Chapter 14.—Of the Remedy Against the Fifth and Sixth Sources of Weariness.

20. If, again, your spirit has been broken by the necessity of giving up some other employment, on which, as the more requisite, you were now bent; and if the sadness caused by that constraint makes you catechise in no pleasant mood, you ought to ponder the fact that, excepting that we know it to be our duty, in all our dealings with men, to act in a merciful manner, and in the exercise of the sincerest charity,—with this one exception, I say, it is quite uncertain to us what is the more profitable thing for us to do, and what the more opportune thing for us either to pass by for a time or altogether to omit. For inasmuch as we know not how the merits of men, on whose behalf we are acting, stand with God, the question as to what is expedient for them at a certain time is something which, instead of being able to comprehend, we can rather only surmise, without the aid of any (clear) inferences, or (at best) with the slenderest and the most uncertain. Therefore we ought certainly to dispose the matters with which we have to deal according to our intelligence; and then, if we prove able to carry them out in the manner upon which we have resolved, we should rejoice, not indeed that it was our will, but that it was God’s will, that they should thus be accomplished. But if anything unavoidable happens, by which the disposition thus proposed by us is interfered with, we should bend ourselves to it readily, lest we be broken; so that the very disposition of affairs which God has preferred to ours may also be made our own. For it is more in accordance with propriety that we should follow His will than that He should follow ours. Besides, as regards this order in the doing of things, which we wish to keep in accordance with our own judgment, surely that course is to be approved of in which objects that are superior have the precedence. Why then are we aggrieved that the precedence over men should be held by the Lord God in His vast superiority to us men, so that in the said love which we entertain for our own order, we should thus (exhibit the disposition to) despise order? For “no one orders for the better” what he has to do, except the man who is rather ready to leave undone what he is prohibited from doing by the divine power, than desirous of doing that which he meditates in his own human cogitations. For “there are many devices in a man’s heart; nevertheless, the counsel of the Lord stands for ever.”86    Prov. xix. 21

21. But if our mind is agitated by some cause of offense, so as not to be capable of delivering a discourse of a calm and enjoyable strain, our charity towards those for whom Christ died, desiring to redeem them by the price of His own blood from the death of the errors of this world, ought to be so great, that the very circumstance of intelligence being brought us in our sadness, regarding the advent of some person who longs to become a Christian, ought to be enough to cheer us and dissipate that heaviness of spirit, just as the delights of gain are wont to soften the pain of losses. For we are not (fairly) oppressed by the offense of any individual, unless it be that of the man whom we either perceive or believe to be perishing himself, or to be the occasion of the undoing of some weak one. Accordingly, one who comes to us with the view of being formally admitted, in that we cherish the hope of his ability to go forward, should wipe away the sorrow caused by one who fails us. For even if the dread that our proselyte may become the child of hell87    Matt. xxiii. 15 comes into our thoughts, as, there are many such before our eyes, from whom those offenses arise by which we are distressed, this ought to operate, not in the way of keeping us back, but rather in the way of stimulating us and spurring us on. And in the same measure we ought to admonish him whom we are instructing to be on his guard against imitating those who are Christians only in name and not in very truth, and to take care not to suffer himself to be so moved by their numbers as either to be desirous of following them, or to be reluctant to follow Christ on their account, and either to be unwilling to be in the Church of God, where they are, or to wish to be there in such a character as they bear. And somehow or other, in admonitions of this sort, that address is the more glowing to which a present sense of grief supplies the fuel; so that instead of being duller, we utter with greater fire and vehemence under such feelings things which, in times of greater ease, we would give forth in a colder and less energetic manner. And this should make us rejoice that an opportunity is afforded us under which the emotions of our mind pass not away without yielding some fruit.

22. If, however, grief has taken possession of us on account of something in which we ourselves have erred or sinned, we should bear in mind not only that a “broken spirit is a sacrifice to God,”88    Ps. li. 17 but also the saying, “Like as water quencheth fire, so alms sin;”89    Ecclus. iii. 30 and again, “I will have mercy,” saith He, “rather than sacrifice.”90    Hos. vi. 6 Therefore, as in the event of our being in peril from fire we would certainly run to the water in order to get the fire extinguished, and we would be grateful if any person were to offer it in the immediate vicinity; so, if some flame of sin has risen from our own stack,91    Fæno= hay. and if we are troubled on that account, when an opportunity has been given for a most merciful work, we should rejoice in it, as if a fountain were offered us in order that by it the conflagration which had burst forth might be extinguished. Unless haply we are foolish enough to think that we ought to be readier in running with bread, wherewith we may fill the belly of a hungry man, than with the word of God, wherewith we may instruct the mind of the man who feeds on it.92    Reading istud edentis; for which some editions give studentis = of one who studies it. There is this also to consider, namely, that if it would only be of advantage to us to do this thing, and entail no disadvantage to leave it undone, we might despise a remedy offered in an unhappy fashion in the time of peril with a view to the safety, not now of a neighbor, but of ourselves. But when from the mouth of the Lord this so threatening sentence is heard, “Thou wicked and slothful servant, thou oughtest to give my money to the exchangers,”93    Matt. xxv. 26, 27 what madness, I pray thee, is it thus, seeing that our sin pains us, to be minded to sin again, by refusing to give the Lord’s money to one who desires it and asks it! When these and such like considerations and reflections have succeeded in dispelling the darkness of weary feelings, the bent of mind is rendered apt for the duty of catechising, so that that is received in a pleasant manner which breaks forth vigorously and cheerfully from the rich vein of charity. For these things indeed which are uttered here are spoken, not so much by me to you, as rather to us all by that very “love which is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Spirit that is given to us.”94    Rom. v. 5

CAPUT XIV.

