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to take up the station of some orator, being an unlearned man (252), nor to read before the people, being illiterate, yet you seek or even accept the dignity of the apostles, having not yet received the grace of the apostles nor seen its fruits cultivated in you! And how do you endure, brother, to consider the magnitude of your audacity? Tell me, beloved, if this whole great and populous city entreated you, saying: "We will make you praepositus and the emperor's protovestiarius, and go up alone to the palace and, having entered, speak to the emperor about us and beseech him to do such and such for us," you, of course, having never entered a palace, but being unknown even to the emperor himself, as a stranger to all those in the palace, would you ever have dared to do this or to accept the office? You would certainly confess that you would never have dared to carry it out, but rather you would have blamed and ridiculed those who said these things to you as mad and senseless, and you would have rejected the office not as a source of honor but as one of dishonor and punishment. If, therefore, we are unable to do such things in human affairs, is it not dreadful to you, and does it not seem so, to take up the apostolic dignity rashly, brother? And to approach the unapproachable light and to become a mediator between God and men, have you considered this a small thing? And is the undertaking of this matter to be despised? Woe to me, brother, I fear that we have been brought down into complete darkness and for this reason we are ignorant of what sort of things we dare to undertake. For if we knew, we would never have driven ourselves to such insolence and audacity, as to make a mockery of divine matters and to reserve more honor and fear (253) for the earthly emperor than for the immortal king, Christ. Therefore, let us not cease examining ourselves, and in every way to thwart and cut off from the undertaking those who attempt unworthily to embark on such a position of authority; but let us be diligent as much as possible to hinder them from their irrational impulse, so that we may both deliver them from judgment and we ourselves may live more securely.

But if, as has been said, you see no brother in the monastery having a life of witness and being spiritual in deed and word, but every random person simply leaping at and unworthily [attaining] the pastoral authority, and being zealous for the harm of the brethren and for the destruction of his own soul, and if, searching carefully, you find yourself freed from all vainglory, and having no trace of any bodily pleasure and desire, and being completely pure of avarice and remembrance of wrongs, having perfect meekness and freedom from anger, and having such love for God that from the mere hearing of the name of Christ you are at once kindled with longing and shed tears, and, in addition to this, mourning for your neighbor and considering the faults of others as your own and holding yourself from the soul to be more sinful than all; and finally, if you see in yourself the rich grace of the Holy Spirit, illuminating and making the things within your heart like the sun, and you clearly perceive the miracle of the bush being performed in you, so that you are burned in being united to the unapproachable fire, but are not consumed because your soul is free from all passion; moreover if you are so humble as to consider yourself incapable and unworthy, (254) knowing the weakness of human nature? yet you trust in the grace from above and in the sufficiency that comes from it and you eagerly undertake the matter, being compelled by its zeal and pushing aside every human calculation, and setting forth your very soul for the sake of the brethren, solely for the commandment of God and the love of neighbor; and in addition to what has been said, if you have your mind stripped of every worldly thought, and are clothed in the luminous tunic of humility, so that you do not attach your heart even slightly to those who cooperate with you nor are you displeased with those who oppose you, but you are completely equal

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ῥήτορος τινος ἀναλαβέσθαι τάξιν ἰδιώτης (252) τυγχάνων, οὐδέ ἐπί λαοῦ ἀναγνῶναι ἀγράμματος ὤν, τήν δέ τῶν ἀποστόλων ἀξίαν ἐπιζητεῖς ἤ καί καταδέχῃ, μήπω τήν χάριν τῶν ἀποστόλων λαβών μηδέ τούς καρπούς αὐτῆς θεασάμενος γεωργηθέντας ἐν σοί! Καί πῶς ὑποφέρεις, ἀδελφέ, τό μέγεθος ἐννοῆσαι τῆς τόλμης; Εἰπέ μοι ἀγαπητέ, ἐάν σε πᾶσα ἡ μεγάλη αὕτη καί πολυάνθρωπος πόλις παρεκάλει λέγουσα· "Ποιήσομέν σε πραιπόσιτον καί τοῦ βασιλέως πρωτοβεστιάριον, καί ἀνάβησθι μόνος εἰς τό παλάτιον καί εἰσελθών λάλησον τῷ βασιλεῖ περί ἡμῶν καί παρακάλεσον αὐτόν ποιῆσαι ἡμῖν τά καί τά", σοῦ δηλονότι εἰς παλάτιον μή εἰσελθόντος ποτέ, ἀλλά ἀγνωρίστου τυγχάνοντος καί αὐτῷ τῷ βασιλεῖ, ὡς ξένου πᾶσι τοῖς ἐν τῷ παλατίῳ, ἆρα ἐτόλμησας ἄν ποτε τοῦτο ποιῆσαι ἤ ἀποδέξασθαι τό ἀξίωμα; Πάντως ὁμολογήσεις ὡς οὐκ ποτε διαπράξασθαι τετόλμηκας, ἀλλά καί τούς ταῦτά σοι λέγοντας ὡς μαινομένους καί ἔκφρονας μᾶλλον ἐμέμψω καί κατεγέλασας, καί τό ἀξίωμα οὐχ ὡς τιμῆς ἀλλ᾿ ὡς ἀτιμίας καί κολάσεως πρόξενον ἀπερρίψω. Εἰ τοίνυν ἀδυνάτως ἔχομεν ἐπί ἀνθρωπίνων πραγμάτων τοιαῦτα ποιεῖν, οὐ φρικτόν σοί ἐστι καί δοκεῖ τό ἀναλαβέσθαι ἀποστολικόν ἀξίωμα προπετῶς, ἀδελφέ; Καί πλησιάσαι τῷ ἀπροσίτῳ φωτί καί μεσίτης Θεοῦ καί ἀνθρώπων γενέσθαι μικρόν σοι λελόγισται; Καί ὡς εὐκαταφρόνητος ἡ ἐπιχείρησις τούτου τοῦ πράγματος; Οὐαί μοι, ἀδελφέ, φοβοῦμαι ὅτι εἰς παντελῆ κατηνέχθημεν σκότωσιν καί διά τοῦτο ἀγνοοῦμεν ὁποίων κατατολμῶμεν πραγμάτων. Εἰ γάρ ἐγινώσκομεν, οὐκ ἄν εἰς τοσοῦτόν ποτε αὐθαδείας καί τόλμης ἠλάσαμεν, ὥστε τῶν θείων κατορχεῖσθαι πραγμάτων καί πλείονα τήν τιμήν καί τόν φόβον φυλάττειν (253) τῷ ἐπί γῆς βασιλεῖ ὑπέρ τόν ἀθάνατον βασιλέα Χριστόν. Τοιγαροῦν μή παυσώμεθα ἑαυτούς ἀνακρίνοντες, καί τούς εἰς τοιαύτην ἀναξίως ἐπιβαίνειν ἐπιχειροῦντας ἀρχήν παντί τρόπῳ ἀνατρέπειν καί ἐκκόπτειν τῆς ἐγχειρήσεως· ἀλλά σπουδάσωμεν ὅσον τό ἐφικτόν κωλύειν αὐτούς τῆς παραλόγου ὁρμῆς, ἵνα καί αὐτούς τοῦ κρίματος ἀπαλλάξωμεν καί ἡμεῖς βιώσωμεν ἀσφαλέστερον.

