειλήσαντος, πολλοὶ κατὰ τὴν ὁδὸν ἡμῖν ἀπήντων λέγοντες ὅτι «Ὁ κύριος Φαρέτριος ἀναμένει σε καὶ πανταχοῦ μετέρχεται, μὴ ἀποτύχῃ τῆς συντυχίας σου, καὶ πάντα ποιεῖ καὶ πραγματεύεται ὥστε σε ἰδεῖν καὶ περιπτύξασθαι καὶ πᾶσαν ἐπιδείξασθαι ἀγάπην· καὶ τὰ μοναστήρια ἀνδρῶν καὶ γυναικῶν ἐκίνησεν». Ἐγὼ δὲ ταῦτα ἀκούων τούτων μὲν οὐδὲν προσεδόκων, ἀλλὰ τἀναντία ἀνετύπουν παρ' ἐμαυτῷ· τῶν μέντοι ταῦτα ἀπαγγελλόντων οὐδενὶ τούτων οὐδὲν ἔλεγον. 9.2 Ἐπειδὴ δὲ ἐπέβην ὀψέ ποτε τῆς Καισαρείας, κατειργασμένος, τεταριχευμένος, ἐν αὐτῇ τῆς φλογὸς τῇ ἀκμῇ τοῦ πυρετοῦ κείμενος, ἀλύων, τὰ ἔσχατα πάσχων, ἐπέτυχον καταγωγίου πρὸς αὐτῇ τῆς πόλεως τῇ ἐσχατιᾷ κειμένου καὶ σπουδὴν ἐποιούμην ὥστε καὶ ἰατροῖς συντυχεῖν καὶ τὴν κάμινον ἐκείνην σβέσαι· ἦν γὰρ αὐτὴ ἡ ἀκμὴ τοῦ τριταίου. Καὶ προσῆν καὶ ἡ τῆς ὁδοῦ ταλαιπωρία, ὁ κάματος, ἡ συντριβή, ἡ τῶν θεραπευσόντων ἐρημία, ἡ τῶν ἐπιτηδείων ἀπορία, τὸ μηδένα παρεῖναι ἡμῖν ἰατρόν, τὸ καμάτῳ καὶ θάλπει καὶ ἀγρυπνίαις καταταθῆναι, καὶ σχεδὸν αὐτονεκρὸς ὢν εἰσῆλθον εἰς τὴν πόλιν. Τότε δὴ παρεγένοντο ὁ κλῆρος ἅπας, ὁ δῆμος, μονάζοντες, μονάστριαι, ἰατροί, πολλῆς ἀπήλαυον θεραπείας, πάντων πάντα ἡμῖν διακονουμένων, ὑπηρετουμένων. Ἀλλὰ καὶ οὕτως πολλῷ τῷ κάρῳ τῆς φλογὸς κατεχόμενος, ἐν ἐσχάτοις ἤμην δεινοῖς. Τέλος κατὰ μικρὸν ἔληγε καὶ ἐλώφα τὸ νόσημα. Ὁ δὲ Φαρέτριος οὐδαμοῦ· ἀλλ' ἀνέμενεν ἡμῶν τὴν ἔξοδον, οὐκ οἶδα τί δόξαν αὐτῷ. Ἐπειδὴ τοίνυν εἶδον ἠρέμα λωφῆσαν τὸ κακόν, ἐβουλευόμην λοιπὸν περὶ ἀποδημίας, ὥστε ἐπιλαβέσθαι τῆς Κουκουσοῦ καὶ μικρὸν ἀναπαύσασθαι τῶν τῆς ὁδοῦ συμφορῶν. Καὶ ἐν τούτοις ἡμῶν ὄντων, ἀπαγγέλλονται ἀθρόον Ἴσαυροι πλῆθος ἄπειρον κατατρέχοντες τὴν Καισαρέων χώραν καί τινα κώμην