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clearly imparting knowledge to us; for otherwise it is not possible for anyone to know God, except through the vision of the light sent forth from Him. For just as one who describes a man or a certain city to others speaks to them of what he has seen and beheld, but those who hear, not having seen the man or the city of which they are hearing, are not able from hearing alone to know about the man and about the city in the same way as the one who has seen and is describing them, so also concerning the Jerusalem above and the invisible God who dwells in it, concerning the unapproachable glory of His face and concerning the energy and power of His all-holy Spirit, that is, of light, no one is able to speak, unless he first sees the light itself with the eyes of his soul and knows precisely its illuminations and energies within himself. But if he should hear something through the divine Scriptures spoken by those who have seen God, through the Spirit he is taught those things and those things alone; whence he is not even able to say that he has come into the knowledge of God through this hearing alone. For how can he know Him whom he has not seen? For if sight alone does not impart to us humans perfect knowledge of what is seen by us, how could hearing alone impart to us the knowledge of God? God is light, and the vision of Him is as light; thus, in the vision of the light, the first knowledge is that He is God, just as in the case of a man, there is first hearing about him, then sight, and in seeing him, the knowledge that he is the man about whom they were hearing. And not even so does the meaning of what is said stand firm; for whatever someone might tell you about a man from hearing, when you see him, you cannot, from hearing alone, recognize him precisely and be fully assured that this is the very one about whom you heard, but the soul is divided by doubt and either asks him himself or some other person who knows him, and then you learn for certain that it is that very man.

Thus, then, it happens in exactly the same way concerning the invisible God. (217) For when someone beholds Him revealed, he sees light; having seen it, he marvels, but he does not know at once who has appeared, nor does he dare to ask him himself—for how could he, when he is not even able to look up with his eyes and see what sort he is? but he looks only with great trembling and fear as if towards his feet, knowing only that someone in general has appeared before his face. And if there is one who has previously explained these things to him, as one who has foreknown God, he goes away and says to him: "I have seen." And he says: "What, my child, did you see?" - "Light, O father, sweet, sweet; my mind is not sufficient, father, to tell you what sort it was." And as he says this, his heart leaps and throbs and is immediately kindled with desire for the one who was seen. Then again he begins to speak with hot and many tears, thus: "That light appeared to me, father; the house of the cell was immediately taken up and the world passed away, fleeing, as I think, from its face; and I remained alone, being with the light alone. I do not know if this body was also there then, father; for whether I was outside it I do not know, at any rate I did not know that I wear and am clothed in a body. But there was in me an ineffable joy that is with me even now, and great love and desire, so that the streams of my tears were moved like rivers, just as now, as you see." Answering then, he says to him: "It is He, my child." And with the word he sees Him again and little by little is completely purified, and being purified he grows bold and asks Him himself and says: "My God, is it You?" And He answers and says: "Yes, I am God, who for your sake became man; and behold, I have made you, as you see, and I will make you a god."

When, therefore, he has spent a long time mourning and weeping and falling down and humbling himself, he begins little by little (218) to know the things of God; and having arrived at this, he then learns "His holy and acceptable and perfect will." For if he does not see Him, to say it again, he is not able to know Him; and if he does not know Him, how will he be able to know His holy will? For if this is impossible in the case of men,