20. Remedium adversus quintam causam taedii. Remedium contra sextam causam taedii. Item adversus causam sextam. Si autem confregit animum tuum alterius actionis, cui tanquam magis necessariae jam suspensus eras, omissio, et propterea tristis insuaviter catechizas; cogitare debes, excepto quod scimus misericorditer nobis agendum esse quidquid cum hominibus agimus, et ex officio sincerissimae charitatis; hoc ergo excepto, incertum esse quid utilius agamus, et quid opportunius aut intermittamus, aut omnino omittamus. Quia enim merita hominum pro quibus agimus, qualia sint apud Deum non novimus, quid eis ad tempus expediat aut nulla aut tenuissima aut incertissima conjectura suspicamur potius, quam comprehendimus. Quapropter res quidem agendas pro nostro captu ordinare debemus: quas eo modo quo statuimus, si peragere potuerimus, non ideo gaudeamus quia nobis, sed quia Deo sic eas agi placuit: si autem aliqua inciderit necessitas, qua noster ille ordo turbetur; flectamur facile, ne frangamur; ut quem Deus nostro praeposuit, ipse sit noster. Aequius est enim ut nos ejus, quam ut ille nostram voluntatem sequatur. Quia et ordo agendarum rerum, quem nostro arbitrio tenere volumus, ille utique approbandus est, ubi potiora praecedunt. Cur ergo nos dolemus homines a Domino Deo tanto potiore praecedi, ut eo ipso quo nostrum amamus ordinem, inordinati esse cupiamus? Nemo enim melius ordinat quid agat, nisi qui paratior est non agere quod divina potestate prohibetur, quam cupidior agere quod humana cogitatione meditatur. Quia multae cogitationes sunt in corde viri, consilium autem Domini manet in aeternum (Prov. XIX, 21).

21. Si vero ex aliquo scandalo perturbatus animus non valet edere serenum jucundumque sermonem, tantam esse charitatem oportet in eos pro quibus Christus mortuus est, volens eos pretio sanguinis sui ab errorum saecularium morte redimere; ut hoc ipsum quod nobis tristibus nuntiatur, praesto esse aliquem qui desideret fieri christianus, ad consolationem illius resolutionemque tristitiae valere debeat, sicut solent lucrorum gaudia dolorem lenire damnorum. Non enim scandalum nos contristat alicujus, nisi quem 0327 perire aut per quem perire infirmum vel credimus vel videmus. Ille igitur qui initiandus advenit, dum speratur posse proficere, dolorem deficientis abstergat. Quia et si timor ille suggeritur, ne fiat proselytus filius gehennae (Matth. XXIII, 15), dum multi tales versantur ante oculos, ex quibus oriuntur ea quibus urimur scandala, non ad retardandos nos pertinere debet, sed magis ad excitandos et acuendos: quatenus quem imbuimus moneamus, ut caveat imitationem eorum qui non ipsa veritate, sed solo nomine christiani sunt; nec eorum turba commotus, aut sectari velit eos, aut Christum nolit sectari propter eos; et aut nolit esse in Ecclesia Dei ubi illi sunt, aut talis ibi velit esse quales illi sunt. Et nescio quomodo in hujusmodi monitis ardentior sermo est, cui fomitem subministrat praesens dolor: ut non solum pigriores non simus, sed eo ipso dicamus accensius atque vehementius, quod securiores frigidius et lentius diceremus; gaudeamusque nobis occasionem dari, ubi motus animi nostri sine fructificatione non transeat.

22. Si autem de aliquo errato nostro vel peccato nos moestitudo comprehendit, non tantum meminerimus sacrificium Deo spiritum esse contribulatum (Psal. L, 19), sed etiam illud, Quia sicut aqua ignem, sic eleemosyna exstinguit peccatum (Eccli. III, 33); et, Quia misericordiam, inquit, volo quam sacrificium (Osee VI, 6). Sicut ergo si periclitaremur incendio, ad aquam utique curreremus, quo posset exstingui, et gratularemur si quis eam de proximo offerret; ita si de nostro feno aliqua peccati flamma surrexit , et propterea conturbamur, data occasione misericordissimi operis, tanquam de oblato fonte gaudeamus, ut inde illud quod exarserat opprimatur. Nisi forte tam stulti sumus, ut alacrius arbitremur cum pane currendum, quo ventrem esurientis impleamus, quam cum verbo Dei, quo mentem istud edentis instruamus. Huc accedit, quia si tantummodo prodesset hoc facere, non facere autem nihil obesset; infeliciter in periculo salutis, non jam proximi, sed nostrae, oblatum remedium sperneremus. Cum vero ex ore Domini tam minaciter sonet, Serve nequam et piger, dares pecuniam meam nummulariis (Matth. XXV, 26, 27); quae tandem dementia est, quoniam peccatum nostrum nos angit, ideo rursus velle peccare, non dando pecuniam dominicam volenti et petenti? His atque hujusmodi cogitationibus et considerationibus depulsa caligine taediorum, ad catechizandum aptatur intentio, ut suaviter imbibatur, quod impigre atque hilariter de charitatis ubertate prorumpit. Haec enim non tam ego tibi, quam omnibus nobis dicit ipsa dilectio, quae diffusa est in cordibus nostris per Spiritum 0328 sanctum qui datus est nobis (Rom. V, 5).