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Believe me - for I myself have known that the commandment of God is easy and the attainment of Him and of His kingdom. But I will show you this by means of an example.

A certain man, serving a rebel, an adversary and enemy of the king of the Christians, winning many trophies against his servants and performing deeds of valor, and being in the greatest honor with that tyrant and the armies under him, was variously invited by the king of the Christians to come to him and be with him and be deemed worthy of great gifts and to reign with him. But for some time he was unwilling, and instead from that time on he fanned the flames of war against him even more fiercely. Then one day, having battled with himself and repented, he decided to take flight and go alone to the king, reasoning to himself thus: 'Even if up to now I have not obeyed the king who invites me, yet I believe that, as I now return, he will not hold against me the delay and tardiness of so many years, because he is, as I hear, compassionate and benevolent, but he will have compassion on me and will fulfill all that he promised me.' So, as he reasoned these things from his heart, he also did them in deed; approaching the king and grasping his feet, (299) he begged for forgiveness with weeping. That good king, immediately seized with unexpected joy, received him and marveled at his change and humility; for whereas he ought rather to have spoken boldly and demanded honors for the love and faith he had shown toward him, having left the rebel and come to his kingdom, he lay there lamenting his tardiness and the evils he had previously done. Raising him up, "he fell on his neck and kissed him" all over, and his tearful eyes for many hours. Then, having ordered a crown and a robe and sandals like those he himself wore to be brought, he himself with his own hands clothed his former enemy and adversary, reproaching him in no way at all; and not only this, but night and day rejoicing with him and celebrating with him, embracing and kissing him mouth to mouth, he loved him so exceedingly that he was not separated from him even in his sleep, reclining with him and embracing him on the couch and covering him on all sides with his own cloak and placing his own face upon all his limbs.

Such is also our case with respect to God, and thus I know that in such a way the benevolent God receives and loves those who repent, who flee the deceptive world and the world-ruler, and who come to Him naked of the things of this life as to a king and God—unless perhaps for some it seems hard to leave one's mother and to deny one's own friends and relatives and to let go of perishing wealth, since I for my part have found nothing burdensome or painful or grievous, having taken refuge in God my savior. But if I must speak the truth to you and things I did not wish to make known to all, (300) to lay these bare for your love, so that I may give something good to some of you, in all distress and affliction and supposed hardship I saw joy and gladness gushing forth in me through the revelation and appearance of His face, so that the saying of Paul was clearly fulfilled in me which says thus: "For the momentary light burden of affliction works for us a weight of glory," and that of David, who says: "In affliction you have given me room," so that for this reason I considered the coming afflictions and temptations as nothing in comparison with the glory of Jesus Christ, which was not future but was immediately revealed to me through the Holy Spirit, by participation in and the vision of which I considered even diseases unto death and any other more unbearable pain that comes to men through labors to be nothing, every

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πιστεύσατέ μοι - καί αὐτός ἔγνων ἐγώ εὔκολον εἶναι τήν ἐντολήν τοῦ Θεοῦ καί τήν ἐπίτευξιν αὐτοῦ τε καί τῆς βασιλείας αὐτοῦ. Ἀλλά διά παραδείγματος τοῦτο ὑμῖν ὑποδείξω.

