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of the world, and you would have become a mouth of Christ; for he who brings forth, he says, the precious from the worthless will be as my mouth. And such men would have brought great renunciations and given their substance to the monastery, and the monastery was likely to be increased and to become like that of the great Euthymius and Sabas and Pachomius, the saints. But indeed, in addition to these things, you yourself would have acquired greater humility, so that the brothers would see and imitate you, (245) for you would have lived in the monastery as the last of all and you would have borne the burdens of all, the faults of all. And thus you would not only have benefited the many, but you yourself would have been benefited more, both spiritually and physically you would have found great repose".

He suggests these things, therefore, to those who are supposedly struggling in the venerable monastery. So each of them begins to reveal his own thought to a brother in whom he confides and, as if joking and speaking modestly, so that he may not be condemned as ambitious, he says: "Just now, master so-and-so, if the brothers were wise, would they not have made me abbot?". And he perhaps answers and says: "Believe me, father, as for you, I know that you are being modest, since I myself was thinking this for a long time, but I was afraid to speak to you about it, lest you should perhaps blame me for speaking things contrary to your opinion." Then he says again: "You have spoken well, brother. Believe me, I do not wish to become abbot, but so that some indifferent person might not become abbot and destroy the monastery and grieve the brothers, if the brothers wanted me to become abbot, I would certainly have made you steward, so-and-so cellarer and storekeeper, while I would have devoted myself entirely only to spiritual matters and so that I might be free from practical affairs." The brother hears these things and that he is going to make him steward, and going away he confidently tells these things to the brothers whom he said he would make deacons.

So then, perhaps even three of the more devout do these things, being ignorant of the methods of the evil one; but to the more carnal and those who are neglectful (246) concerning their own salvation, the enemy suggests and proposes these things: luxury, glory, and the honor from all. "And so that one of these hypocrites," he says, "and falsely pious men does not become abbot, strive to become abbot yourself. For if you do not do this, you will certainly stand before the one who has become abbot with your hands tied and be dishonored by him. But indeed he will be riding on costly mules, while you will be on foot and toiling; for him a special table will be prepared, and likewise bread and wine, but for you the vegetable and seed-based food common to all. He will be seated upon a throne and first, while you will be in the midst of the others or even the last of the rest; for he especially loves so-and-so, and if he becomes abbot, having honored him above you, he will set him before you, and how will you bear the shame from the brothers? Not only this, but so-and-so is more devout than you, and perhaps he will be preferred by him? Furthermore, perhaps he also has to tonsure some from among the notable and glorious, and they will honor him as abbot, and he in turn will honor them as dignitaries and as those tonsured by him, and he will place them above you, while he will dismiss you to a separate place or even urge you to stand and serve altogether. And in the face of these things, what then will you do? You dare not speak; for there are those who love him and they will immediately silence you. And perhaps they will even strike you for speaking against him, and the dishonor will be worse. To withdraw from the monastery is your condemnation, and every man will laugh at you and find fault with you, and you will not even find rest elsewhere; for wherever you go, as a newly-tonsured monk you must be the last of all. You are not able to endure these things and remain in your monastery. Therefore, struggle with all your might so that one of the more devout does not win." (247) Then he considers and says to himself: "Everyone knows that brother so-and-so and brother so-and-so are more devout and they are going to seek them and overlook me. But I, going to so-and-so

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τοῦ κόσμου, καί στόμα ἄν ἐγένου Χριστοῦ· ὁ γάρ ἐξάγων, φησί, τίμιον ἐξ ἀναξίου ὡς στόμα μου ἔσται. Εἶχον δέ προσαγαγεῖν οἱ τοιοῦτοι καί ἀποταγάς μεγάλας καί τάς ὑποστάσεις αὐτῶν ἐν τῇ μονῇ ἐπιδοῦναι, καί προστεθῆναι εἶοχε τό μοναστήριον καί οἷον τοῦ μεγάλου Εὐθυμίου καί Σάβα καί Παχωμίου τῶν ἁγίων γενέσθαι. Ἀλλά γάρ πρός τούτοις καί αὐτός περισσοτέραν ταπείνωσιν εἶχες κτήσασθαι, ἵνα ἔβλεπον καί ἐμιμοῦντό σε οἱ ἀδελφοί, (245) ὡς γάρ ἔσχατον πάντων ἄν διῆγες ἐν τῇ μονῇ καί βαστάζειν εἶχες πάντων τά βάρη, πάντων τά ἐλαττώματα. Καί οὕτως οὐ μόνον ὠφελήσας τούς πολλούς, ἀλλά καί αὐτός σύ ὠφελήθης μᾶλλον ψυχικῶς καί σωματικῶς εὗρες μεγάλην ἀνάπαυσιν".

