S. AURELII AUGUSTINI HIPPONENSIS EPISCOPI CONFESSIONUM LIBRI TREDECIM .
CAPUT PRIMUM. Deum vult laudare ab ipso excitatus.
CAPUT II. Deum quem invocat in ipso esse, ipsumque in Deo.
CAPUT III. Deus sic ubique totus, ut res nulla ipsum totum capiat.
CAPUT IV. Dei majestas et perfectiones inexplicabiles.
CAPUT V. Petit amorem Dei, et delictorum veniam.
CAPUT VI. Infantiam suam describit, laudat Dei providentiam et aeternitatem.
CAPUT VII. Infantia quoque peccatis obnoxia.
CAPUT VIII. Unde puer loqui didicerit.
CAPUT IX. Odium litterarum, amor lusus, et vapulandi timor in pueris.
CAPUT X. Amore lusus et spectaculorum avocatur a litterarum studio.
CAPUT XI. Morbo pressus Baptismum flagitat, quem mater certo consilio differt.
CAPUT XII. Ad litteras cogebatur, quo tamen Deus utebatur bene.
CAPUT XIII. Quibus studiis potissimum sit delectatus.
CAPUT XIV. Litteras graecas oderat.
CAPUT XVI. Improbat modum juventutis erudiendae.
CAPUT XVII. Prosequitur contra modum exercendae juventutis in re litteraria.
CAPUT XVIII. Quod homines curant servare leges grammaticorum, et non divinorum praeceptorum.
CAPUT XIX. Pueritiae vitia quae in majores aetates transeunt.
CAPUT XX. Pro bonis sibi in pueritia collatis Deo gratias agit.
CAPUT PRIMUM. Adolescentiae aetatem et vitia recolit.
CAPUT II. Annum aetatis suae decimum sextum in ardore libidinoso consumptum.
CAPUT III. De peregrinatione studiorum causa, et de parentum proposito.
CAPUT IV. Furtum cum sodalibus perpetratum.
CAPUT V. Neminem peccare sine causa.
CAPUT VI. Omnia quae boni specie ad vitia invitant, in solo Deo esse vera et perfecta.
CAPUT VII. Gratias agit Deo pro remissione peccatorum, quodque a multis servatus sit.
CAPUT VIII. Amavit in furto consortium simul peccantium.
CAPUT IX. Contagiosa res sodales mali.
CAPUT PRIMUM. Amore quem venabatur capitur.
CAPUT II. Amavit spectacula tragica.
CAPUT III. In schola rhetoris ab Eversorum factis abhorrebat.
CAPUT IV. Hortensius Ciceronis excitavit illum ad ardorem philosophiae.
CAPUT V. Fastidiit sacras Litteras propter simplicitatem stili.
CAPUT VI. A Manichaeis quomodo captus.
CAPUT VII. Doctrina Manichaeorum absurda cui suffragabatur.
CAPUT VIII. Contra Manichaeos dicit quae flagitia semper detestanda, quae facinora.
CAPUT IX. Discrimen inter peccata, et inter Dei judicium et hominum.
CAPUT X. Nugae Manichaeorum de terrae fructibus.
CAPUT XI. Planctus et somnium matris de filio.
CAPUT XII. Quale responsum mater Augustini accepit a quodam episcopo de ipsius conversione.
CAPUT PRIMUM. Quamdiu et quomodo alios seduxerit.
CAPUT II. Rhetoricam docet, concubinam fovet, et aruspicem qui victoriam promittebat, contemnit.
CAPUT III. Ab astrologia, cui deditus erat, per senem medicinae et rerum peritum revocatur.
CAPUT V. Cur fletus dulcis miseris.
CAPUT VI. Quantus ex amici morte dolor.
CAPUT VII. Impatientia doloris mutat locum.
CAPUT VIII. Tempus et amicorum colloquia dolori medentur.
CAPUT IX. De humana amicitia. Beatus qui amat in Deo.
CAPUT X. Labiles creaturae, nec in eis potest anima requiescere.
CAPUT XI. Omnia creata sunt instabilia. Solus Deus stabilis.
CAPUT XII. Amor non improbatur, modo in his quae placent, amemus-Deum.
CAPUT XIII. Amor unde proveniat.
CAPUT XIV. Libri de Apto et Pulchro Hierio nuncupati. Unde hunc amaverat.
