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to rejoice and pray without ceasing, but also to acquire a heart pure from all sorts of passions and evil thoughts in order to see God, how will he ever say it is possible for corruptible men to achieve? By no means; and thus it will happen to you to be numbered with the unbelievers and not the faithful. For if God both said and says and proclaims daily all these things as possible to be accomplished by us, but you contradict Him, saying they are impossible for us and not possible, you are in no way different from the unbelievers.

Do you wish, then, never to commune without tears? Do what is sung and read by you daily, and then you will be able to accomplish this too without ceasing. What are these things? And are you completely ignorant? Hear the one who says: "For not the hearers of the law are just before God, but the doers of the law will be justified". But that we may not prolong the discourse, I say these very things to you, I will recall the words of David (78): "If I go up," he says, "to the bed of my couch, if I give sleep to my eyes and slumber to my eyelids and rest to my temples, until I find a place for the Lord, a tabernacle for the God of Jacob", and again: "There is no peace in my bones because of my sins, for my iniquities have gone over my head, like a heavy burden they have weighed down on me. My wounds have become foul and are corrupt because of my foolishness. I was miserable and bowed down to the end, I went about mourning all the day. I was afflicted and humbled exceedingly, I roared from the groaning of my heart and I became like a sparrow alone on a housetop, I became like a pelican of the wilderness, because I ate ashes like bread and mingled my drink with weeping. I have grown weary with my groaning, every night I will wash my bed, every day I will wash my bed, I will drench my couch". And Saint John of the Ladder also says: "Thirst and vigil have afflicted a heart; and when a heart is afflicted, waters have gushed forth". And how many other things he discusses with us concerning these matters, he who wishes to look into the book itself will learn.

If, therefore, you too shall practice these things which you chant and read every day, or hear others reading, unceasingly with your whole heart with humility and faith, amen I bring you good tidings of great joy, that if you persevere in doing these things, thirsting, keeping vigil, being submissive until death and obeying without distinction and without hypocrisy your superior, (79) enduring also every affliction and insult and reviling and slander, and not only that but also scourgings and torments from your lowliest brethren, being disposed with all thanksgiving, without bearing malice toward them and praying for them, rejoice and exult with inexpressible joy, because not only at evening and morning and midday, but also while you are eating and drinking and often conversing, chanting and reading and praying and lying upon your bed, this divine and inexpressible gift, coming, will pursue you all the days of your life and will accompany you on the way and will lodge with you when you lodge and will serve with you when you serve, comforting and consoling the pains of your labor. And then you will know how very fittingly and well Saint Symeon said that one should not commune without tears, and how this is possible and in truth suitable for all. For it was not he, but through him the Holy Spirit both spoke and wrote. For if no one is without sin, not even if his life is but one day, and no one is able to have a pure heart, it is manifest that a man ought to pass one single day in his whole life without repentance and tears; as much as it is up to him. For even if he does not have tears, yet at least he ought to seek them with all his strength

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χαίρειν καί ἀδιαλείπτως προσεύχεσθαι, ἀλλά μήν καί αὐτήν κτήσασθαι καθαράν τήν καρδίαν ἀπό παντοίων παθῶν τε καί λογισμῶν πονηρῶν πρός τό θεάσασθαί τινα τόν Θεόν, πῶς ἐρεῖ ποτε δυνατόν παρά ἀνθρώπων κατορθωθῆναι φθαρτῶν; Οὐδαμῶς· καί οὕτω γενήσεταί σοι τό μετά ἀπίστων καταταγῆναι καί οὐ πιστῶν. Εἰ μέν γάρ ὁ Θεός πάντα ταῦτα ὡς δυνατά παρ᾿ ἡμῖν γίνεσθαι καί εἶπε καί λέγει καί καθ᾿ ἑκάστην βοᾷ, σύ δέ ἀντιλέγεις ἀπ᾿ἐναντίας ἐκείνῳ, ἀδύνατα λέγων εἶναι ἡμῖν καί οὐ δυνατά, πάντως τῶν ἀπίστων διαφέρεις οὐδέν.

