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and the dazzling light of your Holy Spirit? And how shall I not go alone to the darkness, I who have done the works of darkness, and be separated from the multitude of Saints? How will I endure your voice sending me into darkness, I who from here bring my condemnation from my works? Wholly shuddering, wholly trembling, wholly seized by fear and amazement, I cry to you: I know, Savior, that no other like me has sinned against you, nor done the deeds which I, the wretched one, have done, and I have become a cause of destruction for others also. But this again I know, (98) of this I am persuaded, my God, that neither the magnitude of faults, nor the multitude of sins, nor the shamefulness of deeds will ever surpass your great love for mankind, or rather, more than great, beyond reason, and beyond understanding mercy, which you richly pour out on those who sin and fervently repent, and you cleanse and enlighten and make partakers of light, sharers of your divinity, you speak and converse as with your true friends: O infinite goodness, O inexpressible love! For this reason I also fall down before you and fervently cry out to you: as you received the prodigal and the harlot when they came, so receive me, O merciful one, repenting from my soul, and reckoning the drops of my tears as ever-gushing springs, my Christ, wash in them my soul, wash also my body

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καί τό φῶς τό ἀπαστράπτον τοῦ Ἁγίου Πνεύματός σου; Πῶς δέ μόνος οὐ χωρήσω πρός τό σκότος, ὁ τοῦ σκότους ἔργα πραξας, καί Ἁγίων χωρισθήσομαι πληθύος; Πῶς ἀνέξομαι φωνῆς σου ἐκπεμπούσης με εἰς σκότος, ὁ ἐντεῦθεν ἐκ τῶν ἔργων φέρων μου τήν καταδίκην; Φρίττων ὅλος, τρέμων ὅλος, ὅλος φόβῳ καί ἐκπλήξει συνεχόμενος βοῶ σοι˙ Οἶδα, Σῶτερ, ὅτι ἄλλος ὡς ἐγώ οὐκ ἔπταισέ σοι, οὐδέ ἔπραξε τάς πράξεις, ἅσπερ ἔπραξα ἐγώ ὁ τάλας, καί παραίτιος καί ἄλλοις ἐγενόμην ἀπωλείας. Ἀλλά τοῦτο πάλιν οἶδα, (98) τοῦτο πέπεισμαι, Θεέ μου, ὡς οὐ μέγεθος πταισμάτων, οὐχ ἁμαρτημάτων πλῆθος, οὐδέ πράξεων αἰσχρότης ὑπερβήσεται ποτέ σου τό φιλάνθρωπον καί μέγα, μᾶλλον δέ ὑπέρ τό μέγα, ὑπέρ λόγον, ὑπέρ νοῦν τε ἔλεος, ὅπερ πλουσίως πρός τούς πταίοντας ἐκχέεις καί θερμῶς μετανοοῦντας, καί καθαίρεις καί φωτίζεις καί φωτός ποιεῖς μετόχους, κοινωνούς θεότητός σου, ὁμιλεῖς καί συλλαλεῖς τε ὥσπερ φίλοις σου γνησίοις˙ ὤ χρηστότητος ἀπείρου, ὤ ἀγάπης ἀνεκφράστου! ∆ιά τοῦτο καί προσπίπτω καί θερμῶς ἀναβοῶ σοι˙ ὡς τόν ἄσωτον ἐδέξω καί τήν πόρνην προσελθόντας, οὕτως δέξαι με, οἰκτίρμον, ἐκ ψυχῆς μετανοοῦντα, καί δακρύων μου ῥανίδας ὡς πηγάς ἀεί βλυζούσας λογισάμενος, Χριστέ μου, πλῦνον ἐν αὐταῖς ψυχῆς μου, πλῦνον καί τοῦ σώματός μου