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and warming, is called a garment, and thus we say that this one, who is in every way intangible and incomprehensible, is put on; and uniting unmingled with our soul and making it entirely as light, he is said to dwell in us and to be described indescribably. O, the wonder! Thus, therefore, he who is above all things becomes everything for us: bread, shelter and water, which he long ago told the Samaritan woman that the one who drinks it would never thirst. If, then, you still thirst, you have not yet drunk from that water; for he who said this is true. For I heard someone say that after the philanthropic Master granted me to drink my fill from this water, if it happened that I forgot and, as if I had not drunk, sought again to be given to drink by him, that very thing, the water which I had clearly drunk, leaped up from within my heart and gushed like a luminous stream, and immediately I saw it. And that, as it were, spoke through the pulsations within me and said: "Do you not see me, that I am here with you? And from where do you seek that I be given to you, or that I come from somewhere else? Do you not know that I am always with those (256) to whom I once give myself to drink, and I become an immortal spring in them?".

If, then, you have known this to have happened in you as well, O brother, you are blessed. But if you have indeed seen Christ, but he has not yet granted you to drink this beverage, fall down, weep, entreat, lament, strike your face, as Adam once did, tear out the hairs of your head. Do not lie down upon a bed, but let all the ground become a bed for you. Do not give sleep to satiety to your eyes, nor any slumber at all to your eyelids. Do not turn your eye to anything on earth or in heaven—for what concern is anything else to you, when you see the creator of all things before your eyes? Never fill your belly with edibles; do not sweeten your throat with delightful food or drink to satiety. Do not meddle in current affairs, nor look upon those who live indifferently and contemptuously, lest you fall into conceit or even condemn them. And indeed, never sit down with them for inopportune conversations. Do not go about seeking renowned monks, nor investigate their lives, but if by the grace of God you have met a spiritual father, tell your concerns to him alone. But if not, then seeing Christ, look always to him and through everything have him alone as the beholder of your dejection and affliction.

Show him, or rather let him see, your unwashed state, your extreme poverty, your un-avaricious way. And not even if all the wealth of the world flows from somewhere or a multitude of gold is thrown before your feet—for this also happens from the contrivance of the Evil One and his collaborators and champions—should you wish to turn your eye at all and look upon these things, even if on the pretext of the poor it seems sinless to both take (257) and give it away. Let him see you being struck and not striking back, being insulted and not insulting in return, being reviled and blessing those who revile you, seeking not glory, not honor, not repose, and simply doing all things and accomplishing all things and in no way giving in nor turning back, until having compassion he will grant you to drink that fearful and unutterable and unnamable beverage. And when you are deemed worthy of this, then you will know what we speak of and what we are explaining to you. "For we speak wisdom," he says, "not of this age which is passing away, but we speak the wisdom of God in a mystery, the hidden wisdom."

But if you have not been deemed worthy to see Christ himself at all, why do you even think you are alive? Why do you even think you are serving him, whom you have not yet seen? And not having seen him nor having been deemed worthy to hear his voice, from where will you be taught his holy and well-pleasing and perfect will? But if you say that you will learn this from the holy Scriptures, I ask how you, being entirely dead and lying in darkness, would be able to hear or fulfill it, so that you might be deemed worthy to live and to see God. In no way. What then? "If we are dead," he says, "in