Ἄνθρωπός τις ἀντάρτῃ δουλεύων τινί ἀντιδίκῳ καί τοῦ βασιλέως τῶν Χριστιανῶν ἐχθρῷ, πολλά τρόπαια κατά τῶν δούλων αὐτοῦ καί ἀνδραγαθίας ποιῶν, καί ἐν τιμῇ μεγίστῃ παρά τῷ τυράννῳ ἐκείνῳ καί τοῖς ὑπ᾿αὐτόν στρατεύμασιν ὤν, ἐμηνύθη παρά τοῦ βασιλέως τῶν Χριστιανῶν διαφόρως τοῦ προσελθεῖν καί σύν αὐτῷ εἶναι καί ἀξιωθῆναι μεγάλων δωρεῶν καί συμβασιλεύειν αὐτῷ. Ὁ δέ ἐπί χρόνους τινάς οὐκ ἠβουλήθη, κατ᾿ αὐτοῦ δέ μᾶλλον χεῖρον ἔκτοτε τόν πόλεμον ἀνερρίπισεν. Ἐν μιᾷ τοίνυν καθ᾿ ἑαυτόν γνωσιμαχήσας καί μεταμεληθείς, ἐβουλεύσατο φυγῇ χρήσασθαι καί μόνος πρός τόν βασιλέα πορευθῆναι, τοῦτο πρός ἑαυτόν λογισάμενος ὅτι, εἰ καί μέχρι τοῦ νῦν μηνύοντί μοι τῷ βασιλεῖ οὐχ ὑπήκουσα, ἀλλά πιστεύω ὡς οὐ μή λογισθῇ μου νῦν ἐπιστρέφοντος τήν ἀναβολήν τῶν τοσούτων ἐτῶν καί βραδυτῆτα διά τό εἶναι αὐτόν, ὡς ἀκούω, συμπαθῆ καί φιλάγαθον, συμπαθήσει δέ μοι καί ἅ ὑπέσχετό μοι πάντα ἀποπληρώσει. Ὡς οὖν ταῦτα ἀπό καρδίας ἐλογίσατο, καί ἔργῳ ἐποίησε· προσελθών τῷ βασιλεῖ καί τούς πόδας κρατήσας αὐτοῦ, (299) συγχώρησιν μετά κλαυθμοῦ ἐξῃτήσατο. Ὅν εὐθύς, τῇ ἀπροσδοκήτῳ χαρᾷ ὁ χρηστός ἐκεῖνος ληφθείς βασιλεύς, ἀποδεξάμενος, ἐπί θαύματος εἶχε τήν τούτου μεταβολήν καί ταπείνωσιν, ἀνθ᾿ ὧν ὅπως παρρησιάζεσθαι μᾶλλον ὤφειλεν και τιμάς ἀπαιτεῖν ὑπέρ ἧς ἐνεδείξατο πρός αὐτόν ἀγάπης καί πίστεως, καταλιπών μέν τόν ἀντάρτην, προσελθών δέ τῇ βασιλείᾳ αὐτοῦ, κεῖται θρηνῶν ὑπέρ τῆς βραδυτῆτος καί τῶν παρ᾿ αὐτοῦ προγεγονότων κακῶν, ἀναστήσας αὐτόν «ἐπέπεσεν ἐπί τόν τράχηλον αὐτοῦ καί κατεφίλησεν αὐτόν» τε ὅλον καί τούς δακρύοντας αὐτοῦ ὀφθαλμούς ἐπί ὥρας πολλάς. Εἶτα στέφος καί στολήν καί ὑποδήματα ὅμοια ὧν αὐτός ἐφόρει ἐνεχθῆναι κελεύσας, αὐτός δι᾿ ἑαυτοῦ τόν πρώην ἐχθρόν καί ἀντίδικον περιέβαλε, μηδέν ὅλως προσονειδίσας αὐτόν· καί οὐ τοῦτο μόνον, ἀλλά νυκτός καί ἡμέρας συγχαίρων αὐτῷ καί συνευφραινόμενος, περιλαμβάνων τε καί κατασπαζόμενος στόμα πρός στόμα αὐτόν, τοσοῦτον ὑπερηγάπησεν αὐτόν ὅτι οὐδέ ἐν τῷ ὑπνοῦν αὐτοῦ ἐχωρίζετο, συνανακλινόμενος αὐτῷ καί περιλαμβάνων ἐπί τῆς κλίνης καί πάντοθεν τῷ ἑαυτοῦ χλανιδίῳ περισκέπων καί ἐπιτιθείς τό ἑαυτοῦ πρόσωπον ἐπί πᾶσι τοῖς αὐτοῦ μέλεσιν.

Τοιοῦτόν ἐστι καί τό ἡμέτερον πρός Θεόν καί οὕτως οἶδα ἐν τοιούτῳ τρόπῳ τούς μετανοοῦντας τόν φιλάγαθον Θεόν ἀποδέχεσθαι καί φιλεῖν, φεύγοντας μέν κόσμον πλάνον καί κοσμοκράτορα, γυμνούς δέ προσερχομένους αὐτῷ τῶν τοῦ βίου πραγμάτων ὡς βασιλεῖ καί Θεῷ, εἰ μή τισιν ἄρα βαρύ καταφαίνεται τό τήν γεννησαμένην καταλιπεῖν καί τούς οἰκείους φίλους καί συγγενεῖς ἀπαρνήσασθαι καί τόν πλοῦτον ἐᾶσαι τόν ἀπολλύμενον, ἐπεί οὐδέν ἔγωγε φορτικόν εὗρον ἤ λυπηρόν ἤ ἐπαχθές, προσφυγών τῷ Θεῷ καί σωτῆρί μου. Ἀλλ᾿ εἰ χρή τήν ἀλήθειαν ὑμῖν ἐξειπεῖν καί ἅ οὐκ ἐβουλόμην πᾶσι δῆλα ποιεῖν, (300) ταῦτα τήν ἀγάπην ὑμῶν ἀπογυμνῶσαι, ἵνα δῶ τι καλόν τισιν ἐξ ὑμῶν, ἐν πάσῃ μᾶλλον στενοχωρίᾳ καί θλίψει καί τῇ νομιζομένῃ κακοπαθείᾳ ὑπερεκβλύζουσαν τήν χαράν καί εὐφροσύνην ἔβλεπον ἐν ἐμοί διά τῆς ἀποκαλύψεως καί ἐπιφανείας τοῦ προσώπου αὐτοῦ, ὥστε πληροῦσθαι ἐναργῶς ἐπ᾿ ἐμοί τό οὕτω λέγον τοῦ Παύλου ῥητόν· «Τό γάρ παραυτίκα ἐλαφρόν τῆς θλίψεως βάρος δόξης κατεργάζεται ἐν ἡμῖν», καί τό τοῦ ∆αυίδ· «Ἐν θλίψει» λέγοντος «ἐπλάτυνάς με», ὡς ἐντεῦθεν μηδέν ἡγεῖσθαί με τάς ἐπερχομένας θλίψεις καί τούς πειρασμούς πρός τήν οὐχί μέλλουσαν, ἀλλά παραυτίκα ἀποκαλυπτομένην μοι διά Πνεύματος Ἁγίου δόξαν Ἰησοῦ Χριστοῦ, ἧς τῇ μετοχῇ τε καί θέᾳ καί αὐτάς τάς πρός θάνατον νόσους καί εἴ τινα ἑτέραν ἀφορητοτέραν ὀδύνην διά πόνων τοῖς ἀνθρώποις ἐγγινομένην οὐδέν ἡγούμην, πᾶσαν