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And for this reason, before all and with all things, let repentance be the work for all of us, brothers, and the lamentation joined to it; and the tears that follow lamentation. For neither is there lamentation without repentance, (77) nor tears without lamentation, but these three are bound to one another, and it is not possible for one to appear without the other. Let no one then say that it is impossible to weep every day; for he who says this, says it is also impossible to repent every day and overturns all the divine Scriptures, not to mention even the very commandment of the Lord which says: "Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand," and again: "Ask and you will receive, seek and you will find, knock and it will be opened to you." For if you say it is impossible to repent and weep and shed tears every day, how will he ever say it is possible for corruptible men to achieve humility and to rejoice always and to pray without ceasing, but also to acquire a pure heart from all kinds of passions and evil thoughts in order to see God? In no way; and so it will be for you to be ranked with the unbelievers and not with the faithful. For if God said and says and cries out every day that all these things can be done by us, but you contradict him, saying they are impossible for us and not possible, then you differ in no way from the unbelievers.

Do you wish, then, never to receive communion without tears? Do the things which are sung and read by you daily, and then you will be able to accomplish this without ceasing. What are these things? And are you entirely ignorant of them? Hear the one who says: "For not the hearers of the law are just before God, but the doers of the law will be justified." But that we may not prolong the discourse, I say these things to you, I will recall the words of David (78): "If I go up, he says, upon my bed, if I give sleep to my eyes and slumber to my eyelids and rest to my temples, until I find a place for the Lord, a tabernacle for the God of Jacob," and again: "There is no peace in my bones because of my sins, for my iniquities have gone over my head, like a heavy burden they have weighed down on me. My wounds have festered and are corrupt because of my foolishness. I have suffered and am bowed down to the end, all the day long I went with a sad countenance. I was afflicted and humbled exceedingly, I roared from the groaning of my heart and I became like a lonely sparrow on the housetop, I was like a pelican of the wilderness, for I ate ashes like bread and mingled my drink with weeping. I have grown weary with my groaning, I will wash my bed every night, I will wash my bed every day I will drench my couch." And Saint John of the Ladder also says: "Thirst and vigilance have afflicted the heart; and when the heart is afflicted, waters have gushed forth." And how many other things he discusses with us concerning these matters, he who wishes to pore over the book itself will learn.

If, then, you too will do these things, which you chant and read every day or hear others reading, unceasingly with your whole heart with humility and faith, amen I bring you good tidings of great joy, that if you persist in doing these things, thirsting, keeping vigil, being submissive until death and obeying without distinction and without hypocrisy your superior, (79) and bearing all affliction and insult and reproach and slander, and not only these but also scourges and tortures from your lowliest brothers, being disposed with all thanksgiving, bearing no malice toward them and praying for them, rejoice and be exceedingly glad with joy unspeakable, for not only in the evening and morning and at midday, but also while you are eating and drinking and often conversing, chanting and reading and praying and lying on your bed, this divine and unspeakable gift will come and pursue you all the days of your life and will accompany you on the way and will lodge with you

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Καί διά τοῦτο πρό πάντων καί μετά πάντων ἔργον ἔστω πᾶσιν ἡμῖν, ἀδελφοί, ἡ μετάνοια καί ὁ συνημμένος ταύτῃ κλαυθμός· καί τά τῷ κλαυθμῷ συνεπόμενα δάκρυα· οὔτε γάρ δίχα μετανοίας κλαυθμός, (77) οὔτε δίχα κλαυθμοῦ δάκρυα, ἀλλά τά τρία ταῦτα ἀλλήλοις συνδέδενται, καί οὐκ ἔστι δίχα τοῦ ἑτέρου φανῆναι τό ἕτερον. Μή οὖν λέγῃ τις ἀδύνατον εἶναι τό καθ᾿ ἑκάστην κλαίειν· ὁ γάρ τοῦτο λέγων, ἀδύνατον εἶναι λέγει καί τό καθ᾿ ἑκάστην μετανοεῖν καί ἀνατρέπει πάσας τάς θείας Γραφάς, ἵνα μή λέγω καί αὐτήν τήν ἐντολήν τοῦ Κυρίου τήν λέγουσαν· "Μετανοεῖτε, ἤγγικε γάρ ἡ βασιλεία τῶν οὐρανῶν", καί πάλιν· "Αἰτεῖτε καί λήψεσθε, ζητεῖτε καί εὑρήσετε, κρούετε καί ἀνοιγήσεται ὑμῖν". Εἰ γάρ τό μετανοεῖν καί κλαίειν καί δακρύειν καθ᾿ ἑκάστην λέγεις ἀδύνατον, τό ταπεινοφρονεῖν καί πάντοτε χαίρειν καί ἀδιαλείπτως προσεύχεσθαι, ἀλλά μήν καί αὐτήν κτήσασθαι καθαράν τήν καρδίαν ἀπό παντοίων παθῶν τε καί λογισμῶν πονηρῶν πρός τό θεάσασθαί τινα τόν Θεόν, πῶς ἐρεῖ ποτε δυνατόν παρά ἀνθρώπων κατορθωθῆναι φθαρτῶν; Οὐδαμῶς· καί οὕτω γενήσεταί σοι τό μετά ἀπίστων καταταγῆναι καί οὐ πιστῶν. Εἰ μέν γάρ ὁ Θεός πάντα ταῦτα ὡς δυνατά παρ᾿ ἡμῖν γίνεσθαι καί εἶπε καί λέγει καί καθ᾿ ἑκάστην βοᾷ, σύ δέ ἀντιλέγεις ἀπ᾿ἐναντίας ἐκείνῳ, ἀδύνατα λέγων εἶναι ἡμῖν καί οὐ δυνατά, πάντως τῶν ἀπίστων διαφέρεις οὐδέν.

Θέλεις οὖν μή κοινωνῆσαί ποτε δίχα δακρύων; Ποίησον τά παρά σοῦ καθ᾿ ἡμέραν ᾀδόμενά τε ὁμοῦ καί ἀναγινωσκόμενα, καί τηνικαῦτα δυνήσῃ καί τοῦτο ἀδιαλείπτως ἐπιτελεῖν. Ποῖα ταῦτα; Καί ὅλως σύ ἀγνοεῖς; Ἄκουε τοῦ λέγοντος· "Οὐ γάρ οἱ ἀκροαταί τοῦ νόμου δίκαιοι οὗτοι παρά τῷ Θεῷ, ἀλλ᾿ οἱ ποιηταί τοῦ νόμου δικαιωθήσονται". Ἀλλ᾿ ἵνα μή τόν λόγον μηκύνωμεν, αὐτά σοι λέγω, τά τοῦ ∆αυίδ (78) ἀναμνήσομαι ῥήματα· "Εἰ ἀναβήσομαι, φησίν, ἐπί κλίνης στρωμνῆς μου, εἰ δώσω ὕπνον τοῖς ὀφθαλμοῖς μου καί τοῖς βλεφάροις μου νυσταγμόν καί ἀνάπαυσιν τοῖς κροτάφοις μου, ἕως οὗ εὕρω τόπον τῷ Κυρίῳ, σκήνωμα τῷ Θεῷ Ἰακώβ", καί πάλιν· "Οὐκ ἔστιν εἰρήνη ἐν τοῖς ὀστέοις μου ἀπό προσώπου τῶν ἁμαρτιῶν μου, ὅτι αἱ ἀνομίαι μου ὑπερῆραν τήν κεφαλήν μου, ὡσεί φορτίον βαρύ ἐβαρύνθησαν ἐπ᾿ ἐμέ. Προσώζεσαν καί ἐσάπησαν οἱ μώλωπές μου ἀπό προσώπου τῆς ἀφροσύνης μου. Ἐταλαιπώρησα καί κατεκάμφθην ἕως τέλους, ὅλην τήν ἡμέραν σκυθρωπάζων ἐπορευόμην. Ἐκακώθην καί ἐταπεινώθην ἕως σφόδρα, ὠρυόμην ἀπό στεναγμοῦ τῆς καρδίας μου καί ἐγενόμεην ὡς στρουθίον μονάζον ἐπί δώματος, ὡμοιώθην πελεκᾶνι ἐρημικῷ, ὅτι σποδόν ὡσεί ἄρτον ἔφαγον καί τό πόμα μου μετά κλαυθμοῦ ἐκίρνων. Ἐκοπίασα ἐν τῷ στεναγμῷ μου, λούσω καθ᾿ ἑκάστην νύκτα τήν κλίνην μου, λούσω καθ᾿ ἑκάστην τήν κλίνην μου τήν στρωμνήν μου βρέξω". Φησί δέ καί ὁ τῆς Κλίμακος ἅγιος Ἰωάννης· "∆ίψα καί ἀγρυπνία ἐξέθλιψαν καρδίαν· καρδίας δέ θλιβείσης ἐξεπήδησαν ὕδατα". Ὁπόσα δέ καί ἄλλα περί τούτων ἡμῖν διαλέγεται, αὐτῇ τῇ βίβλῳ ὁ θελήσας ἐγκῦψαι μαθήσεται.

Εἰ οὖν καί σύ ταῦτα, ἅ καθ᾿ ἑκάστην ψάλλεις καί ἀναγινώσκεις ἤ ἄλλων ἀναγινωσκόντων ἀκούεις, ἀπαραλείπτως ἐν ὅλῃ καρδίᾳ μετά ταπεινοφροσύνης καί πίστεως διάξεις, ἀμήν εὐαγγελίζομαί σοι χαράν μεγάλην, ὅτι ἐάν ἐπιμείνῃς ταῦτα ποιῶν, διψῶν, ἀγρυπνῶν, μέχρι θανάτου ὑποτασσόμενος καί ὑπακούων ἀδιακρίτως καί ἀνυποκρίτως τῷ προεστῶτί σου, (79) ὑποφέρων τε πᾶσαν θλῖψιν καί ὕβριν καί λοιδορίαν καί διαβολήν, οὐ μήν δέ ἀλλά καί μάστιγας καί αἰκίας παρά τῶν εὐτελεστέρων σου ἀδελφῶν, ἐν πάσῃ εὐχαριστίᾳ διατιθέμενος ἀμνησικάκως πρός αὐτούς καί ὑπέρ αὐτῶν προσευχόμενος, χαῖρε καί ἀγαλλία χαρᾷ ἀνεκλαλήτῳ, ὅτι οὐ μόνον ἐν ἑσπέρᾳ καί πρωῒ καί μεσημβρίᾳ, ἀλλά καί ἐσθίοντί σοι καί πίνοντι καί πολλάκις προσομιλοῦντι, ψάλλοντι καί ἀναγινώσκοντι καί εὐχομένῳ καί ἐπί κλίνης ἀνακειμένῳ σοι, ἡ θεία δωρεά καί ἀνεκλάλητος αὕτη ἐλθοῦσα καταδιώξει σε πάσας τάς ἡμέρας τῆς ζωῆς σου καί συνοδεύσει σοι ἐν ὁδῷ καί συγκαταλύσει σοι