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But I hear that he has been the most prolific of all writers, but that I have come across few of his compositions; for I have no leisure to investigate such things, and at the same time I am somewhat difficult about accepting modern writers, I whose body does not even allow me to persist diligently in the reading of the divinely-inspired Scriptures in the manner I ought. What then is this to me, if someone has written something that does not please so-and-so? And yet if one must be held accountable for another, let him who accuses me on account of Apollinarius defend himself to us on account of Arius his own teacher and on account of Aetius his own disciple. But we were neither taught anything nor were we disciples of the man whose crimes they are turning upon us. But Diodore we received from the beginning as a foster-child of the blessed Silvanus, and now we both love and cherish him because of the grace of speech inherent in him, through which many of those who encounter it become better. 244.4 Being affected by these letters, as was likely, and astonished at such an irrational and sudden change, I was not even able to utter a word in reply. For my heart was bound, my tongue was paralyzed, and my hand was numb, and I suffered an ignoble passion of the soul (for the truth will be told, yet it is worthy of forgiveness): I nearly fell into misanthropy, and every character became suspect to me, and I considered that the good of love does not exist in human nature, but is a specious word providing a certain embellishment to those who use it, but that this disposition does not truly exist in a human heart. For if he who seemed from childhood to deep old age to have taken care of himself was so easily turned savage from such pretexts, taking no account of our affairs nor considering the past experience more authoritative than such a worthless slander, but, like some untamed colt not yet taught to bear its rider well, from a slight suspicion reared up and shook off and threw to the ground those in whom he previously gloried, what must one suppose about the others, with whom we have neither so many pledges of friendship, nor from whom is there such a display of care for their character? Revolving these things by myself in my soul and constantly turning them in my heart, or rather having my heart turned over by them, so they bit and tore me through memory, I answered nothing to those letters, not keeping silent out of contempt (do not think this, brother; for we are not defending ourselves to men, but we speak in the sight of God in Christ), but from perplexity and helplessness and from having nothing to say worthy of the grief. 