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look upon those living indifferently and contemptuously, so that you do not fall into conceit or even condemn them; but indeed never sit with them for untimely meetings; do not go past seeking out the renowned monks, nor investigate their lives, but if by the grace of God you have met a spiritual father, tell only him what concerns you; but if not, then seeing Christ, look to Him always and in everything have Him alone as the beholder of your dejection and affliction.

Show Him, or rather, let Him see your unwashed state, your extreme poverty, your uncovetous manner. Nor, if all the wealth of the world flows from somewhere or even a multitude of gold is thrown before your feet—for this also happens from the device of the Evil One and his collaborators and champions—should you wish to turn your eye at all and look upon these things, even if on the pretext of the poor it seems to be taken (257) and given by you without sin. Let Him see you being struck and not striking back, being insulted and not insulting in return, being reviled and blessing those who revile you, not seeking glory, not honor, not rest, and simply doing all things and accomplishing all things and in no way giving in nor turning back, until, having had compassion, He gives you that fearful and ineffable and unnameable drink to drink. And when you are deemed worthy of this, then you will know what we are speaking of and what we are suggesting to you. "For we speak wisdom," he says, "not of this age which is passing away, but we speak the wisdom of God in a mystery, the hidden wisdom."

But if you have not been deemed worthy to see Christ Himself at all, why do you even think you are alive? Why do you even think you are serving Him, whom you have not yet seen? And not having seen Him nor having been deemed worthy to hear His voice, from where will you be taught His holy and well-pleasing and perfect will? But if you say that you will learn this from the holy Scriptures, I ask how you, being entirely dead and lying in darkness, would be able to hear it or fulfill it, so as to be deemed worthy to live and to see God. In no way. What then? If we are dead, he says, we live in darkness, how shall we be able to live or how shall we see Christ, the true light, who came upon the earth? Listen intelligently and do not wish to justify yourself; but be humbled before God and say: "Lord, who does not wish the death of the sinner but that he should turn and live, who for this reason came down upon the earth, so that you might raise up those lying dead and put to death by sin and deem them worthy to behold you, the true light, as it is possible for a man to see, send me a man who knows you, (258) so that, by serving him as I would you and by submitting to him with all my strength and by doing your will in his will, I may be well-pleasing to you, the only God, and I, a sinner, may also be deemed worthy of your kingdom."

If then you persist in this way, knocking with all your soul and strength, both entreating and beseeching Him, He will not abandon you, but either through Himself or through one of His servants, He will teach you whatever you must do and through His grace and the prayer of His servant He will grant you strength to fulfill them. For without Him you can do nothing; but He, as I have already said, will unfailingly become all things to you; but if for now you are not found in all things seeking Christ in your going out, for now you are found being subject to His friends and rulers and serving Him through them, for now you fulfill the will of the servants of God and not your own—for the will of God is the will of His servants—for now in work and not in idleness, for now in humility and not in conceit. Remember what I said, that the generals and the rulers are all some servants, and others friends of the king, and through them also the people under each one of them; who, even if they do not see the king and meet with him, but by serving their general or ruler well as they would the king himself, to receive gifts and honors through

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ἀδιαφόρως καί καταφρονητικῶς βιοῦντας ἀποβλέψῃς, ἵνα μή εἰς οἴησιν ἐμπέσῃς ἤ καί κατακρίνῃς αὐτούς· ἀλλά γάρ μηδέ συγκαθεσθῇς πρός συντυχίας ἀκαίρους ποτέ μετ᾿ αὐτῶν· μή παριέλθῃς τούς ὀνομαστούς ζητῶν μοναχούς, μηδέ ἐρεύνα τούς βίους αὐτῶν, ἀλλ᾿ εἰ μέν πνευματικῷ πατρί Θεοῦ χάριτι ἐνέτυχες, αὐτῷ μόνῳ λέγε τά κατά σέ· εἰ δ᾿ οὖν, ἀλλά τόν Χριστόν ὁρῶν, εἰς ἐκεῖνον ἀπόβλεπε ἀεί καί διά παντός ἐκεῖνον μόνον τῆς σῆς κατηφείας καί θλίψεως ἔχε θεωρητήν.

