XXXVIII.

Now two full years spent Ioasaph wandering about the ocean of that desert, without finding Barlaam; for here also God was proving the steadfastness of his purpose, and the nobility of his soul. He lived thus in the open air, scorched with heat or frozen with cold, and, as one in search of precious treasure, continually looking everywhere for his treasured friend, the aged Barlaam. Frequent were the temptations and assaults of the evil spirits that he encountered, and many the hardships that he endured through the lack of herbs that he needed for meat, because the desert, being dry, yielded even these in but scant supply. But, being kindled by love of her Master, this adamantine and indomitable soul bore these annoyances more easily than other men bear their pleasures. Wherefore he failed not of the succour that is from above, but, many as were the sorrows and toils Chat he endured, comfort came to him from Christ, and, asleep or awake, refreshed his soul. By the space of those two years Ioasaph went about continually, seeking him for whom he yearned, and rivers of waters ran from his eyes, as he implored God, crying aloud and saying, "Show me, O Lord, show me the man that was the means of my knowledge of you, and the cause of my many blessings. Because of the multitude of mine offences, deprive me not of this good thing; but grant me to see him, and fight with him the ascetic fight."

By the grace of God, he found a cave, by following footsteps that led thither. There he met a monk pursuing a hermit life. Him he embraced and saluted tenderly. He asked where to find Barlaam's dwelling, and told him his own tale, laying all bare. Of him then he learned the abode of the man whom he sought, and thither went foot-hot, as when a cunning hunter happeneth on the tracks of his game. And when he had met with certain signs, pointed out to him by this other old hermit, he went on rejoicing, strong in hope, like a child hoping after long absence to see his father. For when divine love has broken into a soul, it proves hotter and stronger than the natural.

So he stood before the door of the cave, and knocked, saying "Benedic, father, benedic!" When Barlaam heard his voice, he came forth from the cave, and by the spirit knew him, who by outward appearance could not easily be known, because of the marvellous change and alteration that had changed and altered his face from its former bloom of youth; for Ioasaph was black with the sun's heat, and overgrown with hair, and his cheeks were fallen in, and his eyes deep sunken, and his eyelids seared with floods of tears, and much distress of hunger. And Ioasaph recognised his spiritual father, for his features were, for the more part, the same. So the old man stood, and, facing the East, offered up to God a prayer of thanksgiving; and, after the prayer, when they had said the Amen, they embraced and kissed each other affectionately, taking their full fill of long deferred desire.

But, when they had done with embracing and greeting, they sat them down and conversed. Barlaam began, saying, "Welcome art you, son well beloved son of God, and inheritor of the heavenly kingdom through Jesus Christ our Lord, whom you lovest, whom you rightly desirest above the things that are temporal and corruptible! Like a prudent and wise merchant, you hast sold all, and bought the pearl that is beyond price, and hast found the treasure that cannot be stolen, hidden in the field of the commandments of the Lord; you hast parted with all, and spared naught of the things that so soon pass away, that you might purchase that field for thyself. The Lord give you the eternal for the temporal, the things that are incorruptible and wax not old for the corruptible!

"But tell me, dearly beloved, how you camest hither? How did your matters speed after my departure? And has your father learned to know God, or is he still carried away with his former foolishness, still under the bondage of devilish deceits?"

Thus questioned Barlaam, and Ioasaph answered, telling him piece by piece all that had befallen him since he went away; and in how many ways the Lord had prospered him, until they were come together again.

The old man listened with pleasure and amazement, and with hot tears said, "Glory to you, our God, that ever standest by and succourest them that love you! Glory to you, O Christ, King of all and God all-good, that it was your pleasure that the seed, which I sowed in the heart of Ioasaph, your servant, should thus bring forth fruit an hundredfold worthy of the husbandman and Master of our souls! Glory to you, good Paraclete, the all-holy Spirit, because you didst vouchsafe unto this man to partake of that grace which you gavest your holy Apostles, and by his hand hast delivered multitudes of people from superstitious error, and enlightened them with the true knowledge of God!"

Thus was God blessed by both, and thus were they conversing and rejoicing in the grace of God until evenfall. Then stood they up for to pray and to perform the sacred services. Then also remembered they that it was meal-time, and Barlaam spread his lavish table, laden with spiritual dainties, but with little to attract the palate of sense. These were uncooked worts, and a few dates, planted and tended by Barlaam's own hands, such as are found in the same desert, and wild herbs. So they gave thanks and partook of the victuals set before them, and drank water from the neighbour springing well, and again gave thanks to God, who openeth his hand and filleth all things living. Then they arose again, and, when they had ended their Night Hours, after prayer, they joined in spiritual converse again, discoursing wholesome words, and full of heavenly wisdom, all the night long until daybreak bade them once more remember the hour of prayer.