244.5 While we were in this state, other letters reached us, ostensibly written to a certain Dazizas, but in truth sent to all people, as their very rapid circulation shows, so that in a few days they were scattered throughout all Pontus and overran Galatia. And some say that the messengers of these good things, passing through the Bithynians, reached the Hellespont itself. What things were sent against us to Dazizas, you surely know. For they do not place you so far from their friendship as to leave you alone unrewarded with that honor. But if the letters have not come to you, I will send them to you. In which you will find us accused of deceit and villainy, the corruption of Churches and the loss of souls, and the truest of all, as they themselves think, that we made that treacherous presentation of the faith not serving the people of Nicopolis, but ourselves having devised to receive a confession deceitfully. Of these things, then, the Lord is judge. For what clear proof could there be of the thoughts in the heart? But I marveled at this about them, that because they signed the document presented by us, they used so much contention as to confuse both facts and non-facts for the full assurance of those who were accusing them; but that in Rome a written confession of theirs of the faith of Nicaea is deposited, this they do not consider, nor that by their own hand

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Ἀλλὰ πολυφωνότατον μὲν αὐτὸν ἀκούω πάντων συγγραφέων γεγενῆσθαι, ὀλίγοις δὲ ἐντετυχηκέναι τῶν συνταγμάτων αὐτοῦ· οὐδὲ γὰρ σχολή μοί ἐστι τὰ τοιαῦτα διερευνᾶσθαι, καὶ ἅμα δυσχερής τίς εἰμι πρὸς τὴν τῶν νεωτέρων παραδοχήν, ᾧ γε τὸ σῶμα οὐδὲ τῇ ἀναγνώσει τῶν θεοπνεύστων Γραφῶν φιλοπόνως καὶ καθ' ὃν ἔδει τρόπον συγχωρεῖ παραμένειν. Τί οὖν πρὸς ἐμὲ τοῦτο, εἴ τις συνέγραψέ τι μὴ ἀρέσκον τῷ δεῖνι; Καίτοι εἰ δεῖ ἄλλον τὰς ὑπὲρ ἄλλου εὐθύνας ὑπέχειν, ὁ ἐμοὶ ἐγκαλῶν ὑπὲρ Ἀπολιναρίου ἀπολογείσθω ἡμῖν ὑπὲρ Ἀρείου τοῦ ἰδίου διδασκάλου καὶ ὑπὲρ Ἀετίου τοῦ ἰδίου ἑαυτοῦ μαθητοῦ. Ἡμεῖς δὲ οὐδὲ ἐδιδάχθημέν τι οὐδὲ ἐμαθητεύθημεν τῷ ἀνδρὶ οὗ τὰ ἐγκλήματα ἡμῖν περιτρέπουσι. ∆ιόδωρον δὲ ὡς θρέμμα τοῦ μακαρίου Σιλουανοῦ τὸ ἐξ ἀρχῆς ὑπεδεξάμεθα, νῦν δὲ καὶ ἀγαπῶμεν καὶ περιέπομεν διὰ τὴν προσοῦσαν αὐτῷ τοῦ λόγου χάριν δι' ἧς πολλοὶ τῶν ἐντυγχανόντων βελτίους γίνονται. 