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and so on. and let the letters sent to me be as follows: the ˉα for the ˉω, or another of the letters. This also must be known, that since these three are also letters, which are outside the twenty-four elements, the ˉ, the , the ˉϠ, the ˉ denotes all our brothers who have broken faith both before and at some later time, the , the patriarch, the ˉϠ, the ruler. Therefore, when there is a need either for me to ask or for you to inform about one of the three, the communication will be through the letter. 42 {1To Anna the nun}1 I thought my blessed mother had passed away, but she is still above the earth, as it seems; for what more would she have done, behaving as she does towards my humble self with motherly care? But even if I am a sinner, I nevertheless trust in the Lord to repay you for your actions on behalf of our unworthiness with no ordinary grace and the attainment of what you desire and ask for. Nevertheless, what has been done is sufficient; for I made this apology also through my previous letters. But you, on the contrary, have added more to be spent in the giving. From where, then, shall we not now be reminded of your piety? From the garments, from the sacred offering, from the food and drink, from all sides you have overwhelmed us. For this reason, put an end to the gifts and be hopeful about the divine reward; for he is not false who said he gives rewards even for a cup of cold water. You say you are grieved by the care for your child, which causes you distraction from the necessary concern for your soul. And God is able both to work out the management of your good child and to arrange for you to have leisure in all things for what is profitable for the soul, so that you may stand ready with a prepared heart for the departure from the body. You are not able to fast and endure hardship, having an ailing body, and in this bear it without grief, offering what is possible to the Lord and filling up what is lacking from asceticism with an abundance of humility. You seek to be taught how you should pray. And the Lord himself taught this through the exclamation of the Our Father and by asking for nothing temporary, but his kingdom and eternal righteousness. However, it has been established by the fathers that first is thanksgiving to God, then the confession of sins to him, and so the asking for their forgiveness and for the attainment of other saving ways. Therefore, when you are about to pray, give thanks to the Lord and Master, because he brought you from non-being into being, because