So Ioasaph abode with Barlaam for some many years, pursuing this marvellous and more than human life, dwelling with him as with a father and tutor, in all obedience and lowliness, exercising himself in every kind of virtue, and learning well from practice how to wrestle with the invisible spirits of evil. From that time forward he mortified all his sinful passions, and made the will of the flesh as subject to the spirit as slave is to his master. He was altogether forgetful of comforts or repose, and tyrannized over sleep as over a wicked servant. And, in brief, such was his practice of the religious life, that Barlaam, who had spent many years therein, marvelled at him, and failed to equal the earnestness of his life. For he took only so much of that coarse and cheerless food as would keep him alive; else had he died afore his time, and forfeited the reward of his well-doing. He subdued himself to watchings, as though he were without flesh and body. In prayer and mental exercise his work was unceasing, and all the time of his life was spent in spiritual and heavenly contemplation, so that not an hour, nor even a single moment was wasted, from the day that he came to dwell in the desert. For this is the end of monastic life, never to be found idle in spiritual employment: and well herein did this noble and active runner of the heavenly race order his way. And he kept his ardour unquenched from beginning to end, ever ascending in his heart, and going from strength to strength, and continually adding desire to desire, and zeal to zeal, until he arrived at the bliss that he had hoped and longed for.

XXXVIII

Ἔμεινε δὲ Ἰωάσαφ διετίαν ὅλην κατὰ τὸ πέλαγος τῆς ἐρήμου ταύτης ἀλώμενος καὶ μὴ εὑρίσκων τὸν Βαρλαάμ, τοῦ Θεοῦ κἀνταῦθα τὸ στερρὸν τοῦ λογισμοῦ αὐτοῦ καὶ τὸ τῆς ψυχῆς γενναῖον δοκιμάζοντος. καὶ ἦν οὕτως αἴθριος συγκαιόμενος τῷ καύσωνι καὶ τῷ κρύει πηγνύμενος καὶ ἀπαύστως ζητῶν ὥσπερ τινὰ θησαυρὸν πολύτιμον τὸν τιμιώτατον γέροντα. πολλοὺς δὲ ὑπέμεινε πειρασμοὺς καὶ πολέμους τῶν πονηρῶν πνευμάτων, καὶ πολλοὺς ὑπήνεγκε πόνους τῆς τῶν βοτανῶν ἐνδείας, ἃς εἰς τροφὴν ἐκέχρητο, ὅτι καὶ ταύτας ξηρὰ οὖσα ἡ ἔρημος ἐνδεῶς ἐβλάστανεν. ἀλλὰ τῷ πόθῳ τοῦ Δεσπότου φλεγομένη ἡ ἀδαμαντίνη ψυχὴ ἐκείνη καὶ ἀήττητος ῥᾷον ἤνεγκε τὰ λυπηρὰ ταῦτα ἢ τὰς ἡδονὰς ἕτεροι. διὸ τῆς ἄνωθεν οὐ διήμαρτε συμμαχίας, ἀλλά, κατὰ τὸ πλῆθος τῶν ὀδυνῶν αὐτοῦ καὶ πόνων, αἱ παρὰ τοῦ ποθουμένου Χριστοῦ ἐγγινόμεναι παρακλήσεις καθ' ὕπνους τε καὶ καθ' ὕπαρ εὔφραναν τὴν ψυχὴν αὐτοῦ. συμπληρουμένης δὲ τῆς διετίας, Ἰωάσαφ μὲν ἀπαύστως περιῄει ζητῶν τὸν ποθούμενον, καὶ ἐποτνιᾶτο πρὸς τὸν Θεὸν δάκρυα ποταμηδὸν τῶν ὀφθαλμῶν προχεόμενος, καί, Δεῖξόν μοι, Δέσποτα, βοῶν, δεῖξόν μοι τὸν αἴτιόν μοι τῆς σῆς ἐπιγνώσεως καὶ τῶν τοσούτων ἀγαθῶν γενόμενόν μοι πρόξενον: καὶ μή, διὰ τὸ πλῆθος τῶν ἀνομιῶν μου, καλοῦ με τοσούτου στερήσῃς. ἀλλ' ἀξίωσόν με ἰδεῖν τε αὐτὸν καὶ ἴσον αὐτῷ τὸν ἀγῶνα τῆς ἀσκήσεως θέσθαι.