244.4 Ἐπὶ τούτοις τοῖς γράμμασι διατεθείς, ὡς εἰκὸς ἦν, καὶ ἐκπλαγεὶς πρὸς τὴν οὕτω παράλογον καὶ ἀθρόαν μετα βολὴν οὐδὲ ἀντιφθέγξασθαι ἠδυνήθην. Συνδέδετο μὲν γάρ μοι ἡ καρδία, παρεῖτο δὲ ἡ γλῶσσα, νεναρκήκει δὲ ἡ χείρ, καὶ ἔπαθον πάθος ψυχῆς ἀγεννοῦς (εἰρήσεται γὰρ τἀληθές, πλὴν ἀλλὰ συγγνώμης ἄξιον)· μικροῦ καὶ εἰς μισανθρωπίαν ἐξέπεσον καὶ πᾶν μοι ἦθος ὕποπτον ἐνομίσθη καὶ μὴ εἶναι ἐν ἀνθρώπου φύσει τὸ τῆς ἀγάπης καλόν, ἀλλὰ ῥῆμα εἶναι εὐπρόσωπον καλλωπισμόν τινα παρέχον τοῖς κεχρημένοις, οὐ μὴν ἐνυπάρχειν κατ' ἀλήθειαν καρδίᾳ ἀνθρώπου τὴν διά θεσιν ταύτην. Εἰ γὰρ ὁ δοκῶν ἐκ παιδὸς εἰς γῆρας βαθὺ ἐπιμέλειαν ἑαυτοῦ πεποιῆσθαι ἐκ τοιούτων προφάσεων οὕτω ῥᾳδίως ἐξηγριώθη, μηδὲν τῶν ἡμετέρων ὑπολογισάμενος μηδὲ τὴν ἐν τῷ παρελθόντι πεῖραν τῆς οὕτως εὐτελοῦς δια βολῆς κυριωτέραν θέμενος, ἀλλ', οἷόν τις πῶλος ἀδάμαστος οὔπω φέρειν καλῶς τὸν ἀναβάτην δεδιδαγμένος, ἐκ μικρᾶς ὑποψίας ἀνεχαίτισε καὶ ἀπεσείσατο καὶ χαμαὶ ἔρριψεν οἷς πρότερον ἐπηγάλλετο, τί χρὴ περὶ τῶν ἄλλων ὑπονοεῖν, πρὸς οὓς οὔτε ἡμῖν τοσαῦτα τῆς φιλίας ἐστὶν ἐνέχυρα οὔτε παρ' αὐτῶν τοιαύτη τῆς τῶν τρόπων ἐπιμελείας ἐπίδειξις; Ταῦτα κατ' ἐμαυτὸν ἀνελίσσων ἐν τῇ ψυχῇ καὶ συνεχῶς στρέφων ἐν τῇ καρδίᾳ, μᾶλλον δὲ ἀναστρεφόμενος ὑπ' αὐτῶν τὴν καρδίαν, οὕτω δακνόντων με καὶ ἀμυσσόντων διὰ τῆς μνήμης, οὐδὲν ἐκείνοις ἀπεκρινάμην τοῖς γράμμασιν, οὐχ ὑπεροψίᾳ σιωπή σας (μὴ τοῦτο οἰηθῇς, ἀδελφέ· οὐ γὰρ ἀνθρώποις ἀπολο γούμεθα, ἀλλὰ κατενώπιον τοῦ Θεοῦ ἐν Χριστῷ λαλοῦμεν), ἀπορίᾳ δὲ καὶ ἀμηχανίᾳ καὶ τῷ μὴ ἔχειν εἰπεῖν τι τῆς λύπης ἄξιον. 244.5 Ἕως ἐν τούτοις ἦμεν, ἐπικατέλαβεν ἡμᾶς ἕτερα γράμ ματα πρὸς ∆αζίζαν τινὰ γεγραμμένα δῆθεν, τῇ δὲ ἀληθείᾳ πᾶσιν ἀνθρώποις ἐπεσταλμένα, ὡς δηλοῖ αὐτῶν ἡ οὕτως ὀξεῖα διάδοσις ὡς ἐν ὀλίγαις ἡμέραις ἐν παντὶ μὲν τῷ Πόντῳ κατασπαρῆναι καὶ τὴν Γαλατίαν ἐπιδραμεῖν. Φασὶ δέ τινες ὅτι καὶ Βιθυνοὺς διεξελθόντες οἱ τῶν ἀγαθῶν τούτων ἄγγελοι μέχρις αὐτοῦ ἔφθασαν Ἑλλησπόντου. Τίνα δὲ ἦν τὰ καθ' ἡμῶν πρὸς ∆αζίζαν ἐπεσταλμένα πάντως μὲν οἶδας. Οὐ γὰρ οὕτω σε μακρὰν τῆς ἑαυτῶν φιλίας τί θενται ὥστε σε μόνον ἀγέραστον τῆς τιμῆς ἐκείνης καταλι πεῖν. Εἰ δὲ οὐκ ἦλθεν εἰς σὲ τὰ γράμματα, ἀλλ' ἐγώ σοι ἀποστέλλω. Ἐν οἷς εὑρήσεις ἡμᾶς κατηγορουμένους δόλον καὶ ῥᾳδιουργίαν, φθορὰν Ἐκκλησιῶν καὶ ψυχῶν ἀπώλειαν, καὶ τὸ πάντων, ὡς αὐτοὶ νομίζουσιν, ἀληθέστατον, ὅτι ἐγκάθετον ἐκείνην τὴν προβολὴν τῆς πίστεως ἐποιησάμεθα οὐ Νικοπολίταις διακονούμενοι, ἀλλ' αὐτοὶ λαβεῖν δολερῶς ὁμολογίαν ἐπινοήσαντες. Τούτων μὲν οὖν κριτὴς Κύριος. Καὶ γὰρ τίς ἂν γένοιτο τῶν ἐν καρδίᾳ λογισμῶν ἐναργὴς ἀπόδειξις; Ἐκεῖνο δὲ αὐτῶν ἐθαύμασα, εἰ ὅτι μὲν τῷ παρ' ἡμῶν ἐπιδοθέντι βιβλίῳ ὑπέγραψαν, τοσαύτῃ κέχρηνται διαστάσει ὥστε καὶ ὄντα καὶ μὴ ὄντα εἰς τὴν τῶν ἐγκαλούν των αὐτοῖς πληροφορίαν συμφύρειν· ὅτι δὲ ἐν τῇ Ῥώμῃ ἔγγραφος αὐτῶν ὁμολογία τῆς ἐν Νικαίᾳ πίστεως ἀπόκειται, τοῦτο οὐκ ἐννοοῦσιν, οὐδὲ ὅτι διὰ τῆς ἑαυτῶν χειρὸς