Θέλεις οὖν μή κοινωνῆσαί ποτε δίχα δακρύων; Ποίησον τά παρά σοῦ καθ᾿ ἡμέραν ᾀδόμενά τε ὁμοῦ καί ἀναγινωσκόμενα, καί τηνικαῦτα δυνήσῃ καί τοῦτο ἀδιαλείπτως ἐπιτελεῖν. Ποῖα ταῦτα; Καί ὅλως σύ ἀγνοεῖς; Ἄκουε τοῦ λέγοντος· "Οὐ γάρ οἱ ἀκροαταί τοῦ νόμου δίκαιοι οὗτοι παρά τῷ Θεῷ, ἀλλ᾿ οἱ ποιηταί τοῦ νόμου δικαιωθήσονται". Ἀλλ᾿ ἵνα μή τόν λόγον μηκύνωμεν, αὐτά σοι λέγω, τά τοῦ ∆αυίδ (78) ἀναμνήσομαι ῥήματα· "Εἰ ἀναβήσομαι, φησίν, ἐπί κλίνης στρωμνῆς μου, εἰ δώσω ὕπνον τοῖς ὀφθαλμοῖς μου καί τοῖς βλεφάροις μου νυσταγμόν καί ἀνάπαυσιν τοῖς κροτάφοις μου, ἕως οὗ εὕρω τόπον τῷ Κυρίῳ, σκήνωμα τῷ Θεῷ Ἰακώβ", καί πάλιν· "Οὐκ ἔστιν εἰρήνη ἐν τοῖς ὀστέοις μου ἀπό προσώπου τῶν ἁμαρτιῶν μου, ὅτι αἱ ἀνομίαι μου ὑπερῆραν τήν κεφαλήν μου, ὡσεί φορτίον βαρύ ἐβαρύνθησαν ἐπ᾿ ἐμέ. Προσώζεσαν καί ἐσάπησαν οἱ μώλωπές μου ἀπό προσώπου τῆς ἀφροσύνης μου. Ἐταλαιπώρησα καί κατεκάμφθην ἕως τέλους, ὅλην τήν ἡμέραν σκυθρωπάζων ἐπορευόμην. Ἐκακώθην καί ἐταπεινώθην ἕως σφόδρα, ὠρυόμην ἀπό στεναγμοῦ τῆς καρδίας μου καί ἐγενόμεην ὡς στρουθίον μονάζον ἐπί δώματος, ὡμοιώθην πελεκᾶνι ἐρημικῷ, ὅτι σποδόν ὡσεί ἄρτον ἔφαγον καί τό πόμα μου μετά κλαυθμοῦ ἐκίρνων. Ἐκοπίασα ἐν τῷ στεναγμῷ μου, λούσω καθ᾿ ἑκάστην νύκτα τήν κλίνην μου, λούσω καθ᾿ ἑκάστην τήν κλίνην μου τήν στρωμνήν μου βρέξω". Φησί δέ καί ὁ τῆς Κλίμακος ἅγιος Ἰωάννης· "∆ίψα καί ἀγρυπνία ἐξέθλιψαν καρδίαν· καρδίας δέ θλιβείσης ἐξεπήδησαν ὕδατα". Ὁπόσα δέ καί ἄλλα περί τούτων ἡμῖν διαλέγεται, αὐτῇ τῇ βίβλῳ ὁ θελήσας ἐγκῦψαι μαθήσεται.

Εἰ οὖν καί σύ ταῦτα, ἅ καθ᾿ ἑκάστην ψάλλεις καί ἀναγινώσκεις ἤ ἄλλων ἀναγινωσκόντων ἀκούεις, ἀπαραλείπτως ἐν ὅλῃ καρδίᾳ μετά ταπεινοφροσύνης καί πίστεως διάξεις, ἀμήν εὐαγγελίζομαί σοι χαράν μεγάλην, ὅτι ἐάν ἐπιμείνῃς ταῦτα ποιῶν, διψῶν, ἀγρυπνῶν, μέχρι θανάτου ὑποτασσόμενος καί ὑπακούων ἀδιακρίτως καί ἀνυποκρίτως τῷ προεστῶτί σου, (79) ὑποφέρων τε πᾶσαν θλῖψιν καί ὕβριν καί λοιδορίαν καί διαβολήν, οὐ μήν δέ ἀλλά καί μάστιγας καί αἰκίας παρά τῶν εὐτελεστέρων σου ἀδελφῶν, ἐν πάσῃ εὐχαριστίᾳ διατιθέμενος ἀμνησικάκως πρός αὐτούς καί ὑπέρ αὐτῶν προσευχόμενος, χαῖρε καί ἀγαλλία χαρᾷ ἀνεκλαλήτῳ, ὅτι οὐ μόνον ἐν ἑσπέρᾳ καί πρωῒ καί μεσημβρίᾳ, ἀλλά καί ἐσθίοντί σοι καί πίνοντι καί πολλάκις προσομιλοῦντι, ψάλλοντι καί ἀναγινώσκοντι καί εὐχομένῳ καί ἐπί κλίνης ἀνακειμένῳ σοι, ἡ θεία δωρεά καί ἀνεκλάλητος αὕτη ἐλθοῦσα καταδιώξει σε πάσας τάς ἡμέρας τῆς ζωῆς σου καί συνοδεύσει σοι ἐν ὁδῷ καί συγκαταλύσει σοι καταλύοντι καί διακονοῦντι συνδιακονήσει σοι, παραμυθουμένη καί παρακαλοῦσα τάς ἐκ τοῦ κόπου ὀδύνας σου. Καί τότε γνώσεις, ὡς λίαν πρεπόντως καί καλῶς ὁ ἅγιος εἴρηκε Συμεών μή κοινωνῆσαι ἄνευ δακρύων τινά, καί ὡς δυνατόν τοῦτο καί ἐπ᾿ ἀληθείας πᾶσιν ἁρμόδιον. Οὐ γάρ ἐκεῖνος, ἀλλά δι᾿ ἐκείνου τό Ἅγιον Πνεῦμα καί εἶπε καί ἔγραψεν. Εἰ γάρ οὐδείς ἀναμάρτητος, οὐδ᾿ ἄν ἡμέρα μία ἡ ζωή αὐτοῦ, καί οὐδείς δύναται ἁγνήν ἔχειν τήν καρδίαν, εὔδηλον ὅτι ἄνευ μετανοίας καί δακρύων ὀφείλει ἄνθρωπος διελθεῖν μίαν καί μόνην ἡμέραν ἐν πάσῃ τῇ ζωῇ αὐτοῦ· ὅσον τό ἐπ᾿ αὐτόν. Εἰ γάρ καί μή ἔχει δάκρυα, ἀλλά τέως ζητεῖν ὀφείλει ταῦτα ἐξ ὅλης ἰσχύος