CAPUT XV. Quod corporalibus imaginibus contenebratus, non potuit capere spiritualia.
CAPUT XVI. Categorias Aristotelis et liberalium artium libros per se intellexit.
CAPUT PRIMUM. Excitat mentem ad Deum laudandum.
CAPUT II. Dei praesentiam iniquos non effugere: itaque ad eum debere converti.
CAPUT IV. Sola Dei cognitio beat.
CAPUT V. Manichaei de astris imperitia indignum eum fide in caeteris faciebat.
CAPUT VI. Faustus eloquens, sed liberalium disciplinarum expers.
CAPUT VII. Alienatur a secta Manichaeorum.
CAPUT VIII. Proficiscitur Romam contra matris voluntatem.
CAPUT IX. Febri correptus periculose laborat.
CAPUT X. Errores ante susceptam Evangelii doctrinam.
CAPUT XI. Qualiter Augustinus contulerit cum catholicis.
CAPUT XII. Fraus discipulorum Romae in praeceptores.
CAPUT XIII. Docturus rhetoricam mittitur Mediolanum ab Ambrosio suscipitur.
CAPUT XIV. Audito Ambrosio paulatim ab erroribus resipiscit.
CAPUT PRIMUM. Augustinus nec manichaeus nec catholicus.
CAPUT II. Epulae et synaxis apud sepulcra martyrum.
CAPUT III. Occupationes et studia Ambrosii.
CAPUT IV. Doctrinam Ecclesiae Ambrosio concionante intelligit.
CAPUT V. De sacrorum Librorum auctoritate et necessario usu.
CAPUT VI. De miseria ambitiosorum, adducto exemplo mendici laetantis.
CAPUT VII. Alypium a Circensium insania convertit.
CAPUT VIII. Alypius capitur insania ludorum gladiatoriorum, a quibus antea abhorruerat.
CAPUT IX. Alypius ut fur apprehenditur.
CAPUT X. De integritate Alypii et adventu Nebridii.
CAPUT XI. Anxius Augustinus de instituenda vita deliberat.
CAPUT XII. Contentio inter Alypium et Augustinum de matrimonio et caelibatu.
CAPUT XIII. Uxor quaeritur Augustino.
CAPUT XIV. De vita communi agenda cum amicis deliberat.
CAPUT XV. In locum discedentis concubinae alia succedit.
CAPUT XVI. Mortis et judicii metum nunquam deposuit.
CAPUT PRIMUM. Deum cogitat tanquam aliquid corporeum per infinita spatia diffusum.
CAPUT II. Momentum quo Nebridius confutarat Manichaeos.
CAPUT III. Liberum arbitrium causa peccati.
CAPUT IV. Deum incorruptibilem esse oportet.
CAPUT V. Quaerit iterum unde malum, et quae radix ejus.
CAPUT VI. Mathematicorum divinationes rejicit.
CAPUT VII. Misere torquetur inquirens unde sit malum.
CAPUT VIII. Quomodo divina misericordia subvenerit Augustino.
CAPUT IX. In Platonicorum libris Verbi aeterni divinitatem, non incarnati humilitatem invenit.
CAPUT X. Clarius innotescunt jam Augustino divina.
CAPUT XI. Quomodo creaturae sunt et non sunt.
CAPUT XII. Omnia bona, quaecumque sunt.
CAPUT XIII. Omnia condita laudant Deum.
CAPUT XIV. Sanae mentis homini nihil displicet inter creaturas Dei.
CAPUT XV. Quomodo veritas et falsitas in creaturis.
CAPUT XVI. Omnia bona, licet quibusdam non apta.
CAPUT XVII. Quae retardent a cognitione divinorum.
CAPUT XVIII. Solus Christus via ad salutem.
CAPUT XIX. Quid senserit de Christi incarnatione.
CAPUT XX. Ex Platonicis libris peritior, sed inflatior evaserat.
CAPUT XXI. Quid in sacris Libris invenerit, non inventum in Platonicis.
CAPUT PRIMUM. Studio vitae melius instituendae ad Simplicianum ire statuit.
CAPUT II. De Victorino rhetore ad fidem converso.
CAPUT III. Quod Deus et Angeli magis gaudent in peccatorum conversione.
