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9. Each one must examine and understand himself, so as neither to trust in hope alone, without mourning according to God and spiritual humility, nor in humility and tears without the spiritual hope and joy that accompany them.

10. There is a supposed humility that comes from carelessness, sloth, and the strong condemnation of the conscience, which those who possess it consider a cause of salvation; but it is not, for it does not possess the joy-making mourning yoked with it.

11. There is a mourning apart from spiritual humility, and those who mourn in this way consider it a purification for sins. And they are vainly deceived in thinking this; for they are deprived of the sweetness of the Spirit, which is mystically engendered in the noetic chamber of the soul, and they do not taste the goodness of the Lord; (424) for this reason such people are quickly kindled to anger and are unable to despise completely the world and the things in the world. But he who has not completely despised these things and acquired a hatred for them from his soul, can never acquire a sure and unwavering hope for his salvation; but he is always carried about here and there in doubt, not having laid the foundation upon the rock.

12. Mourning is twofold in its energies and, as water, through tears it extinguishes all the flame of the passions and cleanses the soul from the defilement from them; but as fire, through the presence of the Holy Spirit it gives life and enkindles and sets on fire and warms the heart and inflames it towards the love and longing for God.

13. See and learn the energies that are engendered in you by both humility and mourning, and search out the benefit added to you hour by hour from them. And this is for beginners the putting away of every earthly care, detachment from and renunciation of all, parents, relatives and friends, freedom from anxiety about and contempt for all things and money, not only to a needle, but even to the body itself.

14. In the way that someone extinguishes a furnace burning with flame by throwing dust on it, in the same way also the cares of life and every attachment to a worthless and most trivial thing makes disappear the warmth of the heart that was kindled in the beginning.

15. He who has with joy made the renunciation of external things and people and all things in life with the full perception of his heart, and has received forgetfulness of such things, having overcome attachment as a wall, exists as a stranger to the world and to all things in the world, gathering his mind to himself and making his only meditation (425) the remembrance and thought of death; for which reason he also is ever concerned with matters of judgment and retribution and is altogether held captive by these things, being struck by an ineffable fear from such thoughts and from dwelling on them.

16. He who has conceived the fear of judgment in his depths becomes like some condemned man bound with chains in the theater of this life. For this reason he is also dragged by fear as by some executioner and appears to be walking the path that leads to death, reckoning nothing else except only the pain and the anguish which he is about to suffer from the eternal punishment; and carrying this indelibly in his heart, the fear engendered from it allows him to care for nothing human at all; for as if already nailed to the wood and vehemently constrained by pains unto death, so he always remains, not being permitted even to gaze with his eyes upon anyone's face, nor taking any account of the honor or dishonor of men; for having himself from the heart as worthy of all dishonor and contempt, he does not care about the insults brought against him.

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θ'. Σκοπεῖν ἑαυτόν ἕκαστον δεῖ καί κατανοεῖν τοῦ μήτε τῇ ἐλπίδι μόνῃ θαρρεῖν δίχα τοῦ κατά Θεόν πένθους καί πνευματικῆς ταπεινώσεως, μήτε τῇ ταπεινοφροσύνῃ καί τοῖς δακρύοις ἄνευ τῆς συνεπομένης τούτοις πνευματικῆς ἐλπίδος τε καί χαρᾶς.

ι'. Ἔστι νομιζομένη ταπείνωσις ἐξ ἀμελείας τε καί νωθρότητος καί τῆς τοῦ συνειδότος σφοδρᾶς καταγνώσεως, ἥν οἱ κεκτημένοι ὡς σωτηρίας λογίζονται πρόξενον} οὐκ ἔστι δέ, τό γάρ χαροποιόν πένθος ταύτῃ συνεζευγμένον οὐ κέκτηται.

ια'. Ἔστι πένθος πνευματικῆς ἐκτός ταπεινώσεως καί τοῦτο ὡς ἁμαρτημάτων καθαρτήριον οἱ οὕτως πενθοῦντες λογίζονται. Καί πλανῶνται ματαίως τοῦτο οἰόμενοι} τῆς γάρ τοῦ Πνεύματος γλυκύτητος ἀπεστέρηνται, τῆς μυστικῶς ἐν τῷ νοερῷ τῆς ψυχῆς ταμιείῳ ἐγγινομένης, καί τῆς χρηστότητος τοῦ Κυρίου οὐ γεύονται} (424) διό καί πρός ὀργήν ταχέως οἱ τοιοῦτοι ἐξάπτονται καί τοῦ κόσμου καί τῶν ἐν τῷ κόσμῳ τέλεον καταφρονῆσαι οὐ δύνανται. Ὁ δέ μή τούτων τελείως καταφρονήσας καί μῖσος ἀπό ψυχῆς πρός ταῦτα κτησάμενος, οὐδέ τήν ἐλπίδα τῆς σωτηρίας αὐτοῦ βεβαίαν ποτέ καί ἀδίστακτον δύναται κτήσασθαι˙ ἀεί δέ ὧδέ τε κἀκεῖσε ἐν δισταγμῷ περιφέρεται, ἐπί τήν πέτραν μή καταβαλών τό θεμέλιον.

ιβ'. Τό πένθος διπλοῦν ταῖς ἐνεργείαις ἐστί καί, ὡς μέν ὕδωρ, διά τῶν δακρύων πᾶσαν σβεννύει τήν φλόγα τῶν παθῶν καί τήν ψυχήν ἐκκαθαίρει τοῦ ἐξ αὐτῶν μολυσμοῦ˙ ὡς δέ πῦρ, διά τῆς παρουσίας τοῦ Ἁγίου Πνεύματος ζωοποιεῖ καί ἀναφλέγει καί ἐκπυροῖ καί θερμαίνει τήν καρδίαν καί πρός ἔρωτα καί πόθον Θεοῦ ἐξάπτει αὐτήν.

ιγ'. Βλέπε καί καταμάνθανε τάς ἐν σοί ἐγγινομένας ἐνεργείας ὑπό τε τῆς ταπεινώσεως καί τοῦ πένθους, καί τήν ἐξ αὐτῶν ἐρεύνα προστιθεμένην σοι καθ᾿ ὥραν ὠφέλειαν. Ἔστι δέ αὕτη τοῖς εἰσαγωγικοῖς πάσης γηΐνης φροντίδος ἀπόθεσις, πάντων, γονέων, ἰδίων καί φίλων ἀπροσπάθεια καί ἀπάρνησις, πάντων πραγμάτων καί χρημάτων ἀμεριμνία καί καταφρόνησις, οὐ μέχρι ῥαφίδος μόνον, ἀλλά καί μέχρις αὐτοῦ τοῦ σώματος.

ιδ'. Ὅν τρόπον ἐν φλογί καιομένης καμίνου χοῦν ἐπιβαλών τις ταύτην σβεννύει, τόν αὐτόν τρόπον καί αἱ βιωτικαί μέριμναι καί πᾶσα προσπάθεια εὐτελοῦς καί σμικροτάτου πράγματος τήν ἀναφθεῖσαν ἐν ἀρχαῖς θέρμην τῆς καρδίας ἐξαφανίζει.

ιε'. Ὁ τήν τῶν ἔξωθεν πραγμάτων τε καί ἀνθρώπων καί πάντων τῶν ἐν τῷ βίῳ ποιησάμενος ἐν παντελεῖ καρδίας αἰσθήσει μετά χαρᾶς ἄρνησιν, καί λήθην λαβών τῶν τοιούτων, ὡς τεῖχος ὑπερβάς τήν προσπάθειαν, ὡς ξένος τοῦ κόσμου καί τῶν ἐν τῷ κόσμῳ πάντων ὑπάρχει, συνάγων τόν νοῦν ἑαυτοῦ καί μόνην μελέτην ποιούμενος τήν (425) μνήμην τοῦ θανάτου καί ἔννοιαν˙ διό καί ἀεί τά περί κρίσεως καί ἀνταποδόσεως μεριμνᾷ καί ὅλως ἐν τούτοις αἰχμαλωτίζεται φόβῳ ἀρρήτῳ ἐκ τῶν τοιούτων ἐννοιῶν καί τῆς ἐν αὐτοῖς ἀδολεσχίας βαλλόμενος.

ιστ'. Ὥσπερ τις κατάδικος δεσμά περικείμενος ἐν τῷ θεάτρῳ τοῦ τῇδε βίου γίνεται ὁ τόν φόβον τῆς κρίσεως εἰς βάθος ἐγκυμονήσας. Ἔνθεν τοι καί ὡς ὑπό δημίου τινός τοῦ φόβου συρόμενος καί τήν ἐπί θάνατον ἄγουσαν πορευόμενος φαίνεται, μηδέν λογιζόμενος ἕτερον εἰ μή τόν πόνον μόνον καί τήν ὀδύνην ἥν ὑποστῆναι μέλλει ἐκ τῆς τιμωρίας τῆς αἰωνίου˙ τοῦτον δέ ἀνεξάλειπτον φέρων ἐν τῇ καρδίᾳ, ὁ ἐξ αὐτοῦ ἐγγινόμενος φόβος οὐδέν ὅλως τῶν ἀνθρωπίνων ἐᾷ μεριμνᾶν αὐτόν˙ ὡς γάρ ἤδη τῷ ξύλῳ προσηλωθείς καί ταῖς ὀδύναις σφοδρῶς πρός θάνατον συνεχόμενος, οὕτως ἀεί διατελεῖ, μηδέ ἀτενίσαι τούς ὀφθαλμούς εἰς πρόσωπόν τινος συγχωρούμενος, μηδέ τιμῆς ἤ ἀτιμίας ἀνθρώπων λόγον ποιούμενος˙ πάσης γάρ ἀτιμίας καί ἐξουδενώσεως ἄξιον ἑαυτόν ἀπό καρδίας ἔχων, τῶν ἐπιφερομένων ὕβρεων αὐτῷ οὐ φροντίζει.