25. R. In this way too the bodily eye might say: I shall not love the darkness, when I shall have seen the sun. For this too seems, as it were, to pertain to the right order though it is far otherwise. For it loves darkness, for the reason that it is not sound; but the sun, unless sound, it is not able to see. And in this the mind is often at fault, that it thinks itself and boasts itself sound; and complains, as if with good sight, because it does not yet see. But that supernal Beauty knows when she should show herself. For she herself discharges the office of physician, and better understands who are sound than the very ones who are rendered sound. But we, as far as we have emerged, seem to ourselves to see; but how far we were plunged in darkness, or how far we had made progress, we are not permitted either to think or feel, and in comparison with the deeper malady we believe ourselves to be in health. See you not how securely yesterday we had pronounced, that we were no longer detained by any evil thing, and loved nothing except Wisdom; and sought or wished other things only for her sake? To thee how low, how foul, how execrable those female embraces seemed, when we discoursed concerning the desire of a wife! Certainly in the watches of this very night, when we had again been discoursing together of the same things, thou didst feel how differently from what thou hadst presumed those imaginary blandishments and that bitter sweetness tickled thee; far, far less indeed, than is the wont, but also far otherwise than thou hadst thought: so that that most confidential physician of thine set forth to thee each thing, both how far thou hast come on under his care, and what remains to be cured.

25. R. Hoc modo posset et iste oculus corporis dicere: Tum tenebras non amabo, cum solem videro. Videtur enim quasi et hoc ad ordinem pertinere, quod longe est secus. Amat enim tenebras, eo quod sanus non est; solem autem nisi sanus videre non potest. Et in eo saepe fallitur animus, ut sanum se putet et sese jactet; et quia nondum videt, veluti jure conqueritur. Novit autem illa pulchritudo quando se ostendat. Ipsa enim medici fungitur munere, meliusque intelligit qusint sani, quam iidem ipsi qui sanantur. Nos autem quantum emerserimus, videmur nobis videre: quantum autem mersi eramus, et quo progressi fueramus, nec cogitare, nec sentire permittimur, et in comparatione gravioris morbi sanos esse nos credimus. Nonne vides quam veluti securi hesterno die pronuntiaveramus, nulla jam nos peste detineri, nihilque amare nisi sapientiam; 0883 caetera vero non nisi propter istam quaerere aut velle? Quam tibi sordidus, quam foedus, quam exsecrabilis, quam horribilis complexus femineus videbatur, quando inter nos de uxoris cupiditate quaesitum est! Certe ista nocte vigilantes, cum rursus eadem nobiscum ageremus, sensisti quam te aliter quam praesumpseras, imaginatae illae blanditiae et amara suavitas titillaverit; longe quidem longe minus quam solet, sed item longe aliter quam putaveras; ut sic tibi secretissimus ille medicus utrumque demonstraret, et unde cura ejus evaseris, et quid curandum remaneat.