CAPUT IV. Quare plus laetandum sit in conversione nobilium.
CAPUT V. Quae remorabantur eum a conversione.
CAPUT VI. Pontitianus narrat Antonii vitam.
CAPUT VII. Rodebatur intus audito Pontitiano.
CAPUT VIII. In hortum secedit, quid ibi egerit.
CAPUT IX. Unde fit ut animus imperet sibi et resistatur.
CAPUT XI. Lucta spiritus et carnis in Augustino.
CAPUT XII. Vocis admonitu quomodo totus conversus.
CAPUT PRIMUM. Laudat Dei bonitatem, agnoscens suam miseriam.
CAPUT II. Deserere rhetorices professionem differt usque ad vindemiales ferias.
CAPUT III. Verecundus concedit illi rus suum.
CAPUT V Ambrosium consulit quid legendum.
CAPUT VI. Mediolani baptizatur cum Alypio et Adeodato.
CAPUT VII. Ecclesiastici cantus institutio Mediolani. Inventio corporum SS. Protasii et Gervasii.
CAPUT VIII. Evodii conversio. Matris obitus, ejusque a teneris educatio.
CAPUT IX. Laudabiles matris suae mores prosequitur.
CAPUT X. Colloquium cum matre de regno coelorum.
CAPUT XI. De ecstasi et morte matris.
CAPUT XII. Quomodo luxerit mortem matris. Sacrificium pro defunctis.
CAPUT XIII. Orat pro matre defuncta.
CAPUT PRIMUM. In Deo solo spes et gaudium.
CAPUT II. Cum Deo nota sint arcana, quid est confiteri illi.
CAPUT III. Quo fructu confitebitur deinceps quis sit, non quis fuerit.
CAPUT IV. Quod magni sint fructus hujusmodi confessionis.
CAPUT V. Homo sese totum non novit.
CAPUT VI. Quid amat, cum Deum amat: et quomodo ex creaturis Deus cognoscitur.
CAPUT VII. Corporea aut sensitiva virtute Deus non invenitur.
CAPUT IX. Memoria disciplinarum.
CAPUT X. Disciplinae in memoriam non introducuntur per sensus, sed ex ejus abditiore sinu eruuntur.
CAPUT XII. Rerum Mathematicarum memoria.
CAPUT XIII. Memoria meminisse nos meminimus.
CAPUT XIV. Quomodo memoria continet affectus animi. Laeta non laeti quomodo recordamur.
CAPUT XV. Etiam quae absunt meminimus.
CAPUT XVI. Et oblivionis memoria est.
CAPUT XVII. Magna memoriae vis, sed ultra progrediendum ut attingatur Deus.
CAPUT XVIII. Non inveniretur ea res quae excidit, nisi memoria teneretur.
CAPUT XIX. Quid sit reminisci.
CAPUT XX. Ut beatitudinem omnes appetant, oportet eam noverint.
CAPUT XXI. Quomodo memoria beatam vitam continet.
CAPUT XXII. Beata vita quae, et ubi.
CAPUT XXIII. Item prosequitur quae sit beata vita, et ubi.
CAPUT XXIV. Gratulatur quod sua in memoria Deus locum habeat.
CAPUT XXV. In quo memoriae gradu reperiatur Deus.
CAPUT XXVI. Ubi invenitur Deus.
CAPUT XXVII. Quomodo hominem rapiat Dei pulchritudo.
CAPUT XXVIII. Miseriae hujus vitae.
CAPUT XXX. Confitetur ut se habet ad tentationes carnalis libidinis.
CAPUT XXXI. Ut se gerit ad tentationes gulae.
CAPUT XXXII. Ut se gerit ad odorum illecebras.
CAPUT XXXIII. Ut se gerit ad voluptates aurium.
CAPUT XXXIV. Ut se gerit ad oculorum illecebras.
CAPUT XXXV. Ut se habet ad secundum tentationis genus, quod est curiositatis.
CAPUT XXXVI. Ut se habet ad tertium tentationis genus, quod est superbiae.
CAPUT XXXVII. Ut movetur laudibus humanis.
CAPUT XXXVIII. Et virtuti periculum a vana gloria.
CAPUT XXXIX. Amoris proprii vis et natura.
CAPUT XL. Quod in se et caeteris rebus Deum investigavit.
