Letter CXCIII.943    Placed in 375.

To Meletius the Physician.

I am not able to flee from the discomforts of winter so well as cranes are, although for foreseeing the future I am quite as clever as a crane.  But as to liberty of life the birds are almost as far ahead of me as they are in the being able to fly.  In the first place I have been detained by certain worldly business; then I have been so wasted by constant and violent attacks of fever that there does seem something thinner even than I was,—I am thinner than ever.  Besides all this, bouts of quartan ague have gone on for more than twenty turns.  Now I do seem to be free from fever, but I am in such a feeble state that I am no stronger than a cobweb.  Hence the shortest journey is too far for me, and every breath of wind is more dangerous to me than big waves to those at sea.  I have no alternative but to hide in my hut and wait for spring, if only I can last out so long, and am not carried off beforehand944    προδιαρπασθῶμεν with two mss.  προδιαμάρτοιμεν has better authority, but is bad Greek, and makes worse sense. by the internal malady of which I am never rid.  If the Lord saves me with His mighty hand, I shall gladly betake myself to your remote region, and gladly embrace a friend so dear.  Only pray that my life may be ordered as may be best for my soul’s good.

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[1] Ἡμῖν οὐδ' ὅσον ταῖς γεράνοις ὑπάρχει τὰ δυσχερῆ τοῦ χειμῶνος διαφεύγειν, ἀλλ' ἕνεκεν μὲν τοῦ προϊδέσθαι τὸ μέλλον οὐδὲν ἴσως χείρους τῶν γεράνων ἐσμέν, τῷ δὲ κατὰ τὸν βίον αὐτεξουσίῳ τοσοῦτον τῶν ὀρνίθων ἀπολιμπανόμεθα ὅσον καὶ τοῦ πέτεσθαι δύνασθαι μικροῦ δεῖν. Πρῶτον μὲν γὰρ ἀσχολίαι μέ τινες τῶν κατὰ τὸν βίον πραγμάτων κατέσχον, ἔπειτα δὲ πυρετοὶ συνεχεῖς καὶ λάβροι οὕτω μου τὸ σῶμα κατεδαπάνησαν, ὥστε ἐφάνη τι καὶ ἐμοῦ λεπτότερον, αὐτὸς ἐγὼ ἐμαυτοῦ. Εἶτα τεταρταίων προσβολαὶ πρὸς πλεῖον ἢ εἴκοσι διαρκέσασαι κύκλους. Νυνὶ δέ, ὅτε δοκῶ τῶν πυρετῶν ἀπηλλάχθαι, οὕτως ὑπὸ τῆς ἀδυναμίας διάκειμαι ὥστε μηδὲν ἐν τούτῳ ἀποδεῖν ἀραχνίου. Ὅθεν μοι πᾶσα μὲν ὁδὸς ἄβατος, πᾶσα δὲ πνεύματος προσβολὴ πλείονα φέρει τὸν κίνδυνον ἢ αἱ τρικυμίαι τοῖς πλέουσιν. Ἀνάγκη τοίνυν ὑπὸ δωματίῳ κεκρύφθαι καὶ ἀναμένειν τὸ ἔαρ, ἐάνπερ διαρκέσαι πρὸς αὐτὸ δυνηθῶμεν, ἀλλὰ μὴ προδιαμάρτωμεν ὑπὸ τοῦ κακοῦ τοῦ τοῖς σπλάγχνοις ἐνιδρυμένου. Ἐὰν δὲ διασώσῃ ἡμᾶς ὁ Κύριος τῇ μεγάλῃ ἑαυτοῦ χειρί, ἀσμενέστατα μὲν τὴν ἐσχατιὰν ὑμῶν καταληψόμεθα, ἀσμενέστατα δὲ σὲ τὴν φίλην ἡμῖν κεφαλὴν περιπτυξόμεθα. Μόνον εὔχου πρὸς τὸ συμφέρον τῇ ψυχῇ τὴν ζωὴν ἡμῶν οἰκονομεῖσθαι.