Εὑρίσκει δὲ Θεοῦ χάριτι σπήλαιον, ἰχνηλατήσας τῶν ἐκεῖσε πορευομένων τὴν τρίβον. καὶ μοναχῷ τινι ἐντυγχάνει τὸν ἐρημικὸν μετιόντι βίον. καὶ τούτῳ θερμότατα περιχυθεὶς καὶ ἀσπασάμενος, τοῦ Βαρλαὰμ ἠρώτα τὸ σκήνωμα εὑρεῖν, καὶ τὰ καθ' ἑαυτὸν διεξῄει, δῆλα τῷ ἀνδρὶ θέμενος. δι' αὐτοῦ τοίνυν τὸν τόπον διδαχθεὶς τῆς τοῦ ζητουμένου οἰκήσεως, καταλαμβάνει τάχιστα, ὡς ὅταν θηρευτὴς ἐμπειρότατος ἴχνεσιν ἐπιτύχῃ τοῦ θηράματος. καὶ φθάσας τινὰ σημεῖα τὰ παρὰ τοῦ ἄλλου γέροντος διδαχθέντα αὐτῷ, ἐπορεύετο χαίρων καὶ τῇ ἐλπίδι ῥωννύμενος, ὡς νήπιος ἐκ μακροῦ χρόνου τὸν πατέρα ἐλπίζων θεάσασθαι. ὅταν γὰρ ὁ κατὰ Θεὸν πόθος εἰς ψυχὴν ῥαγῇ, πολλῷ τοῦ φυσικοῦ δείκνυται θερμότερός τε καὶ βιαιότερος.

Ἐφίσταται τοίνυν τῇ θύρᾳ τοῦ σπηλαίου, καὶ κρούσας, Εὐλόγησον, εἶπε, Πάτερ, εὐλόγησον. ὡς δὲ τῆς φωνῆς ἀκούσας ἐξῆλθεν ὁ Βαρλαὰμ τοῦ σπηλαίου, ἐγνώρισε τῷ πνεύματι τόν, κατά γε τὴν ἔξω θέαν, οὐκ εὐχερῶς γνωρισθῆναι δυνάμενον, διὰ τὴν θαυμαστὴν ἐκείνην μεταβολὴν καὶ ἀλλοίωσιν ἣν ἠλλοίωτο καὶ μετεβέβλητο τῆς ὄψεως ἐκείνης τῆς προτέρας καὶ τῆς ὡραῖον ἀνθούσης νεότητος, μεμελανωμένος μὲν ἐκ τῆς ἡλιακῆς καύσεως, κατάκομος δὲ ταῖς θριξίν, ἐκτετηκυίας δὲ τὰς παρειὰς καὶ τοὺς ὀφθαλμοὺς ἔσω που εἰς βάθος δεδυκότας καὶ τὰ βλέφαρα περιπεφλεγμένα ἔχων ταῖς ῥοαῖς τῶν δακρύων καὶ τῇ πολλῇ τῆς ἐνδείας ταλαιπωρίᾳ. ἔγνω δὲ καὶ Ἰωάσαφ τὸν πνευματικὸν πατέρα, τοὺς χαρακτῆρας μάλιστα τῆς ὄψεως ἔχοντα τοὺς αὐτούς. στὰς οὖν εὐθὺς κατὰ ἀνατολάς, ὁ γέρων εὐχὴν ἀνέπεμψε τῷ Θεῷ εὐχαριστήριον. καὶ μετὰ τὴν εὐχὴν ἐπειπόντες τὸ ἀμήν, περιλαβόντες τε καὶ περιπτυξάμενοι θερμοτάταις ἠμείβοντο ἀλλήλους περιπλοκαῖς, χρονίου πόθου ἐμφορούμενοι ἀκορέστως.