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δηλονότι ἐμποιοῦντος τήν γνῶσιν ἡμῖν· ἄλλως γάρ οὐκ ἔστι γνῶναί τινα τόν Θεόν, εἰ μή διά τῆς θεωρίας τοῦ ἐξ αὐτοῦ ἐκπεμπομένου φωτός. Ὥσπερ γάρ ὁ περί ἀνθρώπου ἤ περί πόλεώς τινος πρός τινας διηγούμενος, ἐκεῖνος μέν ἅ εἶδε καί ἅ ἑώρακε λαλεῖ πρός αὐτούς, οἱ δέ ἀκούοντες μή θεασάμενοι τόν ἄνθρωπον ἤ τήν πόλιν περί ἧς καί ἀκούουσιν, οὐ δύναται ἀπό τῆς ἀκοῆς μόνης, ὡς ὁ ἰδών καί διηγούμενος τά περί τοῦ ἀνθρώπου, γινώσκειν καί τά περί τῆς πόλεως, οὕτως καί περί τῆς ἄνω Ἱερουσαλήμ καί τοῦ ἐν αὐτῇ κατοικοῦντος ἀοράτου Θεοῦ, περί τῆς ἀπροσίτου δόξης τε τοῦ προσώπου αὐτοῦ καί περί τῆς ἐνεργείας καί δυνάμεως τοῦ παναγίου αὐτοῦ Πνεύματος, εἴτ᾿ οὖν φωτός, οὐδείς εἰπεῖν δύναται, εἰ μή πρῶτον αὐτό τό φῶς ἴδῃ ψυχῆς ὀφθαλμοῖς καί ἀκριβῶς γνῷ τάς αὐτοῦ ἐλλάμψεις καί ἐνεργείας ἐν αὐτῷ. Ἀλλ᾿ εἰ τι καί διά τῶν θείων ἀκούοι Γραφῶν λαλοῦντας δι᾿ αὐτῶν τούς τόν Θεόν ἰδόντας, διά τοῦ Πνεύματος ἐκεῖνα καί μόνα διδάσκεται· ὅθεν οὐδέ δύναται λέγειν ὅτι ἐν γνώσει γέγονα τοῦ θεοῦ διά μόνης ταύτης τῆς ἀκοῆς. Ὅν γάρ οὐχ ἑώρακε πῶς γινώσκειν ἐνδέχεται; Εἰ γάρ ἡ ὅρασις μόνη τελείαν τήν γνῶσιν τοῦ ὁρωμένου παρ᾿ ἡμῶν ἀνθρώπων οὐκ ἐμποιεῖ ἐν ἡμῖν, πῶς ἡ ἀκοή μόνη τήν τοῦ Θεοῦ γνῶσιν ἡμῖν ἐμποιήσειε; Φῶς ὁ Θεός καί ὡς φῶς ἡ θέα αὐτοῦ· ἐν γοῦν τῇ τοῦ φωτός θέᾳ γνῶσις πρώτη ὅτι Θεός, καθά καί ἐπί τοῦ ἀνθρώπου ἀκοή πρῶτον περί αὐτοῦ, εἶτα ὅρασις, καί ἐν τῷ αὐτόν ἰδεῖν γνῶσις ὅτι ἄνθρωπός ἐστι περί οὗ ἤκουον. Καί οὐδέ οὕτως ἵσταται τοῦ λεγομένου ἡ ἔννοια· ὅσα γάρ ἄν ἐξ ἀκοῆς σοί τις εἴπῃ περί ἀνθρώπου, ὅτε ἴδῃς αὐτόν, ἀπό μόνης τῆς ἀκοῆς γνωρίσαι αὐτόν ἀκριβῶς καί πληροφορηθῆναι, ὅτι αὐτός ἐκεῖνός ἐστι περί οὗ ἤκουες, οὐ δύνασαι, ἀλλά ἀμφιβολίᾳ ἡ ψυχή διαμερίζεται καί ἤ ἐκεῖνον αὐτόν ἐρωτᾷ ἤ ἕτερόν τινα τόν γνωρίζοντα αὐτόν, καί τότε βεβαίως μανθάνεις ὅτι αὐτός ἐκεῖνός ἐστιν.

