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God, departing says to him: "I have seen." And he says: "What, child, have you seen?" - "A light, O father, sweet, sweet; my mind is not capable of telling you what kind it was." And so as he says this, his heart leaps and throbs and is immediately kindled with desire for what had appeared. Then again he begins to say with hot and many tears, as follows: "That light appeared to me, father; the house of the cell was immediately lifted up and the world passed away, fleeing as I think from its face; and I remained alone, being with the light alone. But I do not know if this body was also there at that time, father; for whether I was outside of it, I do not know, at any rate I did not know that I wear and am clothed in a body. But I had an ineffable joy which is with me even now, and love and much desire, so that the streams of my tears were moved like rivers, just as now, as you see." Answering, therefore, he says to him: "It is He, child." And with the word he sees Him again and little by little is completely purified, and being purified he speaks freely and asks Him Himself and says: "My God, is it you?" And He answers and says: "Yes, it is I, God, who for your sake became man; and behold I have made you, as you see, and I will make you a god."

When, therefore, he has spent a long time mourning and weeping and falling down and humbling himself, he begins little by little (218) to know the things of God; and having arrived at this, he then learns "His holy and acceptable and perfect will." For if he does not see Him, that I may say it again, neither can he know Him; and if he does not know Him, how will he be able to know His holy will? For if this is impossible in the case of men, much more so in the case of God. Therefore, as he progresses and becomes more intimately acquainted with God, from the things that happen to him from God, he knows both what He did with all the saints who have gone before and what He is going to do with those who come after. And concerning the future crowns and rewards, he is taught indeed, being initiated by God Himself, deducing clearly that these things are beyond mind and speech and thought; and not only this, but he also understands clearly what kind of men he and all those with him will be after the resurrection, but he does not receive these things now, even if some have wrongly thought that we say this. For if we suppose that we receive everything here, then according to them we also deny the resurrection itself, the judgment and the recompense, and we willingly cast away the hope of things to come. But we do not think or speak thus, but we also vehemently subject to anathema those who say this. Therefore, we confess and say that even now we already receive moderately the pledges of all good things from hence, but we hope to receive the whole after death, as it is written: "For now I know," he says, "in part; but when the whole comes, then that which is in part will be done away." And elsewhere: "And now we are children of God, and it has not yet been revealed what we shall be; but we know that, if He is revealed, we shall be like Him."

And that we may change the discourse into a question and answer, let us, as it were, ask the one who said this: "From where, (219) O beloved and friend of Christ, do you know that you will be like Him? Tell us, from where?" "From the Spirit," he says, "which He has given us, from this we know that we are children of God and God Himself is in us, since He Himself told me these things with a mystical voice." But let us return to the subject at hand.

First, we said above that it is right for those to be called our thoughts, when in our mind a word is born concerning some matter, good or evil, as for instance, that I might acquire something or do evil or do good to someone, but speaking about things that have already happened or been seen is an account and not a thought. Then again we said that concerning things which one has not seen, or cities or spectacles or men, how can he speak about them or describe their appearances or their forms and their positions? And if he should speak, rightly a storyteller by those who hear him

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τόν Θεόν, ἀπερχόμενος λέγει αὐτῷ· "Εἶδον". Καί φησι· "Τί, τέκνον, εἶδες;" - "Φῶς, ὦ πάτερ, γλυκύ, γλυκύ· ποταπόν εἰπεῖν σοι, πάτερ, οὐκ ἐξικανοῦσαν ἔχω μου τήν διάνοιαν". Καί ὡς οὖν τοῦτο λέγει, σκιρτᾷ καί πάλλει ἡ καρδία αὐτοῦ καί πρός τόν πόθον τοῦ ὀφθέντος εὐθύς ἀνάπτεται. Εἶτα πάλιν ἄρχεται λέγειν μετά δακρύων θερμῶν καί πολλῶν ὡς· "Ὡράθη μοι, πάτερ, ἐκεῖνο τό φῶς· ἤρθη ὁ οἶκος τῆς κέλλης εὐθύς καί παρῆλθεν ὁ κόσμος, φυγών ὡς οἶμαι ἀπό προσώπου αὐτοῦ· ἔμεινα δέ μόνος ἐγώ μόνῳ συνών τῷ φωτί. Οὐκ οἶδα δέ εἰ ἦν καί τό σῶμα τοῦτο, πάτερ, τηνικαῦτα ἐκεῖ· εἰ γάρ ἔξω τούτου γέγονα ἀγνοῶ, τέως οὐκ ᾔδειν ὅτι σῶμα φορῶ καί περίκειμαι. Ἦν μοι δέ χαρά ἡ καί νῦν συνοῦσά μοι ἄφραστος, ἀγάπη τε καί πόθος πολύς, ὡς κινηθῆναί μου τά νάματα κατά ποταμούς τῶν δακρύων, καθά δή καί νῦν, ὡς ὁρᾷς". Ἀποκριθείς οὖν λέγει αὐτῷ· "Ἐκεῖνος, τέκνον, ἐστί". Καί σύν τῷ λόγῳ βλέπει πάλιν αὐτόν καί μικρόν μικρόν τελείως καθαίρεται, καθαιρόμενος δέ παρρησιάζεται καί ἐκεῖνον αὐτόν ἐρωτᾷ καί φησίν· "Ὁ Θεός μου, σύ εἶ;" Καί ἀποκρίνεται καί φησί· "Ναί ἐγώ εἰμι, ὁ Θεός, ὁ διά σέ ἄνθρωπος γεγονώς· καί ἰδού ἐγώ πεποίηκά σε, ὡς ὁρᾷς, καί ποιήσω θεόν".