Ἐπεὶ δὲ ἀρκούντως περιέλαβον καὶ προσηγόρευσαν, καθίσαντες διωμίλουν. λόγου δὲ ἀρξάμενος ὁ Βαρλαάμ, Καλῶς ἦλθες, ἔλεγε, τέκνον ἠγαπημένον, τέκνον Θεοῦ καὶ κληρονόμε τῆς ἐπουρανίου βασιλείας διὰ τοῦ Κυρίου ἡμῶν Ἰησοῦ Χριστοῦ, ὃν ἠγάπησας, ὃν ἐπόθησας δικαίως ὑπὲρ τὰ πρόσκαιρα καὶ φθαρτά: καί, ὡς ἐχέφρων ἔμπορος καὶ σοφός, πάντα πωλήσας, τὸν ἀτίμητον ἐξωνήσω μαργαρίτην, καὶ τῷ ἀσύλῳ ἐντυχὼν θησαυρῷ κεκρυμμένῳ ἐν τῷ ἀγρῷ τῶν ἐντολῶν τοῦ Κυρίου, πάντα δέδωκας μηδενὸς φεισάμενος τῶν ὅσον οὔπω παρερχομένων, ἵνα τὸν ἀγρὸν ἐκεῖνον ἀγοράσῃς ἑαυτῷ. δῴη σοι Κύριος ἀντὶ τῶν προσκαίρων τὰ αἰώνια, ἀντὶ τῶν φθαρτῶν τὰ ἄφθαρτα καὶ μὴ παλαιούμενα.

Εἰπὲ γοῦν μοι, φίλτατε, πῶς ἐνταῦθα παρεγένου, πῶς μετὰ τὴν ἐμὴν ἄφιξιν γέγονε τὰ κατὰ σέ, καὶ εἰ ἔγνω τὸν Θεὸν ὁ σὸς πατήρ, ἢ καὶ εἰσέτι, τῇ προτέρᾳ φερόμενος ἀφροσύνῃ, ὑπὸ τῆς τῶν δαιμόνων ἀπάτης αἰχμαλωτίζεται.

Ταῦτα τοῦ Βαρλαὰμ ἐρομένου, ἀναλαβὼν ὁ Ἰωάσαφ τὸν λόγον, ὅσα μετὰ τὴν ἐκείνου ἀποδημίαν γέγονεν αὐτῷ, καὶ ὅσα Κύριος εὐώδωσε μέχρι τῆς αὖθις συνελεύσεως αὐτῶν, πάντα κατὰ μέρος διῄει.

Ὁ δὲ γέρων, ἀκούων σὺν ἡδονῇ καὶ θαύματι, θερμῶς δακρύων, ἔλεγε: Δόξα σοι, ὁ Θεὸς ἡμῶν, ὁ ἀεὶ παριστάμενος καὶ βοηθῶν τοῖς ἀγαπῶσί σε. δόξα σοι, Χριστέ, Βασιλεῦ τῶν ἁπάντων καὶ Θεὲ πανάγαθε, ὅτι εὐδόκησας τὸν σπόρον, ὃν ἐν τῇ ψυχῇ κατέβαλον τοῦ δούλου σου Ἰωάσαφ, οὕτως ἑκατοστεύοντα καρπὸν ἐνεγκεῖν, ἐπάξιον σοῦ τοῦ γεωργοῦ καὶ Δεσπότου τῶν ἡμετέρων ψυχῶν. δόξα σοι, Παράκλητε ἀγαθέ, τὸ πανάγιον Πνεῦμα, ὅτι ἧς ἔδωκας χάριτος τοῖς ἁγίοις σου ἀποστόλοις, ταύτης μετασχεῖν κατηξίωσας τοῦτον, καὶ πολυάνθρωπα πλήθη τῆς δεισιδαίμονος δι' αὐτοῦ ἠλευθέρωσας πλάνης καὶ τῇ ἀληθινῇ ἐφώτισας θεογνωσίᾳ.

Οὕτω παρ' ἀμφοτέρων ηὐχαριστεῖτο ὁ Θεός. καὶ τοιαῦτα ὁμιλούντων καὶ τῇ τοῦ Θεοῦ ἀγαλλιωμένων χάριτι, κατελάμβανεν ἡ ἑσπέρα. καὶ δὴ πρὸς εὐχὴν ἀναστάντες τὰς συνήθεις ἐτέλουν λειτουργίας. εἶτα καὶ τροφῆς μνησθέντες, παρετίθει πολυτελῆ ὁ Βαρλαὰμ τράπεζαν, τῆς πνευματικῆς πεπληρωμένην καρυκείας, αἰσθητῆς δὲ ἥκιστα μετέχουσαν παρακλήσεως. λάχανα γὰρ ἦσαν ὠμά, ὧν αὐτουργὸς καὶ γεωργὸς ἦν ὁ γέρων, καὶ φοίνικες ὀλίγοι ἐν τῇ αὐτῇ εὑρισκόμενοι ἐρήμῳ, καὶ ἄγριαι βοτάναι. εὐχαριστήσαντες οὖν, καὶ τῶν παρατιθεμένων μεταλαβόντες, καὶ ὕδωρ ἐκ τῆς παρατυγχανούσης πηγῆς πιόντες, τῷ ἀνοίγοντι χεῖρα καὶ ἐμπιπλῶντι πᾶν ζῷον αὖθις ηὐχαρίστουν Θεῷ. ἀναστάντες δὲ πάλιν, καὶ τὰς νυκτερινὰς πληρώσαντες εὐχάς, τῆς πνευματικῆς πάλιν μετὰ τὴν εὐχὴν ἥπτοντο ὁμιλίας, λόγους σωτηρίους καὶ τῆς οὐρανίου πεπληρωμένους φιλοσοφίας παρ' ὅλην διεξερχόμενοι τὴν νύκτα, ἕως αὐτοὺς ὄρθρος τῶν συνήθων αὖθις μνησθῆναι εὐχῶν πεποίηκεν.

