Letter XXX.268    Placed in 369.

To Eusebius of Samosata.

If I were to write at length all the causes which, up to the present time, have kept me at home, eager as I have been to set out to see your reverence, I should tell an interminable story.  I say nothing of illnesses coming one upon another, hard winter weather, and press of work, for all this has been already made known to you.  Now, for my sins, I have lost my Mother,269    Emmelia.  Vide account of Basil’s family in the prolegomena. the only comfort I had in life.  Do not smile, if, old as I am, I lament my orphanhood.  Forgive me if I cannot endure separation from a soul, to compare with whom I see nothing in the future that lies before me.  So once more my complaints have come back to me; once more I am confined to my bed, tossing about in my weakness, and every hour all but looking for the end of life; and the Churches are in somewhat the same condition as my body, no good hope shining on them, and their state always changing for the worse.  In the meantime Neocæsarea and Ancyra have decided to have successors of the dead, and so far they are at peace.  Those who are plotting against me have not yet been permitted to do anything worthy of their bitterness and wrath.  This we make no secret of attributing to your prayers on behalf of the Churches.  Weary not then in praying for the Churches and in entreating God.  Pray give all salutations to those who are privileged to minister to your Holiness.

ΕΥΣΕΒΙῼ ΕΠΙΣΚΟΠῼ ΣΑΜΟΣΑΤΩΝ

[1] Εἰ πάσας ἐφεξῆς γράφοιμι τὰς αἰτίας ὑφ' ὧν μέχρι τοῦ παρόντος κατεσχέθην, καὶ πάνυ ὡρμημένος πρὸς τὴν σὴν θεοσέβειαν, ἱστορίας ἂν μῆκος ἀπέραντον ἐκπληρώσαιμι. Νόσους μὲν ἐπαλλήλους καὶ χειμῶνος ἐπάχθειαν καὶ πραγμάτων συνοχὴν παρίημι λέγειν, γνώριμα ὄντα καὶ ἤδη προδεδηλωμένα τῇ τελειότητί σου. Νῦν δὲ καὶ ἣν μόνην εἶχον τοῦ βίου παραμυθίαν τὴν μητέρα, καὶ ταύτην ἀφῃρέθην ὑπὸ τῶν ἁμαρτιῶν. Καὶ μὴ καταγελάσῃς μου ὡς ἐν τούτῳ τῆς ἡλικίας ὀρφανίαν ὀδυρομένου, ἀλλὰ σύγγνωθί μοι ψυχῆς χωρισμὸν ἀνεκτῶς μὴ φέροντι, ἧς οὐδὲν ἀντάξιον ἐν τοῖς λειπομένοις ὁρῶ. Πάλιν οὖν μοι ὑπέστρεψε τὰ ἀρρωστήματα καὶ πάλιν ἐπὶ κλίνης κατάκειμαι, ἐπὶ μικρᾶς παντελῶς τῆς δυνάμεως σαλεύων καὶ μόνον οὐχὶ ἐφ' ἑκάστης ὥρας τὸ ἀναγκαῖον πέρας τῆς ζωῆς ἐκδεχόμενος. Αἱ δὲ Ἐκκλησίαι σχεδόν τι παραπλησίως τῷ σώματί μου διάκεινται, ἀγαθῆς μὲν ἐλπίδος οὐδεμιᾶς ὑποφαινομένης, ἀεὶ δὲ πρὸς τὸ χεῖρον τῶν πραγμάτων ὑπορρεόντων. Τέως δὲ ἡ Νεοκαισάρεια καὶ ἡ Ἄγκυρα ἔδοξαν ἔχειν διαδόχους τῶν ἀπελθόντων, καὶ μέχρι τοῦ νῦν ἡσυχάζουσιν. Ἀλλ' οὐδὲ ἡμῖν οἱ ἐπιβουλεύοντες ποιῆσαί τι τοῦ θυμοῦ καὶ τῆς πικρίας ἄξιον μέχρι τοῦ παρόντος συνεχωρήθησαν. Καὶ τούτου τὴν αἰτίαν ταῖς σαῖς ὑπὲρ τῶν Ἐκκλησιῶν πρεσβείαις προδήλως ἡμεῖς ἀνατίθεμεν. Ὥστε μὴ ἀποκάμῃς προσευχόμενος ὑπὲρ τῶν Ἐκκλησιῶν καὶ δυσωπῶν τὸν Θεόν. Τοὺς καταξιωθέντας ἐξυπηρετεῖσθαι τῇ ὁσιότητί σου πάμπολλα πρόσειπε.