Ὅτε τοίνυν χρονίσει πενθῶν καί κλαίων καί προσπίπτων καί ταπεινούμενος, ἄρχεται ἐκ τοῦ κατ᾿ ὀλίγον (218) γινώσκειν τά τοῦ Θεοῦ· καί εἰς τοῦτο πεφθακώς, τότε μανθάνει "τό θέλημα αὐτοῦ τό ἅγιον καί εὐάρεστον καί τέλειον". Εἰ γάρ μή ἴδῃ, ἵνα πάλιν εἴπω, αὐτόν, οὐδέ δύναται γινώσκειν αὐτόν· καί εἰ μή γνῷ αὐτόν, πῶς ἰσχύσει γνῶναι τό αὐτοῦ ἅγιον θέλημα; Εἰ γάρ ἐπί ἀνθρώπων τοῦτο ἀδύνατον, πολλῷ μᾶλλον ἐπί Θεοῦ. ∆ιό καί προκόπτων καί ἐπί πλεῖον προσοικειούμενος τῷ Θεῷ, ἐκ τῶν εἰς αὐτόν γινομένων παρά Θεοῦ γινώσκει καί ἅπερ μετά τῶν προλαβόντων ἁγίων ἁπάντων ἐποίησε καί ὅσα μέλλει μετά τῶν μεταγενεστέρων ποιεῖν. Περί δέ τῶν μελλόντων στεφάνων καί ἀμοιβῶν διδάσκεται μέν μυούμενος παρ᾿ αὐτοῦ τοῦ Θεοῦ, τεκμαιρόμενος δηλονότι ὅτι ὑπέρ νοῦν καί λόγον καί διάνοιαν ταῦτά εἰσιν· οὐ μόνον δέ, ἀλλά καί νοεῖ σαφῶς ὁποῖοι μετά τήν ἀνάστασιν ἔσονται αὐτός τε καί πάντες οἱ μετ᾿ αὐτοῦ, οὐκ ἀπολαμβάνει δέ ταῦτα νυνί, εἰ καί τινες τοῦτο λέγειν ἡμᾶς κακῶς ἐλογίσαντο. Εἰ γάρ ἐνταῦθα τό πᾶν ἀπολαμβάνειν ὑποτιθέμεθα, λοιπόν κατ᾿ αὐτούς καί τήν ἀνάστασιν αὐτήν ἀπαρνούμεθα, τήν κρίσιν τε καί τήν ἀνταπόδοσιν, καί τήν τῶν μελλόντων ἐλπίδα ἑκουσίως ἀποβαλλόμεθα. Ἀλλ᾿ οὐχ οὕτως ἡμεῖς φρονοῦμεν ἤ λέγομεν, ἀλλά καί τούς τοῦτο λέγοντας σφοδρῶς καθυποβάλλομεν ἀναθέματι. Τοίνυν καί νῦν μέν μετρίως τούς ἀρραβῶνας ἐντεῦθεν ἤδη ἀπολαμβάνειν τῶν ἀγαθῶν ἁπάντων ὁμολογοῦμεν καί λέγομεν, τό δέ ὅλον μετά τόν θάνατον ἐλπίζομεν λήψεσθαι, καθώς γέγραπται· "Νῦν μέν γινώσκω, φησίν, ἐκ μέρους· ὅταν δέ ἔλθῃ τό πᾶν, τότε τό ἐκ μέρους καταργηθήσεται". Καί ἀλλαχοῦ· "Καί νῦν τέκνα Θεοῦ ἐσμεν καί οὔπω ἐφανερώθη τί ἐσόμεθα· οἴδαμεν δέ ὅτι, ἐάν φανερωθῇ, ὅμοιοι αὐτῷ ἐσόμεθα".

Καί ἵνα κατά πεῦσιν καί ἀπόκρισιν τόν λόγον μεταποιήσωμεν, οἱονεί τόν εἰρηκότα τοῦτο ἐρωτήσωμεν· "Πόθεν, (219) ὦ ἠγαπημένε καί φίλε Χριστοῦ, οἶδας ὅτι ὅμοιος αὐτοῦ ἔσῃ; Φράσον ἡμῖν, πόθεν;" "Ἐκ τοῦ Πνεύματος, φησίν, οὗ ἔδωκεν ἡμῖν, ἐκ τούτου γινώσκομεν ὅτι ἐσμέν τέκνα Θεοῦ καί αὐτός ὁ Θεός ἐν ἡμῖν ἐστιν, ἐπειδή καί αὐτός ταῦτά μοι εἶπε μυστικῇ τῇ φωνῇ". Ἀλλ᾿ ἐπί τό προκείμενον ἐπανέλθωμεν.

Πρῶτον ἄνωθεν εἴπομεν ὅτι νοήματα ἡμῶν ἐκεῖνα λέγεσθαι δίκαιον, ὅταν ἐν τῷ ἡμετέρῳ νοΐ ἵνα λόγος περί πράγματός τινος ἀγαθοῦ ἤ κακοῦ γεννηθῇ, οἷον φέρε εἰπεῖν, ἵνα κτήσωμαί τι ἤ κακοποιήσω ἤ ἀγαθοποιήσω τινά, ἐξήγησιν δέ καί οὐχί νόημα τό περί γεγενημένων ἤδη ἤ ἑωραμένων πραγμάτων λαλεῖν. Εἶτα πάλιν εἴπομεν ὅτι περί ὧν τις οὐχ ἑώρακε πραγμάτων ἤ πόλεων ἤ θεάτρων ἤ ἀνθρώπων, πῶς λέγειν δύναται περί αὐτῶν ἤ τάς ἰδέας ἤ τάς μορφάς καί τάς θέσεις αὐτῶν ἀφηγήσασθαι; Εἰ δέ καί εἴπῃ, μυθολόγος ἄν δικαίως ὑπό τῶν ἀκουόντων αὐτόν