Ἔμεινε δὲ Ἰωάσαφ μετὰ τοῦ Βαρλαὰμ ἱκανοὺς οὑτωσὶ χρόνους, τὴν θαυμαστὴν ταύτην καὶ ὑπὲρ ἄνθρωπον μετερχόμενος πολιτείαν, καὶ ὡς πατρὶ τούτῳ καὶ παιδευτῇ μεθ' ὅσης συμπαρομαρτῶν αὐτῷ ὑποταγῆς καὶ ταπεινώσεως, καὶ πρὸς πᾶσαν ἰδέαν γυμναζόμενος ἀρετῆς, ἄριστά τε παιδευόμενος τὴν πάλην τῶν πονηρῶν καὶ ἀοράτων πνευμάτων. ἐντεῦθεν τὰ μὲν πάθη ἐθανάτωσε πάντα: τὸ φρόνημα δὲ τῆς σαρκὸς οὕτω καθυπέταξε τῷ πνεύματι, ὡς δοῦλον δεσπότῃ, τρυφῆς καὶ ἀναπαύσεως ἐπιλαθόμενος πάντη, τῷ ὕπνῳ δὲ ὡς κακῷ προστάσσων οἰκέτῃ. καί, ἁπλῶς εἰπεῖν, τοσοῦτος ἦν αὐτῷ ὁ ἀγὼν τῆς ἀσκήσεως, ὡς καὶ αὐτὸν θαυμάζειν τὸν πολλοὺς ἐν ταύτῃ χρόνους διενεγκόντα Βαρλαάμ, καὶ τῆς καρτερᾶς αὐτῷ ἡττᾶσθαι ἐνστάσεως. τοσοῦτον μὲν γὰρ τῆς σκληρᾶς ἐκείνης καὶ ἀπαρακλήτου μετελάμβανε βρώσεως, ὅσον ἀποζῆν μόνον, καὶ μὴ βιαίως θανόντα τοὺς μισθοὺς ζημιωθῆναι τῆς τῶν καλῶν ἐργασίας. οὕτω δὲ εἰς τὸ ἀγρυπνεῖν τὴν φύσιν ὑπέταξεν, ὡς ἄσαρκός τις καὶ ἀσώματος. εὐχῆς δὲ αὐτῷ καὶ τῆς νοερᾶς ἐργασίας ἄληκτον τὸ ἔργον ἦν, καὶ ἅπας ὁ τῆς ζωῆς χρόνος εἰς θεωρίας ἀνηλίσκετο πνευματικάς τε καὶ οὐρανίους, ὡς μὴ ὥραν, μὴ στιγμὴν αὐτὸν τοπαράπαν ζημιωθῆναι, ἀφ' οὗπερ τὴν ἔρημον ᾤκησε ταύτην. τοῦτο γὰρ ἔργον μοναχικῆς τάξεως, τὸ μηδέποτε ἀργὸν τῆς πνευματικῆς ἐργασίας εὑρεθῆναι: ὃ δὴ καλῶς κατώρθωσεν ὁ γενναῖος καὶ εὐσταλὴς σταδιοδρόμος τῆς οὐρανίου πορείας. καὶ ἄσβεστον αὐτοῦ τὴν θέρμην ἐφύλαξεν ἀπ' ἀρχῆς μέχρι τέλους, ἀναβάσεις ἀεὶ ἐν καρδίᾳ τιθέμενος, καὶ ἐκ δυνάμεως εἰς ὑψηλοτέραν μεταβαίνων δύναμιν, πόθῳ πόθον καὶ σπουδὴν σπουδῇ διηνεκῶς προστιθείς, ἕως ἔφθασεν εἰς τὴν ἐλπιζομένην καὶ ποθουμένην μακαριότητα.