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will flee from us, and the one who keeps our words, by the cooperation of the grace of God, remains unwounded and unharmed by them, but the rest, a worldly life, as they do not know, choose to live in the monastic habit, who, falling into pits and over cliffs, do not perceive it.

You then, most longed-for brother, be willing to keep these things, even if you must also die; for otherwise you will not be strong enough to escape the demon of gluttony. But know that as you keep these things, the devil, not bearing to see you, will stir up all the slothful against you, and they will revile you and laugh at you and envy you and mock you and bring countless afflictions upon you, so that they might turn you away from your good intention and your saving deeds; which if you endure, beloved, you will find great help and comfort from our God and Savior. Therefore, while others are sitting at supper and eating, and you are not eating, but either serving or not, do not forget, saying these things also to yourself: "If I had completely repented and my sins were forgiven, I too would be rejoicing and eating with my brothers. But since I, wretched one, have made myself unworthy by my shameful deeds, let me receive here according to my works! " and saying these things, control your stomach with all your might. Never seek or desire the first seat, but hate it with all your soul as being a cause and agent of pride. For your humility will exalt you, and your being last of all will make you first, since it is written: "Everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted."

(337) After you rise up with all the brotherhood and give thanks to God and are dismissed by the priest, run in silence to your cell, and having closed the door, take up your book. And having read a little, if it is the days of summer, recline on your mat and take a very short sleep, for by abstaining from satiety and using a simple table with bread and a measured amount of water and vegetables or legumes, you will sleep less and rise up more quickly, but if it is winter, after reading a little, take up your handiwork and persevere in it until the wood signals the hymnody of the lamp-lighting service.

Then entering again into the assembly, stand in fear and attention before God, singing psalms to him and confessing and speaking to no one at all. And when the lamp-lighting service is finished, if you have the strength to control yourself not to eat or drink at all, having decided to eat once a day, you will find no small benefit in the attendance of your evening service and in your night prayer and vigil; but if not, be content with one rusk and one cup of water without weakness and feebleness of your stomach. And after giving the evening prayers to God together with your brothers, making a prostration at the feet of the superior as if at the very feet of Christ, and having received a blessing from there and venerated the holy forms of the saints, enter your cell in silence, speaking to no one at all, and having closed the doors, first take up the book, (338) and having read about three leaves attentively in it, stand for prayer, quietly singing psalms and praying to God as if heard by no one. Stand nobly, gathering your thoughts and not allowing them to wander elsewhere, clasp your hands, join your feet equally, unmoved on one base, and close your eyes so as not to look at anything else and have your mind be scattered, but lift your mind itself and your whole heart to the heavens and God, from there with

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ἡμῖν φεύξεται, καί ὁ φυλάσσων τούς λόγους ἡμῶν, τῇ συνεργείᾳ τῆς τοῦ Θεοῦ χάριτος, ἄτρωτος καί ἀβλαβής διαμένει ἐξ αὐτῶν, οἱ δέ γε λοιποί κοσμικόν βίον, ὡς οὐκ ἴσασιν, ἐν μοναχικῷ τῷ σχήματι προαιροῦνται ζῆν, οἵ καί εἰς βάραθρα καί εἰς κρημνούς καταπίπτοντες οὐκ αἰσθάνονται.

Σύ οὖν, περιπόθητε ἀδελφέ, ταῦτα φυλάξαι θέλησον, εἰ κἄν δέῃ σε καί ἀποθανεῖν· ἄλλως γάρ τόν τῆς γαστριμαργίας δαίμονα ἐκφυγεῖν οὐκ ἰσχύσεις. Ἴσθι δέ ὅτι ταῦτα φυλάσσοντός σου, μή φέρων ὁ διάβολος ὁρᾶν σε, πάντας τούς ῥαθύμους ἐξεγερεῖ κατά σου, καί καταλοιδορήσουσί σε καί γελάσουσι και φθονήσουσι καί ἐμπαίξουσι καί μυρίας θλίψεις σοι ἐπενέγκωσιν, ὅπως σε τῆς ἀγαθῆς προθέσεως καί τῶν σωτηρίων πράξεων ἀποστήσωσιν· ἅπερ ἐάν ὑπομείνῃς, ἀγαπητέ, μεγάλην ἀπό τοῦ Θεοῦ καί Σωτῆρος ἡμῶν εὑρήσεις βοήθειαν καί παράκλησιν. Τοιγαροῦν καί ἑτέρων ἐν τῷ δείπνῳ καθημένων καί ἐσθιόντων, σοῦ δέ μή ἐσθίοντος ἀλλ᾿ εἴτε διακονοῦντος εἴτε καί μή, μή ἐπιλάθῃ καί ταῦτα λέγων πρός ἑαυτόν· "Εἰ ἤμην πάντως μετανοήσας καί αὐτός καί τάς ἁμαρτίας μου συγχωρηθείς, ἔχαιρον ἄν κἀγώ καί μετά τῶν ἀδελφῶν μου συνήσθιον. Ἐπειδή δέ ἀνάξιον ἐμαυτόν δά τῶν αἰσχρῶν μου πράξεων, ὁ ἄθλιος, πεποίηκα, ἀπολάβω ἐνταῦθα κατά τά ἔργα μου! " καί ταῦτα λέγων κράτει γαστρός, ὅση σοι δύναμις. Πρωτοκαθεδρίαν μήποτε ζητήσεις μήτε ἐπιθυμήσεις, ἀλλά μίσησον ταύτην ἀπό ψυχῆς ὡς ὑπερηφανίας αἰτίαν καί πρόξενον οὖσαν. Ἡ γάρ ταπείνωσίς σου ὑψώσει σε, καί τό ἔσχατον εἶναί σε πάντων πρῶτον σε ἀποκαταστήσει, ἐπειδή γέγραπται· "Πᾶς ὁ ὑψῶν ἑαυτόν ταπεινωθήσεται, ὁ δέ ταπεινῶν ἑαυτόν ὑψωθήσεται".

