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expecting to fall into their hands. Do not these sufferings alone seem to you, even if nothing else had happened to me, to be able to dissolve many of our sins and to provide me a great occasion for good repute? But the cause, as I at least think, is that everyone saw me as soon as I entered Caesarea, those in high office, those from the vicariates, those from the governorships, sophists, those from the tribunes, the whole populace every day, they paid me court, they carried me on the apple of their eyes; these things, I think, irritated Pharetrius and the envy which drove us from Constantinople did not depart from us even here, as I at least think; for I am not stating it as a fact but I suspect it. What could one say about the other things along the road, the fears, the dangers? Recalling these things myself every day and turning them over in my mind, I fly with pleasure, I leap for joy as though having a great treasure laid up; for such is my state and disposition. Wherefore I also urge your honor to rejoice at these things, to be glad, to leap for joy, to glorify God who has deemed us worthy to suffer such things. And I beg you to keep these things to yourself and to tell no one, even though the provincials have filled the whole city with them, having themselves also been in extreme danger. Nevertheless, from your piety let no one know this, but also silence those who speak of it. 9.4 But if you are grieving because of the remains of my ill-treatment, know clearly that I have been completely delivered from all of it and I have a stronger body than when I was living there. And why do you fear the cold? For suitable dwellings have been prepared for us, and my lord Dioscorus is doing and arranging everything so that we feel not even a slight sensation from the cold. And if one can guess from the preliminaries, the air here now seems to me to be eastern and in no way less than that of Antioch, so great is the warmth, so great is the good temperature of the air. But you have grieved me exceedingly by saying, "Perhaps you are also grieved with us, as having been neglectful." And yet many days ago I wrote to your honor begging you not to move me from here. But I was thinking that this would require a long defense from you and much sweat and labor, in order that you might be able to defend yourself against this remark. But perhaps you have in part also made your defense by saying, "I am simply thinking this in order to increase the affliction." But this again is a very great accusation, to say that "I also