∆είκνυε αὐτῷ, μᾶλλον δέ ἐκεῖνος ὁράτω σου τήν ἀλουσίαν, τήν ἄγαν ἀκτημοσύνην, τόν ἀφιλάργυρον τρόπον. Μηδέ, εἰ ῥέει ποθέν ἅπας ὁ πλοῦτος τοῦ κόσμου ἤ καί πλῆθος χρυσίου ἔρριπται πρό τῶν ποδῶν σου - γίνεται γάρ καί τοῦτο ἐκ τῆς τοῦ Πονηροῦ μηχανῆς καί τῶν ἐκείνου συνεργῶν καί ὑπασπιστῶν , ἐπιστρέψαι κἄν ὅλως τόν ὀφθαλμόν καί ἀπιδεῖν πρός ταῦτα θελήσῃς, εἰ καί προφάσει τῶν πτωχῶν ἀναμαρτήτως δοκεῖ καί λαμβάνεσθαι (257) καί διδόσθαι παρά σοῦ. Ἐκεῖνος βλεπέτω σε τυπτόμενον καί μή ἀντιτύπτοντα, ὑβριζόμενον καί μή ἀνθυβρίζοντα, λοιδορούμενον καί τούς λοιδοροῦντάς σε εὐλογοῦντα, μή δόξαν ζητοῦντα, μή τιμήν, μή ἀνάπαυσιν, καί ἁπλῶς πάντα ποιοῦντα καί πάντα διαπραττόμενον καί μηδόλως ἐνδιδοῦντα μήτε εἰς τά ὀπίσω στρεφόμενον, ἕως οὗ σπλαγχνισθείς ἐπιδώσει σοι τό φοβερόν ἐκεῖνο καί ἄρρητον καί ἀκατονόμαστον πόμα πιεῖν. Καί ὅταν τούτου ἀξιωθῇς, τότε γνώσεις ἅπερ λαλοῦμεν καί ἅπερ σοι ὑφηγούμεθα. "Λαλοῦμεν γάρ σοφίαν, φησίν, οὐ τοῦ αἰῶνος τούτου τήν καταργουμένην, ἀλλά λαλοῦμεν Θεοῦ σοφίαν ἐν μυστηρίῳ, τήν ἀποκεκρυμμένην".

Εἰ δέ οὐδέ αὐτόν τόν Χριστόν ὅλως ἰδεῖν κατηξίωσαι, τί ὅτι καί δοκεῖς ζῆν; Τί ὅτι καί δουλεύειν νομίζεις αὐτῷ, ὅν οὐδέπω τεθέασαι; Μή θεασάμενος δέ μηδέ φωνῆς αὐτοῦ ἀκοῦσαι ἀξιωθείς, πόθεν τό θέλημα αὐτοῦ τό ἅγιον καί εὐάρεστον καί τέλειον διδαχθήσῃ; Εἰ δέ ἐκ τῶν ἁγίων εἴπῃς μαθήσεσθαι τοῦτο Γραφῶν, ἐρωτῶ πῶς αὐτό, νεκρός ὅλος ὤν καί ἐν σκότει κείμενος, ἀκοῦσαι δυνηθῇς ἤ ἐκπληρῶσαι, ἵνα καί ζῆσαι ἀξιωθῇς καί ἰδεῖν τόν Θεόν. Οὐδαμῶς. Τί οὖν; Εἰ νεκροί ἐσμεν, φησίν, ἐν σκότει διάγομεν, πῶς ζῆσαι ἰσχύσομεν ἤ πῶς τόν Χριστόν, τό ἀληθινόν φῶς, ἐλθόντα ἐπί τῆς γῆς θεασόμεθα; Ἄκουε νουνεχῶς καί μή θέλε δικαιοῦν σεαυτόν· ἀλλά ταπεινώθητι ἐνώπιον τοῦ Θεοῦ καί εἰπέ· "Κύριε, ὁ μή θέλων τόν θάνατον τοῦ ἁμαρτωλοῦ ὡς τό ἐπιστρέψαι καί ζῆν αὐτόν, ὁ κατελθών διά τοῦτο ἐπί τῆς γῆς, ἵνα τους κειμένους καί τεθανατωμένους ὑπό τῆς ἁμαρτίας ἐξαναστήσῃς καί σέ κατιδεῖν αὐτούς, τό φῶς τό ἀληθινόν, ὡς ἰδεῖν ἀνθρώπῳ δυνατόν, καταξιώσῃς, πέμψον μοι ἄνθρωπον γινώσκοντά σε, (258) ἵνα, ὡς σοί δουλεύσας αὐτῷ καί πάσῃ δυνάμει μοι ὑποταγείς καί τό σόν ἐν τῷ ἐκείνου θελήματι ποιήσας θέλημα, εὐαρεστήσω σοι τῷ μόνῳ Θεῷ καί καταξιωθῶ σου κἀγώ τῆς βασιλείας, ὁ ἁμαρτωλός".

