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sometimes shown to me in this way, sometimes in another, but its strangeness astonished me with wonder, and it filled my whole soul and heart with joy, so that I thought my very body partook of that ineffable grace. Yet I did not then clearly know who you were, the one who was seen. For a time I would see a light more frequently, sometimes within, when my soul enjoyed tranquility and peace, sometimes it would appear somewhere far off outside, or even be completely hidden, and when hidden it caused me unbearable affliction, as I reckoned that it would certainly never appear again. But again, as I was lamenting and weeping and showing every form of renunciation and obedience and humility, it would appear to me like the sun, cutting through the thickness of the cloud and gradually revealing itself, gentle and spherical. Thus then, you the ineffable, the invisible, (444) the intangible, the immovable, who are always everywhere and in all things present and filling all things, hour by hour, so to speak, day and night, being seen and being hidden, going away and coming, becoming unseen and suddenly appearing, little by little you drove away the darkness in me, you drove away the cloud, you thinned the thickness, you cleansed the rheum from my spiritual eyes, you unstopped and opened the ears of my mind, you removed the veil of insensibility, along with these things you lulled to sleep and completely banished from me every passion and every carnal pleasure. Therefore, having made me such, you cleansed the heaven of every cloud; and by heaven I mean the purified soul in which invisibly, I know not how or from where you come, you who are everywhere present are suddenly found and are revealed as another sun. O, the ineffable condescension!

These are the wonders of God toward us, brothers! But as we ascend to what is more perfect, the formless and unshaped One no longer comes as before, formless or unshaped, or effects the presence and arrival of His light toward us in silence. But how? In a certain form, yet of God; but God is shown not in a figure or an impression, but as simple, formed in an incomprehensible and ungraspable and formless light—for we can say or express nothing more—, for a time the invisible one is shown manifestly and is known very knowably and is seen very clearly, invisibly He speaks and hears and, as a friend to a friend, face to face, He converses, the God by nature with the gods born of Him by grace, and as a father He loves and is loved by His sons most fervently and becomes (445) for them a strange sight and a most awesome sound, which can neither be spoken of worthily by them, nor endured to be covered over in silence; by desire for whom they are ever kindled and from whom they are mystically instructed, sometimes write, lamenting the passions of others, sometimes they triumph over their own failings. And sometimes, thankfully recounting the benefactions and energies of grace that have come to them, they theologically hymn the one who has divinely transformed them; sometimes, if they hear anything said contrarily and erroneously concerning our soul's salvation, correcting this, they write according to the measure of knowledge given them, presenting testimonies from the divine Scriptures, and they are not strong enough to be quiet at all or to have their fill of recounting. In what way? Because they no longer belong to themselves, but to the Spirit in them, whom He both moves and by whom He in turn is moved, and all things you hear said in the divine Scriptures about the kingdom of heaven come to be in them: a pearl, a grain of mustard, leaven, water, fire, bread, a drink of life, a living and leaping spring, flowing with rivers of spiritual words, of words of divine life, a lamp, a couch, a bridal chamber, a bridegroom, a friend, (446) a brother and a father. And why do I, saying many things, attempt to go through them all, when behold, they are innumerable? For what eye has not seen and ear has not

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ποτέ μεν οὕτω μοι ποτέ δέ ἄλλως δεικνύμενον, ἀλλά τό μέν ἀσύνηθες κατέπληττέ με τοῦ θαύματος, χαρᾶς δέ ὅλην μου τήν ψυχήν ἐπλήρου καί τήν καρδίαν, ὡς καί αὐτό μου οἴεσθαί με τό σῶμα μεταλαμβάνειν τῆς χάριτος τῆς ἀφάτου ἐκείνης. Οὔπω δέ τό τίς ᾖς ὁ ὁρώμενος τρανῶς τότε ἐγίνωσκον. Τέως ἑώρων συχνότερον φῶς, ποτέ μέν ἔνδον, ὅτε γαλήνης καί εἰρήνης ἡ ψυχή μου ἀπήλαυε, ποτέ δέ ἔξω που μακράν ἐφαίνετο ἤ καί τελείως ἐκρύπτετο καί κρυπτόμενον θλῖψίν μοι ἐνεποίει ἀφόρητον, λογιζομένου μου ὡς οὐκέτι πάντως φανήσεται. Ἀλλά μοι πάλιν θρηνοῦντι καί κλαίοντι καί πᾶσαν ἐνδεικνυμένῳ ξενιτείαν καί ὑπακοήν καί ταπείνωσιν ἐπεφαίνετο ὥσπερ ὁ ἥλιος, τό πάχος τοῦ νέφους διατέμνων καί κατά μικρόν προσηνής καί σφαιροειδής ἐνδεικνύμενος. Οὕτως οὖν ὁ ἄφραστος σύ, ὁ ἀόρατος, (444) ὁ ἀναφής, ὁ ἀκίνητος, ὁ πανταχοῦ ἀεί καί ἐν πᾶσι παρών καί τά πάντα πληρῶν, καθ᾿ ὥραν, ἵν᾿ εἴπω, ἐν ἡμέρᾳ τε καί νυκτί ὁρώμενος καί κρυπτόμενος, ἀπιών καί ἐρχόμενος, γινόμενος ἀφανής καί αἴφνης φαινόμενος, κατά μικρόν μικρόν τό σκότος ἐν ἐμοί ἀπεδίωξας, τό νέφος ἀπήλασας, τό πάχος ἐλέπτυνας, τήν λήμην τῶν νοερῶν ὀφθαλμῶν ἀπεκάθηρας, τά ὦτα τῆς διανοίας ἀπέφραξας καί διήνοιξας, τῆς ἀναισθησίας περιῆρας τό κάλυμμα, σύν τούτοις πᾶν πάθος και πᾶσαν σαρκικήν ἡδονήν κατεκοίμησας καί τέλεον ἀπ᾿ ἐμοῦ ἐξώρισας. Τοιγαροῦν καί τοιοῦτόν με ἀπεργασάμενος, τόν οὐρανόν παντός νέφους ἐκάθηρας· οὐρανόν δέ λέγω τήν καθαρθεῖσαν ψυχήν ἐν ᾗ ἀοράτως, οὐκ οἶδ᾿ ὅπως ἤ πόθεν ἐρχόμενος, ὁ πανταχοῦ παρών αἴφνης εὑρίσκῃ καί ὡς ἄλλος ἥλιος ἀναδείκνυσαι. Βαβαί τῆς ἀφράστου συγκαταβάσεως!