CAPUT XLII. Nonnulli ad daemones tanquam redeundi ad Deum mediatores infeliciter recurrerunt.
CAPUT XLIII. Christus verus mediator.
CAPUT PRIMUM. Cur confitemur Deo scienti.
CAPUT II. Petit a Deo Scripturarum sanctarum intelligentiam.
CAPUT IV. Creatura clamat creatorem Deum.
CAPUT V. Ex nihilo conditus mundus.
CAPUT VI. Quomodo Deus dixit, ut fieret mundus.
CAPUT VII. Verbum Dei coaeternum Deo.
CAPUT VIII. Verbum Dei ipsum est principium quo docemur omnem veritatem.
CAPUT IX. Quomodo Verbum Dei loquatur cordi.
CAPUT X. Obtrectantes quid faceret Deus antequam coelum et terram conderet.
CAPUT XI. Objectioni respondet quod aeternitas Dei nescit tempora.
CAPUT XII. Quid Deus fecerit ante mundi creationem.
CAPUT XIII. Quod ante tempora a Deo creata nullum tempus fuerit.
CAPUT XIV. Temporis differentiae tres.
CAPUT XV. Mensura temporis in quo.
CAPUT XVI. Quale tempus metiri liceat, et quale non.
CAPUT XVII. Ubi tempus praeteritum et futurum.
CAPUT XVIII. Quomodo praeterita et futura tempora sint praesentia.
CAPUT XIX. Non capit modum, quo Deus docet futura.
CAPUT XX. Differentiae temporis quomodo nominandae.
CAPUT XXI. Quomodo tempus liceat metiri.
CAPUT XXII. Petit aenigmatis istius solutionem a Deo.
CAPUT XXIV. Tempus est quo metimur motum corporis.
CAPUT XXV. Rursus Deum interpellat.
CAPUT XXVI. Quomodo tempus metimur.
CAPUT XXVII. Quomodo metimur tempus permanens in animo.
CAPUT XXVIII. Animo metimur tempora.
CAPUT XXIX. Se in temporalia distentum cupit in Deum colligi.
CAPUT XXX. Coarguit rursum obtrectantes, quid fecerit Deus ante mundi creationem.
CAPUT XXXI. Quomodo cognoscit Deus, quomodo creatura.
CAPUT PRIMUM. Difficilis inquisitio veri.
CAPUT II. De duplici coelo et terra.
CAPUT III. Quid tenebrae super faciem abyssi.
CAPUT IV. Quid terra invisibilis et incomposita.
CAPUT V. Cur sic appellata videtur materia informis.
CAPUT VI. Quid olim cum Manichaeis senserit de materia informi, quid modo.
CAPUT VII. Deus fecit de nihilo coelum, id est Angelos et terram, id est informem materiam.
CAPUT VIII. Materia informis ex nihilo: ex hac omnia visibilia.
CAPUT IX. Cur absque dierum mentione scriptum est Deum fecisse in principio coelum et terram.
CAPUT XI. Quid a Deo didicerit.
CAPUT XII. Creatura duplex carens tempore.
CAPUT XIV. Scripturae profunditas.
CAPUT XVI. Rem habere non vult cum iis, qui contradicunt veritati divinae.
CAPUT XVII. Ut coeli et terrae nominibus aliud et aliud intelligi potest.
CAPUT XVIII. Quis error innoxius in Scripturis.
CAPUT XX. In principio creavit, etc., varie intellectum.
CAPUT XXI. Terra erat invisibilis, etc., varie intellectum.
CAPUT XXII. Aliquid esse a Deo conditum, de quo sileat liber Genesis, nihil repugnat.
CAPUT XXIII. Duo dissensionum genera in Scripturis interpretandis.
CAPUT XXIV. Ex multis veris non debet fidenter asseri hoc aut illud sensisse Moysen.
CAPUT XXV. Adversus eos qui aliorum interpretandi rationem temere rejiciunt.
CAPUT XXVI. Qui sermo deceat Scripturam.
CAPUT XXVII. Scripturam decet humile simplexque verborum genus.
CAPUT XXVIII. Ut varie intelligitur ab eruditis Scriptura.
CAPUT XXIX. Quot modis dicitur aliquid prius.
CAPUT XXXI. Sensisse putandus est Moyses quidquid veri potest in ipsius verbis inveniri.