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καί ἐπιθάλπων, καλεῖται ἱμάτιον, καί οὕτως ἐνδιδύσκεσθαι τοῦτον λέγομεν τόν ἀναφῆ πάντῃ καί ἄληπτον· ἑνούμενος δέ ἀμίκτως ἡμῶν τῇ ψυχῇ καί ὅλην ποιῶν ταύτην ὡς φῶς, ἐνοικεῖν λέγεται ἐν ἡμῖν καί ἀπεριγράπτως περιγράφεσθαι. Ὤ τοῦ θαύματος! Οὕτω τοιγαροῦν γίνεται πάντα ἡμῖν ὁ ὑπεράνω πάντων ὤν, ἄρτος, σκέπη καί ὕδωρ, ὅ πάλαι τῇ Σαμαρείτιδι εἶπε τόν πιόντα μή διψῆσαί ποτε. Εἰ οὖν ἔτι διψᾷς, οὔπω ἐξ ἐκείνου τοῦ ὕδατος ἔπιες· ἀψευδής γάρ ἐστιν ὁ τοῦτο εἰπών. Ἐγώ γάρ τινος ἤκουσα λέγοντος, ὅτι ἀφ᾿ οὗ ἐκ τούτου τοῦ ὕδατος εἰς κόρον πιεῖν ὁ φιλάνθρωπος ∆εσπότης μοι ἐχαρίσατο, εἰ συνέβη ἐπιλαθέσθαι με καί ὡς μή πιόντα ζητεῖν πάλιν δοθῆναί μοι παρ᾿ ἐκείνου πιεῖν, αὐτό ἐκεῖνο, ὅπερ δηλονότι ἔπιον ὕδωρ, ἔνδοθεν ἥλετο τῆς καρδίας μου καί ἐπήδα ὥσπερ ῥεῖθρον φωτοειδές καί εὐθύς ἑώρων αὐτό. Ἐκεῖνο δέ οἱονεί ἐλάλει διά τῶν παλμῶν ἐν ἐμοί καί ἔλεγειν· "Οὐχ ὁρᾷς με ὅτι ἐνταῦθά εἰμι μετά σοῦ; Καί πόθεν μοι δοθῆναί σοι ἤ ἄλλοθέν ποθεν παραγενέσθαι με ἐπιζητεῖς; Οὐκ οἶδας ὅτι ἀεί σύνειμι οἷς (256) ἅπαξ ἐμαυτό ἐπιδώσω πιεῖν με καί πηγή γίνομαι ἀθάνατος ἐν αὐτοῖς;".

Εἰ οὖν τοῦτο γεγονός ἔγνως καί ἐν σοί, ὦ ἀδελφέ, μακάριος εἶ. Εἰ δέ τόν Χριστόν μέν τεθέασαι, οὔπω δέ σοι τοῦτο τό πόμα πιεῖν ἐχαρίσατο, πρόσπεσον, κλαῦσον, δυσώπησον, θρήνησον, τύψον σεαυτοῦ τάς ὄψεις, ὥσπερ ποτέ ὁ Ἀδάμ, τίλλε σου τάς τρίχας τῆς κεφαλῆς· μή ἀναπέσῃς ἐπί κλίνης, ἀλλά κλίνη γενέσθω σοι ἅπαν ἔδαφος· μή δῷς ὕπνον εἰς κόρον σοῖς ὀφθαλμοῖς, μή ὅλως νυσταγμόν τοῖς βλεφάροις σου· μή πρός τι τῶν ἐπί γῆς ἤ τῶν ἐν οὐρανῷ ἐπιστρέψῃς σου τό ὄμμα - τί γάρ σοι καί πρός ἄλλο τι, τόν ποιητήν τῶν ἁπάντων ὁρῶν σου πρό ὀφθαλμῶν; μή ἐμπλήσῃς τήν γαστέρα σου τῶν ἐδωδίμων ποτέ· μή γλυκάνῃς σου τόν λάρυγγα ἐνηδόνῳ βρώσει ἤ πόσει εἰς πλησμονήν· μή περιεργάσῃ τά γινόμενα πράγματα, μηδέ πρός τούς ἀδιαφόρως καί καταφρονητικῶς βιοῦντας ἀποβλέψῃς, ἵνα μή εἰς οἴησιν ἐμπέσῃς ἤ καί κατακρίνῃς αὐτούς· ἀλλά γάρ μηδέ συγκαθεσθῇς πρός συντυχίας ἀκαίρους ποτέ μετ᾿ αὐτῶν· μή παριέλθῃς τούς ὀνομαστούς ζητῶν μοναχούς, μηδέ ἐρεύνα τούς βίους αὐτῶν, ἀλλ᾿ εἰ μέν πνευματικῷ πατρί Θεοῦ χάριτι ἐνέτυχες, αὐτῷ μόνῳ λέγε τά κατά σέ· εἰ δ᾿ οὖν, ἀλλά τόν Χριστόν ὁρῶν, εἰς ἐκεῖνον ἀπόβλεπε ἀεί καί διά παντός ἐκεῖνον μόνον τῆς σῆς κατηφείας καί θλίψεως ἔχε θεωρητήν.