Ἐάν οὖν οὕτως ἐπιμείνης ἐξ ὅλης ψυχῆς καί δυνάμεως κρούων, παρακαλῶν τε καί δεόμενος αὐτοῦ, οὐκ ἐγκαταλείψει σε, ἀλλά ἤ δι᾿ ἑαυτοῦ ἤ δι᾿ ἑνός τῶν δούλων αὐτοῦ, ὅσα δεῖ σε ποιῆσαι διδάξει σε καί διά τῆς αὐτοῦ χάριτος καί τῆς εὐχῆς τοῦ δούλου αὐτοῦ ἰσχύν σοι χαρίσεται τοῦ ἐκπληρῶσαι αὐτά. Χωρίς γάρ ἐκείνου οὐ δυνήσῃ ποιῆσαι οὐδέν· ἀλλ᾿ ἐκεῖνος, καθώσπερ ἔφθην εἰπών, ἀπαραλείπτως γενήσεταί σοι τά πάντα· εἰ δέ μή πάντα τέως εὑρίσκῃ ἐν τῇ ἐξόδῳ σου τόν Χριστόν ἐκζητῶν, τέως τοῖς αὐτοῦ φίλοις καί ἄρχουσιν ὑποτασσόμενος εἶς καί δουλεύων εὑρίσκῃ διά τούτων ἐκείνῳ, τέως τῶν τοῦ Θεοῦ δούλων καί οὐχί τό σόν θέλημα ἐκ πληροῖς - Θεοῦ δέ θέλημα τό θέλημα τῶν ἐκείνου δούλων ἐστίν , τέως ἐν ἐργασίᾳ καί οὐκ ἀργίᾳ, τέως ἐν ταπεινώσει καί οὐκ ἐν οἰήσει. Μνήσθητι ὧν εἶπον, ὅτι οἱ στρατηγοί καί οἱ ἄρχοντες πάντες οἱ μέν δοῦλοι, οἱ δέ φίλοι τοῦ βασιλέως εἰσί καί διά τούτων αὐτῶν καί ὁ ὑφ᾿ ἑνί ἑκάστῳ τούτων πέλων λαός· οἵ, εἰ καί μή τόν βασιλέα καθορῶσι καί συντυγχάνουσιν, ἀλλά τῷ στρατηγῷ αὐτῶν ἤ τῷ ἄρχοντι ὡς ἐκείνῳ αὐτῷ τῷ βασιλεῖ καλῶς ἐκδουλεύοντες δωρεάς τε καί ἀξιώματα λαβεῖν δι᾿