he delivered you from all error, having called and deemed you worthy to become a partaker of the knowledge of himself, from gentile error, from heretical error, then because he also prepared you to be within the monastic and angel-like life after the enjoyment of social life, the thought of which is sufficient to soften the soul to compunction and the shedding of tears; from which come enlightenment of the heart, sweetness of spirit, desire for God. When this is present in the heart, there is a casting off of all evil. When you have thus sent up thanks to God, confess to him saying, "4You know, Master, how much I have sinned against you and how much I sin every hour"5, considering this sin and that trespass and the things in knowledge and in ignorance, yet not recounting randomly the things which cause harm to the soul from their vivid remembrance. And from this a grace of humility will rise up for you with contrition of heart and fear of God's retribution. After this ask, groan, beseech your Lord for the forgiveness of these things, for strengthening in the future to please him, saying, "4No longer, my Lord, Lord, will I provoke you, no longer will I love anything else besides you, the truly beloved, and if I provoke you again, I fall before your mercies, that strength be given to me to be in the habit of pleasing you"5, fervently asking if anything else good occurs to your mind to be accomplished. And after these things, call upon the holy Theotokos to have mercy on you,

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καὶ καθεξῆς. καὶ πεμπόμεναί μοι αἱ ἐπιστολαὶ οὕτως ἐχέτωσαν· τὸ ˉα τῷ ˉω, ἢ ἄλλο τῶν στοιχείων. Γνωστέον καὶ τοῦτο, ὅτι, ἐπειδὴ καὶ ταῦτα τὰ τρία εἰσὶ γράμματα, ἅτινά εἰσιν ἔξω τῶν εἰκοσιτεσσάρων στοιχείων, τὸ ˉ, τὸ , τὸ ˉϠ, τὸ ˉ δηλοῖ τοὺς ἀθετήσαντας πάντας καὶ πρότερον καὶ ὕστερόν ποτε ἀδελφοὺς ἡμῶν, τὸ τὸν πατριάρχην, τὸ ˉϠ τὸν κρατοῦντα. ὅταν οὖν χρεία γένηται εἴτε ἐρωτῆσαί με εἴτε δηλῶσαι ὑμᾶς περὶ ἑνὸς τῶν τριῶν, διὰ τοῦ γράμματος ἔσται ἡ δήλωσις. 42 {1Ἄννῃ μοναζούσῃ}1 Ἐδόκουν τετελευτηκέναι τὴν μακαρίαν μου μητέρα, ἐκείνη δὲ ἔτι ὑπὲρ γῆς ἐστιν, ὡς ἔοικεν· τί γὰρ ἔμελλεν ἂν πλέον ποιεῖν, ὡς αὐτὴ πρός με τὸν ταπεινὸν μητρικῇ κηδεμονίᾳ φερομένη; ἀλλ' εἰ κἀγὼ ἁμαρτωλός, ὅμως πιστεύω τῷ Κυρίῳ ἀνταμείψασθαί σε τοῖς ὑπὲρ τῆς ἀναξιότητος ἡμῶν οὐ τὴν τυχοῦσαν χάριν καὶ ἐπίτευξιν ὧν ποθεῖς καὶ αἰτεῖς. πλὴν ἱκανῶς ἔχει τὰ γεγενημένα· τοῦτο γὰρ καὶ διὰ τῶν προλαβόντων γραμμάτων ἀπελογησάμην. αὐτὴ δὲ τοὐναντίον προσέθηκας μᾶλλον τοῦ ἐκδαπανᾶσθαι ἐν τῇ ἐπιδόσει. πόθεν δὲ καὶ οὐ μέλλομεν ἄρτι μνημονεύειν σου τῆς θεοσεβείας; ἐκ τῶν περιβολαίων, ἐκ τοῦ ἱεροῦ ἀναθήματος, ἐκ τῆς βρώσεώς τε καὶ πόσεως, πανταχόθεν ἡμᾶς ἐξέστησας. διὰ τοῦτο καὶ τέλος ἐπίθες τοῖς δώροις καὶ εὔελπις ἔσο περὶ τῆς θείας ἀμείψεως· ἀψευδὴς γὰρ ὁ εἰρηκὼς καὶ ὑπὲρ ψυχροῦ ποτηρίου μισθοὺς ἀποδιδόναι. Λυπεῖσθαι δὲ φαίης ἐν τῇ φροντίδι τοῦ τέκνου, ἀπασχολίαν ἐμποιούσῃ σοι τῆς δεούσης περὶ τὴν ψυχὴν μερίμνης. καὶ δυνατὸς ὁ θεὸς καὶ τὴν τοῦ καλοῦ τέκνου διοίκησιν ἀπεργάσασθαι καὶ σὲ ἐπὶ πᾶσιν σχολὴν ἄγειν περὶ τῶν ψυχωφελῶν καταστήσασθαι, ὡς ἑτοίμῃ καρδίᾳ πρὸς τὴν ἔξοδον τοῦ σώματος παρίστασθαι. νηστεύειν δὲ καὶ ταλαιπωρεῖσθαι, σῶμα ἔχουσα νοσερόν, οὐ δύνῃ, κἀν τούτῳ ἀλύπως φέρε, τὰ δυνατὰ εἰσοίσουσα τῷ Κυρίῳ καὶ τῷ πλεονασμῷ τῆς ταπεινοφροσύνης τὸ ἐκ τῆς ἀσκήσεως ἐνδέον ἀναπληροῦσα. Προσεύχεσθαι δὲ ὅπως σε χρή, ἐπιζητεῖς ἐκδιδαχθῆναι. καὶ τοῦτο αὐτὸς ὁ Κύριος ἐξεδίδαξεν διὰ τῆς τοῦ πάτερ ἡμῶν ἐπιφωνήσεως καὶ τοῦ μηδὲν αἰτεῖν πρόσκαιρον, ἀλλὰ τὴν βασιλείαν αὐτοῦ καὶ τὴν δικαιοσύνην τὴν αἰώνιον. πλὴν ὅτι τετύπωται ὑπὸ τῶν πατέρων πρῶτον ἡ εἰς θεὸν εὐχαριστία, ἔπειτα ἡ τῶν ἁμαρτημάτων πρὸς αὐτὸν ἐξαγόρευσις, καὶ οὕτω ἡ αἴτησις τῆς αὐτῶν ἀφέσεως καὶ τῆς τῶν ἄλλων σωτηριωδῶν τρόπων ἐπιτεύξεως. Ἐπὰν οὖν μέλλῃς προσεύχεσθαι, εὐχαρίστει τῷ Κυρίῳ καὶ δεσπότῃ, ὅτι ἐκ τοῦ μὴ ὄντος εἰς τὸ εἶναι παρήγαγέν σε, ὅτι ἐλυτρώσατό σε ἐκ πάσης πλάνης, καλέσας καὶ ἀξιώσας τῆς ἑαυτοῦ ἐπιγνώσεως μέτοχον γενέσθαι, πλάνης ἐθνικῆς, πλάνης αἱρετικῆς, εἶτα ὅτι καὶ τοῦ μοναδικοῦ καὶ ἰσαγγέλου βίου ἐντός σε παρεσκεύασεν ὑπάρξαι μετὰ τὴν τοῦ κοινωνικοῦ βίου ἀπόλαυσιν, ὧν ἡ ἔννοια ἱκανὴ καταμαλάξαι τὴν ψυχὴν πρὸς κατάνυξιν καὶ δακρύων προβολήν· ἀφ' ὧν φωτισμὸς καρδίας, γλυκύτης πνεύματος, ἐπιθυμία θεοῦ. ταύτης ἐνυπαρχούσης τῇ καρδίᾳ πάσης κακίας ἐστὶν ἀποβολή. ὅταν οὕτως εὐχαριστίας ἀναπέμψῃς τῷ θεῷ, ἐξαγόρευε αὐτῷ λέγουσα, "4σὺ οἶδας, δέσποτα, ὅσα σοι ἥμαρτον καὶ ὅσα ἁμαρτάνω καθ' ἑκάστην ὥραν"5, τήνδε τὴν ἁμαρτίαν καὶ τήνδε τὴν πλημμέλειαν καὶ τὰ ἐν γνώσει καὶ ἀγνοίᾳ ἀναλογιζομένη, πλὴν μὴ ἀνιστοροῦσα ὡς ἔτυχεν τὰ βλάβην ἐκ τῆς ἐναργοῦς ὑπομνήσεως ἐμποιοῦντα τῇ ψυχῇ. κἀντεῦθεν ἀνατελεῖ σοι ταπεινοφροσύνης χάρις μετὰ συντριμμοῦ καρδίας καὶ φόβου ἀνταποδόσεως θεοῦ. μετὰ τοῦτο αἴτησον, στέναξον, δεήθητι τοῦ Κυρίου σου τὴν τούτων ἄφεσιν, τὴν πρὸς τὸ μέλλον πρὸς τὸ εὐαρεστεῖν αὐτῷ ἐνδυνάμωσιν, λέγουσα, "4οὐκέτι, Κύριέ μου, Κύριε, παροργίζω σε, οὐκέτι φιλήσω ἄλλο τι παρὰ σὲ τὸν ὄντως ἀγαπητόν, κἄν τε παροργίσω πάλιν προσπίπτουσά εἰμι τοῖς οἰκτιρμοῖς σου, δοθῆναί μοι ἰσχὺν ἐν ἕξει γενέσθαι τοῦ εὐαρεστεῖν σοι"5, εἴ τι ἄλλο κατὰ νοῦν σοι παρίσταται ἀνυσθῆναι ἀγαθὸν θερμῶς αἰτουμένη. καὶ μετὰ ταῦτα ἐπικαλοῦ τὴν ἁγίαν Θεοτόκον ἐλεῆσαί σε,