CAPUT XXXII. Veri Scripturae sensus a Spiritu sancto revelantur.
CAPUT PRIMUM. Invocat Deum, cujus bonitate se praeventum agnoscit.
CAPUT II. Creaturae ex Dei bonitate subsistunt et perficiuntur.
CAPUT III. Ex Dei gratia omnia.
CAPUT IV. Deus non eget rebus conditis.
CAPUT V. Trinitas qui Deus est ex primis verbis Geneseos intelligitur.
CAPUT VI. Cur dictus est Spiritus superferri super aquas.
CAPUT VII. Effectus Spiritus sancti.
CAPUT VIII. Intellectuali creaturae ad beatam requiem non sufficit quidquid Deo minus est.
CAPUT IX. Cur solus Spiritus sanctus superferebatur super aquas.
CAPUT XI. Symbola Trinitatis in homine.
CAPUT XII. Mundi creatio formationem Ecclesiae praefigurat.
CAPUT XIII. Renovatio hominis dum hic vivit nondum perfecta.
CAPUT XIV. Fide et spe corroboramur.
CAPUT XV. Fiat firmamentum, etc., Gen. 1, 6. Quid firmamentum, quid superiores aquae.
CAPUT XVI. Solus Deus se scit omnino sicuti est.
CAPUT XVIII. Fiant luminaria, etc. Gen. 1, 14. Quae luminaria dividentia inter diem et noctem.
CAPUT XIX. Tractat eumdem versiculum, Fiant luminaria, etc.
CAPUT XX. Producant aquae, etc., Gen. 1, 20. Quae reptilia, quae volatilia.
CAPUT XXI. Producat terra animam vivam, etc., Gen. 1, 24.
CAPUT XXII. Faciamus hominem ad imaginem, etc., Gen. 1, 26. Renovatio mentis.
CAPUT XXIII. Et praesit piscibus maris, etc., Gen. 1, 26. De quibus christianus judicet.
CAPUT XXIV. Et benedixit eos Deus dicens, Crescite, etc., Gen. 81, 2.
CAPUT XXV. Ecce dedi vobis omnem herbam . . . . in escam, etc., Gen. 1, 29.
CAPUT XXVI. Voluptas et utilitas ex beneficio in proximum collato.
CAPUT XXVII. Quid per pisces et cetos significetur.
CAPUT XXVIII. Et vidit Deus omnia quae fecit, et ecce bona valde, etc., Gen. 1, 31.
CAPUT XXIX. Quomodo intelligendum quod Deus octies vidit bona esse opera sua.
CAPUT XXX. Manichaeorum deliria.
CAPUT XXXI. Piis idem probatur quod Deo placuit.
CAPUT XXXII. Compendio enarrat opera Dei.
CAPUT XXXIII. Omnia de nihilo sive de concreata materia.
CAPUT XXXIV. Totius creationis mundi allegorica expositio.
CAPUT XXXVI. Diem septimum vespera quare non sequatur.
Chapter IV.—He Recognises the Falsity of His Own Opinions, and Commits to Memory the Saying of Ambrose.
5. As, then, I knew not how this image of Thine should subsist, I should have knocked and propounded the doubt how it was to be believed, and not have insultingly opposed it, as if it were believed. Anxiety, therefore, as to what to retain as certain, did all the more sharply gnaw into my soul, the more shame I felt that, having been so long deluded and deceived by the promise of certainties, I had, with puerile error and petulance, prated of so many uncertainties as if they were certainties. For that they were falsehoods became apparent to me afterwards. However, I was certain that they were uncertain, and that I had formerly held them as certain when with a blind contentiousness I accused Thy Catholic Church, which though I had not yet discovered to teach truly, yet not to teach that of which I had so vehemently accused her. In this manner was I confounded and converted, and I rejoiced, O my God, that the one Church, the body of Thine only Son (wherein the name of Christ had been set upon me when an infant), did not appreciate these infantile trifles, nor maintained, in her sound doctrine, any tenet that would confine Thee, the Creator of all, in space—though ever so great and wide, yet bounded on all sides by the restraints of a human form.