Ταῦτα τοίνυν ὑποβάλλει τοῖς δῆθεν ἀγωνιζομένοις ἐν τῷ σεμνείῳ. Ἄρχεται οὖν ἕκαστος αὐτῶν ἀποκαλύπτειν τόν ἴδιον λογισμόν πρός ὅν ἄν θαρρεῖ ἀδελφόν καί δῆθεν ὡς ἀστειαζόμενος καί μετριάζων, ἵνα μή καταγνωσθῇ ὡς φιλόδοξος, φησί· "Ἄρτι, κῦρι ὁ δεῖνα, ἐάν ἐφρονοῦσαν οἱ ἀδελφοί, οὐ μή εἶχον ποιῆσαί με ἡγούμενον; ". Ὁ δέ ἴσως ἀποκρίνεται καί λέγει· "Πίστευσόν μοι, πάτερ, σύ μέν, οἶδα ὅτι μετριάζεις, ἐπεί πρό πολλοῦ τοῦτο χρόνου ἐνεθυμούμην ἐγώ, ἀλλ᾿ εὐλαβούμην εἰπεῖν σοι περί τούτου, ἵνα μήπως ὡς τά παρά γνώμην σου λαλοῦντά μοι μέμψῃ". Εἶτα πάλιν ἐκεῖνός φησι· "Καλῶς εἶπας, ἀδελφέ. Πίστευσον, οὐ χρήζω γενέσθαι, ἀλλ᾿ ἵνα μή ἀδιάφορός τις γένηται καί τό μοναστήριον καταστρέψῃ καί τούς ἀδελφούς λυπήσῃ, ἐάν ἤθελον οἱ ἀδελφοί ἵνα ἐγενόμην, καί πάντως ποιῆσαι εἶχον σέ οἰκονόμον, τόν δεῖνα καί δεῖνα κελλαρίτην καί ἀποθηκάριον, ἐγώ δέ ἐσχόλαζον πάντως εἰς μόνα τά ψυχικά καί ἵνα ἤμην ἀπό τῶν πραγμάτων ἐλεύθερος". Ἀκούει ταῦτα ὁ ἀδελφός καί ὅτι οἰκονόμον μέλλει τοῦτον ποιεῖν, καί ἀπελθών θαρρεῖ ταῦτα τοῖς ἀδελφοῖς οὕς εἶπε ποιήσειν διακονητάς.

Ταῦτα τοίνυν καί τρεῖς ἐκ τῶν εὐλαβεστέρων ἴσως ποιοῦσιν, ἀγνοοῦντες τάς μεθόδους τοῦ πονηροῦ· τοῖς δέ γε σαρκικωτέροις καί ἀμελῶς ἔχουσι (246) περί τήν ἑαυτῶν σωτηρίαν ταῦτα ὑποβάλλει καί ὑποτίθησιν ὁ ἐχθρός, τήν τρυφήν, τήν δόξαν καί τήν παρά πάντων τιμήν. "Καί ἵνα μή ἐκ τῶν ὑποκριτῶν, φησί, γένηταί τις καί ψευδοευλαβῶν τούτων, σπούδασον γενέσθαι σύ. Εἰ γάρ μή τοῦτο ποιήσεις, μέλλεις πάντως δεδεμέναις χερσί τῷ γενομένῳ παρίστασθαι καί ἀτιμάζεσθαι παρ᾿ αὐτοῦ. Ἀλλά γάρ καί ἐποχούμενος ἔσται ἐκεῖνος ἐν ἡμιόνοις πολυτίμοις, σύ δέ πεζοπορῶν ἔσῃ καί κοπιῶν· ἐκείνῳ διάφορος ἑτοιμασθήσεται τράπεζα καί ἄρτος ὡσαύτως καί οἶνος, σοί δέ ἡ λαχανώδης καί σπερματώδης καί τοῖς πᾶσι κοινή. Ἐκεῖνος καθεσθήσεται ἐπί θρόνου καί πρῶτος, σύ δέ μέσον τῶν ἄλλων ἤ καί τῶν λοιπῶν ἔσχατος· ἀγαπᾷ γάρ διαφερόντως τόν δεῖνα, καί εἰ γένηται ἡγούμενος, ὑπέρ σέ τιμήσας ἐπάνω σου προκαθίσει αὐτόν, καί πῶς βαστάσεις τήν αἰσχύνην τῶν ἀδεφλῶν; Οὐ μόνον δέ ἀλλά καί ὁ δεῖνα εὐλαβέστερός σού ἐστι, καί ἴσως παρ᾿ ἐκείνου προτιμηθῇ; Ἔτι δέ ἴσως καί ἀπό τῶν ἐμφανῶν καί ἐνδόξων ἀποκεῖραι ἔχει, καί μέλλουσιν ἐκεῖνον μέν τιμᾶν ὡς ἡγούμενον, ἐκεῖνος δέ πάλιν ἐκείνους ὡς ἀξιωματικούς καί ὡς ἀποκαρέντας παρ᾿ αὐτοῦ τιμῆσει καί σοῦ ὑπερκαθίσει αὐτούς, σέ δέ εἰς τό διαζύγιον ἀπολύσει ἤ καί παντελῶς ἵστασθαί σε καί διακονεῖν προτρέψεται. Καί πρός ταῦτα τί ἄρα μέλλεις ποιεῖν; Λαλῆσαι οὐ τολμᾷς· εἰσί γάρ οἱ ἀγαπῶντες αὐτόν καί εὐθύς ἐπιστομίσουσί σε. Τάχα δέ ἴσως καί τύψουσί σε ἀντιλέγοντα, καί χείρων ἔσται ἡ ἀτιμία. Ὑποχωρῆσαι τῆς μονῆς κατάγνωσίς σού ἐστι, καί πᾶς ἄνθρωπος καταγελάσεται καί καταμέμψεταί σε, καί οὐδέ εὑρήσεις ἀλλαχοῦ ἀνάπαυσιν· ἔνθα γάρ ἀπέλθῃς, ὡς ξενοκουρίτης πάντων ἔσχατος εἶναι ὀφείλεις. Ὑπομένειν ταῦτα καί εἶναι ἐν τῇ μονῇ σου οὐ δύνασαι. Λοιπόν οὖν πάσῃ δυνάμει ἀγώνισαι μή νικήσῃ τις τῶν εὐλαβεστέρων". (247) Εἶτα σκέπτεται καί λέγει ἐν ἑαυτῷ· "Πάντες γινώσκωσι τόν δεῖνα ἀδελφόν καί τόν δεῖνα εὐλαβεστέρους καί μέλλουσιν ἐκείνους ζητεῖν κἀμέ παραβλέψασθαι. Ἀλλ᾿ ἀπελθών ἐγώ τόν δεῖνα