Οὕτως οὖν καί περί τοῦ ἀοράτου Θεοῦ ἀπαραλλάκτως γίνεται. (217) Ὅταν γάρ ἀποκαλυφθέντα θεάσηταί τις αὐτόν, φῶς ὁρᾷ· θαυμάζει μέν ἰδών, τίς δέ ὁ φανείς οὐκ οἶδεν εὐθύς, ἀλλ᾿ οὐδέ αὐτόν ἐρωτῆσαι τολμᾷ, πῶς γάρ, ὅν οὐδέ ἀναβλέψαι τοῖς ὀφθαλμοῖς καί ἰδεῖν δύναται ποταπός; βλέπει δέ μόνον ἐν τρόμῳ καί φόβῳ πολλῷ οἱονεί πρός τούς πόδας αὐτοῦ, εἰδώς ὅτι ὅλως τίς ἐστιν ὁ φανείς πρό προσώπου αὐτοῦ. Καί εἰ μέν ὑπάρχει ὁ περί τούτων προεξηγησάμενος αὐτῷ, ὡς προεγνωκώς τόν Θεόν, ἀπερχόμενος λέγει αὐτῷ· "Εἶδον". Καί φησι· "Τί, τέκνον, εἶδες;" - "Φῶς, ὦ πάτερ, γλυκύ, γλυκύ· ποταπόν εἰπεῖν σοι, πάτερ, οὐκ ἐξικανοῦσαν ἔχω μου τήν διάνοιαν". Καί ὡς οὖν τοῦτο λέγει, σκιρτᾷ καί πάλλει ἡ καρδία αὐτοῦ καί πρός τόν πόθον τοῦ ὀφθέντος εὐθύς ἀνάπτεται. Εἶτα πάλιν ἄρχεται λέγειν μετά δακρύων θερμῶν καί πολλῶν ὡς· "Ὡράθη μοι, πάτερ, ἐκεῖνο τό φῶς· ἤρθη ὁ οἶκος τῆς κέλλης εὐθύς καί παρῆλθεν ὁ κόσμος, φυγών ὡς οἶμαι ἀπό προσώπου αὐτοῦ· ἔμεινα δέ μόνος ἐγώ μόνῳ συνών τῷ φωτί. Οὐκ οἶδα δέ εἰ ἦν καί τό σῶμα τοῦτο, πάτερ, τηνικαῦτα ἐκεῖ· εἰ γάρ ἔξω τούτου γέγονα ἀγνοῶ, τέως οὐκ ᾔδειν ὅτι σῶμα φορῶ καί περίκειμαι. Ἦν μοι δέ χαρά ἡ καί νῦν συνοῦσά μοι ἄφραστος, ἀγάπη τε καί πόθος πολύς, ὡς κινηθῆναί μου τά νάματα κατά ποταμούς τῶν δακρύων, καθά δή καί νῦν, ὡς ὁρᾷς". Ἀποκριθείς οὖν λέγει αὐτῷ· "Ἐκεῖνος, τέκνον, ἐστί". Καί σύν τῷ λόγῳ βλέπει πάλιν αὐτόν καί μικρόν μικρόν τελείως καθαίρεται, καθαιρόμενος δέ παρρησιάζεται καί ἐκεῖνον αὐτόν ἐρωτᾷ καί φησίν· "Ὁ Θεός μου, σύ εἶ;" Καί ἀποκρίνεται καί φησί· "Ναί ἐγώ εἰμι, ὁ Θεός, ὁ διά σέ ἄνθρωπος γεγονώς· καί ἰδού ἐγώ πεποίηκά σε, ὡς ὁρᾷς, καί ποιήσω θεόν".

Ὅτε τοίνυν χρονίσει πενθῶν καί κλαίων καί προσπίπτων καί ταπεινούμενος, ἄρχεται ἐκ τοῦ κατ᾿ ὀλίγον (218) γινώσκειν τά τοῦ Θεοῦ· καί εἰς τοῦτο πεφθακώς, τότε μανθάνει "τό θέλημα αὐτοῦ τό ἅγιον καί εὐάρεστον καί τέλειον". Εἰ γάρ μή ἴδῃ, ἵνα πάλιν εἴπω, αὐτόν, οὐδέ δύναται γινώσκειν αὐτόν· καί εἰ μή γνῷ αὐτόν, πῶς ἰσχύσει γνῶναι τό αὐτοῦ ἅγιον θέλημα; Εἰ γάρ ἐπί ἀνθρώπων τοῦτο ἀδύνατον,