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leads to a throne; but the priest does not sit, but stands. Do you see that to become a high priest is not a matter of nature, but of grace and condescension and emptying? This it is opportune for us also now to say; let us approach with boldness, asking; only let us bring faith, and he gives all things. Now is the time of the gift, let no one despair of himself. Then is the time for despair, when the bridal chamber is closed, when the king enters to see those who are reclining, when those who are to be deemed worthy of these things receive the patriarch's bosom; but not yet now. For the theater is still assembled, the contest still stands, the prize is still aloft. 3. Let us be zealous then; for Paul also says: So I run, not as uncertainly. There is need of a race, and a vigorous race. He who runs sees no one at all, whether he passes through meadows, or through parched places; he who runs does not look at the spectators, but at the prize; whether they be rich or poor, whether one mocks, or praises, or insults, or throws stones, or plunders his house, or he sees children, or wife, or anything whatsoever, he is in no way turned aside, but is concerned with one thing only, to run, to receive the prize. He who runs stops nowhere; since if he slackens even a little, he has lost everything. He who runs not only does not diminish his effort before the end, but even then especially increases his pace. This I have said to those who say: In youth we practiced discipline, in youth we fasted, now we have grown old. Now especially ought one to increase piety. Do not count up for me old achievements, be young and flourish now rather. For he who runs this bodily race, naturally, when gray hair overtakes him, can no longer run in the same way; for the whole of the contest is in the body. But you, for what reason do you slacken your pace? for here there is need of a soul, an awakened soul; but the soul in 63.65 old age is strengthened, then it flourishes more, then it exults. For just as a body, as long as it is held by fevers and successive illnesses, even if it is strong, is worn out, but when it is freed from that siege, it recovers its own strength; so also the soul, being in youth, is feverish, and a love of glory especially holds it, and of luxury and of sensual pleasures and many other fantasies; but when old age has come upon it, all these passions are driven away, some because of the season of life, others because of philosophy. For old age, having relaxed the tensions of the body, does not permit the soul to make use of them even if it wishes, but having subdued all sorts of enemies, as it were, it establishes it in a