Ἐάν δέ, καθώς εἴρηται, οὐδένα ὁρᾷς ἐν τῷ μοναστηρίῳ ἀδελφόν ἐμμάρτυρον βίον ἔχοντα καί πνευματικόν ἔργῳ καί λόγῳ τυγχάνοντα, πάντα δέ τόν τυχόντα ἁπλῶς ἐπιπηδῶντα καί ἀναξίως τῇ ποιμενικῇ ἀρχῇ, καί πρός βλάβην μέν σπουδάζοντα τῶν ἀδελφῶν, πρός ἀπώλειαν δέ τῆς ἰδίας ψυχῆς, ἐρευνῶν δέ ἀκριβῶς εὑρίσκεις σεαυτόν πάσης μέν ἀπηλλαγμένον φιλοδοξίας, πάσης δέ ἡδονῆς καί ἐπιθυμίας σωματικῆς ἴχνος οὐκ ἔχοντα, φυλαργυρίας δέ καί μνησικακίας τό παντελές καθαρεύοντα, πρᾳότητα τελείαν καί ἀοργησίαν ἔχοντα, ἀγάπην δέ τοιαύτην εἰς τόν Θεόν ἔχοντα ὡς ἐκ μόνης τῆς ἀκοῆς τοῦ ὀνόματος τοῦ Χριστοῦ ἀνάπτεσθαι τῷ πόθῳ εὐθύς καί καταφέρειν τά δάκρυα, καί πρός τούτοις ὑπέρ τόν πλησίον πενθοῦντα καί ἡγούμενον ἴδια τά ἀλλότρια σφάλματα καί ἑαυτόν πάντων ἀπό ψυχῆς ἁμαρτωλότερον ἔχοντα· καί τέλος, ἐάν πλουσίαν ἐν σοί ὁρᾷς τήν χάριν τοῦ Ἁγίου Πνεύματος, φωτίζουσαν καί ὡς ἥλιον ἀποτελοῦσαν τά ἐντός τῆς καρδίας σου, καί τό τῆς βάτου θαῦμα ἐναργῶς κατανοεῖς ἐν σοί ἐκτελούμενον, ὡς καίεσθαι μέν ἐν τῷ ἑνοῦσθαι τῷ ἀπροσίτῳ πυρί, μή κατακαίεσθαι δέ διά τό ἀπηλλαγμένην εἶναι παντός πάθους τήν σήν ψυχήν· ἔτι δέ εἰ οὕτω ταπεινοῦσαι, ὡς νομίζειν ἑαυτόν ἀνίκανον καί ἀνάξιον, (254) τῆς ἀνθρωπίνης φύσεως ἐπιστάμενος τήν ἀσθένειαν; θαρρεῖς δέ τῇ ἄνωθεν χάριτι καί τῇ ἐξ αὐτῆς ἱκανότητι καί προθύμως ἐπιχειρεῖς τῷ πράγματι, τῇ ζέσει ταύτης ἀναγκαζόμενος πάντε τε λογισμόν ἀνθρώπινον ἀπωθούμενος, καί τήν ψυχήν αὐτήν διά μόνην τήν τοῦ Θεοῦ ἐντολήν καί τήν ἀγάπην τοῦ πλησίου ὑπέρ τῶν ἀδελφῶν προτιθέμενος· καί πρός τοῖς εἰρημένοις, ἐάν γυμνόν ἔχῃς τόν νοῦν πάσης κοσμικῆς ἐνθυμήσεως, ἐνδεδυμένος δέ ᾗς τόν φωτοειδῆ χιτῶνα τῆς ταπεινώσεως, ὥστε μήτε τοῖς σνεργοῦσι κἄν ψιλῶς τήν καρδίαν προστίθεσθαι μήτε τοῖς ἀντιπράττουσιν ἀηδίζεσθαι, ἀλλ᾿ ὅλως ἴσος εἶναι