6. I rejoiced also that the old Scriptures of the law and the prophets were laid before me, to be perused, not now with that eye to which they seemed most absurd before, when I censured Thy holy ones for so thinking, whereas in truth they thought not so; and with delight I heard Ambrose, in his sermons to the people, oftentimes most diligently recommend this text as a rule,—“The letter killeth, but the Spirit giveth life;”327 2 Cor. iii. 6. The spiritual or allegorical meaning here referred to is one that Augustin constantly sought, as did many of the early Fathers, both Greek and Latin. He only employs this method of interpretation, however, in a qualified way—never going to the lengths of Origen or Clement of Alexandria. He does not depreciate the letter of Scripture, though, as we have shown above (iii. sec. 14, note), he went as far as he well could in interpreting the history spiritually. He does not seem, however, quite consistent in his statements as to the relative prominence to be given to the literal and spiritual meanings, as may be seen by a comparison of the latter portions of secs. 1 and 3 of book xvii. of the City of God. His general idea may be gathered from the following passage in the 21st sec. of book xiii.:—“Some allegorize all that concerns paradise itself, where the first men, the parents of the human race, are, according to the truth of Holy Scripture, recorded to have been; and they understand all its trees and fruit-bearing plants as virtues and habits of life, as if they had no existence in the external world, but were only so spoken of or related for the sake of spiritual meanings. As if there could not be a real terrestrial paradise! As if there never existed these two women, Sarah and Hagar, nor the two sons who were born to Abraham, the one of the bond-woman, the other of the free, because the apostle says that in them the two covenants were prefigured! or as if water never flowed from the rock when Moses struck it, because therein Christ can be seen in a figure, as the same apostle says: ‘Now that rock was Christ’ (1 Cor. x. 4).…These and similar allegorical interpretations may be suitably put upon paradise without giving offence to any one, while yet we believe the strict truth of the history, confirmed by its circumstantial narrative of facts.” The allusion in the above passage to Sarah and Hagar invites the remark, that in Galatians iv. 24, the words in our version rendered, “which things are an allegory,” should be, “which things are such as may be allegorized.” [Ἁτινά ἐστιν ἀλληγορούμενα. See Jelf, 398, sec. 2.] It is important to note this, as the passage has been quoted in support of the more extreme method of allegorizing, though it could clearly go no further than to sanction allegorizing by way of spiritual meditation upon Scripture, and not in the interpretation of it—which first, as Waterland thinks (Works, vol. v. p. 311), was the end contemplated by most of the Fathers. Thoughtful students of Scripture will feel that we have no right to make historical facts typical or allegorical, unless (as in the case of the manna, the brazen serpent, Jacob’s ladder, etc.) we have divine authority for so doing; and few such will dissent from the opinion of Bishop Marsh (Lecture vi.) that the type must not only resemble the antitype, but must have been designed to resemble it, and further, that we must have the authority of Scripture for the existence of such design. The text, “The letter killeth, but the Spirit giveth life,” as a perusal of the context will show, has nothing whatever to do with either “literal” or “spiritual” meanings. Augustin himself interprets it in one place (De Spir. et Lit. cc. 4, 5) as meaning the killing letter of the law, as compared with the quickening power of the gospel. “An opinion,” to conclude with the thoughtful words of Alfred Morris on this Chapter ( Words for the Heart and Life, p. 203), “once common must therefore be rejected. Some still talk of ‘letter’ and ‘spirit’ in a way which has no sanction here. The ‘letter’ with them is the literal meaning of the text, the ‘spirit’ is its symbolic meaning. And, as the ‘spirit’ possesses an evident superiority to the ‘letter,’ they fly away into the region of secret senses and hidden doctrines, find types where there is nothing typical, and allegories where there is nothing allegorical; make Genesis more evangelical than the Epistle to the Romans, and Leviticus than the Epistle to the Hebrews; mistaking lawful criticism for legal Christianity, they look upon the exercise of a sober judgment as a proof of a depraved taste, and forget that diseased as well as very powerful eyes may see more than others. It is not the obvious meaning and the secret meaning that are intended by ‘letter’ and ‘spirit,’ nor any two meanings of Christianity, nor two meanings of any thing or things, but the two systems of Moses and of Christ.” Reference may be made on this whole subject of allegorical interpretation in the writings of the Fathers to Blunt’s Right Use of the Early Fathers, series i. lecture 9. See xi. sec. 7, note, below. whilst, drawing aside the mystic veil, he spiritually laid open that which, accepted according to the “letter,” seemed to teach perverse doctrines—teaching herein nothing that offended me, though he taught such things as I knew not as yet whether they were true. For all this time I restrained my heart from assenting to anything, fearing to fall headlong; but by hanging in suspense I was the worse killed. For my desire was to be as well assured of those things that I saw not, as I was that seven and three are ten. For I was not so insane as to believe that this could not be comprehended; but I desired to have other things as clear as this, whether corporeal things, which were not present to my senses, or spiritual, whereof I knew not how to conceive except corporeally. And by believing I might have been cured, that so the sight of my soul being cleared,328 Augustin frequently dilates on this idea. In sermon 88 (cc. 5, 6, etc.), he makes the whole of the ministries of religion subservient to the clearing of the inner eye of the soul and in his De Trin. i. 3, he says: “And it is necessary to purge our minds, in order to be able to see ineffably that which is ineffable [i.e. the Godhead], whereto not having yet attained, we are to be nourished by faith, and led by such ways as are more suited to our capacity, that we may be rendered apt and able to comprehend it.” it might in some way be directed towards Thy truth, which abideth always, and faileth in naught. But as it happens that he who has tried a bad physician fears to trust himself with a good one, so was it with the health of my soul, which could not be healed but by believing, and, lest it should believe falsehoods, refused to be cured—resisting Thy hands, who hast prepared for us the medicaments of faith, and hast applied them to the maladies of the whole world, and hast bestowed upon them so great authority.
CAPUT IV. Doctrinam Ecclesiae Ambrosio concionante intelligit.
5. Cum ergo nescirem quomodo haec subsisteret imago tua, pulsans proponerem quomodo credendum esset, non insultans opponerem quasi ita creditum esset: tanto igitur acrior cura rodebat intima mea quid certi retinerem, quanto me magis pudebat tam diu illusum et deceptum promissione certorum, puerili errore et animositate, tam multa incerta quasi certa garrisse. Quod enim falsa essent, postea mihi claruit. Certum tamen erat quod incerta essent, et a me aliquando pro certis habita fuissent, cum Catholicam tuam caecis contentionibus accusarem, etsi nondum compertam vera docentem, non tamen ea docentem quae graviter accusabam. Itaque confundebar, et convertebar: et gaudebam, Deus meus, quod Ecclesia 0722 unica corpus Unici tui, in qua mihi nomen Christi infanti est inditum, non saperet infantiles nugas; neque hoc haberet in doctrina sua sana, quod te creatorem omnium in spatium loci quamvis summum et amplum, tamen undique terminatum membrorum humanorum figura contruderet.
6. Gaudebam etiam quod vetera scripta Legis et Prophetarum jam non illo oculo mihi legenda proponerentur, quo antea videbantur absurda, cum arguebam tanquam ita sentientes sanctos tuos; verum autem non ita sentiebant: et tanquam regulam diligentissime commendaret, saepe in popularibus sermonibus suis dicentem Ambrosium laetus audiebam, Littera occidit; spiritus autem vivificat (II Cor. III, 6): cum ea quae ad litteram perversitatem docere videbantur, remoto mystico velamento spiritualiter aperiret, non dicens quod me offenderet, quamvis ea diceret, quae utrum vera essent adhuc ignorarem. Tenebam enim cor meum ab omni assensione, timens praecipitium; et suspendio magis necabar. Volebam enim eorum quae non viderem ita me certum fieri, ut certus essem quod septem et tria decem sint. Neque enim tam insanus eram, ut ne hoc quidem putarem posse comprehendi; sed sicut hoc, ita caetera cupiebam, sive corporalia quae coram sensibus meis non adessent; sive spiritualia, de quibus cogitare nisi corporaliter nesciebam. Et sanari credendo poteram, ut purgatior acies mentis meae dirigeretur aliquo modo in veritatem tuam semper manentem, et ex nullo deficientem. Sed sicut evenire assolet ut malum medicum expertus, etiam bono timeat se committere; ita erat valetudo animae meae, quae utique nisi credendo sanari non poterat, et ne falsa crederet, curari recusabat; resistens manibus tuis, qui medicamenta fidei confecisti, et sparsisti super morbos orbis terrarum, et tantam illis auctoritatem tribuisti.