place clear of disturbances, and produces a great calm, and introduces a greater fear. For even if no one else, at least the old know that they are dying, and that they certainly stand near to death. When, therefore, the desires of this life depart, and the expectation of the judgment seat enters, softening its disobedience, does it not become more attentive, if it is willing? What then, he says, when we see old men more difficult than the young? You speak to me of an excess of wickedness; for even in the case of madmen, with no one pushing, we see them going over cliffs. When, therefore, an old man also suffers from the diseases of the young, this is an excess of wickedness; and such a man would have no defense even in youth; for he cannot say, Remember not the sins of my youth and of my ignorance. For he who in old age remains the same, shows that even when he was in youth, he was not such through ignorance, nor through inexperience, nor because of his age, but through indolence. For that one is able to say: Remember not the sins of my youth and of my ignorance, who does the things befitting an old man, who is changed in old age; but if in old age he behaves disgracefully in the same ways, how is it right for such a man to be called an old man, who does not even respect his age? For he who says, Remember not the sins of my youth and of my ignorance, says these things as one who is succeeding in old age. Do not therefore by the things done in old age deprive yourself also of the pardon for the sins committed in youth. For how is what is happening not absurd and beyond pardon? an old man

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θρόνον ἄγει· ὁ δὲ ἱερεὺς οὐ κάθηται, ἀλλ' ἕστηκεν. Ὁρᾷς ὅτι τὸ γενέσθαι ἀρχιερέα οὐ φύσεώς ἐστιν, ἀλλὰ χάριτος καὶ συγκαταβάσεως καὶ κενώσεως; Τοῦτο καὶ ἡμῖν εὔκαιρον νῦν εἰπεῖν· προσερχώμεθα μετὰ παῤῥησίας αἰτοῦντες· μόνον πίστιν προσαγάγωμεν, καὶ πάντα δίδωσι. Νῦν ὁ τῆς δωρεᾶς ἐστι καιρὸς, μηδεὶς ἑαυτοῦ ἀπογινωσκέτω. Τότε τῆς ἀπογνώσεως ὁ καιρὸς, ὅταν ὁ νυμφὼν κλείηται, ὅταν εἰσέλθῃ ὁ βασιλεὺς τοὺς ἀνακειμένους ἰδεῖν, ὅταν ἀπολάβωσι τοὺς κόλπους τοῦ πατριάρχου οἱ μέλλοντες τούτων ἀξιοῦσθαι· νῦν δὲ οὔπω· ἔτι γὰρ τὸ θέατρον συνέστηκεν, ἔτι ὁ ἀγὼν ἕστηκεν, ἔτι τὸ βραβεῖον μετέωρον. γʹ. Σπουδάσωμεν οὖν· καὶ γὰρ Παῦλός φησιν· Οὕτω τρέχω, ὡς οὐκ ἀδήλως. ∆ρόμου χρεία, καὶ δρόμου σφοδροῦ. Ὁ τρέχων οὐδένα τῶν ἁπάντων ὁρᾷ, κἂν διὰ λειμώνων, κἂν δι' αὐχμηρῶν τόπων διαβαίνῃ· ὁ τρέχων οὐ πρὸς τοὺς θεατὰς ὁρᾷ, ἀλλὰ πρὸς τὸ βραβεῖον· κἂν πλούσιοι, κἂν πένητες ὦσι, κἂν σκώπτῃ τις, κἂν ἐπαινῇ, κἂν ὑβρίζῃ, κἂν λίθοις βάλλῃ, κἂν τὴν οἰκίαν διαρπάζῃ, κἂν παῖδας ἴδῃ, κἂν γυναῖκα, κἂν ὁτιοῦν, οὐδαμῶς ἐπιστρέφεται, ἀλλ' ἑνὸς γίνεται μόνου, τοῦ τρέχειν, τοῦ λαβεῖν τὸ βραβεῖον. Ὁ τρέχων οὐδαμοῦ ἵσταται· ἐπεὶ κἂν μικρὸν ῥᾳθυμήσῃ, τὸ πᾶν ἀπώλεσεν. Ὁ τρέχων οὐ μόνον οὐδὲν ὑφαιρεῖ πρὸ τοῦ τέλους, ἀλλὰ καὶ τότε μάλιστα ἐπιτείνει τὸν δρόμον. Τοῦτό μοι εἴρηται πρὸς τοὺς λέγοντας· Ἐν νεότητι ἠσκήσαμεν, ἐν νεότητι ἐνηστεύσαμεν, γεγηράκαμεν νῦν. Μάλιστα νῦν τὴν εὐλάβειαν ἐπιτείνειν χρή. Μή μοι τὰ παλαιὰ ἀρίθμει κατορθώματα, νέαζε καὶ ἄκμαζε νῦν μᾶλλον. Ὁ μὲν γὰρ τὸν σωματικὸν τοῦτον τρέχων δρόμον, εἰκότως, ἐπειδὰν ἡ πολιὰ καταλάβῃ, οὐκέτι ὁμοίως τρέχειν δύναται· ἐν γὰρ τῷ σώματι τὸ πᾶν τοῦ ἀγῶνός ἐστι. Σὺ δὲ τίνος ἕνεκεν ἐλαττοῖς τὸν δρόμον; ψυχῆς γὰρ ἐνταῦθα χρεία, ψυχῆς διεγηγερμένη· ἡ δὲ ψυχὴ ἐν 63.65 γήρᾳ ῥώννυται, μᾶλλον τότε ἀκμάζει, τότε γαυροῦται. Καθάπερ γὰρ σῶμα ἕως μὲν ἂν πυρετοῖς συνέχηται καὶ ἐπαλλήλοις νοσήμασι, κἂν ἰσχυρὸν ᾖ, τεταλαιπώρηται, ἐπειδὰν δὲ ἀπαλλαγῇ τῆς πολιορκίας ἐκείνης, ἀνακτᾶται τὴν οἰκείαν δύναμιν· οὕτω καὶ ἡ ψυχὴ ἐν νεότητι μὲν οὖσα πυρέττει, καὶ δόξης αὐτὴν ἔρως κατέχει μάλιστα καὶ τρυφῆς καὶ ἀφροδισίων καὶ πολλῶν ἄλλων φαντασιῶν· τοῦ δὲ γήρως αὐτῇ ἐπελθόντος, πάντα ταῦτα ἀπελαύνεται τὰ πάθη, τὰ μὲν διὰ τὸν καιρὸν, τὰ δὲ διὰ τὴν φιλοσοφίαν. Τοὺς μὲν γὰρ τόνους χαλάσαν τοῦ σώματος τὸ γῆρας, οὐδὲ βουλομένην ἀφίησιν αὐτοῖς χρήσθαι τὴν ψυχὴν, ἀλλ' ὥσπερ πολεμίους παντοδαποὺς καταστεῖλαν ἐν καθαρῷ θορύβων χωρίῳ καθίστησιν αὐτὴν, καὶ πολλὴν ἐργάζεται τὴν γαλήνην, καὶ τὸν φόβον ἐπεισάγει πλείονα. Εἰ γὰρ καὶ μηδεὶς ἕτερος, ἀλλ' οἱ γεγηρακότες ἴσασιν, ὅτι τελευτῶσι, καὶ ὅτι πάντως ἐγγὺς ἑστήκασι τοῦ θανάτου. Ὅταν οὖν αἱ μὲν ἐπιθυμίαι ἐξιστῶνται αἱ βιωτικαὶ, ἡ δὲ τοῦ δικαστηρίου προσδοκία ἐπεισέρχηται, τὸ δυσπειθὲς αὐτῆς μαλάττουσα, οὐχὶ μᾶλλον προσεκτικωτέρα γίνεται, ἐὰν θέλῃ; Τί οὖν, φησὶν, ὅταν ἴδωμεν τῶν νέων χαλεπωτέρους τοὺς γέροντας; Ὑπερβολήν μοι λέγεις κακίας· καὶ γὰρ ἐπὶ τῶν μαινομένων, οὐδενὸς ὠθοῦντος, ὁρῶμεν αὐτοὺς κατὰ κρημνῶν χωροῦντας. Ὅταν οὖν καὶ γέρων τὰ τῶν νέων νοσῇ, ὑπερβολὴ τοῦτο κακίας ἐστί· καὶ οὐδὲ ἐν νεότητι ὁ τοιοῦτος ἀπολογίαν ἂν ἔχοι· οὐ γὰρ δύναται λέγειν, Ἁμαρτίας νεότητός μου καὶ ἀγνοίας μου μὴ μνησθῇς. Ὁ γὰρ ἐν γήρᾳ μένων ὁ αὐτὸς, δείκνυσιν ὅτι καὶ ἐν νεότητι ὑπάρχων, οὐ δι' ἄγνοιαν, οὐδὲ δι' ἀπειρίαν, οὐδὲ διὰ τὴν ἡλικίαν τοιοῦτος ἦν, ἀλλὰ διὰ ῥᾳθυμίαν. Ἐκεῖνος γὰρ δύναται λέγειν· Ἁμαρτίας νεότητός μου καὶ ἀγνοίας μου μὴ μνησθῇς, ὁ τὰ τῷ γέροντι προσήκοντα ποιῶν, ὁ ἐν τῷ γήρᾳ μεταβαλλόμενος· εἰ δὲ καὶ ἐν γήρᾳ τὰ αὐτὰ ἀσχημονεῖ, πῶς ἄξιον, γέροντα τὸν τοιοῦτον ὀνομάζεσθαι, οὐδὲ τὴν ἡλικίαν αἰδούμενον; Ὁ γὰρ λέγων, Ἁμαρτίας νεότητός μου καὶ ἀγνοίας μου μὴ μνησθῇς, ὡς ἐν τῷ γήρᾳ κατορθῶν, ταῦτά φησι. Μὴ τοίνυν διὰ τῶν ἐν τῷ γήρᾳ γινομένων ἀποστερήσῃς σαυτὸν καὶ τῆς τῶν ἐπὶ τῇ νεότητι ἁμαρτημάτων συγγνώμης. Πῶς γὰρ οὐκ ἄτοπον καὶ συγγνώμης ἐπέκεινα τὸ γινόμενον; γέρων