∆είκνυε αὐτῷ, μᾶλλον δέ ἐκεῖνος ὁράτω σου τήν ἀλουσίαν, τήν ἄγαν ἀκτημοσύνην, τόν ἀφιλάργυρον τρόπον. Μηδέ, εἰ ῥέει ποθέν ἅπας ὁ πλοῦτος τοῦ κόσμου ἤ καί πλῆθος χρυσίου ἔρριπται πρό τῶν ποδῶν σου - γίνεται γάρ καί τοῦτο ἐκ τῆς τοῦ Πονηροῦ μηχανῆς καί τῶν ἐκείνου συνεργῶν καί ὑπασπιστῶν , ἐπιστρέψαι κἄν ὅλως τόν ὀφθαλμόν καί ἀπιδεῖν πρός ταῦτα θελήσῃς, εἰ καί προφάσει τῶν πτωχῶν ἀναμαρτήτως δοκεῖ καί λαμβάνεσθαι (257) καί διδόσθαι παρά σοῦ. Ἐκεῖνος βλεπέτω σε τυπτόμενον καί μή ἀντιτύπτοντα, ὑβριζόμενον καί μή ἀνθυβρίζοντα, λοιδορούμενον καί τούς λοιδοροῦντάς σε εὐλογοῦντα, μή δόξαν ζητοῦντα, μή τιμήν, μή ἀνάπαυσιν, καί ἁπλῶς πάντα ποιοῦντα καί πάντα διαπραττόμενον καί μηδόλως ἐνδιδοῦντα μήτε εἰς τά ὀπίσω στρεφόμενον, ἕως οὗ σπλαγχνισθείς ἐπιδώσει σοι τό φοβερόν ἐκεῖνο καί ἄρρητον καί ἀκατονόμαστον πόμα πιεῖν. Καί ὅταν τούτου ἀξιωθῇς, τότε γνώσεις ἅπερ λαλοῦμεν καί ἅπερ σοι ὑφηγούμεθα. "Λαλοῦμεν γάρ σοφίαν, φησίν, οὐ τοῦ αἰῶνος τούτου τήν καταργουμένην, ἀλλά λαλοῦμεν Θεοῦ σοφίαν ἐν μυστηρίῳ, τήν ἀποκεκρυμμένην".

Εἰ δέ οὐδέ αὐτόν τόν Χριστόν ὅλως ἰδεῖν κατηξίωσαι, τί ὅτι καί δοκεῖς ζῆν; Τί ὅτι καί δουλεύειν νομίζεις αὐτῷ, ὅν οὐδέπω τεθέασαι; Μή θεασάμενος δέ μηδέ φωνῆς αὐτοῦ ἀκοῦσαι ἀξιωθείς, πόθεν τό θέλημα αὐτοῦ τό ἅγιον καί εὐάρεστον καί τέλειον διδαχθήσῃ; Εἰ δέ ἐκ τῶν ἁγίων εἴπῃς μαθήσεσθαι τοῦτο Γραφῶν, ἐρωτῶ πῶς αὐτό, νεκρός ὅλος ὤν καί ἐν σκότει κείμενος, ἀκοῦσαι δυνηθῇς ἤ ἐκπληρῶσαι, ἵνα καί ζῆσαι ἀξιωθῇς καί ἰδεῖν τόν Θεόν. Οὐδαμῶς. Τί οὖν; Εἰ νεκροί ἐσμεν, φησίν, ἐν