μεγάλην ἐμπρήσαντες καὶ τὰ ἔσχατα διαθέντες. Τοῦτο ἀκούσας ὁ τριβοῦνος, λαβὼν τοὺς στρατιώτας οὓς εἶχεν ἐξῆλθεν. Ἐδεδοίκεισαν γὰρ μὴ καὶ τῇ πόλει προσβάλωσι καὶ πάντες ἦσαν ἐν φόβῳ, πάντες ἐν ἀγωνίᾳ, περὶ αὐτοῦ τοῦ ἐδάφους τῆς πατρίδος κινδυνεύοντες, ὡς καὶ αὐτοὺς τοὺς πρεσβύτας τὴν φυλακὴν τῶν τειχῶν μεταχειρίζεσθαι. Ἐν τούτοις τῶν πραγμάτων ὄντων, ἀθρόον ὑπὸ τὴν ἕω δροῦγγος μοναζόντων-οὕτω γὰρ δεῖ εἰπεῖν καὶ τῇ λέξει τὴν μανίαν αὐτῶν ἐνδείξασθαι- ἐπέστησαν τῇ οἰκίᾳ ἔνθα ἦμεν, ἀπειλοῦντες αὐτὴν καίειν, ἐμπιμπρᾶν, τὰ ἔσχατα ἡμᾶς διατιθέναι, εἰ μὴ ἐξέλθοιμι. Καὶ οὔτε ὁ τῶν Ἰσαύρων φόβος, οὔτε ἡ ἀρρωστία οὕτω σφοδρῶς ἐπικειμένη, οὔτε ἄλλο οὐδὲν ἐποίησεν ἐπιεικεστέρους αὐτούς, ἀλλ' ἐπέκειντο τοσούτου θυμοῦ πνέοντες ὡς καὶ αὐτοὺς φοβηθῆναι τοὺς ἐπαρχικούς. Καὶ γὰρ καὶ αὐτοῖς ἠπείλουν πληγὰς καὶ ἐκαλλωπίζοντο ὡς καὶ ἤδη πολλοὺς αἰσχρῶς τυπτήσαντες ἐπαρχικούς. Ταῦτα οἱ ἐπαρχικοὶ ἀκούσαντες κατέφυγον εἰς ἡμᾶς, παρεκάλουν τε καὶ ἐδέοντο ὅτι «Κἂν εἰς Ἰσαύρους μέλλωμεν ἐμπίπτειν, ἀπάλλαξον ἡμᾶς τῶν θηρίων τούτων». Ἀκούσας ὁ ἡγεμὼν κατέδραμεν ἐπὶ τὴν οἰκίαν βουλόμενος ἡμῖν βοηθῆσαι. Οὐδὲ ἐκείνου παρακαλοῦντος ἠνέσχοντο οἱ μονάζοντες, ἀλλὰ καὶ αὐτὸς ἠσθένησεν. Ὁρῶν τοίνυν τὰ πράγματα ἐν ἀπορίᾳ πολλῇ καὶ οὔτε τολμῶν ἡμῖν συμβουλεῦσαι εἰς φόνον φανερὸν ἐξελθεῖν, οὔτε πάλιν ἔνδον μένειν διὰ τὴν τοσαύτην ἐκείνων μανίαν, ἔπεμψε πρὸς τὸν Φαρέτριον παρακαλῶν ὀλίγων ἐνδοῦναι ἡμερῶν, διά τε τὴν ἀρρωστίαν, διά τε τὸν ἐπικείμενον κίνδυνον. Καὶ οὐδὲ οὕτως ἐγένετό τι πλέον, ἀλλὰ καὶ τῇ ἑξῆς σφοδρότεροι παρεγένοντο καὶ τῶν πρεσβυτέρων οὐδεὶς ἐτόλμα παραστῆναι καὶ βοηθῆσαι, ἀλλ' αἰσχυνόμενοι καὶ ἐρυθριῶντες -κατὰ γὰρ γνώμην Φαρετρίου ἔλεγον