ambitiously add pains to my thoughts." For when you ought to do and arrange everything to put an end to the affliction, you are doing the will of the devil by increasing despondency and grief. Or do you not know how great despondency is? And as for the Isaurians, fear nothing from now on; for they have returned to their own country; and the governor has done everything for this; and we are in much greater safety being here than when we were in Caesarea. For from now on I fear no one so much as the bishops, except for a few. Therefore, on account of the Isaurians, fear nothing at all; for they have withdrawn and, with winter having set in, they are shut up at home, should they perhaps come out after Pentecost. And how can you say you do not enjoy my letters? I have already sent you three letters, one through the provincials, another through Antonius, and another through your servant Anatolius, of many lines; especially the two of them a saving medicine, able to restore anyone who is despondent, anyone who is scandalized, and to lead them to pure cheerfulness. Therefore, having received these, go over them continuously and at all times, and you will see their power and you will have much experience of their healing and benefit, and you will make it clear to us that you have gained something more from them. I also have a third one ready, similar to them, which I was unwilling to send now, being exceedingly grieved because you said that "And I gather for myself painful thoughts, fabricating things that are not," having uttered a remark unworthy of yourself, at which I myself am ashamed

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προσδοκῶντα εἰς τὰς χεῖρας αὐτῶν ἐμπεσεῖσθαι. Οὐ δοκεῖ σοι μόνα ταῦτα τὰ παθήματα, εἰ καὶ μηδέν μοι ἕτερον συμβεβήκοι, πολλὰ ἡμῶν δύνασθαι διαλύειν τῶν ἁμαρτημάτων καὶ πολλήν μοι παρέχειν εὐδοκιμήσεως ἀφορμήν; Τὸ δὲ αἴτιον, ὡς ἔγωγε οἶμαι, πάντες εὐθέως εἰσελθόντα με ἐν Καισαρείᾳ, οἱ ἐν ἀξιώμασιν, οἱ ἀπὸ βικαρίων, οἱ ἀπὸ ἡγεμονίων σοφισταί, οἱ ἀπὸ τριβούνων, ὁ δῆμος ἅπας καθ' ἑκάστην ἑώρων τὴν ἡμέραν, ἐθεράπευον, ἐπὶ τῆς κόρης τῶν ὀφθαλμῶν ἐβάσταζον· ταῦτα οἶμαι ὑποκνίσαι τὸν Φαρέτριον καὶ τὸν φθόνον τὸν ἐλάσαντα ἡμᾶς ἀπὸ Κωνσταντινουπόλεως οὐδὲ ἐνταῦθα ἡμῶν ἀποστῆναι, ὡς ἔγωγε οἶμαι· οὐδὲ γὰρ ἀποφαίνομαι ἀλλ' ὑποπτεύω. Τί ἄν τις εἴποι τὰ ἄλλα τὰ κατὰ τὴν ὁδόν, τοὺς φόβους, τοὺς κινδύνους; Ἅπερ καθ' ἑκάστην ἡμέραν ἀναμιμνησκόμενος αὐτὸς καὶ ἐν διανοίᾳ περιφέρων, πέτομαι ὑπὸ τῆς ἡδονῆς, σκιρτῶ ὡς θησαυρὸν μέγαν ἔχων ἀποκείμενον· καὶ γὰρ οὕτως ἔχω καὶ διάκειμαι. ∆ιὸ καὶ τὴν σὴν παρακαλῶ τιμιότητα χαίρειν ἐπὶ τούτοις, εὐφραίνεσθαι, σκιρτᾶν, τὸν Θεὸν δοξάζειν τὸν καταξιώσαντα ἡμᾶς τοιαῦτα παθεῖν. Καὶ παρὰ σαυτῇ παρακαλῶ ταῦτα ἔχειν καὶ πρὸς μηδένα ἐξειπεῖν, εἰ καὶ τὰ μάλιστα οἱ ἐπαρχικοὶ πᾶσαν ἐμπλῆσαι τὴν πόλιν ἔχουσι, καὶ αὐτοὶ περὶ τῶν ἐσχάτων κινδυνεύσαντες. Πλὴν παρὰ τῆς σῆς εὐλαβείας μηδεὶς εἰδέτω τοῦτο, ἀλλὰ καὶ κατάστελλε τοὺς λέγοντας. 