Ταῦτα πρός ἡμᾶς τοῦ Θεοῦ τά θαυμάσια, ἀδελφοί! Ἀνερχομένων δέ ἡμῶν ἐπί τό τελεώτερον, οὐκέτι ὡς τό πρότερον ἄμορφος ἤ ἀνείδεος ὁ ἄμορφος καί ἀνείδεος ἔρχεται ἤ τήν παρουσίαν καί ἄφιξιν τοῦ φωτός αὐτοῦ σιωπῇ πρός ἡμᾶς ἀπεργάζεται. Ἀλλά πῶς; Ἐν μορφῇ τινι, πλήν Θεοῦ· Θεός δέ οὐκ ἐν σχήματι ἤ ἐκτυπώματι, ἀλλ᾿ ἐν ἀκατανοήτῳ καί ἀμηχάνῳ καί ἀμόρφῳ μεμορφωμένος φωτί ἁπλοῦς δείκνυται - οὐδέν γάρ πλέον εἰπεῖν ἤ ἐκφράσαι δυνάμεθα , τέως ἐμφανῶς δείκνυται καί γνωρίζεται πάνυ γνωστῶς καί λίαν ὁρᾶται τρανῶς ὁ ἀόρατος, ἀοράτως λαλεῖ καί ἀκούει καί, ὡς εἴ τις φίλος πρός φίλον ἐνώπιος ἐνωπίῳ, προσομιλεῖ ὁ φύσει Θεός τοῖς κατά χάριν ἐξ αὐτοῦ γεννηθεῖσι θεοῖς, καί ὡς πατήρ ἀγαπᾷ καί παρά τῶν υἱῶν φιλεῖται ἄγαν θερμῶς καί γίνεται (445) τούτοις ξένον θέαμα καί φρικτότερον ἄκουσμα, μήτε λαλεῖσθαι παρ᾿ αὐτῶν ἀξίως δυνάμενον, μήτε σιωπῇ συγκαλύπτεσθαι ἀνεχόμενον· οὗ τῷ πόθῳ ἀεί ἀναπτόμενοι καί μυστικῶς παρ᾿ αὐτοῦ ἐνηχούμενοι, ποτέ μέν περί τῶν ἀλλοτρίων παθῶν ἀποδυρόμενοι γράφουσι, ποτέ δέ τά ἑαυτῶν θριαμβεύουσι πταίσματα. Καί ποτέ μέν, τάς εἰς αὐτούς γενομένας εὐεργεσίας καί ἐνεργείας τῆς χάριτος εὐχαρίστως ἐκδιηγούμενοι, θεολογικῶς ἀνυμνοῦσι τόν θεουργικῶς αὐτούς ἀλλοιώσαντα· ποτέ δέ, εἴ τι ἐναντίως καί ἐσφαλμένως λεγόμενον περί τῆς ψυχικῆς σωτηρίας ἡμῶν ἀκούσωσι, κατά τό δοθέν αὐτοῖς μέτρον τῆς γνώσεως διορθούμενοι, τοῦτο γράφουσι, τάς μαρτυρίας ἀπό τῶν θείων παριστῶντες Γραφῶν καί ἠρεμεῖν ὅλως ἤ κόρον τῆς διηγήσεως λαβεῖν οὐκ ἰσχύουσι. Τίνα τρόπον; Ἐπειδή οὐκέτι ἑαυτῶν, ἀλλά τοῦ ἐν αὐτοῖς εἰσι Πνεύματος, οὕς καί κινεῖ καί ὑπ᾿ αὐτῶν πάλιν κινεῖται αὐτό, καί γίνεται ἐν αὐτοῖς πάντα ὅσα ἐν ταῖς θείαις ἀκούεις Γραφαῖς περί τῆς βασιλείας τῶν οὐρανῶν λεγόμενα, μαργαρίτης, κόκκος σινάπεως, ζύμη, ὕδωρ, πῦρ, ἄρτος, πόμα ζωῆς, πηγή ζῶσά τε καί ἁλλομένη, ποταμούς ῥέουσα λόγων πνευματικῶν, λόγων θείας ζωῆς, λαμπάς, κλίνη, παστάς, νυμφῶν,νυμφίος, φίλος, (446) ἀδελφός καί πατήρ. Καί τί πολλά λέγων πειρῶμαι τά πάντα διεξελθεῖν καί ἰδού εἰσιν ἀναρίθμητα; Ἅ γάρ ὀφθαλμός οὐκ εἶδε καί οὖς οὐκ