(337) Μετά γοῦν τό συναναστῆναί σε πάσῃ τῇ ἀδελφότητι καί ἀποδοῦναι τήν εὐχαριστίαν Θεῷ καί παρά τοῦ ἱερέως ἀπολυθῆναι, ἀπότρεχε σιωπῶν ἐν τῇ κέλλῃ σου, καί κλείσας τήν θύραν ἐπιλαβοῦ τοῦ βιβλίου. Καί ἀναγνούς ὀλίγον, εἰ μέν ἡμέραι τοῦ θέρους εἰσίν, ἀνακλίθητι ἐπί τό ψιάθιόν σου καί βραχυτάτου μετάλαβε ὕπνου ἀπεχόμενος γάρ τοῦ κόρου καί λιτῇ χρώμενος τῇ τραπέζῃ μετά ἄρτου καί μεμετρημένου ὕδατος καί λαχάνων ἤ ὀσπρίων, ἧττον ὑπνώσεις καί θᾶττον ἐξαναστήσῃ , εἰ δέ τοῦ χειμῶνός εἰσι, μετά τό μικρόν ἀναγνῶναι ἐπιλαβοῦ τοῦ ἐργοχείρου σου καί προσκαρτέρησον ἐν αὐτῷ ἕως οὗ τό ξύλον τήν ὑμνῳδίαν σημάνῃ τοῦ λυχνικοῦ.

Εἶτα πάλιν εἰς τήν σύναξιν εἰσελθών, στῆθι ἐν φόβῳ καί προσοχῇ ἐνώπιον τοῦ Θεοῦ, ψάλλων αὐτῷ καί ἐξομολογούμενος καί μηδενί ὁμιλῶν τό παράπαν. Καί τελεσθέντος τοῦ λυχνικοῦ, εἰ μέν ἐγκρατεύσασθαι ἰσχύσεις τοῦ μή φαγεῖν ἤ πιεῖν τό καθόλου, ἅπαξ κεκρικώς τήν ἡμέραν ἐσθίειν, εὑρήσεις οὐ τήν τυχοῦσαν ὠφέλειαν ἐν τῇ παραστάσει τῆς ἑσπερινῆς σου ἀκολουθίας καί ἐν τῇ νυκτερινῇ δεήσει καί ἀγρυπνίᾳ· εἰ δ᾿ οὖν ἀλλ᾿ ἑνί παξαματίῳ ἀρκέσθητι καί ἑνί ποτηρίῳ ὕδατος ἄνευ ἀσθενείας καί ἀτονίας στομάχου σου. Καί μετά τό συνάμα τοῖς ἀδελφοῖς σου ἀποδοῦναι τάς ἑσπερινάς εὐχάς τῷ Θεῷ, βαλών μετάνοιαν εἰς τούς πόδας τοῦ προεστῶτος ὡς εἰς αὐτούς τούς πόδας τοῦ Χριστοῦ, καί εὐχήν ἐκεῖθεν λαβών καί ἀσπασάμενος τάς ἁγίας μορφάς τῶν ἁγίων, εἴσελθε σιωπῶν μηδενί μηδαμῶς ὁμιλῶν εἰς τό κελλίον σου, καί κλείσας τάς θύρας ἐπιλαβοῦ πρῶτον τοῦ βιβλίου, (338) καί ἀναγνούς ὡσεί τρία φύλλα προσεχῶς ἐν αὐτῷ στῆθι εἰς προσευχήν, ἡσύχως ψάλλων καί προσευχόμενος τῷ Θεῷ ὡς παρά μηδενός ἀκουόμενος. Στῆθι δέ γενναίως ἐπισυνάγων σου τούς λογισμούς καί μή ἐῶν ῥέμβεσθαι αὐτούς ἀλλαχοῦ, σφίγξον σου τάς χεῖρας, ἕνωσόν σου τούς πόδας ἐπίσης ἀσαλεύτους ἐν βάσει μιᾷ, καί τούς μέν ὀφθαλμούς μῦσον τοῦ μή πρός ἄλλο τι βλέπειν καί τόν νοῦν διασκίδνασθαι, τόν δέ νοῦν αὐτόν καί ὅλην τήν καρδίαν ἆρον εἰς οὐρανούς καί Θεόν, ἐκεῖθεν μετά