9.4 Εἰ δὲ διὰ τὰ λείψανα τῆς κακώσεως ἀλγεῖς, μάθε σαφῶς ὅτι καθαρῶς ἁπάντων ἀπηλλάγην καὶ ἐρρωμενέστερον ἔχω τὸ σῶμα ἢ αὐτόθι διατρίβων. Τὸν δὲ κρυμὸν τί δέδοικας; Καὶ γὰρ καὶ οἰκήματα ἐπιτήδεια ἡμῖν κατεσκεύασται, καὶ πάντα ὁ κύριός μου ∆ιόσκορος ποιεῖ καὶ πραγματεύεται ὥστε μηδὲ μικρὰν αἴσθησιν ἡμᾶς λαβεῖν ἀπὸ τοῦ κρυμοῦ. Εἰ δέ ἐστιν ἀπὸ τῶν προοιμίων στοχάζεσθαι, ἐμοὶ ὁ νῦν ἀὴρ ἀνατολικὸς εἶναι δοκεῖ καὶ οὐδὲν ἔλαττον Ἀντιοχείας, τοσοῦτον τὸ θάλπος, τοσαύτη ἡ εὐκρασία τοῦ ἀέρος. Σφόδρα δέ με ἐλύπησας εἰποῦσα ὅτι «Ἴσως καὶ πρὸς ἡμᾶς λυπῇ ὡς ἀμελήσαντας». Καίτοι γε πρὸ πολλῶν ἡμερῶν ἐπέστειλα πρὸς τὴν σὴν τιμιότητα παρακαλῶν μὴ κινεῖν με ἐντεῦθεν. Ἐγὼ δὲ τοῦτο ἐννοῆσαι εἶχον πολλῆς σοι ἀπολογίας δεῖν καὶ πολλῶν ἱδρώτων καὶ καμάτου, ἵνα δυνηθῇς πρὸς τοῦτο ἀπολογήσασθαι τὸ ῥῆμα. Τάχα δὲ ἐκ μέρους καὶ ἀπολελόγησαι εἰποῦσα ὅτι «Ἁπλῶς λογίζομαι τοῦτο ὑπὲρ τοῦ αὔξειν τὴν θλῖψιν». Ἀλλὰ καὶ τοῦτο πάλιν ἔγκλημα μέγιστον τὸ λέγειν ὅτι «Καὶ προσφιλοτιμοῦμαι τοῖς λογισμοῖς τὰς ὀδύνας». ∆έον γὰρ πάντα σε ποιεῖν καὶ πραγματεύεσθαι ὑπὲρ τοῦ καταλύειν τὴν θλῖψιν, τὸ θέλημα τοῦ διαβόλου ποιεῖς αὔξουσα τὴν ἀθυμίαν καὶ τὴν λύπην. Ἢ οὐκ οἶσθα πόσον καὶ ἡ ἀθυμία; Τῶν δὲ Ἰσαύρων ἕνεκεν μηδὲν δέδιθι λοιπόν· καὶ γὰρ ὑπέστρεψαν εἰς τὴν χώραν αὐτῶν· καὶ ὁ ἡγεμὼν πάντα ἐποίησεν ὑπὲρ τούτου· καὶ ἐν ἀσφαλείᾳ ἐσμὲν πολλῷ μᾶλλον ἐνταῦθα ὄντες ἢ ὅτε ἐν Καισαρείᾳ ἦμεν. Οὐδένα γὰρ λοιπὸν δέδοικα ὡς τοὺς ἐπισκόπους πλὴν ὀλίγων. Ὅλως τοίνυν τῶν Ἰσαύρων ἕνεκεν μηδὲν δέδιθι· καὶ γὰρ ἀνεχώρησαν καὶ τοῦ χειμῶνος καταλαβόντος οἴκοι εἰσὶ συγκεκλεισμένοι, ἂν ἄρα λοιπὸν μετὰ τὴν Πεντηκοστὴν ἐξέλθωσιν. Πῶς δὲ λέγεις γραμμάτων οὐκ ἀπολαύειν; Ἤδη σοι τρεῖς ἔπεμψα ἐπιστολάς, τὴν μὲν διὰ τῶν ἐπαρχικῶν, τὴν δὲ δι' Ἀντωνίου, τὴν δὲ δι' Ἀνατολίου τοῦ οἰκέτου σου, πολυστίχους· τὰς δὲ δύο μάλιστα φάρμακον σωτήριον, πάντα ἀθυμοῦντα, πάντα σκανδαλιζόμενον ἱκανὰς ἀνακτήσασθαι καὶ πρὸς καθαρὰν εὐθυμίαν ἀγαγεῖν. Λαβοῦσα τοίνυν ταύτας ἐπέρχου συνεχῶς καὶ διὰ παντός, καὶ ὄψει αὐτῶν τὴν ἰσχὺν καὶ τῆς ἰατρείας πεῖραν λήψῃ πολλὴν καὶ ὠφέλειαν καὶ ἡμῖν δηλώσεις ὅτι γέγονέ σοί τι πλέον ἐκεῖθεν. Ἔχω καὶ τρίτην ἑτοίμην ἐοικυῖαν αὐταῖς ἣν οὐκ ἠβουλήθην πέμψαι νῦν σφόδρα ἀλγήσας διόπερ ἔφης ὅτι «Καὶ συνάγω μοι λογισμοὺς ὀδυνηροὺς καὶ τὰ οὐκ ὄντα ἀναπλάττουσα», ἀνάξιον σεαυτῆς φθεγξαμένη ῥῆμα ἐφ' ᾧ καὶ αὐτὸς αἰσχύνομαι